#eh. just talking to myself again

[sonego]

i'm curious what's your deal breaker team when it comes to following sports blogs on here? like the person seems the coolest, funniest, sweetest, with correct opinions, supports another team you love, just someone you'd definitely wanna follow... but the thought of seeing so much of that team on your dash even if you can blacklist it and try to avoid it as much as possible is just too much?

#share in the tags or replies i genuinely wanna know!! #football #nico.txt #for me it's man utd. i just can't do it man #i follow two man utd fans but one hasn't been active in a while and even when they were it wasn't a huge amount of man utd posting at all #so i didn't even see those hideous men (not you marcus) most of the time #the other also isn't super active and more of an f1 blog when they are online so again it's not like i see much utd on the dash bc of them #both of these ppl are very cool and funny and since they're not v active/ the utd posting isn't frequent i can deal with it #but like i see a blog that seems GREAT in every aspect but they're a huge united fan who posts about them a lot? that's a no #beside them inter and chelsea too but i can be extremely honest? i never find myself wanting to follow any inter or chelsea fan lol #like i can't lie there are cool united fans on here but chelsea fans? i never see any chelsea fan who seems normal and nice enough #no offense 😭😭😭 #inter eh i don't think there's many inter fans here the only ones i've seen are italians who don't post other teams (that i like at least) #so i literally have never found myself thinking 'oh man i wanna follow them but inter...' #it's united fans that fuck me up bc like there's this milan fan who seems v cool but their main team is united and sorry i just can't. #what are you doing following the best club itw and then. manchester united ?????? 😔😔😔😔😔 #i talk too much

[cathalbravecog]

So I gave in and done it - Drew my Minecraft sona / skin, Larimar with Cathal since the two have some design similarities both being CRT TV inspired TV head robots... Let's just say yeah, there's perhaps a few reasons why I got so attached to Cathal like this, yeah?

#toontown #toontown corporate clash #minecraft #oc art #cathalposting #multislacker #guz art #doodles #u know ive gotten confident when i post even my goofy stuff on the main tag.... lets hope that doesnt get to my head now before i force #myself back into hidey hide again. but hey means im generally having a good time here but i miss my hidden feel a bit . i gotta be less #normaler #mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i ame having secound thoughts but eh screw it.. main tag it is #rips fur out #RAH ! #'coz my art been getting quite a bit of traction lately and i rlly dont want it gettin into my head bc its not been stressing me out for #once but with this other problems can arise whoops i mean . ... flashbacks to my bugsnax era #ERM YEAH THAT #GGrrh.... ive been so proud of the art ive been doing lately so i wanna main tag it but i just kinda..... #wish to keep it low again......... have da same feelie feel yknow #i have an interesting way of talking here i just realized. its ok it adds to my swag . ok ramble over *drops mic* *struts out* *stumbles #over and falls on my face* *dies on impact* #i maye remove hte tags later but who Knows

[chibishortdeath]

I would absolutely love it if I could look up one of the only things making life bearable rn without seeing either a constant stream of content about a show that makes me deeply uncomfortable or “actually your favorite character is boring as hell and does not work at all in anything and has no effect on the story at large and also doesn’t matter and sucks and he doesn’t do anything remarkable or have enough abilities to warrant any attention and literally you can skip those games tbh they don’t have a story anyway play this fan game that changes all of the dialogue instead because he is so lame and has no personality or plot significance whatsoever he could spontaneously not exist and nothing would really change even that show you don’t like that doesn’t really adapt anything from the games and changes everything about every character they decide to write about couldn’t make him interesting he is that much of a nothing nobody character because he has no modern triple A game level cutscenes he is basically whip man Mario he go kill Dracula so boring that’s it”

#castlevania #castlevania games #text post #simon belmont #vent post #I don’t even know if I should use the main tags but eh #anti netflixvania #cw netflixvania #just an ​implied mention of it but yeah #I’m genuinely depressed over this and it’s so stupid like it’s just a fucking game get over it stop being such a fucking child #I should delete Reddit cause it’s all just this all the time #I’ve seen this from both Netflix and game fans too #and yeah everything in that text wall are things I’ve seen people actually say #I hate being online rn #the only reason why I have been at all is because I go to this series for comfort #yay having a niche special interest within a niche special interest oh boy #I’ve been trying to come back to regular internet stuff on multiple platforms #but I just can’t do it #every time something happens and hits me back into artblock and low energy burnout hell again ugh #I haven’t been able to get myself to talk to people very much lately #partially from already not having much energy because of this #and partially cause I don’t know how to manage having like more than maybe two or three friends at a time #and I guess also cause I don’t really have anything good to say #it’s all just been bad news stress I can’t deal with and mild annoyances lately #which is pretty fucking insufferable of me isn’t it #not an excuse to just fucking abandon people god I’m such a bitch #the digestive issues aren’t helping either #and my fucking Xbox broke so I can’t even play curse of darkness about it #so I go online to calm down and immediately get blasted with everything I like being insulted all the time #I’m just so tired

