#ed writting

[theadhdgoblin]

#everyone in the room is spongebob #it’s so loud #when I crack my writs #my back #my pussy and my crack #eds things

[prettyboyprettymuchmoved]

will you paint my nails for me? wait, first, before you answer. i dont think ive told you why i started painting them again, (reasons akin to cancer). see my nails arent what they used to be discoloration from the bed up. lines, marks, patchiness, theyre delicate but not like a teacup. the nails are brittle and breaking like my bones under translucent skin i don’t want to cut them. cutting them is giving in. it’d be like looking myself in the eyes admitting i could never win. eye bags of my own design that never made it into production. malnutrition is a funny thing makes me look like i’ve been punched. my knuckles red and split when was the last time i had a "lunch"? slowly tearing myself apart as i try to ease the ache, i pick up the bottle of black polish anytime my hands start to shake. when my vision blurs and i can’t think through the haze every coat of paint another victory it means i went one more day. on the days where i fail my body fights against my brain, i cant control the fainting, i have no strength left to abstain i choke the calories down and i pray to my gods that they wont come back up again. i fill the sink with water soak these shaking hands and the polish starts to peel. look how easy it is to strip me of each coat of success. its because i never put a topcoat that clear paint is too permanent. a change in routine so subtle hardly anyone would notice it. to me it would mean the number on the scale would be something i can stomach but for now each pair of jeans continues to make my heart plumet. my nails show so much more than the issues that lay inside me but i promise im okay, because i get to disguise it with things that make me pretty so will you paint my nails for me? or at least watch me while i do? you can tell me how good they look despite the super glue and i’ll smile a smile that is hungry for more than just your praise but its alright, darling the compliment will feed me for days.

#soliloquies #tw disordered eating #tw eating issues #ed not ed sheeran #poem #original poem #poems on tumblr #free verse #poems and poetry #poetry #my writting #spilled ink #spilled ink poetry #spilled poetry #spilled thoughts #spilled words

[eternalstarlitwonderland]

Wrestling With Lust In Mind (Chapter Fourteen)

The next day, Ed and Rashid arrive at the cabin.

Ryu and Ken, Luke and Jamie, meeting with the two arriving guests.

The men began their lively conversation, including topics of relationship between all of them.

*Door Opening*

"Wow, This spacious cabin"

"I know right"

"Hey, Ed and Rashid! Welcome to the cabin!"

"Hey, Ryu and Ken!"

"Hey, Luke and Jamie!"

"Hey, Rashid and Ed!"

"Umm Hi, Ed"

*Jamie blushes a little*

"Hey, Jamie"

"Hey, Jamie what you are blushing at Ed?"

"Well it's complicated"

"Really?"

"Yes, I'll tell you about Ed later"

"Ok then"

Luke guides the two arrivals to their rooms, as he does that Ed begins to ask the young American blond about his relationship with Jamie.

The young American blond didn't respond to Ed's question instead he continued to show them around.

"Hey guys! Let me take you to your room"

"Thanks, Luke"

"Thanks"

"Hey Luke, Did you make a homerun with Jamie?"

[Luke's inner thoughts] "Fuck! What the hell should I say to that fucked question?"

"Let me show you guys to your room"

"Thanks again, Luke"

"Thanks"

After showing the arriving pair to their room, Luke begins to ask himself if he is good enough for Jamie and being his boyfriend.

As he contemplates, he hears of a conversation between Ryu and Ken.

Ryu pleads to Ken to stay but the older American blond pauses and insists he has to go, the older Japanese insists that he should stay with him and the rest of the trip.

"Maybe, I wasn't sure if Jamie wanted to be with me"

*Indistinctly Conversation*

"Ken, are you leaving?"

"Yeah, I'm leaving soon"

"Please don't go"

"Hey I'm not leaving you forever just for a little while before the craziness went down, you know"

"Ken, Stay here for tomorrow"

"Ryu...I...."

"Ken, Please"

"Okay, Ryu"

"Thanks"

*Ryu kisses Ken*

Rashid approaches Luke and asks him why he is in the hallway, at first the young American blond doesn't answer the older Saudi man instead he is transfixed by Ryu and Ken's passionate embrace.

Again the older Saudi man asked him once more, and eventually, the young American blond answered.

*Footsteps Approaching*

"Rashid?"

"Hey Luke, are you eavesdropping?"

"Yeah"

"Hmm, I see"

"Hey, Rashid Do you have some romantic feelings toward me?"

"Luke, Yes do I have romantic feelings towards you but I'm trying to keep it professional between us"

"I know that but From the bottom of my heart, I truly love you"

*Luke put his right index finger on Rashid's lips*

"Luke..."

*Blushes*

"Rashid..."

*Luke kisses Rashid*

"Luke, I don't know what to say"

"Don't say anything"

*Kisses*

"So, Luke do you want to go much further?"

"Fuck Yeah"

The newly formed lovers moved to the bedroom, The young American blond covered the Saudi man.

The dark-haired man takes off the young blond's blue graphic t-shirt, and the young blond takes off the dark-haired man's light pink polo shirt.

*Kisses*

*Rashid takes Luke's blue graphic t-shirt off and throws it to the floor*

*Luke takes Rashid's light pink polo shirt and throws it to the floor*

*Kisses*

Now both men are shirtless and passionately kissing and frottage, the older man begins to blush at the young blond.

The older Saudi man took off the young blond's denim jeans and threw them to the floor, the young American blond took off the older Saudi man's fitted khaki pants and threw them to the floor.

