#dont mind me im just screaming into the void

[lunastarseeker]

i am going to punch the next person who tries to talk to me

#starseeker rambles #vent #i am boiling #how do u deal with anger #i was never taught how because i grew up assuming that anger was the spawn of all evil #once i grew out of the tantrum phase of childhood i pushed down my anger as much as i could and i do not think that was healthy #like my mom was always yelling at my brother and i do not think that was a good environment for an autistic child/tween to develop in #my mom was a fantastic parent in almost every other way but her constant yelling definitely messed me up a bit #starseeker rambles in the tags #all that happened was my mom got a little too loud and irritated at me for accidentally injuring myself with a pen #all i wanted to do was vote fgs #dont mind me im just screaming into the void #delete later

[hearth-of-olympus]

sure brain, me being sick and miserable sounds like the right time to throw some flashbacks from Those Years at my face

#nothing like being feverish to be reminded of your trauma #im learning new things tho dont we love that #turns out i have been neurodivergent from a very young age who would have thought #not but understand why i reacted/react to certain things the way i do is neat and all but #can we please do that some day when im not panicking miserable and alone thank you #i hate hate hate being sick #and now i know why yayy #dont mind me im just screaming into the void

[rylekayner]

im losing my mind rn i need to take control of my life there are so many changes i need to make but im too scared and passive to do anything

#dont mind me im just screaming into the void #personal

[sketchy-tour]

Genuinely, I wonder if my fear of being seen as annoying by commissioning oc x canon is silly or not.

I always get so actually worried that the person I'm commissioning will think I'm weird or if it's an artist who's in the fandom with me I get all worried they probably already draw a lot of oc x canon of the character i like and maybe they're tired of it

How many times can one artist draw Wally Darling kissing a bunch of different ocs before they hate it? Dksjfjkskdjd

#text post #just rambling #IM JUST SCREAMING INTO THE VOID DONT MIND ME!!!!! #like please please i kno im cringe but i just want more art of them...holding hands #aaughfjfjsodidkbfkek #shaking myself for being a lil baby even though im always saying “Be cringe be free!!!!!” but i cant help it #like I already try and only comm people who are familiar with or in the fandom #but then i get all sorts of like “OH GOD THEY PROBABLY HATE DRAWING THIS”about it #im sure if they didnt wanna theyd just...tell me? i do ask. ya kno when i do try and buck up the courage. #“Hi sorry would you be alright with drawing my oc with this guy please its okay if not haha jk unless.” type shit gjdjfjkekdjfjeke #god im embaressing

[mydiazboys]

buck is grey, eddie is blue. eddie 100% used the last of buck's favourite expensive lotion which caused this convo the power of eddie's NAH

#911 abc #911 #911 fox #911 buddie #buddie texts #buddie imagine #evan buckley #eddie diaz #dont mind me #im literally STILL reeling over the fact that evan buckley is bi #LIKE CANON BI #NOT JUST HEADCANON BI #SJFKFGJDFKJFB #im screaming into the void rn #no i will NOT take constructive criticism on this post #thank you for your time #buddie

[copper-dragon-in-disguise]

how the fucking hell do I have a lower grade in honors history than I had in AP history????? how????

#i finished with a final grade of A+ in ap world #but currently in honors history i have a fucking. 77 #how?????? #i did the assignment!!!! its her own bloody dam fault she didnt have any clear instructions on it!!!!! #dont mind me #im just annoyed and screaming into the void about it #the saga of us history 1 honors

[fshenkoescape]

The whole Unity thing is such a cool concept because this playthrough i hated it because why would my dusty leave her LI but at the same time if I HADN'T saved him and he'd died, she would JUMP at the chance to do it all again. So like this playthrough I did nooot wanna do it but sitting and thinking about it it's cool how one mission played out would totally change my outlook

#starfield spoilers #im rambling dont mind me #i just have so many big feelings i need to scream #but id have to explain the whole game to my friends so instead i am screaming into the tumblr void

[predninja]

Not me drawing BG3 doodles before, giving myself more angst comic ideas. Of which I'm overdue in doing anyways