[dreaming-in-seams]

My boyfriend is hosting a Dungeons and Dragons Tavern style party for New Years:

From “Nah don’t dress up too much but I know I can’t stop you” to “……can I have a costume too?” in*checks watch* 3 hours!!

Thus 72 hours later and ✨voila✨😌🧵🪡

My costume (left) is an underdress I bought on Amazon and altered with a high-low corset skirt I patterned, plus some accessories that fit my seamstress paladin.

The mage cloak was a fever rush of faux suede that I improvised start to finish. Surprisingly not bad for zero planning!

Ready to party on Saturday 🥳🍾🎉🎊

#cosplay #dungeons and dragons #D&D #costume design #costumes #sewing #tbh I’m just glad something got me so motivated to sew again #it was that kind of intense focus where you forget to eat drink and sleep #and I loved it #the quality of both is eh but the fact that I sat down and finished them #WITHOUT psyching myself out and talking myself out of an insane project like making 2 costumes in 3 days #means that to me I absolutely love these pieces #so happy with them

[beauty-grace-outer-space]

Ok real talk, looking for advice from other DnD’ers... at what point do you just nuke your character?

Rant/more info in tags.

#the group I play in (not the group I run) aka my first venture into DnD #they told me to play as a bard. #no one told me how f*cking hard it is to try to manage a bard #let alone to be USEFUL as a bard in a mid level experienced campaign with power gamers and lots of dungeon crawls #after slogging my way through the first ten or so combat scenarios and realizing I am quite literally useless #I found fun again by just becoming chaos unhinged #I touch things I shouldn't #i drink things I shouldn't #I basically live by the motto 'eh we all die sometime' and just do things to spice up the game/make things interesting #but any time there's combat I position myself outside the fighting somehow #most recently everyone went inside to search a property and I stayed outside petting the ponies #because I know I can't be useful and would only be in the way/prolong things #but comments have started getting made that honestly make me want to not play at all #our last game I sent a PM to the DM asking if my character should mysteriously disappear or kill herself #because I could tell that everyone was annoyed with me and it just instantly stopped being fun #I spent the remaining two hours in silence with my mic muted crying and waiting for the game to be over #I talked to the DM and he said that there are lots of things I can do #I reminded him I have only successfully dealt damage once in the entire campaign and it was like 2 points #I told everyone I just want to stay out of combat so I'm not in the way #I believe I phrased it 'I'm going to go be useless somewhere else' #but everyone is mad when I don't fight #and frustrated when I do because it takes so long and I never accomplish anything #and I know we're nowhere near the end of the campaign #I like my character a lot... I just want to stay out of combat until I level up enough to be useful

[no1ryomafan]

I love how I have at least 4 wip fics in my docs for getter rn-two are finished but need revisions, the other two aren’t finished-and even though I posted in this tag this month moving forward I should at least focus on finishing most of them especially since one of them was supposed to be a Halloween fic and is a au idea I want to unleash even if it’s not gonna get shit for awhile/if ever but yknow what my fucking brain wants me to write? Ryoma in jail. Even though I don’t have a finalized fucking concept so I don’t know what my BRAIN WANTS.

#meg text #getter robo #fic rambles #Fun fact my first real getter fic was this concept but it wasn’t published and I deleted it from docs #like a idiot bc every time I’m like “eh I’m never gonna write this” then lose the final I regret it #*cries in so many mm fics that I keep the one I have despite GOD KNOWS when I’ll finish that* #if I could clone myself my many ideas would not be a problem but alas I gotta bite the bullet #no room for anything else only getter 😔 good thing I like ryoma so much tho #but yeah this concept I rotate to a lot bc there’s so much to do with it yet I can’t narrow down *what* #only vague ideas so I should probably talk it over with someone tbh #I remember one idea I had was ryoma having dreams about the try to remember manga and I did write it #but again lost the finals and without that fucking thing being fully translated I was GUESSING #(for those who don’t know what that is imagawa did a 3 chapter manga of some of his scrapped arma ideas-) #(and it was considered lost media but my friend randomly found it however it’s still not translated) #(I’m mixed about it from just vibe checking panels but it does make good one shot material) #(but if I do write jail stuff I’m probably not gonna do it until after I make a established jail setting fic ig)

[moe-broey]

NUTCRACKER WIPS..............,......

