Satellites (1/7)
What if Grogu hadn't returned to Din in The Book of Boba Fett? What if he hadn't been given a choice?
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Modern AU setting: Grogu is now twelve, and he has to rely on his memories as a young child to track down the person who changed his life. The only person he knows who will be able to protect him from the bad man. The bad man who precipitated his separation from the only family he's ever known. He embarks on a road trip to piece together his past, and reconnect with the people who might help him find his family again.
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It had been a very hot day, and the metal of the pickup bed was still warm on the young child’s back despite the late hour. The sky was almost pitch black, just the way he liked it, and the birds had finally gone quiet. He expected the arrival of mosquitoes next but they seemed to have given the both of them a reprieve. As if they’d agreed he and the man deserved that one moment of peace before sleep.
“What about this one?” he asked in his small voice, choosing his words carefully, arm raised towards another constellation.
“Ursa Major,” the man’s deep voice rumbled next to him, and the boy settled more snuggly against the old blanket he used as a pillow. The nights were never excessively cold, but he knew he’d wake up the next morning with another blanket draped over him. One he never remembered putting over himself.
“The Great Bear,” he remembered proudly, and he felt the man nod. “And how can you find the Little Bear?”
The boy already knew the answer – the man had explained it to him several times in the past – but he just wanted to hear the story again. Hear about Merak and Dubhe and Polaris, the star that pointed north and meant he’d never get lost in the night. It always made him feel safe. That and the sound of the man’s voice, as he was slowly lulled to sleep.
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The boy opened his eyes and looked outside. The window was dirty and it was bright inside the bus, harsh lights switched on here and there by passengers reading or talking, but he was certain he had spotted Polaris in the night sky. Its presence was reassuring, it meant they were still driving West. Dawn was several hours away, then there would be another bus, and another stressful journey where he would have to hope no one paid too much attention to him – the small boy who barely looked ten travelling alone.
But he thought he’d mastered the art of disappearing in a crowd. He’d been on this journey for three days already and he hadn’t been bothered. He had money to pay for his tickets and his food, he’d sit in the back and remain quiet. Some looks lingered, though. Old women, mostly. The boy wondered if they were worried or merely curious, perhaps mothers and grandmothers. On a couple of occasions, he’d resorted to one of his tricks, and pressed a phone to his ear, having one-sided conversations and telling his non-existent caller he was on his way and would be home soon. He liked pretending he was phoning his dad, and the smile was genuine on his face. It had worked until now, and the questioning looks would stop, despite the phone being broken and displaying a blank screen. But the experience left him sad and empty afterwards.
The boy sighed and looked at his scuffed shoes. He’d been forced to walk a lot to reach the random bus depots and stations, and the cheap material was coming off at the seams. He would have to be careful: he knew he would attract even more looks if he appeared too unkempt. He had washed a couple of times in empty bathrooms and had brought his toothbrush and comb which he used anytime he could, but he longed for an actual shower and clean clothes – he was running out, as he’d only been able to pack a few things not to raise suspicions. With too big a backpack, people would have immediately recognized him for what he was.
A runner. A fugitive. A deserter.
But none of those words really fit. The place he’d escaped from was no jail. It wasn’t that bad, really. The teachers were nice and no one had ever really been mean to him there.
But he definitely was running away. If not from a place, then from someone. He’d always meant to leave one day, and the bad man’s reappearance had simply precipitated his departure. The boy wished he’d had more time to prepare his journey – he had managed to find two addresses, that wasn’t much. What if they weren’t there? What if they had moved? He was relying on a six-year old’s memories, his memories, and it was now six years later. Thankfully, their names had been striking enough that he’d remembered them and they hadn’t been too hard to find, the car mechanic especially.
Sleep, Grogu. The stars will still be there tomorrow night, the man said in his head. And so the boy stopped looking at the sky through the window, the old diesel engine slowly putting him to sleep, his shoulders angled so that no one would disturb him or try to talk to him, and he pretended he could feel the warm metal of the pickup against his back.
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The twelve-year old boy looked at the creased paper in his hand. His cramped handwriting was atrocious, but he was sure this was the place he’d scribbled down. The address he’d found online during one of his late-night jaunts to the computer room. He’d only recalled that the woman’s name was Peli, and that she was a mechanic somewhere out West, maybe in Nevada. That hadn’t been much to work with and yet he’d been lucky. He hadn’t found any pictures, though. Of either the mechanic or the car repair shop.