*Kisses*

*Rashid takes Luke's denim jeans off and throws it to the floor*

*Luke takes Rashid's fitted khaki pants and throws it to the floor*

*Kisses*

Now the hot-shot manager and his shining star client just stared at each other's colored orbs, the older Saudi man asked the young American blond if he was ready for the next step of their relationship.

"Luke... Are you ready to go farther?"

"Yes, I'm ready"

"Ok then, It's going to be different between us, You know that right"

"Yes, Rashid"

*Kisses*

Rashid began to perform oral sex on Luke,

The young blond softly moans with each lubricant from the Saudi's talented mouth, and Luke proceeds to clutch Rashid's dark tresses.

*Rashid goes lower to Luke's cock and puts it in his mouth*

*Slurping*

*Luke softly moans*

*Slurping*

*Luke softly strokes Rashid's long dark locks*

*Slurping*

Luke began to slowly insert himself into Rashid and began to thrust into the older Saudi man, he winced at the intrusion at first.

The older man began to wrap his arms around the young blond's shoulders and commenced to kiss him.

*Luke inserts himself inside Rashid*

*Rashid winced at the intrusion*

*Wrapping his arms around Luke*

*Kisses*

They entwine their bodies together, glistening with sweat, the sounds of their lovemaking, and their moans, creating a distinctive symphony in the beaming daylight.

*Luke begins to slowly thrust into Rashid*

*Soft Moans*

*CLAP!*

*CLAP!*

*CLAP!*

*CLAP!*

As the young blond furiously thrusts in and out of the Saudi man, each time he thrusts into Rashid's prostate to the point where he loudly moaned and his eyes rolled back. 

*Moans*

*CLAP!*

*CLAP!*

*CLAP!*

*CLAP!*

They reached the point of no return, entering a state of bliss, and they began to get exhausted and yet remain more passionate than ever before. 

Luke loudly exclaimed and said that he was going to cum and Rashid loudly cried out in pleasure, He quickly pulled out of Rashid and blew his load all over his body and face. 

*Luke cums all over Rashid*

"Fuck I'm going to blow!"

"AHHH!!!"

*Heavy Breathing*

"Fuck I'm going to cum"

*Rashid cums all over himself*

Luke sees his gooey and sticky masterpiece before him, seeing Rashid, his agent covered by his cum, leaning over to him and passionately kissing him, he stopped for a brief second and lovingly looked at him. 

"Oh my goodness, You looked so beautiful"

"Thanks, I like to be covered in cum"

*Kisses*

"Do you want me to lick it?"

"Yes"

*Luke licked Rashid like he was an ice cream*

After licking Rashid clean, Rashid yawned and put his head on Luke's chest, and fell asleep.

#my writting #written by me #my words #lukejamie #ryuken #ryu street fighter #ken street fighter #kenmasters #rashid street fighter #ed street fighter #jamie street fighter #jamie siu #luke street fighter #luke sullivan

[grapecaseschoices]

zero pressure to respond to this or share anything about this, just wanted to say I saw this and love this 🥰 kendis with kiddos!!!!

aww. hehe ofc i will respond bc i appreciate that someone else appreciates the wonderfullness of such an image.

i have always felt that kendis would make an excellent parent and i love writing kendis with kids [and twice have played around in rp with them being a parent: 1. was a timey-wimey situation where kids from a possible future [and a grandchild!] showed up. 2. they became guardian of a missing friend's kids aka the only parent they remember. it isn't enough though. one day i really wanna write something with them and children, like the day to day fluffy stuff. the trouble. the woes. i had THOUGHTS but i havent had the energy for execution. ONE DAY.]

#also love the idea of kendis with kids - especially if it's twc kendis or exile kendis [tho THAT would take so many more years before thats #viable2 sweew] or even kotsam kendis - bc i feel it'd be a fun way to explore their issues with their parents/how they were raised #og kendis already would have issues with Would I Be A Good Parent bc of reasons and their parents they adored #but exploring the worries re: the cycles of neglect and abandonment and etc #ouch #anyway #grapecase answers #plasticdodecagon #it is just hitting me i havent really written a lot re: kendis WITH the kids. just written the kids seperate or kendis feelings writ the #kids / their issues #and that is so weird to me #BUT i have written kendis with kids before. baby sitter kendis. it was nice #kendis and their cubs #sorry im just rambling nonsense i just have a Desire #and ty for sharing my vision ededs lmao #also tho now you got me thinking twc kendis with kids. and they're not nates. hahah. like haha. like they separate and ub comes back to #kendis' life #whew #fun times

[timeisacephalopod]

I've kinda seen some pushback to the idea of representation in media and I don't necessarily think it's bad to point out actual rights are more important than Disney's thousandth first gay character that's fine, but I've had a LOT of people comment on my works about asexual characters and tell me what I wrote changed their life-and it's always that phrase- because they now have the language to describe what they feel. I've had people who ARENT ace or aro comment that what I wrote finally made a concept they didn't understand make sense, or that the way I explained things was interesting and enlightening and I'm kind of a mediocre writer who hasn't written anything in ages.

Like idk, if reading something from a writer who is fucking around and only somewhat talented can genuinely impact someone because they've not seen anything like them reflected back at them in life or media I don't think pushing for representation in media is as "needless" as some people seem to think and caring about that doesn't mean you don't care about more "important" (although if you think seeing people like you in media ISNT important it's because you already have that representation or are privileged enough to not care if you do, in which case maybe pipe down) stuff. Hell, I even got a Facebook message ages ago from someone who found a comment I left in an ace group about QPR's and what they meant to me and how I perceived them and the person no joke said what I wrote two years before they even found it changed their life forever because they finally knew what kind of relationship they actually wanted.

