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brokenfrombirth · 7 months

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🎶 Where were you when everything was falling apart? 🎶

#mental health #mentally unstable #bpd #borderline personality disorder #mentally exhausted #emotionally drained #mental battle #emotionally damaged #childhood trauma #emotional abandonment #mentally drained #mentally ill #mental illness #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #emotionally destroyed #i feel alone #alone #suicidal #selfharm

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furiousgoldfish · 1 year

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are you the ‘once I get people close to me I will do everything to keep them happy and to keep them from abandoning me’ or ‘people are temporary and I’m ready to drop them at the moment’s notice or ready to be dropped because this can’t last’ type of neglected kid

#child abuse #child neglect #attachment issues #emotional abandonment #abandonment issues

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pain-is-my-game · 1 year

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It's terrible knowing that if I ever show sadness or show anything emotion that's not positive towards anything whether it's my fault or not I'll either get blamed for it or told that my emotions are irrational.

#i will never care if you reblog #im so tired #i just wanna escape #vent #tw vent #cw vent #eldest daughter syndrome #sad thoughts #eldest daughter #eldest sibling #oldest daughter #toxic mother #emotional neglect #emotional abuse #emotional abandonment #toxic mothers #toxic mom #toxic parents #thoughts to throw into the void

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loveyourlovelysoul · 5 months

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Maybe we are even more anxious and prone to spiralling because we were never allowed to speak about our fears and process them through communication with an outside source, someone we considered knowledgeable, trustworthy, and that would have kept us safe in any way (caregiver).

Maybe is this type of emotional neglect, of abandonment and gaslighting, of telling us "Ah, it's nothing/You're imagining stuff/You're being overdramatic/You're exaggerating things/You're too sensitive" (prolly used also to avoid thinking themselves about things they weren't sure about but felt responsible for) that only made us shut down our fears, have to deal with them alone without having the ability to, and let them rot inside in the dark instead of confronting, welcoming and understanding them so to let them free and feel free... Maybe all this is what is still blocking us. Keeping us in this anxious cycle.

This sensation of not feeling heard, seen or valued in our emotional and physical experience, of having our worries deemed as nothing and our ability of judgement, and our worth, been diminished. Of having our emotions and needs left unmet somewhere inside of us. They are probably what is crying and shouting from within us now. Through our fears and insecurities. Through our doubts and triggers. Let's talk more with oursleves and also let things out freely by confronting them when we feel okay to. Let's be more vulnerable, and even more let's talk with someone who has the right knowledge and can help us too in processing what is going on with us.

Even if we were taught so, we don't have to deal with everything alone cause others cannot be trusted or aren't able or willing to listen to us for whatever reason. There are people who can actually help us. Even just by listening to us. We're not too much, even when we're overthinking something that usually could be seen as nothing but in that moment feels like a humonguos weight. It's what happens when we're anxious, it's nothing we can easily control when overwhelmed. Let's be more compassionate with us too. We deserve love, respect, understanding and support whatever we're going through.

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thismightbeacryforhelpwhoknows · 1 year

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i have a talent for loneliness, i would be alone in a crowd. but it is entirely my fault.

i run from embrace and hide from people's warmth because everytime i've had it before it has been stolen from me and i will be left on the floor, broken and bloody. again.

i shut down and keep them out but still silently demand that they see me. i want them to push back when i tell them no and fight me to stay because how else can i be sure that with me is where they want to remain.

all the while, there is a little girl sat alone on the floor, cold and alone, in need of hand to guide her back to a home she has never known.

#depression poems #depressing shit #mentally unhinged #its getting bad again #childhood trauma #bpd vent #abandoment issues #tw abandonment #fear of abandonment #emotional abandonment #abandoned

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heterorealism · 7 months

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"The first act of violence that patriarchy demands of males is not violence toward women. Instead, patriarchy demands of all males that they engage in acts of psychic self-mutilation, that they kill off the emotional parts of themselves." - bell hooks

#feminism #gender #emotional abandonment #what about men #bell hooks #quotes #feminist quotes #heterorealism #fuck the patriarchy

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caravanofdreamers · 11 months

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I gave birth to an obscene anger

A raging, beastly blood curdling anger which good girls choke on.

An anger that devours.

I held onto it until it took hold of me .

It stayed with me when everything left,

My anger was a portal to my grief,

A portal that protected me as the years fell upon me.