Hint: it has to do with Eligar's long lost bro

#pred talks #dont mind me #im just screaming into the void

[tei-to-tei]

*shouts into the small void that is this blog*

hey you guys ever start coloring something that started out as a sketch but now has detailed lineart and then realize it's all a hot mess and then you debate on trashing the whole damn thing and rolling up like a little pill bug on the floor while the same song plays over and over again in your headphones because you're clinically insane or-

#art problems #someone send help and/or just magically make the idea in my head cone to life without effort #i just opened the lineart again and now im like “this is going to kill me why am i doing this to myself” ;-; #dont mind me #im just #i just needed to scream into a void #ripping my hands off sounds a little appealing rn ngl

[moosekababs]

ok storytime and i will make this quick. forgot my sleeping pills the night before last, got approximately two hours of sleep then got up at 1 am and did all my work for the day, shaved my head, took a shower, then layed down and read fanfiction all day until my dad came home and brought me graham crackers so i finally ate something. TOOK MY BEDTIME PILLS CORRECTLY this time slept good last night GOT UP.

GOT TO WORK.

hankering for soup. "i wonder if we have any soup?"

2.5 hours later i get up and check. we have soup, exactly the kind i wanted. one can. i open it. i make it. i sit down with it.

"boy this soup kinda smells funny... but i cant remember what food looks like. i am probably just being a little freak about food again its probably fine" TAKE A BITE.

its not . Good.

call my mom "hey could this soup go bad inside the can if the can was sealed" yeah probably but its not very likely, whats up with it? "bad smell. bad taste. looks weird." yeah ok don't chance it, toss that out

confused. pour the soup out. cry about it inside because it was the ONLY can.

check the can

best by date 4/22/22

FUCK.mp4

go back to my desk

have become lightheaded during this farce.

NOW IM SITTING HERE, NO HAIR, NO SOCKS, UTTERLY FUCKING SOUPLESS

its not fucking fair

#.readme #renrants #rents? #im screaming into the void dont mind me #man i just. wanted soup #i have only had graham crackers to eat in the last 48 hours #sorry for being a bad tumblrer

[mutedeclipse]

"people dont appreciate my genius" it says, slaving away every day to draw the most deranged bomberman content for YOUR viewing pleasure.

Then again i dont do it for other people but itd be nice if there was more of the fandom here to feed me metaphorical cookies and tell me im doing a good job (???)

#lunar myth rambles #im deranged i just want more deranged people to follow me and like my shit and talk to me #i hate being someone with ACTUALLY nice artwork now because people get scared to talk to me :( #im unusual!!! im not normal!! for the record i love being insane you should gather that from my art #the pains of being in such a tiny community that 5 people consistently populate the tags for consistently with minor sprinkles of others #im screaming to the void dont mind me im going to go back to behaving now 🫠 #ok maybe not hold on one more deeep breath gotta yell something real quick #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i wish wish wish i saw more of my brand of content round here ...... like not everyone can be me and i fill my niche BUT #i just wish to see more content in general </3 #im hungry and thirsty but im giving my body to be the oasis others need in these trying times <3 #OK. BACK TO NORMAL. BACK TO BEHAVING. BACK TO MY CAVE. SORRY. BYE AAAA

[yourladystar]

Star's Engage Catalogue Day 24 (part 5)

I like how Alear and Corrin are parallels to each other with their stories and journeys, it makes me love them even more.

I still want male Corrin to be added though.

I know I sound like I'm banging a broken drum by this point, especially since the last DLC wave is out, but that doesn't mean it's completely over.

Engage has been a commercial and financial success and, even though people raised an eyebrow at it initially, the DLC has been well received. So it's not like they couldn't give us free updates or additional DLC for emblem bracelets of other characters fans want.

Plus, it's not like it would be hard to give the avatar emblems a gender swap. Just create the new model, get the voice actors to record since the emblems don't have a lot of lines, and create some mini-event where they demonstrate this power to Alear. Hell, the bracelet emblems confirm that they're from an alternate version of the Lythos we know, so they can incorporate that by having the avatar emblems tap into it and turn into a version of themselves from a different reality. One who went through different experiences, but is ultimately the same person.