So like sure, of course there's always bigger fish to fry them diversity in media (you know, like diversity in real life lol) but I don't think it's as frivolous as some people are beginning to act like it is. At least not if you're an aspec person it's not, I STILL don't see ace characters almost ever and I'll bet my whole everything if I asked a writer of a show why they'd tell me that EVERYONE has to be in a sexual relationship and characters that aren't won't sell and are boring- I say this because in film school I had a teacher TELL ME every character needed to basically be sex obsessed and when I pointed out a GREAT MANY CHARACTERS are not revolved around sex (Supernatural stars two brothers, I pointed out) and when she asked if I had love interests I was like ??? That doesn't matter- using my aforementioned supernatural example almost all their love interests die or get mind wiped because at the end of the day that's not what the story was about. So actually I think writers who act like that teacher need like 50 reality checks, and representation in stories isn't unimportant and also support indie writers you'll probably find more funky shit there then Disney anyway lmao.

And also even the asexual characters I DO see in media don't remind me at all of myself even if I appreciate the effort, but they never feel real or genuine and their sexuality doesn't get a lot of exploration so 🤷🏻‍♀️ I actually could use more media focused on characters that I can genuinely see my sexuality reflected in in a meaningful and narratively impactful way because I've got nothing.

#winters ramblings #todd from bojack horseman im sure is SOMEONES version of asexuality but i dont see ANYTHING of myself in him #great character dont get me wrong but not relatable to me on any level including our shared sexuality #sex ed got a bit closer with their brief ace character although maybe she got more exploration in season three or four?? #the latest one i havent watched lmao. but being closer and having a moment wjere shes told shes not broken #while DEEPLY vindicating isnt necessarily all im looking for either #like i wamt a REAL character thats ace or aro or both thats written by people who UNDERSTAND what theyre writting #not just well meaning people who dont know what theyre doing its kind of tiring #also idk why theres no dating shows with gay men because reality dating shows are ALL ABOUT who fucks who and who gets together #gay men would be hooking up ALL OVER THE PLACE and the DRAMA youd think reality tv freaks would be SALIVATING #but no none of that lmao. just ru pauls drag race and thats great it is like its not my bag but people love it #back on yrack though the weord blowback representation is getting is strange and its VERY clear to me #the people writing those posts havent gotten dozens on dozens of messages from people like them who found their writing #and haf their life altered forever for the better because someone who KNOWS what theyre talking about wrote a character like them #and it opened doors they never knew existed. doesnt even need to happen with fiction either i had a friend i had in toronto #tell me the info i sent to her on being aromantic changed her life- THAT'S the phrase i keep getting thats TELLING- because it describefld #described** how shes felt her whole life but didnt have words for. how frivolous IS representation if im getting these messages? #not very i dont think if some rsndom indie fic writer who hadnt written anything substantial in years can change someones life #REPEATEDLY might i add. ive been getting a LOT of messages like this lately and seeing this new bramd of discourse latetly too #like maybe YALL have enough that you dont care anymore but speak for your fucking selves

[raspberrybrain]

And yes, Ling is emperor in this.

They are 50 year old, highly influential figures in their respective nations, but furniture shopping is just not Ed's thing. And Ling thinks it's funny. This is the un-cropped version so you can see how shitty Ed's room is :) Context/gif is here.

Now I innocently posed Ed with one knee up to show how casual and confident he felt. Some respondents have congratulated him on an extremely successful bottom surgery. I have nooooo idea what they're talking about.

#id in alt text #edling #trans masc ed elric #my art #my writ #post canon

[confessionsfromabulimic]

Words

I believe nothing I write will ever matter. This wont bring solace to anyone but myself maybe at least I hope. My therapist told me to journal, I used to be pretty good with words. That is until my mind decided it wanted nothing to do with the person it control's. So here I am trying to get my rhythm back and write again. If anyone finds comfort in these words I thank you for reading. For I have sinned and these are my confessions, locked up deep in my mind scratching to become free. 

#tw ed #what am i doing #feelings #confess your sins #confessions #writers on tumblr #writting #journal #sadgirl #ego death #me and myself

[peaseblossom-and-cobweb]

The ballerinas at Lincoln Center are beautiful. I’m there staring up at them with watery eyes in aisle E. It’s a Thursday evening show and there’s a whisper blanket of snow dusting the plaza outside. I put on a dress and nice, sensible shoes. Waterproof mascara. I remember watching the couples file into the lobby like some sort of pedestrian red carpet. Arms draped over each other in showy devotion. I promised myself not to feel anything about it, but there’s a couple two seats down that keep sneaking glances at each other in a language that feels so dead to me it looks like proto-greek.

The ballerinas at Lincoln Center are beautiful dainty creatures, arm’s forming quiet question marks against the curtains, hair pinned and each one looking correct, looking pretty, looking perfect. The violin is mournful and I feel tears prick at the corner of my eyes. It’s a swan song, the bow cutting through me from navel to nose and I feel as if there is no air to take in any longer. I turn next to me to explain feeling and there’s no one there to understand it.

I’m no comic but there’s something funny about a woman nearing thirty watching the sugar plum fairies enter stage left on her own. A punch line there about the crossroads of loneliness and helplessness, and look the world is laughing laughing laughing.

