So I was just sitting here head empty no thoughts while sketching art for Pinefest and listening to music, which meant that naturally all of the potential DeanCas thoughts floating around in the ether were like "that's free real estate!" and started clambering around in my brain.
And... now I think I've just managed to summarize my current main read of how and why late seasons Dean and Cas are so goddamn ridiculous about each other while being VERY MUTUALLY IN LOVE yet also both convinced that it's unrequited.
Had to note it all down before it disappeared, and it's not like groundbreaking stuff tbh, but I think this is the first time I've managed to put my thoughts about Their Whole Deal into coherent words. So. Here it is:
Dean knows he's in love with Cas and wants him in every way he can have him, BUT:
Dean also "knows" that can never be, because he "knows" that Cas isn't into men.
The reason Dean "knows" this is because if Cas was into men, then he'd obviously be into Dean.
This isn't Dean being vain!
It's just that Dean knows that Cas cares about him more than he cares about literally anyone else, because there's only so many times a guy can give Heaven the middle finger and die on your behalf before that becomes painfully clear.
But seeing as Cas has clearly placed Dean at the very top of his Important People Hierarchy but has not made any moves to show that he's interested in anything beyond friendship (because Dean has been looking! and he would definitely notice!) then Cas simply must be whatever passes for heterosexual for a cosmic beam of light stuffed down into the body of a 40-something suburban dad.
He did marry that Daphne woman after all, and he tried to go on a date with his boss Nora from the Gas 'N Sip, and that one time when Dean paid him a compliment when Cas was visiting him in his bedroom he immediately told Dean that he had "a female waiting in the car" and bailed, which is a pretty big and obvious stop light as far as Dean's concerned.
So Dean is just like, "Oh well, I guess I'd better make it obvious that I'm happy being bros so that Cas doesn't feel bad about it or think I'm being clingy and weird."
And he throws as many brothers and buddys into conversation as he possibly can.
Which Cas hears & is like, "Ah yes, this confirms my suspicion that despite longing for me constantly, Dean only loves & longs for me in a platonic and brotherly fashion, woe is me."
Or alternately, "Ah yes, this confirms my suspicion that despite loving me back and desiring me carnally as I desire him, Dean is uncomfortable with these feelings and does not wish to pursue them, woe is me."
So basically that's how we get both of them thinking they're being respectful of the other's "platonic" feelings while actually just emotionally destroying each other constantly.
And that's what you missed on Glee!
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I know we don't talk and there's stuff we may not agree with. But I am truly sorry you've dealt with a lot of drama over fictional crap. And I'm sorry if my posts in the past ever contributed to that. Hope you have a better day.
Hey... That's all fine, don't worry! After all, it takes a lot of time and Insight to realise that Gehrman is a very gentle and respectful man and Godrick is an absolute gigachad kdkdkshdffhhgfds /lh /lh
But yeah, on a serious note. It was quite frustrating to find out the real motivation under all that... mess was something so pathetic, but at the same time this is what happens when people make engagement with media and fandoms a moral, political act. Not necessarily a problem, after all, I was the one who concluded that the way a fan judges fictional characters and other fans will very well reveal how cruel they are to real people who do something bad, or how much they will forgive based on personal sympathies. And my mad ravings about caring about female characters! I think the problem comes when a fan is so insecure that they have nothing else besides this defence of ideals through fandomry. If your only way to assert yourself is to be a good guy punishing the bad guys, and that mad raving loredigger discovers there is NO bad guy, what is left of you?
This is why it is crucial to have passion for nurturing rather than for undermining! I think if you speak like this, you've found this truth too? This is true that I don't know you very much (mutual-in-law thing), but to be honest.. you didn't poison my fandom experience at all? I tend to never be aware about discourse until someone basically calls me for help fhdhgsdgdfs Can't scout the fandom tag regularly!
But not only it actually was a quite long ago I saw a "negative" post from you, but also I've seen through the posts that my friends liked or reblogged from you that you've actually became very eager person to defend people's passion and interests! I think the post that particularly got stuck with me was when you resented seeing someone's light die after some Redditor asshole "well aktualy"'d a thing they were excited about creating (not exact wording but maybe you remember too)? Like... you are fine, man. At that point I realised that you were a good fan and in the end valued people's creativity and passion over personal preferences. That you never wanted to be THAT guy, even if your interpretation could not be further from someone else's. Coming to terms with what actually matters in fandomry is very mature and I am happy to see this attitude!
I am still glad that you messaged me about this though; I did not expect this, but thank you! I think I will continue getting involved in fictional discourse because my autistic senses cannot ignore factually incorrect takes with a clear insidious motive, and.. eh, sooner or later, I'll piss off the wrong guy again. Don't feel bad for me when it inevitably happens :p I've accepted the shortcomings when I decided to be the debate guy. Simply laughing at some gremlin starting a discourse with the girls in DMs and not stressing over it is only funny until I realise that newer fans could get misinformed right off the bat.
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Hey, are you still writing? I love your miraculous au stuff, it's funny, but you haven't posted anything in months. Are you ok?
Hi, Anon! Thank you for checking in, it's very sweet! I'm alive. I returned to uni this past year and have been dealing with some health issues.
I'm creeping back online now that things have settled and am currently behind on fandom projects, if you're out there reading this I'm so, so sorry for not being responsive.
Goodness, it's been six months. Fingers crossed the entire season hasn't aired in my absence. 😅 I'd still like to post memes/my thoughts on what I missed, but I don't think many would care for those.
I hope everyone is doing well!
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EVERY POST-SEINE LES MIS FIC BE LIKE
This meme also works if you replace the "Javert" label with "Me" and make the caption "reading/watching Les Mis be like"
Jean Valjean sees a river and immediately begins wondering if there is a way he can help someone by throwing himself into a river because HIS JESUS-LIKE SELF-SACRIFICE IS ACTUALLY UNNECESSARY AND BULLSHIT THE MAN IS JUST SUICIDAL AND LIKE. CATHOLIC. But also I get how the story works better if Jean dies because that is the point of classism and that is what the book is about but also if you aren't religious it is a much much sadder story and fuck you Victor
This is in no way a diss to post-Seine fics - they are like, one of my favorite things, and if Jean didn't try to sacrifice himself unnecessarily, it would frankly be out-of-character. The best ones are when he learns to stop doing that as much.
JUST LET MY INSANE OLD MAN BE HAPPY HE HAS EARNED IT FUCK YOUR THEMATIC STRUCTURE MAKE THE OLD MEN KISS MAKE THEM BRUSH HANDS HOMOEROTICALLY MAKE THEM GO THROUGH SIMULTANEOUS COMPLEMENTARY JOURNEYS IN WHICH THEY BOTH LEARN ABOUT THEIR INHERENT LOVEABILITY AND SUCK EACH OTHER'S COCKS I WILL FIGHT GOD AND WEAR HIS TEETH ON A NECKLACE
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Image description: a meme in three panels depicting a popular short viral video in which a little boy yells that he has a knife and then runs from his mother with a shit-eating grin while she screams "NO!!!!", except the people in the video are labeled and the captions have been changed.
In the first panel a little boy is running around an in-ground pool. He is labeled "Jean Valjean." The back of a woman's head is visible and is labeled "Javert." The woman says to the boy, "Let me see what you have!"
in the second panel, the little boy holds up a small object and says "SELF-SACRIFICE!"
in the third panel, the woman labeled Javert screams "NO!!!!" in bright red font. She is a blur as she moves to run after him. Blurry in the background, the little boy is running fast with a mischievous grin.
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