I know I sound desperate, and I am! Make it happen!

#fire emblem engage #playthrough #first playthrough #fire emblem fates #corrin #fe corrin #m!corrin #f!corrin #Dont mind me just screaming into the void because im nuts

[anxiously-going]

I have this problem where if my chair is adjusted for my feet to touch the ground it hurts my shoulder because of how low it sits on my back due to scoliosis, but if I have my chair adjusted to be comfortable for my shoulder then my feet dangle and it hurts my knees.

And I can't seem to figure out a happy medium.

#dont mind me #im just pouting #screaming into the void

[woosansang]

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#jazzy talks #hmmm #i just dont think i get the same joy out of tumblr as i used to #and i know a lot of that has to do with the fact that the people im friends with slash enjoy talking to on here have also been busy lately #and it sort of just feels like im screaming at a wall #or a void #or a room full of people who are looking the other way #its like if youre a content creator but you dont put out new stuff every day or every few days #then suddenly people stop paying attention to you #and its nice to say i should gif things that i want to gif and not really care about them getting notes #but thats not the reality #maybe for some people it is but not for me #half of the reason i gif is bc i want to make something and half is bc i want to share it and show people #and yes its nice to get feedback too but mostly when i read peoples tags i just want to hear about the content more than my actual skills #like half the fun is seeing random strangers losing their minds over some guy #but people dont rb anymore #its hard #its demotivating #im so busy with work and i dont have that much time to gif during the week so when i do make something and no one looks twice #or maybe only a few mutuals look twice #it makes it even harder to find the energy that i dont have to keep making stuff #idk what im saying #i come here to scream about things i like and hear people scream back in solidarity in a way #and now im just screaming to nobody #which is just disheartening #idk #i think im gonna delete the app again for a bit #anyway check out my pinned post if you're reading this. and reblog please maybe? <3 #bye for now

[x-nephophile-x]

yknow, after replaying all three games again, Mass Effect 2 is still my favorite out of the three (no disrespect to 1 or 3, I enjoy them both as well) but 2 just hits me different. It just... ugh, it slaps so hard. The score, the characters, the innate sense of forming a team and befriending these people and inspiring them against a collective (heh) enemy, and knowing that its do or die, and even if its death then you go out with a bang, saving more colonists from being taken, stopping the reapers again because fuck you Harbinger, and its just so damn good. Its like, yea, a companion recruitment simulator but also, it is so intense and so good.

Every mission, recruitment and loyalty, slaps, the characters are so well written and endearing, the opening cutscene is iconic, the final mission, even when you *know* you did everything right, still puts you on the edge of your seat because of the stakes. Like y’all ever look at the math that game is pulling when its deciding who lives and dies because of what actions you took? you ever look at that pain in the ass hierarchy? What is dependent on the upgrades, the right crewmate for the jobs, the point system at the final segment? The ILLUSIVE MAN?? He deserves his own little spot here because he is so ???? Like That ??? Anyways, I just want to say I love Mass Effect 2 immensely, and its likely for the same reasons as I love DA2 and its because bioware gave me the ability to form a rag-tag group of the most badass and capable idiots and said “theyll follow you to the ends of the earth if you love them” and i said “they are all my family now i love them immensely”

#misc tag: Cas Rambles #mass effect 2 #mass effect legendary edition #i just so adore me2 and its the one i get the most excited to replay and i just i could scream about my love for this game forever #dont mind me rambling i just needed to scream into the void because im thinking about the space game again #long post #long-ish anyways

[zeawesomebirdie]

I cant believe how much ive written today omg, burnout who?

#like #ahhhhhh #dont mind me just screaming into the void how are yall i love you i hope your day is well #i never thought having 3 wips at once would work out but omg im so happy it is!! #and maybe if i finish the zero drafts of either the sn@rry or the ky!ux fics ill make a stab at nano this year!! #anyway i hope youre all well !! #love yall!!