#ed therapy

[diedandgone]

Anyone eles sick of waking up at 4 /6 am to pee 1l 🥲

God damn man chill .

#light as a 🪶 #ana buddie #th1gh g@p #th1nsp1ration #thinspø #tw ed but not sheeran #e@tingdisorder #my ed thoughts #low cal diet #low cal restriction #light as a feather #ed confessions #ed therapy

[loserwitchkid]

people who put their diet/calorie counting/pro-4n4 content in the ED Recovery tag...

wtf is wrong with you???

#ED recovery #pro a4a #pro 4n4 #tw ed diet #ed diet #low cal restriction #cal count #cal counting #calories #caloric intake #calorie count #food diary #food tracker #ed meals #ed mention #ed recovery #ednos #ed therapy #ed poetry #ed treatment #edmeme #ednos memes #ed not sheeran #ed meme #ed memes #edmemes #ana #mia #ana diary #ana meal

[carladuquette]

TW kind of… shitty advice? from an ED therapist

So I had my third session with a real licensed therapist today, as opposed to the counselor at the ED center I was seeing last year. I was telling her in my session today how I am struggling and feeling kind of shitty, because the chronic pain in my wrists and arms is making me reach for more treats to cheer me up at the end of a painful day and this has made me gain weight.

Because, you know, I am trying not to turn to my unhealthy coping mechanisms regarding food. Not always successfully, but mostly.

BUT this means that I have gains a little weight and one of my favorite sweaters doesn’t fit right anymore. I told her that I am afraid now that the really nice blazer I have that I was going to take to my temporary new job in September wouldn’t fit right anymore either. And how I am afraid to try it on, because I cannot take another gutpunch right now.

Her reaction: “Oh, but that’s only in September! I’m sure it will fit by then.”

In other words, her reaction to this story, when she knows I have been struggling with bouts of bulimia, is to say “don’t worry, you’ll be fine because you’re going to lose the weight”

That was upsetting to me. I’m trying to NOT focus this much on my weight and to NOT have the way I look or my weight determine whether I am going to have a good day or week. Telling me that things will be fine, that I will lose the weight, isn’t really helping me. Quite the opposite. Because that has me thinking about how I can lose the weight and…

I’m so exhausted.

#she’s nice AND has available appointments #i want to stick with her just… sigh #it hurt #personal rant #ed recovery #ed therapy #therapy #tw body talk #chronic pain

[my1yf3]

Ur so pretty when ur sad

#eating disoder things #bloodbath #$h #eating disoder mention #anamia #ed therapy #pro miiia #ed thots #thinspirastion #tw ed vent #anor3xia #skinimprovement #tw purge #skinnerknife #tw skipping meals #ed tingz

[h0peisad4ngerousthing]

I want to look flawless

#ana account #ana and mia #anaaa #not pr0 anything #not pr0 just for myself #tw ed diet #anathinspo #pro for myself #skinnyyy #skinsp0 #tw ana thoughts #tw ed sheeran #tw skipping meals #skinspii #tw ed relapse #tw ed in the tags #ed vent #ed tings #ed therapy #ana dairy #ana rules #tw ana shit #tw ana diary #ana trigger

[lavender-b0ness]

OK NO MORE BINGING I NEED TO BE FUCKING SKINNY

#lavbon3s #anar3xia #anarecyx #anorexjk #anorexsick #c 🦋 food #e 🦋 #ed therapy #thinnspa #🦋ana #🦋check #🦋goals #🦋humor #🦋 tips #🦋 workout #bullimix

[anaandme]

That moment when your ed is back full strength but you’re still not skinny 🤯🔫

#ed fairy #anorexciia #ana before and after #ed therapy #dying to be thin #annarexya #i want to be tiny #tw disordered eating

[teddybear-heart]

About Me

I thought it might be a good idea to make a self-introduction post for a little more context into who I am and how this eating disorder affects me.

Online, I go by TeddyBearHeart, or just “Teddy” for short. This is obviously not my real name, as I still wish to remain anonymous. However, I will share how I got this name: the love of my life was sharing a dream about how he had dreamt that we were in a scary situation and I had said “my little teddy bear heart can’t handle all this” and it was so on-par with how I talk that we adopted its use into our waking life.

I am 24 years old, as of writing this in January 2023, and I live in southeast Wisconsin. I work a 12 hour night shift job as a EMS dispatcher.

I grew up in Kansas with a big adoptive family that became a broken home. Shortly after graduating high school, I was kicked out by my adoptive mother and struggled with homelessness for months. My first jobs were in fast food before I landed a job in healthcare, and I had stayed in the spare room of a kind stranger (not recommended!) before meeting the love of my life and moving in with him.

Just before the COVID-19 pandemic struck, we we able to move up here to Wisconsin. I struggled to find work, but happened to meet an EMS manager through one of the odd jobs I had taken at a bakery who liked me so much she gave me a recommendation to get me hired.