If this could be called such a place.
It looked more like an old shed of some kind, with rusted panels and peeling paint. There was no sign or doorbell or anything, but the iron rolling shutter was open, so he decided to walk inside. He hadn’t travelled all those miles for nothing, and the afternoon desert sun was beating hard on his back.
“Hello?” he said, wishing his voice was stronger and deeper.
The place was a mess, but it was much cooler inside, and he exhaled immediately as he put his backpack down at his feet. It wasn’t heavy exactly, but he’d been carrying it for so long that he was in desperate need of a break.
Shelves upon shelves stood in front of him, displaying various engine parts – he thought so, at least. Nothing looked particularly new or in working order. He had a sudden flash of memory as he spotted colorful cables hanging from the ceiling in a corner, and a game of pretend. As a four-year old, they’d looked like believable snakes, and he’d had a grand time inventing stories of jungle exploration while their car was being fixed.
“Bit young to own a car, what do you want, kid?”
He hadn’t noticed the woman’s arrival and he mentally berated himself – he needed to be more careful of his surroundings, he’d been taught that. The bad man was still after him, he was sure of it. And yet, he couldn’t suppress a smile. He’d found her! That curly hair was hard to forget, and as small as he still was, he was pleased to see that he almost reached her height now.
“Hi,” he said, almost tripping over his backpack as he approached the counter. He grabbed it by a loose strap and searched her face. Would she recognize him?
“Do you remember me?” he asked, when the silence stretched for too long and he grew uneasy.
“Bright Eyes?” she exclaimed, and he nodded tentatively, not recognizing the name exactly. “Wait, your dad told me your actual name, but I thought it sounded terrible, what was it? Ragu? Grogu?”
“It’s Gregory, actually,” he mumbled, biting the inside of his cheek at her casual assumption regarding his relationship with the man.
“You don’t look like a Gregory,” she decided, walking around the counter to observe him, and the boy schooled his features to remain impassive. He didn’t like people coming too close.
“It’s just a name,” he shrugged – he’d never liked Gregory either.
“So what brings you all the way here? And where’s Mando?” Peli inquired, looking behind him, as if the man in question would suddenly appear. If only things were so simple.
“I’m looking for him,” he explained, “I thought you might know where he is.”
“What do you mean, you’re looking for him? He was looking for you, and then they wouldn’t let him see you and he came back all mopey and that’s the last time I saw him,” she answered in rapid fire speech as the boy’s eyes grew bigger and bigger.
He’d been looking for him? He came to see him? Who was “they”?
“When?” he exhaled sharply, heart beating fast.
“Oh, I don’t know, years ago,” the mechanic replied with a huff, her nonchalance deeply painful to the boy, who’d been bracing for bad news, but not of that kind. Why hadn’t he tried to visit again? And why had no one told him? He swallowed hard and felt angry tears prickling the corner of his eyes. There was another address written on that piece of paper, he couldn’t lose hope. At least it meant he had still been alive then.
His dejection was probably hard to miss, and it seemed to have mollified the usually unflappable woman, who now looked sympathetic.
“I have some cold drinks in the back, looks like you could use a soda,” she said, laying a hand on his tensed shoulder. “Then maybe you can tell old Peli what is going on, because I sure as hell am completely lost.”
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It had taken two cans of Coke and half a bag of chips for the boy to cover most of the last six years. He hadn’t told her everything, and especially didn’t mention the bad man who was after him again, but she’d proven to be a good listener, only asking questions when he went too off topic.
“Funny you ended up in a school for gifted kids, first time I met you, you could barely talk,” she remarked with a cackle, though there was no malice in her tone, and the boy nodded – that was true enough. He’d been four, then. Speech hadn’t come easily to him. And even as a six-year-old he was more comfortable when it was just him and the man. He knew he would never judge him. And wouldn’t make fun of him when the words rushed out of his mouth in a barely understandable jumble of syllables. It had taken him such a long time to pronounce his disliked name correctly, that everybody assumed it was Grogu instead of Gregory.