#nutcracker.... good........... #i am so thrilled i got my sisters to see it and it was very cool and lucky we even got to in the first place!!!! #chance encounter .... smaller production!!! but still very cool!!!!!! had some nice changes too!!!! #completely different vibe as well..... it was really fun!!!!!!! and i'm really glad my sisters enjoyed it #and i have an excuse to talk about it forwver now (but for now for now i am. so tired .) #BUT LIKE SO COOL SO UNREAL ANDB FUN seeing it after becoming extremely fixated that one part of june #where i was straight up studying poses from specific dances.... and then SEEING it live again...... SO COOL............ #i am still SO proud of those pose studies i just have one i need to color (gotta figure out the costume color palette) #and then like everything else. oh and one last outfit to design technically but eh! i'll get to it when i get to it. #also. i. really need to start brainstorming my nagamas prompt. juggling these things. #that SHOULD be my priority but i need to like. refamilarize myself w source material to really get inspo i think #intricate rituals...........

[startagainaprologue]

i am still interested in aitsf but just like . not enough to want to make anything for it -3-.. bleh. i am having fun with like what i am currently making art for tho. think ive been improving quite a bit :)

#altho i do want to make moray eel mer Date at some point ... #anyways. as i keep saying i do feel. really bad i am hardly active here i miss my mutuals from here and i miss all that #BUT. i am still having a lot of fun here via being active on my sideblog. so i think thats good #maybe once i can reinterest myself in aitsf or a new interest takes hold of my brain ill be active again #but eh. for now i think im just going to be how ive been on here lately. kinda inactive. yknow #but like!! always feel free to send me asks or whatever if u would wanna talk :3 #and mutuals can always DM me on discord !! (feel free to ask for it if u dont have it :3) #pastell speaks

[sixofkaz]

hi i miss you :(

wailing i freaking miss u toooooo💚💚💚

#this is the 4th time ive tried to answer this ask and last time there was a looong sentimental msg in the tags too addressed to u and #a bunch of other online friends ive not talked to in ages but i keep having to leave AND IT ALL DELETED so here we are ;;;v;;;;; #going from chatting on a near hourly basis to barely a few times a yr.......... that's so sadge..... #baby turns 1 in less than a week and she's only become more and more of a handful so ive stopped telling myself ''eh its just a phase it'll #pass and then I'll have time to be online more often again'' #(currently hiding in the bathroom while she's with her dad hdjdhfj i love her and don't hate or regret any of this at all btw but #its nice to catch my breath a bit) #rooster tag #ask #tbt that one link i still have bookmarked to send u a gift but its been abt 3.5 yrs and i grow ever broker #KISS ALL UR KITTY AND PUBBYS FOR ME 💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚

[padfootastic]

Hey!!

I’m a big fan of your blog as I am a fellow James and Sirius apologist. I feel like there aren’t enough people out here that love these two and their bond so finding someone who feels the same is like nothing short of a miracle. Especially one who is active on here. Also, I’m a big fan of your stories you are an amazing writer. ❤️

I was just sitting here thinking about how Sirius could have put an end to Lily’s relationship with James with a snap of his fingers if he felt so inclined. Like James and Lily are “soulmates” in canon but not the same soulmate level these two guys are on you know? I think back to your fic Shovel Talk in regards to this and how Sirius basically tells Lily as much. It just makes me sorta giggle (is that wrong?) because it’s just so true lol. Like James and Sirius were operating on a whole different plane of reality than everyone else I swear. I just I love those two boys so so so much.