I was diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder on January 10, 2023 after being referred to a dietician to be put on a GERD diet for gastrointestinal issues. During the routine questioning about my eating habits, my dietician discovered a disturbing pattern that had been lying undetected since my childhood. Honestly, I can’t even say I was surprised when she told me, because I had known something had been wrong for a long time.

In addition to the eating disorder, I was at the highest weight I had ever been in my life. At only 5’3.5” tall, I was an entire 290.6 lbs with an estimated body fat percentage of 50% or higher. I did not feel healthy, I was not comfortable in my body, and the added weight exacerbated my pre-existing asthma.

Due to the “fat acceptance” movement and overwhelming diet culture, it was impossible to get anyone to take me seriously when I said I wanted to lose weight because I wasn’t feeling right. I feel like I had begged my PCP for resources and assistance in losing weight, but I had been told I “looked fine”.

Now that my eating disorder has been diagnosed and is being addressed, I feel much more confident that something is going to change.

#about page #bed #bed recovery #bed treatment #binge eating disorder #binge eating disorder recovery #binge eating disorder treatment #eating disorder recovery #eating disorder therapy #eating disorder treatment #ed recovery #ed therapy #ed treatment #recovery #therapy #tw binge eating disorder #tw eating disorder #tw eating disorder recovery #tw eating issues #tw ed #te ed recovery #tw disordered eating #tw mental illness #tw therapy #tw weight loss

[coldcasescenario]

should i tell my therapist i have an ed?? cause i do not want to recover but i feel like it would be nice to have someone to talk to about it 

and like, ive only lost 30 lbs so far, i have a long way to go and i dont want her getting in the way....

#ed #ed warning #ed but not sheeran #ed advice #tw ana mention #tw ana related #tw ana diet #tw ana vent #anar3x1a #thinspo #ed blog #sk1nny #counseling #ed counseling #ed therapy

[sad-spinach]

therapist: you need to eat more regularly before we move onto the next stage of treatment me: okay therapist: ... me: ... therapist: in your food diary you said you didn’t ea– me: weLL tHaT wAs bEcAuSe i fOrGoT   /   iT wAs jUsT oNe DaY   /   i tHiNk iM dOiNg GrEaT pLeAsE sToP AsKiNg

#ed recovery #eating disorder recovery #eating disorder #ed therapy #eating disorder therapy #anorexia #bulimia #not pro ana #pro ana get fucked #ed memes #therapy humour #therapy humor #ed humour #ed humor

[diedandgone]

🕸🪶

I want to get better, but not better where I lose control.

Better where I don't feel guilty about eating a healthy meal or snack.

Better where I don't want to starve myself after one 'bad snack'.

Better where I can go out for a meal and not think of ways to look like I've eaten more, but to eat until I am satisfied and full, and not stop when I am still hungry.

I don't want to lose control; I just don't want these guilty feelings.

🕸🪶

#light as a 🪶 #ana buddie #th1gh g@p #th1nsp1ration #thinspø #tw ed but not sheeran #e@tingdisorder #low cal diet #my ed thoughts #ed body dysmorphia #ed poetry #ed confessions #ed therapy

[frenchfrysword]

Lmao at the lead therapist at the last group I went to.

"I really hope we get some impulsive and extravagant bulimics in the group so you have someone to relate to as well!"

#cause yeah to be fair most groups consist out of anorexics #and not to be mean. A lot of anorexics are super shy #I remember once having to wait for like 20 minutes before this girl spoke her first words in group #and we were literally not allowed to say anything. she had to talk. she didn't wanna #TORTURE #so i'd always be the one yapping non-stop cause i am *like that* #personal #ed therapy #ed recovery

[bugaboob11]

my biggest fear food is nuts but one of my safe foods is granola.. make it make sense💀

#foodsp0 #bul1m14 #tw food #tw ed vent #4narexia #th1n$po #bulimima #skinnysp0 #ed therapy #4n4r3x1a

[my1yf3]

I be saying I feel fat and wanna get skinny then go order Uber eats 5times a week like omg why I screw myself over like that.

#eating disoder things #anna miaa #pro miiia #thinspirastion #skinimprovement #tw purge #skinnerknife #tw skipping meals #ed therapy #anamia

[scarysick-disordered]

I feel hurt?

Because you remembered her. Because I love you so hard, and you are still remembering her. Is stupid and silly how I love her too.

My best friend, even when I know that she might not feel something that special for me.

Maybe she did for you.

Maybe you deserved her love instead of mine.

I hope mine is enough.

Though I am hurt, I will still be here to remember you my love.

Even if you still remember her.

#sad love poems #ed therapy #tw ed relapse #ed boyfriend #ed girlfriend #i wish i was thinner #thiiiinspo

[lavender-b0ness]

drinking a big gulp but in a diet coke skinny off-duty model way not a yeehaw pickup truck gun-toting way

#lavbon3s #e 🦋 #ed therapy #🦋 tips #thinnspa #anar3xia #anarecyx #anorexsick #anorexjk #tw ana thoughts #tw 4n4 #bullimix #c 🦋 food #🦋 workout