I have a twin bed at home. It’s stuffed in the corner of a room that, if I were taller, I could probably reach out and touch both sides at once. I’m not taller. I stopped growing at fourteen, and have stayed this way my entire life. My ex- the one that really fucked me up- used to point at the stretch marks pocked across my belly and tell me I’d grown. I would laugh it off and tell him I hadn’t gained any inches. I thought it was a mis-translation, something lost between our mother tongues. I realize now he was calling me fat and that— that was a language every person I had ever met spoke to me in. The one to call me names. I didn’t realize he was fluent in it too.

The ballerinas at Lincoln Center are beautiful and their chests beat out a staccato as breath is punched from their lungs. How could something so beautiful be so strenuous? At thirteen, after the men in my life would sit me down and explain that sustaining myself was too much, that I needed to exist in a form lesser than what was given to me. At thirteen I would fantasize about never eating a single thing again, just to finally be able to sew their mouth shut. It was the only control I had.

I look at these dancers and they’re women again, nothing less than women. We all knew young that pain wasn’t pretty, that pain was just pain. But all this hurt, all this, meant that it had to be, had to be more.

#writ #ed #potentially triggering #fatphobia

[exilae-arc]

*      from @librarywent​​​​​​  :     what are you doing out here by yourself  ?

“   well that’s an interesting question coming from you  ,      you’re practically a child  .   ”      your gaze is placed elsewhere  ,      acknowledging her only in in your words  .      focus is pertinent  ,      with your eyes focused completely on a figure in the distance  .      “   i don’t have to tell you why i’m here nor there  .   ”      as the figure slips into the shadows  ,      you feel your shoulders sink as a sigh passes through your lips  .      should you run  ,      she’d run quicker  ,      should you chase the lead you had for oswald  ,      surely she’d learn of it too  .      so you turn on your heel  ,      a dramatic twist until you face her  .      “   the real question is what are you doing out here  ?      shouldn’t you be   annoying the gcpd   or your little rich boyfriend  ?   ”

#* W8TING . ( ed nygma ) : interaction #* W8TING . ( librarywent ) : selina kyle #i realized halfway through writting this you may have been asking for ed n.ashton JIAOPDIJPOAIBA #but i kept going with it anyways #i loved their banter in the show

[wykwryt]

DUGNEONGMEMSHSIDUGNOENNESHSIEDUNGOEHONMESHI

#wyk writ #THE ED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #dungeon meshi

[adamimitchel]

(̶B̶i̶t̶t̶e̶r̶)̶.̶ ̶ “̶O̶h̶ ̶h̶o̶w̶ ̶I̶ ̶s̶h̶o̶u̶l̶d̶ ̶h̶a̶v̶e̶ ̶k̶e̶p̶t̶ ̶m̶y̶ ̶f̶o̶u̶l̶ ̶t̶h̶r̶o̶a̶t̶ ̶s̶h̶u̶t̶.̶ ̶Y̶e̶t̶,̶ ̶i̶n̶ ̶a̶ ̶s̶i̶l̶e̶n̶c̶e̶d̶ ̶r̶o̶o̶m̶,̶ ̶I̶ ̶s̶c̶r̶e̶a̶m̶ ̶a̶l̶o̶n̶e̶.̶ ̶I̶l̶l̶ ̶b̶e̶c̶o̶m̶e̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶r̶ ̶p̶e̶r̶f̶e̶c̶t̶ ̶g̶h̶o̶s̶t̶.̶ ̶P̶r̶o̶g̶r̶e̶s̶s̶ ̶c̶o̶m̶e̶s̶ ̶n̶o̶t̶ ̶f̶r̶o̶m̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶r̶ ̶v̶o̶i̶c̶e̶ ̶o̶r̶ ̶o̶n̶ ̶w̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶k̶n̶o̶w̶ ̶b̶u̶t̶ ̶I̶ ̶l̶i̶k̶e̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶t̶h̶i̶n̶k̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶s̶u̶c̶c̶e̶s̶s̶ ̶k̶e̶e̶p̶s̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶v̶o̶c̶a̶l̶.̶ ̶I̶ ̶h̶a̶v̶e̶ ̶n̶o̶ ̶m̶o̶u̶t̶h̶,̶ ̶s̶t̶i̶l̶l̶ ̶I̶’̶m̶ ̶a̶b̶o̶u̶t̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶f̶u̶c̶k̶i̶n̶’̶ ̶s̶c̶r̶e̶a̶m̶.̶ ̶B̶e̶c̶a̶u̶s̶e̶ ̶w̶h̶o̶ ̶c̶a̶n̶ ̶s̶a̶v̶e̶ ̶m̶e̶ ̶i̶f̶ ̶I̶’̶m̶ ̶c̶l̶u̶e̶l̶e̶s̶s̶ ̶h̶o̶w̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶s̶a̶v̶e̶ ̶m̶y̶s̶e̶l̶f̶?̶”̶ -A.I.M- 'Bitter' 1/4/24.