If you wouldn’t mind sharing I would love to just read your thoughts on these guys. Like just to read you talking about them and their bond in whatever capacity you want. Weather it be what you think of them, how you see them, who you think they are, how you think they’re perceived by their friends just any and all thoughts you feel like sharing. This is only if you don’t mind. I just live for these two codependent lunatics and love getting to see other people love them. 💛💙

anon there is something in my eye and u might be responsible for it 🥺🥺

i don’t know where i’m getting this prongsfoot attention from as of late but i am absolutely not complaining because it is the best thing ever and i will never tire of talking about my baby boys. thank u so much for liking what i write (and thinking i’m active lol) :”)

also!!! another shovel talk fan!!! listen every time someone references that story, it makes my heart do this giddy little spin because it’s literally one of my favorite fics/hcs and i genuinely thought people wouldn’t like it but they do and it’s amazing.

you’ve given me such free reign that i don’t know where to start lol my mind has suddenly gone blank trying to think of something i haven’t already talked about before

hmmm ok let’s see. i know i skew towards sirius leaning on james a lot but i fully believe it was a relationship of equals. james was equally besotted by and reliant on sirius as the other way around. so i mentioned this in the last ask a bit, but i see james as someone who’s constantly burning bright and it’s…not exactly easy but very possible to snuff that light out completely. and i think lily had the potential for that bc of her sharp tongue & self righteousness. and she wouldnt think to tone herself down for james, either, because she sees what everyone else does—a spoiled, happy go lucky, privileged dude who doesn’t need to be treated with kid gloves. fair, yeah? except. sirius has seen this boy inside out, knows how fucking sensitive he is, and will do anything it takes to make sure james doesn’t shrink himself to fit the world. and this isn’t like—a huge thing, not for sirius. it’s in the little actions—cutting someone off when they might say something hurtful, turning him away from people who don’t like him, casually blocking hexes cast behind his back etc etc. sirius doesn’t have blinkers on, he knows first hand how ugly the world is and he doesn’t want it to touch his james. (sure, that might mean putting up with his big headed ass but he’ll take that any day over a subdued james potter) and we know from swm that he’s not scared or hesitant to go against james if needed so he’s the perfect person to both keep him in check and protect him ykno? (very grumpy one protects the sunshine one of me)

another thing i love thinking about is how unconditionally they love each other!!! james has a mean streak (often powered by ignorance/arrogance) and sirius genuinely has a whole dark side bc of his black heritage (so many thoughts on that ughhhhh) and it means the absolute world to sirius that james accepts all of him. his family doesn’t like him being a ‘muggle loving traitor’ and the people at hogwarts are scared/wary of his name and anger and sometimes he’s seen it even in his friends’ eyes and he’s sick and tired of having to hide parts of himself to be palatable so it’s like a fresh of breath air to be around james who never ever judges him. i’m such a sucker for unconditional acceptance lol both sides of sirius are fundamental to him and he can’t separate them from himself so whenever james steps up to him without hesitation or fear, it heals a part of him.

also, this might seem obvious, but i think they genuinely liked each other in a way that u don’t always see. like, they were each other’s favorite persons at all times, no questions asked. the average person might get sick of spending so much time with one person, even if it’s their best friend (i know i couldn’t lol) but not these two. they happily welcome every opportunity they have to be together. that’s why detentions are fun—hours left alone to goof around while working off their energy? sign them tf up. they genuinely look forward to talking to each time, every single class they share, nighttime when they can crawl into the others’ beds etc etc it’s all horribly codependent and perhaps not the healthiest (definitely not in a non-prongsfoot universe) but it’s james&sirius and even if they were stranded on an island together, they’d be happy about it

wrt to the james/lily/sirius thing—god, yes. sirius *knows* that he only needs to say the word and james would listen to him over lily and that’s so much power and sometimes he’s equal parts terrified and on top of the world bc of what he holds in his hands but it only makes him more determined to not abuse that trust and faith james places in him. i think this would happen with any potential partner, if only a bit harsher w lily bc of their experiences. james will always, always turn to sirius first and that can be a good or a bad thing, depending on how u look at it. u just know that remus and peter were envious of this dynamic but i think, over time, they overcame it and just resigned themselves to it. i can even see them (particularly remus) actually being a bit thankful it’s not them because let’s be honest, a friendship as all encompassing & overwhelming as this? not easy at all. u need to be able to completely open ur heart and soul up, break down even the smallest pretence of barriers, accept that you’ll always be part of a whole and that’s neither simple nor desirable most of the time. and i truly don’t eee remus laying himself bare open like that, not even for j or s. so i think he’s actually a bit relieved that these two tide over their most intense behaviours with each other and you get a more toned down version of them around others lol (does any of that make sense? i’m just rambling here tbh)

i’m gonna stop here bc i have no clue of any of this is even like, coherent. i erased and wrote the whole thing 2-3 times bc it kept growing a mind of its own and Not Cooperating so i hope this draft is,,,okay ykno?