“It wasn’t a bad school,” he added, realizing with a start that he was using the past tense to talk about it, as if he’d already made up his mind that he wouldn’t return there, no matter what happened. “And I guess it was the best place for me.”
That was what the man had said. What he’d wanted – find his rightful place. And little Grogu had wanted one thing in life then – make him happy. And not only him, but everyone else. And everyone seemed to think that he was so smart and so gifted and so amazing, that he’d started believing them, too. For a long time, it had been enough. And the praise he received at the school from Luke and the other teachers had been wonderful and exactly what he needed to thrive. It almost made up for the fact that contrary to most of the other kids there, he had no one to go home to during the holidays. The institute was his home all year long.
But to now learn that the man had actually tried to reach out…
“How long would you say it was after I saw you for the last time that my - that Mando visited again?” he asked, trying to sit still and resisting the urge to ask where the bathroom was just yet. Those two cans of Coke had probably been a bad idea, but actual answers were more pressing right now.
“Let me think,” Peli sighed, crossing her arms. The old leather couch she was sitting on made funny noises when she moved, and the boy had elected a rickety chair instead for that reason.
“He needed a new car, and I’d promised I’d keep an eye out in case I came across an old classic truck – ”
“Something happened to the Crest?” he interrupted with a gasp – that car had been everything to the man.
“Completely totaled it,” she replied without care, and it felt like a tangible loss to the boy – he’d loved that car too, it had been their home. “But then it really was a piece of junk.”
There again, the boy tried not to react too strongly, and simply waited for her to continue.
“So anyway, I didn’t, but I did lay my hands on some very cool Chevy 350 V8 engine and enough parts to build a decent 1969 Corvette Stingray. Yellow. Convertible. Barely any rust. Instant classic.”
The boy nodded to help her along. She was now the one getting lost in the details as he didn’t care much about powertrain or transmission or any of those things.
“…and you know he had the gall to tell me he still missed that old truck of his? I built most of it myself – he helped a little – and he was telling me he was planning on visiting you. He sounded very excited!”
“When was that, do you remember?”
“I think it was probably a year, or a year and a half after I saw you that last time,” Peli said, eyes looking upward as she searched for the memory in her mind.
So many years ago. Anything could have happened since then.
“And he never – ”
“Well, he did return once, not too long after like I said, all grumpy and sad. Engine needed a tune up, too.”
“He didn’t say where he was going?”
They’d moved around a lot in the two years they spent together. There was no one place they really called home except for the Crest. They both preferred sleeping in the truck than in dusty motels, and he’d never felt unsafe, except at the very end, but that hadn’t been the man’s fault.
“Sorry, Bright Eyes. Haven’t heard from him in four years.”
He tried to convince himself that it didn’t mean anything. He knew how easy it was for the man to just disappear if he wanted to. He had a newish car, so why would he need to visit a mechanic anyway? Maybe he’d found another one. Maybe he could handle the repairs himself. Maybe –
“I wouldn’t worry too much if I were you, you know he was a black ops mercenary, right? Probably still works for some private company or agency and he has to lay low.”
This was one of the things he had only been able to piece together after a while. Once enough years had passed at the institute and he’d become more aware of the adult world. The man had been careful to shield him from most of the ugliness and violence of his line of work, and to the boy that had just been his job. How he earned money. He didn’t know any better then and it still didn’t shock him now. They would move every time there was a new contract to fulfill and had travelled across the whole continent, spending a lot of time in South America especially.
“Why are you trying to find him? You just said they were treating you well at your school, so why run away now?”
At no point had he mentioned the fact that he had run away, but then what else would the woman assume? The boy looked for a way to cut the conversation short – he could now read suspicion in her eyes and he knew overstaying his welcome would be ill advised.
“They must be looking for you by now – ”
“I’ll just go, don’t worry about it, and thanks for the Coke,” he said quickly, standing up and rushing to grab his backpack in the corner.
“Wait, kid, I didn’t mean…” Peli attempted, also standing up, her arms extended in a placating manner. “Look, I wasn’t trying to scare you. Why don’t you wait until the temperature is a bit cooler outside at least? I can pack you a sandwich and you can take a quick pit stop, whaddya say?”
She’d probably guessed he desperately needed to pee. And the bus which would take him to the second address on his list didn’t leave until late that night. The boy wondered what to do. He knew he probably couldn’t trust her completely, but that didn’t mean he couldn’t use the bathroom for a few minutes. And more free food sounded good, he had to be careful with his remaining money.