#goth #alternative #writting #edgy #gothaesthetic #male ed #satanism #poverty #dark poetry #dark #dark academia #dark art #artist #art #anxiety #heavy metal #nu goth #personal #mental health

[n7india]

ED के समन के खिलाफ HC में दाखिल CM हेमंत सोरेन की रिट पिटीशन पर सुनवाई छह अक्टूबर को

Ranchi: ईडी के समन के खिलाफ हाई कोर्ट में दाखिल मुख्यमंत्री हेमंत सोरेन की रिट पिटीशन पर छह अक्टूबर को सुनवाई होगी। याचिका पर सुनवाई चीफ जस्टिस संजय कुमार मिश्रा एवं जस्टिस आनंद सेन की खंडपीठ में होगी। हेमंत सोरेन ने 23 सितंबर को झारखंड हाई कोर्ट में ईडी के समन के खिलाफ रिट पिटीशन दाखिल की है। दाखिल पिटीशन में डिफेक्ट था, जिसे दूर करने के लिए तीन अक्टूबर तक का समय दिया गया। पिटीशन में जो कमी थी…

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#against the ED summons #Chief Minister Hemant Soren&039;s writ petition #filed in the High Court #heard on October 6 #JharkhandNews

[avelera]

Man, there’s all these little beats in OFMD S2 1-3 where people keep EXPECTING Stede to be upset or horrified about Ed’s actions and then he’s just. Not. In a way that reminded me of how a lot of fanon kept softening Stede into someone who doesn’t swear and is horrified at Ed for setting those ships on fire when imo to my eyes he was horrified for Ed because Ed was still so clearly distressed about it.

- Zheng Yi Sao asks Stede how he’s doing now that he knows Ed did horrible things to his crew and there’s this beat and Stede just pivots to, oh yeah, sometimes Ed is troubled. Like it didn’t occur to him to be upset on the crew’s behalf he’s worried about Ed.

- Izzy keeps trying to spare Stede’s feelings and cover up Ed’s spiral, but Stede clocked what was going on with Ed immediately and wasn’t the least bit intimidated or bothered. The knives brought the room together. Of course Ed’s trying to burn the world down or die trying. Duh. And I genuinely don’t think the STUFF in the Revenge mattered even a fraction to Stede as much as the signs of Ed’s breakdown broke his heart. It’s just STUFF, who cares.

- Lucius had to SPECIFICALLY call out Stede for not being surprised or bothered by what happened to him. What Ed did. Stede has to almost consciously remind himself to express polite concern. He just doesn’t actually care, instinctively or automatically, about what happened to Lucius. Part of it is he blames himself more than Ed. Part of it is he just doesn’t care, Ed is the priority.

They’re little blink and you’ll miss it pauses in some cases. Micro-expressions. The absence of a reaction. But honestly, I will scream it to the end of time, Stede is not some nonviolent creampuff scared or upset by Ed’s evil ways. He wants to join Ed in the atrocities. The man ran away to become a pirate. He asked if Lucius was taking notes during a murderous raid.

Stede’s at least a little on some kind of whackadoodle pirate comedy neurodivergence spectrum to the point where he actually really actually struggles to empathize with people, even people he cares about!, if their feelings conflict with his hyperfixation (piracy) and the love of his life (Ed Teach). He’s always, ALWAYS going to pick Ed over Lucius or Izzy or his crew or even his own feelings, if the option is there. He will literally throw himself overboard to get to Ed’s side. No pause. No consideration of anyone else or even his own safety.

Stede sometimes seems to have to consciously remind himself things like, oh yeah, the crew, I need to see to them. Not because he’s heartless or doesn’t care, but because it takes a bit of conscious effort for him to see beyond the laser-focused spotlight of what and who he does care most about, he has to remind himself of social niceties and other people’s feelings (just see him running away in the first place!) when he gets an idea in his head. It’s as if he had to train himself to consciously care about some things other people care about and as a neurodivergent person myself, that felt very familiar in a comedically writ large sort of way. I’d even argue that’s where all his aristocratic social niceties come from. They were his guidebook for how to do things “right” in a world that otherwise made no sense to him outside his hyperfixations. He practiced being a person through the aristocratic training because it was all so foreign to him from the start, including caring, actually caring, about the needs of others. Not because he’s consciously evil or consciously a jerk. The instinct just isn’t there unless he practices at it until it becomes reflex to ask how others are doing, because on his own his brain just doesn’t really notice or care.

I just… hope the fandom notes and has as much FUN as I do noticing all the little moments where even people inside the story of OFMD expect Stede to act in a normal way and instead he remains unhinged, laser-focused on Ed.

Stede’s not just an Ed apologist, he truly doesn’t blame Ed for any of it. He blames only himself. He doesn’t always voice this but he really really only cares about anyone else including the crew as a DISTANT second and he has to consciously REMIND himself to do so. He is able to rally to take action, to care about their physical needs like safety during the rescue, but he still struggles, deeply struggles, to remember to show empathy in a non-performative way for anyone except his special person, Ed.

Stede’s not a creampuff, not a nice guy, not some emotionally or morally perfect angel. He has to consciously practice caring about literally anything else but what he wants to do and his special person. And to me that’s a thousand times more interesting than shoving him in a box labeled “the blond, pacifist do-gooder good guy” in their relationship.

#this rant requires gifs I don’t have but trust me those odd little beats are there #bless Rhys Darby for making Stede so very neurodivergent coded because it SHOWS #ofmd #ofmd spoilers #our flag means death #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd meta #sometimes fandom flanderization makes characters so DULL compared to canon

[yawarakaizai]

pm!dazai taking reader on a date after school, but it’s somehow awkward! tried to get you a stuffie from a claw machine but failed miserably, so he shot the glass out of frustration.. something like that hehe ☆〜（ゝ。∂）

ⵌ HANGIN' OUT THE PASSENGER SIDE OF HIS BEST FRIEND'S RIDE

SENDER Reader (Fem) RECIPITENT PM Dazai Osamu (BSD) CONTENTS You were a horrible pair. You two were unlikely and the path ahead of you could have never predicted such thing to happen. You aren't sure why or how, but you found yourself the centre of Osamu Dazai's attraction. NOTE fluff, reader and dazai are 16/17, brief chuuya, jealousy, young love COMPANY No Scrubs

A/N wrote th is thro ughou t th e sch ool d ay ;3; forgi ve any mist a kes or rush ed writ ing !!! eeeeeeE EEEE i lov requ ests ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶

It was embarrassing at this point.

