#eeeee im nerves

[ihatebnha]

how is everyone doing?

#dash is kinda dead rn huh??? #im finally out of classes tho!!!! #just gotta finish up my asl work and then im done done DONE #not sure what i wanna do first #watch spy x family or read a novel or work on a fic or WHAT #but im 'cited #wby all tho??? #tell me :))) #i thought i could do an ask game but i'd rather work on older asks #*when i work up the nerve for it #but eeeee #hope everyone is well!!! #not writing #caitie thoughts

[sttoru]

so update on the interview, I think I’m being ghosted ngl. I went on a Thursday afternoon n it’s a Sunday night n they still haven’t called so yea…

(but thank you for listening I really appreciate it, keep up the good work I absolutely live for your works and your writing style)

NAWWW always think positively baby t_t believe me, it takes days or sometimes even weeks for some companies to answer back (which is nerve wracking i knooowww :(). firstly, it depends on how busy they are. i had one call me back like a month later but i already found another place to work at in the meantime hahaggg,, & second of all; it also depends on when they told u that they’d call back. most companies do say that u will get an answer back from them in 3-5 workdays. if that’s the case, the weekend doesn’t count so u still have some hopeeee DONT GIVE UP!!!

and thank u for ur compliments >_< eeeee kisskiss im always here to listen to u & my inbox is always open for anything mwah

#sttoru responds.

[szivtalan]

alternatively, 7-8 for a julian ship of your choice LOL

I was initially embarrassed because I genuinely want to do Julian x MC but the bitch has my name so I settled for Asra but you know what? Fuck it. I'm doing both

7) - What annoys them the most about their partner? Would they change it if they could?

(with Isak) Me- Isak- uh, my Apprentice-sona sjdjkg is initially annoyed with Julian’s theatricality, the air of danger around them, the lack of compromise. How he’s ready to throw himself in and carry the weight of the world but swats away any and all resemblance to a helping hand, pushing everyone he loves away. He’s so fucking pissed when Julian breaks up with him, all he wants to do is slap him in the face and shake him. Julian’s mostly just annoyed with how much he feels for him, how he feels like the control is slipping away from his hands when he’s with him, like the rug he’s been standing on have been swept out from underneath him. He hates the vulnerability it brings, hates that he needs to re-evaluate everything he knows, but he does it, and they both manage to change it for each other. (And eventually, Isak learns to appreciate a little bit of cheesiness, a hint of theatricality, some exaggeration here and some drama there.)

(with Asra) Asra is pissed with Julian's issues and his lack of self-awareness towards them - or they just assume Julian is not aware. Asra, to me, seems very straightforward: something is bothering you? Talk it out. You feel bad in a situation? Do your best to change it. He's pissed that Julian seemed to play with him and was indecisive regarding their relationship, hurting himself and Asra in the meantime, and he's pissed at Julian's inability to take care of himself and stop the cycle of self-sabotage. Julian, in turn, thinks that Asra is taking himself and their relationship too seriously; is what he tells them. Actually, he just wishes Asra could see through his mask and reach him, help him break that very cycle he's struggling with. I do believe Julian cares a whole lot about Asra, but there's not much he can do to express it, since Asra is a good thing he thinks he doesn't deserve. Also, he might feel a little weird about magic and people being enthusiastic about magic. As for changing, well - if they truly wanted to change each other, they could've done it in the past, but the whole thing is that they decided to end it instead.

8) - What do the like best about their partner?

(with Isak) Julian loves how resilient Isak is. How he’s patient with him, waiting out his tantrums and his repeated episodes of self-hatred, being with him every step of the way and managing to calm him down when the guilt and the self-loathing becomes too much of a burden to bear alone. He loves that he doesn’t get scared from a little danger, that he looks at all the ugly things in Julian, his kinks and his faults and his worries and fears and he decides to love him anyway, warts and all. And Isak loves Julian’s childlike curiosity and wonder, the smile on his face when he gets excited about something new - something he still haven’t encountered before, despite his long years spent traveling, seeking adventure, experiencing things all over the world -, that despite the pain, despite the self-loathing, despite the grief, despite everything, Julian is still soft, he’s still kind, he still has love and goodness in his heart, he’s still so painfully, magically, beautifully human.