My anger that saved me .

#repressed anger #anais nin #excerpts #female gaze #female poets #franz kafka #rainer maria rilke #poetry #short poem #writers on tumblr #life quotes #psychology #emotional abandonment #emotional abuse #tw abuse #abuse survivor #raised by narcissists #philosophy #female

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taughtsauce · 1 year

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it’s crazy how these people come into your life and make such a difference. then they just disappear, and you realize you never meant that much to them

#vent post #actually mentally ill #bpd vent #actually bpd #self h@rm #vent #favorite person #fp bpd #emotional abandonment #abandonment like every other day #sewerslidal activities #abandonment issues #borderline problems #bdd #bpd stuff

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hayatheauthor · 1 year

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A child who is unloved treats the world one of two ways.

There are the ones who project their situation onto others, and treat the people around them as they were treated.

Then there are the ones who make it their responsibility to heal the hearts of those around them. The ones who love the unloveable, for they would never doom another to a fate like theirs.

But the thing is, neither of them are wrong.

For our hearts are so different from each other's. Just like our minds and bodies.

And a child cannot be blamed for how they make their heart heal.

#tbh just mha rambles #but it's also about the characters from my wip #if only i could be this eloquent while saying the same thing to agents and explaining my character dynamics #how the protag and antagonist are so similar and come from same situations but their mindset and outlook of the world changes everything #haya sameer #hayatheauthor #haya: writes #childhood trauma #childhood depression #childhood poetry #emotional trauma #emotional abandonment

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brokenfrombirth · 7 months

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🎵 Maybe if I hurt myself you could be the bandage. I don’t wanna ask for help, you’d call it baggage 🎵

#mental health #mentally unstable #bpd #borderline personality disorder #mentally exhausted #emotionally drained #mental battle #childhood trauma #emotional abandonment #ptsd problems #ptsd #selfharm #suicidal #hate myself #worthless #emotionally damaged #røry #trauma

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furiousgoldfish · 1 year

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abused kids getting positive attention for the first time:

Don't know what's happening right now. Complete confusion.

if I ignore this for long enough it will go away

I will not fall for this

I don't know with what intention this is being done but I don't trust it and I will defy it

aggression and hostility

it's too late for this I needed attention years ago, take it back where it came from

attention I've heard of this. never seen it in person

what the hell do I do. how do I react. What is EXPECTED OF ME

someone is interested in giving attention to me? what does this mean?

I'm going to take this in and then I need to forget it ever happened because this is the only time I will get attention ever. I need to remember how this feels for forever.

This is probably a mistake, and this person is just doing this by accident. I just need to wait until they figure out I'm not worthy any of their attention.

I need to take this attention. I can't have it stop. I will do anything to keep this going. Please don't get bored of me. I will change anything to not be boring.

My entire life is now focusing on this moment right here and how do I have more of it.

What if it's my fault when this person stops liking me? What if I say the wrong thing and they hate me? What do I do to not chase this away?

I will go out of my way to do things that will ensure I get more attention. No matter what it is.

I can't go back to my old life, being neglected and ignored and feeling like I don't exist. I now know how attention feels, I can't lose this.

If I lose this attention I will go absolutely rabid.

I felt like a person today. I wonder if I'll ever feel this again.

This person who gave me attention must be special, nobody else has ever seen anything good in me. I'm going to latch onto them like I've never latched to anything ever before.

Is it possible I could be special to this person? That I'm not all bad? That I could be good as long as I keep doing whatever got me here?

I don't think I can repay this attention. I don't know how to make it up. It meant the world to me. I want to do anything to make it worth it.

I'm scared if I keep getting this attention I will bond to this person, and then they'll be able to do anything to me. I'm scared I'll become attached and then they'll get sick of me and abandon me. I don't feel safe receiving more because it puts me in a dangerous position. I should end this but I can't.

#neglect #child abuse #emotional abandonment #positive attention #vulnerability to predators #hijacked instincts #not knowing how to deal with attention #fearing attention #fearing bonding #craving attention but also fearing what will happen once you lose it #abuse #abusive parents #aftermath of child abuse #neglect symptoms #emotional abandonment symptoms

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pain-is-my-game · 1 year

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I know that other people have it worse. I could've had a mother who's physically abusive. I could've had a mother who didn't provide me with food and clothing. But it still hurts knowing that I will never be good enough for her to love me unconditionally.