You disliked bringing any sort of unwanted attention to yourself more than anything else. And yet, you owe it to the brunette by your side who attracted stares like a magnet.

" Owwh, fuck! " His drawn out swear accompanied by the stomping of his shoe against the carpeted floor. It's biometric, vibrant patterns splattered across a dark black background sickened you to stare for too long.

" I told you, these are a scam ", you attempted to protest against his insistence that he was sure to win this time, no take-backs. " Why not buy a ticket to the bowling alley instead of wasting it on these? " You remained temperate in opposition to his rowdy and indecent behaviour. You adopted the traits of an older sister, or a mother.

" No way! I spent too much to give up now. " Your head ached. " Look, if I keep inching it closer to the drop, I'll be sure to get it. "

And so, the poor joystick would continue to be abused, 200 yen being inserted into the comparator with every miss, Dazai's agitation growing with each failure.

It had been a sultry evening after school. Gathering your belongings and preparing to take the daily commute home, the pitter-patter of heavy footsteps ran behind you to reveal none other than Dazai Osamu.

He was somewhat of an enigma to everyone who knew him, even those that never exchanged a word with him knew of his name.

Dazai had a horrible track-record and even worse attendance. With a mysterious bandage over his right eye.

Despite his lack of punctuality and participation in classes, he not once has ever failed an exam. Many rumours circulated that he'd cheat - though no evidence of such was ever received. Others thought he must've slept his way to good grades.

Or, he was just inhumanely intelligent.

" Y/N! Y/N! " His ecstatic voice beckoned you to stop walking as he had finally caught up to you, bending over to catch his breath. " Let's visit the arcade together! "

You didn't know what possessed you to accept.

" Oy! Leave 'er alone, moron. Some people actually have work to get to after school. "

And there was his companion, Chuuya. Underestimating him is like a death wish. He was short. Horribly, unfortunately short. Sometimes, you'd feel bashful for the fact he'd have to look up at you sometimes.

Unlike Dazai, Chuuya's absence from school wasn't intentional.

No, not at all. Chuuya never missed a day of school on his own accord. His record full of missed days were from suspensions.

Often getting into fights with anyone, he has never lost a fight.

The duo had a dynamic you couldn't quite grasp.

And then there was you in the middle of it all.

Dazai had lured you into the friend-group about two years ago, when you were all put in the same base class and Dazai, in his extroverted glory, made attempts to suck up to all in class.

You listened to how the girls would swoon and whisper amongst themselves about the legend that was Dazai Osamu, and once he reached you, you couldn't be less impressed than what he had to offer.

" Oh, c'mon Y/N! It won't take too long, we never hang out anymore! "

His sad attempt at desperate puppy eyes lightened your day a little, so you thought you should humour him, just this once.

You didn't know much about Dazai and Chuuya's private life and you didn't pry into the territory either.

All you knew was that they were filthy rich and had a connection to the principal, Ogai Mori. Otherwise, they would've been expelled a long time ago.

" Let it go, Dazai. It's not worth it. " You put your hand on his shoulder as he leaned forward, nose barely touching the glass of the claw machine as he tried to focus on getting just what he wanted.

" But you looked at it! " He whined, digging into his pockets as the machine played a sound of defeat. " And? "

" And that means I need to get it for you! "

He insisted profusely that it'll be worth it, and you continued to doubt him. You've been standing by his side for thirty minutes at this point and not once has he won a prize.

You remarked to him that the game was purposely rigged, pointing out how weak the claw was and estimating the plushies within were weighing a little over the maximum capacity something so weak would be able to grasp for more than two seconds. That, and also how the claw would never close properly, inching in barely and dropping what toy it had luckily managed to hold onto.

And that degrading sound of humiliation. A squeaky, robotic coquettish voice repeating itself 'Better luck next time!' over and over.

Dazai was not losing to a machine.

Your stomach grumbled with hunger, and it was becoming clear that you both were growing with unrest at this machine.

" You kids still going at that? "

An arm propped itself on top of the roof of the claw machine, you looked up to see a worker had made his way over to you both. Dazai, did not look up from the game.

" I tried to get him to stop ", you mumbled, looking away from him. You'd always get shy at people older than you. You weren't exactly timid, but you were raised to be respectful. " He wants to win it for me. " It sounded oddly romantic when you put it that way.

" Yeah? You sure he can do it? " The man laughed at the truth. " So you two are on a date? " He overstayed his welcome and you began to wonder if it was usual for employees to wedge themselves into customers business.

" Yeah. We are. " Dazai answered for you, slotting in more coins for yet another try.

" Here, move li'l man, I got this. " Shoving Dazai away by the hip, the white-haired man. Begrudgingly, Dazai said nothing.

And almost with no effort at all, the man easily got the claw to clasp around the exact seal plush you wanted.

He must have been watching you both for a while to know what you wanted.

Although you kept assuring Dazai you didn't need it, you couldn't help the way your eyes sparkled as the man handed it to you with a smug smile.

" Oh! Thank you, sir! Thank you! " You took it from his hand with joy, looking at the fat cushion with adoration. It was simply adorable! You bowed your head repeatedly in gratitude, though felt it was simply not enough.

You almost forgot about Dazai until your ears deafened with the sound of a loud bang and the crashing of glass.

On impulse, you dropped to your knees with your hands over your ears protectively, unsure as to what just happened. Peeking through your tightly shut eyes, you saw that you were the only one to have dropped down and everyone else was as normal as ever.