(with Asra) As much as Julian has problems with Asra and their magic, it's exactly what he's so enthralled with regarding that person. Asra oozes magic, such a naturally captivating gracefulness that Julian can't help but be drawn in by. On the other hand, Asra feels like he might fall in love with Julian's good heart. He knows how deeply he feels, how much he suffers, they feel it in his every touch, can see it in his eyes: the drive to help people and make the world a slightly better place.

#ask and i shall answer #luminary-child #eeeee im nerves #also dont worry tumblr didnt eat it i just took a long time bc i did stuff and also came home ASKFAHG love u!!! #thank you for making sure and sending me again ily #julian devorak #asrian #the arcana game #hhhh hhhhhh love my man

[cancerousjojian]

award shows | timothée chalamet

anonymous asked: can i request something w timmo: the two of u at the oscars, he’s super nervous bc there’s been so much talk about how he’ll Defs win it & he’s like but i probably won’t like im talking super super nervous all his lil ticks appearing -brushing his hair back even when its already behind his ear, the nervous laugh, twitchy fingers N U JUST MELT, pull him aside for a pep talk and he just stares at u for a bit n tells u he loves u for the first time eeeee (& mayb he wins and thanks u in his speech)

a/n: this is a really good idea and i’m mad i didn’t come up with it myself lol. anyway i hope you enjoy!

warnings: implied smut at the end because i got carried away whoops

words: 951

If it weren’t for the blasting air conditioning in the chill-inducing theater, Timothée would be soaked in sweat from his nerves. There was already a thin sheen of perspiration on his forehead from when he was outside just moments ago — doing interviews and walking the red carpet with you by his side. He was lucky to have you there with him, he thought to himself. You provided a comforting shoulder to lean on when his hands shook and his voice wavered with jitters.

He was nervous, to say the absolute least.

You sat at your assigned seat with him, waiting for the show to begin. You felt incredibly proud of your boyfriend, you felt his Oscar nomination for best actor was more than deserved. The media had been buzzing with rumors that he was guaranteed a win which only made Timothée more nervous. On the way to the carpet, he went over a speech in his head over a dozen times you counted. You could understand where he was coming from, being quite a new face in the business and with so many eyes on him already. You could only imagine the stress he was under, especially since he perceived himself as just a regular guy from New York.

His hand was shaking as he brought a glass of ice water to his lips. You felt his foot tapping beneath the table and couldn’t help but find his high-strung energy quite charming. “You okay?” You asked him, setting your hand on his shoulder. He relaxed under your touch, his shuttered eyes looking into yours. Timothée laid a shaky hand on your knee, swallowed hard, and nodded. You could tell from his behavior that he was still neurotic as ever.

You sighed, willing him to calm down with the rubbing of his back with your right hand. He offered you a coy smile and silently thanked you. “Hey,” you said, leaning into him. “It’s going to be okay. Everyone in this room is rooting for you, especially me. You’re Timothée Chalamet! You’ve got this.” You held both of his hands in yours as he listened to your words of encouragement intently.

“Really? God, I can’t help but be so nervous.” He replied.

“That’s normal, Timmy. I’m sure even the best of best still get shook up at award shows. Win or lose, at the end of the day you still have me and everyone who supports you.” Something in his eyes shifted, he gave your hands a small squeeze in his lap.

He exhaled the tense nature he’d been holding onto all this time. “Thank you, seriously, it means so much,” he spoke softly. Your heart skipped a beat when he grinned at you. “I love you.”

You swore your heart nearly stopped completely. All of the people in the large, highly decorated room seemed to cease to exist in that moment, as cheesy as it was. A chill ran up your spine, “I love you too.”

When the lights lowered and the teleprompter turned on, it was time for the show to begin. Your boyfriend nodded over at you and you leaned your leg to touch his under the table; a way to let him know you were still there.

Finally, towards the end of the night, Timothée had began to relax fully, enjoying himself and the show, clapping for his favorite actors and cheering on the newer ones. He’d almost completely forgotten what he was even nervous about — that was until it was announced that they were to begin awarding best actor and best actress.

His hand instinctively found yours with a grip so tight his slender knuckles turned white. The nominees were read out, and you could feel Timothée’s off breaths. His name for Call Me By Your Name was read off the list of nominees, sending his anxiety off the charts.