“Okay,” he said tentatively, and she showed him to a door at the back of the shop, urging him to take his time.
After taking care of his bladder, the boy brushed his teeth and attempted to comb his hair – it was getting dirty, and the light brown waves wouldn’t behave, even with the help of some water. With a sigh, he changed into his last clean t-shirt and washed his face with the hand soap. His reflection in the cracked mirror was tired and worried.
“Wait until you’re on the bus,” he told himself. He couldn’t start thinking about all he had learned – and hadn’t learned – from Peli just yet. He had to keep moving forward, keep hoping. But if he was so special, why couldn’t he track him down? He groaned and remembered a time when the word was not an insult. There had only been one person he actually wanted to impress then, and it wasn’t professor Skywalker.
“Grogu,” he whispered, and stared into his eyes. Were they really that bright like Peli said? He wanted to go back to being Grogu. Gregory could stay at the institute with all the other special children for all he cared.
After one last nod to his reflection to boost his confidence, he reached for some paper towels and dried his face. He’d walk back to the bus station, buy his ticket, and hopefully reach the second address next afternoon. He had a plan.
“I think I’ll just – ”
“Sit,” Peli said kindly when he exited the bathroom, backpack on, intent to brave the heat and not look back. She’d had time to make him a sandwich and he could see another one already packed in a Ziploc bag next to it and two more cans of soda for his journey.
Grogu hesitated again, but his stomach rumbled at the sight. So he sat down carefully, his backpack still on to make a hasty exit after he was done, and attacked the food.
“I was just thinking about the first time I met you,” she started, sitting in front of him at the table. “Do you remember?”
The boy certainly did, but he let her talk so that he could eat quickly. It was a nice memory, despite everything that had happened. How he’d woken up alone in the truck and gotten scared because the man wasn’t there, but the mechanic with the crazy hair had given him food and some toys and it had made everything better. He agreed to have some cookies after he was done with his sandwich, reminiscing with her about their second visit now, when they’d met that very pregnant woman who was looking for safe passage to Canada, no questions asked.
“She sends me regular postcards, she has six kids now, can you imagine?” Peli informed him, and Grogu smiled.
It was only when the phone in the mechanic’s pocket beeped that the boy understood she had been stalling, finding ways to keep him here, and his smile fell.
“You called someone,” he realized. Peli didn’t say anything and Grogu stood up quickly, ready to bolt – that was answer enough.
“Someone who can help you,” she tried to explain.
“Who?” the boy asked, but he wasn’t really listening, and put the extra sandwich and soda cans in his backpack, looking for the quickest path towards the exit.
“The sheriff, Boba Fett, he can – ”
“Boba Fett!”
The name immediately sent a shiver down Grogu’s spine. It scared him almost as much as the bad man’s, which he refused to say out loud. He’d been there when he got kidnapped, and he’d always seen him as partly responsible from being separated from – from –
“I can see you miss him, and I promise you Fett won’t tell anyone at your school you ran away, he’s not like that.”
But that was the last thing on Grogu’s mind – he didn’t even care if they came after him now and wondered if they even would.
“He knows your dad,” she added. “They worked together.”
Grogu paused at that revelation, but he thought it could be one more trap.
“I don’t believe you,” he told Peli. “He attacked us.”
“That was before.”
“Do you think he knows where Mando – where my father is?” he asked bravely, and he must have sounded as desperate as he felt because the mechanic’s eyes turned soft and apologetic.
“I don’t know,” she exhaled, shoulders lowering. “I’m sor – ”
The sound of a car door closing at the front prevented her from apologizing and Grogu started looking towards the window. There was a yard through there, with piles of rusted car parts, and hopefully another exit.
“Maybe I should have fixed that hole in the fence at the back,” Peli said with a barely there smile, as they heard a man’s voice calling for her at the entrance. “But then, it’s only big enough for a rabbit.”
She looked at him one last time, the guilt and regret hard to miss, and the boy nodded in understanding – she’d been trying to help, he knew. And had been a gracious host.
“Bye Peli,” he whispered.
“See you around, Bright Eyes.”
And so the boy formerly known as Grogu started to run.
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