#sirius black #james potter #prongsfoot #obligatory disclaimer that this is mainly headcanons bc i don’t want anyone coming @ me #been more hesitant on here lately bc i’ve been vagued by someone and it’s not fun lol #we all know bad faith interpretations r the only way people operate here eh? and i rly don’t like it #but anyway yeah. this is how i see these two and i’m rly not apologetic about it #why can i never stop myself from going off on these long drawn tangents smh #i have Thoughts re a confrontation w say lily that causes james to shut down and doubt himself so bad he’s like a ghost of himself #and it scares sirius so bad bc he’s never seen james so…quiet and he hates it. so he tries his best to make sure that never happens again #THIS WAS THE BEST ASK EVER ANON #thank u so much 🥺🥺🥺 #i love love love talking about these two (in case it wasn’t obvious from all the rambling hehe) #they have my entire heart #also think others look at these two and just genuinely get so baffled bc…how can two people be so happy together? it’s almost cartoon-ish #i’m not saying they didn’t disagree (well….) but it wasn’t like. A Thing. ykno? #and they always always respected & loved each other first no matter what the situation. didn’t like being away or fighting #so it was always in their best interests to make up as soon as possible #fic: shovel talk #ppb #pen’s asks

[stillfruit]

i started doing the kaze tsuyo training plan and it rocks i cannot believe having time to do nice things you want to do improves your quality of life. wild

#i can actually feel myself getting better at running again which i love and i'm now only 4 weeks in #however i can feel myself hitting a wall in the sense that i'm approaching a point where my legs just don't have the muscles they need #so even if i feel like i could go faster and longer based on my breathing i just have no strenght on my legs #which i know is because i lack overall strenght and acutely energy meaning i don't eat as i should to move like this #kind of thinking i might be relapsing a bit but it's eh not bad yet and i'm conscious of things more now so idt it'll get that bad again #but like also let this be a note i come back to in some time and see what goes on #tomorrow is a rest day and i'll only have to bike to the city centre to see a movie so it's like 14km all in all it's rest enough #shit talking

[noxtivagus]

i rlly do like how i look today ehe

#🌙.rambles #my hair is fixed for once 😭😭 back home n after feeding the strays tho so it's ofc somewhat messy but yk it's part of my Charm. joke #i rlly like this shirt . i like my shoulders n my collarbones n all #i wore this shirt too back in the fair n oh man it was so hot then bcs i was srs wearing all black BUT #i rlly like how i looked on like thurs then n friday too ehe #hflsjfkajfka i wna watch more heartstopper today but also be more productive yk #sundays rest days nyways genbio n cle so easy ! school so ez nmn #maybe. maybe hmmm #i cld spend time w apollo but like #maybe cld call w one of our friends idk like play smth tgther #random but i miss calling w my friends sm wahh #yk going out is always lovely for me :< i love being w my family n friends but #i'm rlly an introvert too hfjshfkajfs but yk i don't usually go out like very often so #yh it's just fun n all. wnvr i do go out i enjoy myself #at lunch earlier i rmb ah yeah we were talking abt gays a bit !!!! i can't rmb how it started but my family's full of intellectuals fr #i'm so excited for our family trip in april bcs one of my ninang's gay friends will be there !!!! i heard he's really cool !!!!!!!!! #i miss my friends sm tho like. haven't talked w the ffxiv/twt one in like a month #they know we're busy tho but wahh i wna play tgther again n talk 🥺 #n then w my tumblr/twt friends too i mean. like. i consider my online friends irl friends i rlly do but yk for the sake of yk identity rn #irls i miss calling smmmmm n like yk when i used to stay up late n i'll call w my friends or wtvr n late night talks too #i miss them all so much T_T hang on i'm thinking abt a lot of stuff rn #i will ask tita sometime abt ffviii/ffxii one day bcs she has them iirc. n then books too ! n other vgs ! maybe even music ! #i will go to up fr. gna try my best w upcat like she said n all for pre-med. n then we cld ask her for tips for cets in general n #math bcs she's rlly goddamn good at math. tita's a bit arrogant but she's a good person c: #.. i rlly do like my hair today though #LIKE. I RLLY MEAN IT hfksjkfsjfs >< i'm so torn between so much i want to do n just think abt

[magebcrn]

Gimme a sec to let out some shit in the tags.