The simple words ‘and the Oscar goes to...’ spoken out loud were enough to make both you and your boyfriend hold your breath. When his name was announced as the winner, you beamed at him and stood up to clap. He pecked a quick but passionate kiss to your lips before going onstage to receive his award. An overwhelming amount of pride rushed over you and you were sure Timmy felt the same of himself. As you watched his lanky, lovable self walk up stage, you felt genuine happiness, as you usually did when you were in his presence.

You watched from your seat as the roar of applause died down so he could give a speech. He started off by saying how crazy he was to win an Oscar and how important the movie is to society, then he threw in the obligatory “you’re probably all thinking, who is this guy?” before he started the thanking portion of his speech. He thanked his parents, his directors, people he felt were vital to his success. When you heard him thank you, you smiled at him from your seat and blew him a subtle kiss, even winked at him. “I want to thank my lovely girlfriend for basically telling me to suck it up when I doubt myself.” He said, a small chuckle exciting the crowd.

He joined you back at your table where you greeted him with a long lasting kiss. “Congrats, Mr. Chalamet.” You said, earning a look from him.

“Couldn’t have done it without you.”

“Hmm,” you hummed and pressed another firm kiss on his lips. “How are we gonna celebrate your award?” You grinned slyly, and he knew exactly what you were alluding to.

Timothée’s eyes widened, becoming hazy. He merely laid his hand upon yours, “That’s to be determined later, babe.”

#this was so fun to write #keep em coming #Timothee Chalamet #timothee chalamet imagine #timothee chalamet blurb #timothee chalamet x reader #Call Me By Your Name #lady bird

[hufflepuffwannabe]

i gave my crush my phone number today while he was at work and now i just have to wait and see what happens ahhh im so! nervous!!! my friend thinks he likes me back but idk so ig I’ll see (if he doesnt work will be awkward on monday lol)

Eeeee! That’s so nerve-wracking. I hope he hit you up. Keep me posted!

#hwsleepover #anonymous #answered

[angust-d]

Get no know me tag

tagged by: @def-initely-soul @aichan11 and @vtaenon-min, thanks bbys!

THE LAST: 1. Drink: sparkling soda 2. Phone call: Jungkook 3. Text message: My girlfriend @marude​ 4. Song you listened to: AZE GAG Mamamoo  It’s so good 5. Time you cried: eeeeee, can’t temember-

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: eeeeeeeee 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: No 8. Been cheated on: yes 9. Lost someone special: Yes 10. Been depressed: always 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: Never

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: Blue, Black, Red

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: Yesh 16. Fallen out of love: Not even In 17. Laughed until you cried: Lots of times 18. Found out someone was talking about you:Yes 19. Met someone who changed you: Nah. 20. Found out who your friends are: I know it from a long time ago 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: No

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them I dont accept ppl I don’t know 23. Do you have any pets: YAS MY DOGGO WHO I LOVE 24. Do you want to change your name: No, I love it! 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: Get drunk on sparkling soda 26. What time did you wake up: 09 AM 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: reading smut 28. Name something you can’t wait for: my title :’)  just give it to me life, cmon be cool 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: 8 hours ago 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: Idk, I have a list 31. What are you listening right now: the street traffic 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yea 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: my anxiety 34. Most visited Website: Tumblr

LOST QUESTIONS. 35. Mole/s: have a lot 36. Mark/s: 3 scars 37. Childhood dream: Be an opera singer 

38. Haircolor: Reddish brown? 39. Long or short hair: Long 40. Do you have a crush on someone: Yes, my girlfriend //slapped  41. What do you like about yourself: My imagination and my eye color 42. Piercings: one 43. Bloodtype: A+ 44. Nickname: Babygirl, Angust,( the rest remain secret) 45. Relationship status: TAKEN BY OUT LORD AND SAVIOUR JUNG HOSEOK dont tell jungkook 46. Zodiac: Leo 47. Pronouns: She/Her 48. Favorite TV Show: currently, brooklyn nine nine, Im a fan of lot’s of series, cant choose one 49. Tattoos: No 50. Right or left hand: Right 51. Surgery: None 52. Hair dyed in different color: Honey Blonde  53. Sport: Basketball  55. Vacation: never had any 56. Pair of trainers: vans

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: Lasagna 58. Drinking: anything 59. I’m about to: let this tag unfinished 61. Waiting for:  62. Want:  63. Get married:  64. Career:

WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: 66. Lips or eyes: 67. Shorter or taller:  68. Older or younger:  70. Nice arms or nice stomach:  71. Sensitive or loud:  72. Hook up or relationship:  73. Troublemaker or hesitant: 

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger: No 75. Drank hard liquor: Yes 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: No 77. Turned someone down: Yes 78. Sex in the first date: No 79. Broken someone’s heart: I don't think so 80. Had your heart broken: eeeee meh 81. Been arrested: No 82. Cried when someone died: Yes 83. Fallen for a friend: No

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: Meh 85. Miracles: yea 86. Love at first sight: no. 87. Santa Claus: no. 88. Kiss in the first date: sure, why not 89. Angels: yes

OTHER: 90. Current best friends name:  91. Eyecolor: Hazel 92. Favorite movie: //sweats

Was fun

I’m tagging: everyone who read throught all of this im lazy to tag sorry

#get to know meme #meme= angustd

[deanirae]

got tagged by @amarynthian-fortress thanks babe!:)

1. Name/Nicknames: Sara Adrianna aka sari, girza, saryca, shadow, recently also andrea and im dying lol

2. Height: 4ft10/147 cm

3. Hogwarts: slytherin.

4. Last Google search: play with fire

5.  Fictional Character I’d like as a sibling: eeeee doofenschmirtz

6. Blankets I sleep with: literal blankets? none, tf

7. Favourite artist/band? i dont really have band loyalty but i really appreciate depeche mode, republika, joan baez, pati yang and the smiths and kate bush and queen

8. How many blogs do I follow? 500+ [p u n  i n t e n d e d]

9. What do I post mostly? dean, spn, shitposts, memes

10. You get asks often? nah

11. Aesthetic: dadaist memes, early 00s porn stars, $$$, soft poverty, caspar friedrich david that one commercial from early 90s Polish distributions vhs tapes, whatever polonia 1 contributed to society.

and another one

🌸 LAST…

Drink: coffee Last phone call: dad Last text message: prob a buddy, i dont remember Last song I listened to : the rolling stones - play with fire Last time I cried: yesterday

🌸 HAVE YOU EVER…

Been cheated on: No Kissed someone and regretted it:  oh yah everytime lmao Been depressed: was first diagnosed when i was 13, my only break from it was from 20 to 23 yo. Been drunk and thrown up: DUH more times than im willing to count Kissed a stranger: yeah i guess Drank hard liquor: not sure what you mean by hard but i drank all there is so imma go with yea Lost glasses/contacts: no but broke twice? Been arrested: been close, cried and fainted my way out of that bc im a bitch Turned someone down: ye Cried when someone died: ye

🌸 IN THE PAST YEAR, HAVE YOU…

Made a new friend: define - friend. probably Laughed until you cried: yeah Met someone who changed you: no. Found out who your true friends were: guess u can say that Found out someone was talking about you: ye

🌸 GENERAL:

How many people on tumblr do you know in real life: what is real life Do you have any pets: a cat but he dont live with me Do you want to change your name: lmao yeah to andrea lol What time did you wake up this morning: noon D: What were you doing last night:  crying and stuff, hanging out, lying in bed and having nightmares Name something you cannot wait for: aliens Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: no What’s getting on your nerves rn: everything Blood type:  Nicknames: look above tag Zodiac sign: virgo Pronouns: prob she for convenience but go w w/e u want tbh Favourite tv show: hard to choose. Hair colour: blue Long or short: too short for medium, too long for short Crushes:  bye Tattoos: two. Righty or lefty: left

🌸 FIRSTS…

First surgery: when i was 4 First piercing: i bet ears dont count so monroe

First best friend: my lil dude, whos still my bfffff First sport you joined: none. First vacation: Sea

🌸 RIGHT NOW…

Eating: nah Drinking: should have coffee I’m about to: take care of important business Listening: same song Want kids: binch bye

🌸 WHICH IS BETTER?

Lips or eyes: both Hugs or kisses: hugs Shorter or taller: hard to be shorter than me Older or younger: dont matter Sensitive or loud: neither lol  Hook up or relationship: too ace to hook up Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant.

🌸 DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

Miracles: no Love at first sight: no Santa Claus: no

#tag for ts