Before you were even able to question, you uncovered your ear to hear Dazai converse with the man.

" How sad, I guess when you're making minimum wage you figure out how to make your job interesting. " Dazai cocked his pistol like second nature, and behind the legs of the employee you were crouched behind, you peered between his legs up at Dazai with wide, lost eyes.

Looking down at you, Dazai looked pissed.

" Didn't mean to scare you. Get up, we're leaving. "

The employee and Dazai seemed to know each other. You figured by the way the older man was cool about the whole ordeal, almost like he'd done everything intentionally.

You shakily rose to your feet, at a loss for words, and stared with astonishment as Dazai began to gather multiple stuffed toys from the now-broken claw machine and hold them in his arms after tucking his pistol away.

" But- you- the- "

You tripped over your words and found yourself unable to comprehend what had just happened.

" Not gonna run way with your Clyde, Bonnie? " The employee joked, stepping out of your way.

You felt this to be illegal. Maybe because it was. You did not want to aid in a robbery even if the employee was not actively stopping you. Before you could even act, Dazai grabbed you by the arm and ran ahead of you, dragging you behind him as he laughed, your other arm held tightly around the seal plush, afraid to let it go.

" Holy shit, I was so cool! " He shrilled, your shorter legs barely able to keep up with his strides.

" Dah-zai! " You panted out as he kept on running.

Your adrenaline rang in your ears and the heart in your chest beat rapidly as the two of you ran, jumped, hopped over valleys, onto the stepping stones of the river and through the bushes of the dark forest.

" Y/N! "

Dazai yelled out to you. At this point, many plushies in his arms had fallen, yet your intertwined hands never once budged open.

" Whah! Wh-What! " You tried to match his energy, but you were far too exhausted.

Finally, you both collapsed into the cold grass surrounding by large oak trees.

The night sky looking down on wild star-crossed students.

" I think I.. think I love you, Y/N " He said between deep breaths, both your limbs spread out as you tuned to the sound of crickets, the birds and the rapid breathing of one another.

You didn't know what you were thinking, or if you were even thinking coherently, though..

" I think I love you too, 'samu. "

©yawarakaizai 2023 ﹒﹒ reblogs appreciated! requests open :3

#dazai x reader #pmzai #pm dazai x reader #port mafia dazai x reader #bsd x reader

[alien-girl-21]

The Käärijä Research Paper (tm)

aka: Error Analysis of the Use of English Articles in Jere Pöyhönen Interviews in 2023

(Before we start, a couple of clarifications: firstly, I am a linguistics student and this research was my final project for my psycholinguistics course, secondly, this was a group research and I have gotten permission from my friends to share these results with y'all so tysm to them, and lastly, the og work is LONG, 50 pages long, so I'm condensing it into the important bits)

Findings and explanations under the cut <3

Before sharing the actual research, i'm going to share some important terms for you guys to understand the overall layout of this work.

Error analysis: kind of self explanatory, it's the process of analyzing errors, specifically in one's speech, more on how we did this later.

Omission: The alienation of a linguistic form in speech (i.e. I go to (the) supermarket.).

Addition: The opposite of omission, putting an unnecessary linguistic form in a sentence (i.e. It's the maybe half and half.).

Substitution: Exchanging a linguistic form for another one (i.e. He admitted to have stolen a wallet. Instead of: He admitted to having stolen a wallet.).

Overgeneralization: Looking at a grammatical rule and thinking it applies to every case with no exceptions (i.e. finding out verbs conjugated in the past end in -ed and creating conjugations like writted instead of written). Also known as intralingual transfer.

Negative transfer: When your mother tongue (L1) seeps into your second/foreign language (L2) (in this case it's foreign language, but I'll still call it an L2 for simplicity's sake), if we're talking about Spanish negative transfer it can look like: the car red (Spanish adjectives go after the noun, unlike in English). Also known as interlingual transfer.

Local error: An error that does not affect the overall meaning of the sentence, making it still understandable.

Global error: An error that affects the overall meaning of the sentence, making it difficult to understand without clarifications.

Okay, with that out of the way, let me explain what we did:

We decided to make an error analysis on how Jere utilized articles (the, a/an) throughout 2023, for this we considered 2 interviews and 1 Instagram live, the interviews were: KÄÄRIJÄ TRIES LITHUANIAN FOOD (uploaded on 12/04/23) and Episode 3: Käärijä and friends (uploaded on 26/12/23), the ig live was the one he did to promote the release of Huhhahhei on 19/10/23, the dates are important for later.

Now, to do the error analysis in itself we followed Rod Ellis’ proposal for error analysis which follows four main steps:

Identifying errors: Self-explanatory, you see what errors one has committed.

Describing errors: Once you see the errors, you describe what exactly the error is, it can be with grammatical categories, or with omission, misinformation, addition, misordering, and substitution.

Explaining errors: After describing the error you need to explain why this error was committed, the two main ways are through overgeneralization and negative transfer.

Error evaluation: After all this, you identify how the error affected the overall message of the sentence being spoken, was it local or global?

We put these steps into a chart and listened to the interviews and identified the errors we found, it’s a really long chart, so if you want to see it fully you can find it here (hopefully). After identifying all the errors and doing our own error analysis we… well, analyzed the data, duh, according to the objectives we set up for the research.