#I feel creatively stale right now #and i look at this multimuse and i just kinda #idk #i feel ashamed or as if i'm not adequate #it's nobody's fault #i think i'm just going nuts because i haven't had to do anything because i don't start again until tomorrow #and i'm just #losing my mind a little bit #idk how to describe it #but i feel like nothing i put out is super interesting #and i kinda wanna just focus on a brand new muse #and not look at my multi for a bit #i'll get over myself but #eh #i'm just goin' nuts here #anyhow #i'm done for now #i just needed to get my feelings out #and again #i'm always here to talk and whatnot #just feelin' creatively drained

[mntcoronet]

OH YEA just so y'all know if u notice I'm not very active I've just been really tired recently. including with regards to people-energy so if u message me and I take ages to respond I Do apologise! I have just been going through it this week for some reason. do not know why and do not know when it will end. but please know I am not avoiding anyone out of annoyance, if it makes u feel better I have had trouble even convincing myself to have anything more complex than just chips and a banana for lunch sometimes, so please rest assured I am not ignoring any of u just for the sake of it

#maggles ramblings #gotta admit though. #this is also a 'wow I wonder why i feel strange' (has had a sudden lifestyle change and doesn't know when it'll be normal again) moment #which is - one parent is currently staying somewhere else for their own good so i am home alone much more often #i am happy about both these things! means less stress on me! but also after the initial WOO i feel very dead and Eh now. #so it is tough keeping up with people. especially when I've had trouble getting motivation to do much else on top of that #like since the initial Woo! moment passed i. don't think I've actually drawn at all. or opened my laptop. or continued my sewing project #like anything that I've really been happy to do (ignoring the fact I've barely done much of that the past month anyway) #OH YEA OR EVEN PLAYED ANY GAMES EXCEPT THAT RHYTHM ONE #like all that would be very easy for me to just get on with! but no all I've been doing is sitting here lost in my own thoughts #with videos on in the bg that i only Somewhat pay attention to. #if i wasn't so easily convinced by my hunger then several days of the last week i might've just stayed in bed honestly #BUT YEA just! a little update. cos i don't like leaving ppl on read but it's also more tough rn getting myself the motivation to Talk yknow #also this post was scheduled for the morning bc i was too self conscious to post immediately oopsies

[unproduciblesmackdown]

kompenscovery was such a blessed secret entrance to a Whole Deal (winnie n tay. & i guess billions) when like. having the most specific, correct opinions, and being me, = the ideal is [nobody else try to talk to me about winston billions] and that’s just where we’re at. this is an exclusive experience

#talking to myself / making the wisdom Available by nailing my text posts (and drawings) to the church doors but then i walk away #meanwhile also of course the hero who permits [my monologuing abt winston all the more behind the scenes] w/o being sick of it after 9000hrs #i think probably other people talk abt winston but not in ways i'm interested in. Except absolute rando twitter billions viewers #this like 60 or 70 yr old lady from twitter who Loves winston. and presumably through the will roland angle lol she went to bway bmc.... #just other one off tweets abt ppl like yeah he's one of my / the fave. um hell yes my scholar #or no wait lmfao like again i'd talk about this w/beth roland in theory lmfao. maybe even also hero & scholar & relevant party william #the niche on niche on niche like. looking into deh As Jared Kleinman Lore. liking an actor's je ne sais quoi & scrambling when finding out #that his upcoming bway role is Thee Lead thank you very much....the dramatic fateful saga that was [ending up watching the then available #clips from billions which was up to kompenso]....finding the peak specific peak titrated peak Exact Enrichment gift lol #beyond that i don't see [media enjoyment / takes] as much of like a springboard for Broader Socializing or anything. it Can be ig but. #that's not the goal & not the expectation. at this point reflecting on Myself & My Experiences & My Heart's Truth lmfao i'm like #beyond [i don't think i'd enjoy A Friend Group in actuality] to [i don't think i'm that interested in Friends] series or concept lol #open to whatever & flexible or whatever but eh. already i like Impersonal & Parallel activity & doing my own thing perhaps amongst others #i like impersonal but amicable spontaneous; fleeting exchanges. doing xyz ''alone'' amongst other people. #i like Not having to people please & i'm autistic so i'm generally gonna be considered [unlikable / impersonable / too much / etc] adhd too #although it's not that specific like it goes for Anything. i don't want ppl to talk to me abt [xyz] lol #request a mini monologue / short essay sure but other than that #this isn't a forum....here's the posts left on the door. one can try the anchorite window or sending a letter. doing my own thing yknow #the secret here is ''i mean i like to talk to people but; i actually in practice tend to not like to talk to people'' lmfao #one can check back when many things are more on my own terms / suited to me but. buffering wheel / flipping hourglass mode