Our first objective was to identify errors Jere has committed regarding articles in the three videos I mentioned. What we analyzed was more grammatical, so what grammatical structure he used the most. He usually omits an article before a noun and with adjectives, like in: “We go to bar with my producer…”, or “Käärijä goes to boat.”, or “I am fine, uh… little bit tired.”. Obviously, this is kind of expected because Finnish does not have articles, but he also adds articles when it is not necessary, like in: “I have the one festival.” Here are the charts of the grammatical trends:

Then we focused on the describing errors part of our analysis. In this part, we found out that he usually finds himself committing omission errors, with 67 in total across the three videos, like I said before, expected, however, the second most common error is addition, this means he adds an unnecessary article in a sentence, and what’s interesting is that he usually does it with the article “the”. Since this is not an actual academic article I will speculate with a full chest: I think he does this because people are usually taught that “the” is the only article in English (only definite one, but not the only one), and that nouns usually have an article accompanying them, so I think that he adds the when he is unsure if an article needs to go there or not. Finally, there was only one case of substitution: “This is the lovely story.”, not really sure why he did this, but it’s interesting that it only happened once. Have the charts and graphs:

We moved to the next step: explaining errors. When we started this research, we thought that we would only have negative transfers since, ya know, Finnish grammar and all, and we were kind of right? He has committed negative transfer errors the most, with 66 in total, but he also had 23 overgeneralization errors, which I didn’t really expect to happen with articles that much. Not much else to say here, have charts:

Lastly, error evaluation. He made mostly local errors, which is what mainly characterizes his speech, we know what he’s saying, he just usually lacks some grammatical form that doesn’t affect his overall meaning. He did have 15 global errors that unless you have the context, it can be a little confusing to understand what he’s trying to say (like in the ig live he said “here tour” when he wanted to say “here in the tour”). Charts!

Our final objective was to see the evolution of these errors, has he made more or less as time went on? Well, since we all can see and hear, he has made a great improvement! You already have the charts above to understand that, but I just have to explain it. In the first interview, in April, he made 50 mistakes in total, by the ig live he had cut those in half, and by the latest interview he gave in English he had cut the mistakes in half again! Have the graphs to accurately see this:

He has improved so much in such a short amount of time! Even more impressive when he hasn’t really taken any formal English classes, just by talking to Bojan and Alessandra. There’s a difference between language learning and language acquisition that was proposed by Stephen Krashen (cool dude, if you’re interested in language learning, go check him out). He says that people usually learn more by acquiring (unconscious) rather than learning (conscious), and you can see that Jere has learnt so much by acquiring English through his friends and his own experiences! And this is just looking at how he uses articles, there is also a distinctive change in how he uses other grammatical forms (but that was too much work for just 2 weeks, maybe I’ll do it later, no promises on anything, though). Even if we’re not talking about his grammatical and syntactical forms, his pronunciation has improved as well! My friends were fascinated by how his accent seemed to develop from video to video, which was very sweet because his accent is one of my favorite things about his speech, but that’s off topic.

The general takeaway from this research is: Jere still has a lot of Finnish tendencies in his English, he has developed his own grammatical structures to communicate in English, and how much he improved in an 8-month period is kind of insane, especially for an adult (who are the age group who have the most trouble learning languages). He’s the it-girl of blowing off a linguist’s mind (me, I’m the linguist)

That would be all!! If you have any other questions, feel free to ask! I'm more than glad to answer them

#hope you enjoy reading this!! #anyways i was supposed to work on my slides to present this to the class tomorrow but...oh well #priorities #i also hope this made sense lmao #käärijä

[urfavslav]

toman!mikey, mitsuya, kokonoi + implied fem!reader (seperately), tw ed, recovery from ed [absolutely, congrats on working on recovery! I'm proud of you! hope i did this justice <3 🫂💞]

request: (@giannitaa) heyy!! how are you? could i please requests for a fem!reader recovering from an eating disorder with mitsuya, mikey and extra characters from tokyo revengers? (please if you don't feel comfortable writting about this just tell me because i want to know if it's a yes or a no) i had an eating disorder (anorexia) and i'm slowly introducing myself to new foods or meals that i used to have before my eating disorder 🥹a fluff/comfort headcanons please and thank you! have a great day/good night/good afternoon

mikey is definitely the type to take out put to eat whenever he gets the chance. cafe after ur classes are done, small restaurant after a big fight and his energy is depleted, breakfast before a trip out to the beach. if you don't feel comfortable eating as often as he does, that's ok! he's push you once or maybe twice but he knows when to back off. will also share his meal, you wanna try what he has go ahead! as long as you share yours, yknow taxes. mikey will be there if you feel like venting about a relapse, gushing about a new food you tried or anything in between! he's all ears and at ur side at the drop of a hat!

mitsuya, this sweetheart. :( always texting you to make sure u have at least 2-3 meals a day and stay hydrated. (but listen to ur body!) I think he struggles with eating to, but in a sense of forgetting to eat, with his sisters and his dreams of the fashion industry I think he can get pretty carried away. I think you two would def remind each other to have at least some snacks <3 omg dates/hangouts would be so cute 😭 imagine picking places to go get food and just talk. he's such a chill guy. always offering to take care of the bill, yall end up splitting/taking turns anyway. v supportive! tries to learn about your disorder and how to help you with recovery

koko, cmon you already know ow he's probably worried without reason and tries to spoil you. mentioned a meal you wanna eat? yeah he got reservations a few days ago to a new restaurant. you don't like eating in public? that's ok too, personal chef for dinner <3 he cares about you and wants to make your recovery as comfortable as possible. the type to make sure you have water and ur drink of choice and snacks available to you. once in a blue moon he will make you a super cute meal, like rilakkuma omurice or a cutesy curry. he's trying ok

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