#dont give me that scare bro

[thepringlesofblood]

fckin. i've watched Tin Can Bros' masterpiece Spies are Forever a bajillion times. I've listened to the soundtrack a bajllion times. when my phone malfunctioned and I lost all the music I downloaded from my dad's giant folder of pirated mp3s, the fuckin Spies Are Forever soundtrack was one of the 3 albums that remained bc it was one of the only ones I'd actually bought. which means i listened to it over and over and over until I was able to get student-discounted Spotify (and tbh i do still listen to it over and over, just on Spotify).

and I JUST NOW realized that Curt's beard from the 4 years after Owen's death is a double entendre.

the only other queer person he knew in his line of work just fucking died. of course he gets a beard.

#he needs to mourn without people questioning #why he's so upset over some guy from fully another agency #so he misdirects it as general depression/hiding himself from the world #so people don't pay attention [badum tssh] to the cause of his grief #fuck man every time i look at saf it gives me more interesting subtext #spies are forever #saf #tcb #tin can bros #curt mega #original post #i should've written my intro to queer studies final paper on spies are forever #i had it all planned out and i scrapped it bc i was scared my prof would watch it and not get the full context of the nazi stuff #and i did the adventure zone balance instead #which was nice but not nearly as deep of a lasagna as spies are forever #this shits got layers for days #tagpost #if you dont know what i mean by 'beard' in a queer context #google it before yelling at me #i know its kind of an older term idk if the youths use it anymore

[eebie]

my FUCKING LIFE JUST FLASHED BEFORE MY EYES

#ilet my 17 year old blind ass grouchy ass dog into our backyard #thinking Hmmmm should be safe there has never been any problems before #and then fucking BOOM A GIANT ASS GERMAN SHEPHERD AND HE SPRINTS UP YO IT #I WAS TERRIFIED FOR HIS LIFE BRO HE’S JUST A LITTLE OLD GUY #but thank god . she was just a pup and she was sweet #someone came to work on his house and brought his dog #NO NEED TO GIVE ME A HEADS UP OR ANYTHING HAHAHAHA MY HEART HAS ONLY SO MANY SCARES LEFT IN IT BEFORE IT STOPS BEATING #😂😂😂 #HAHAHAAAAAA #And i was too shaken to really say anyrhing ibwas like Oh shes sooooo cuteeee(about to pass out from the terror like a frightened rabbit) #stupid ass Dog patches dont fucking SCARE ME like that #this is like that one time he chased a cougar into the forest and it was dark out and my dad had to go find him #he’s so fucking dumb . I love you my boy😢

[elegyofthemoon]

most embarrassing moment is when my friend describes me from their perspective

#I JUST SOUND LIKE A SCARED CAT ALL THE TIME FROM HIS PERSPECTIVE DAMN LMAOOOO #he was explaining like 'dude when we crossed paths u were just out of sight out of mind w everyone' #AND THEN HE WAS LIKE 'dude i saw when u were throwing ur trash out u like hesitated before giving a weak throw and running off' #BRO THAT IS SO EMBARRASSING DONT SAY THAT LMAO #anyways that was the price i paid for using him as a meatshield against The Rats here JGBDJDJDNS #friends tag #man what the fuck jgjdjdjdjs #like ok i get it bc i dont like being in peoples ways bUT THE TRASH THING IS WHAT GOT ME JFHDJDJD #'u were just in ur pjs and ran off' oKAY BRO MIND YOUR BUSINESS IM SCARED OF EXISTING LMAO #orz ahhhhhh #snow speaks #i mean thats. honestly fair #i think i talk too much here bc i just fixate and talk about That stuff #if u meet me irl im sooooo awkward and quiet bc im just Scared of everything sjfndjdksd #IT WAS A GOOD DAY THO we went to get groceries together and got tea :]

[aria0fgold]

I'm beaming all my thoughts to this uninvited guest to "go back outside again please" cuz why oh why... out of all the houses around the neighbourhood... must this spider enter MINE!?!?!?!?

#aria rants #it was on the right track until it decided to just go UNDER THE RUG #at least i dont see it anymore BUT OHMYGOD YOU JUST NEEDED TO GO FORWARD A LIL BIT MORE #am vibin here listenin to music and reading a manhua and then life decided to just give me a vibe check #in the form of a spider charging into the house and istg it felt like my soul went out my mouth with that gasp #it was runnin bro. it had its two front legs up and i ran to the other end of the room and just beamin my thoughts on it #this is the third time bro. third time a spider from outside just RUNNIN INSIDE THE HOUSE #can these dudes smell my fear and only mine specifically or what or am i just the only one scared of spiders around here #whhhhyyyyy my house bro wwwhhhyyyyy #like youre a cool lil guy yes but can ya pls not show yourself to me im scared of you #my arachnophobia is stronger than your charms am sorry dude

[kitkatcadillac]

happy pride.

back in the 50s there was a thing called the lavender scare. the mccarthy campaign began an investigation and mass firing of homosexuals in government work places under the explanation that gay people were more receptive to communist mind tricks and therefor a national security risk, ergo, might as well be a bunch of fascists as it is, starting a hideous snowballing of queer stereotypes that persist to this day.

one of mccarthys campaigning lines was that if you didnt vote for him, you were either a commie or a cocksucker.

along with that, it pushed it more into the public conscience that being gay was a mental illness, and/or that homosexuality was unhygienic, uncouth, unamerican. it was here that there were more big pushes for a "nuclear family," which of course worshipped the image of a (christian) cishet man and wife pair with at least two children; preferably a boy and a girl.

none of the claims about hygiene, about mental health, about soundness of mind or resistance to """commie mind tricks""" were ever backed up by any scientific evidence; it was all sensationalist, obviously. and many people suffered for it. people were ostracized, laid off, targeted- and not just for being gay, but simply being SUSPECTED. both gay men and lesbians came under fire for this exceptionally.

there were books written at the time, pamphlets, programs, on how to spot potential homosexuals. people were wild about it. plenty of times it wasnt even called homosexuality, it was "sexual psychopathy" and put on the same level as p*do and animal attraction.

its a good google trip. a good youtube trip, too, honestly. id highly recommend going and looking into the history yourself if you havent heard of or dont know much about the lavender scare. it makes a lot of what ignorant people regurgitate over and over again sound... echo-y. like damn did you blow the dust off that bigotry before you used it??? shits an antique.

and if thats a lot of words to READ, heres a start on that youtube trip of The Cold War (user) talking a bit about it. and you can listen instead of listen to me blab

#skelly speaks #so help me god im actually going to do stuff to acknowledge its Pride Month #and i want to have fun this year more than anything #especially in light of the miserable conditions this year... not really the safest lmfao #but in the same light its really important to know the history #and where some things youll hear come from. #how outlandishly outdated it is... #all this shit on trans folks of these maga freaks screaming THINK ABOUT THE CHILDREN #bro shut the fuck up. you dont give a shit about the children the school shootings tell me so lmfao #anyway. i only learned about the lavender scare like within the last year! #nobody told me anything about it and i just stumbled on it by accident #so in case thats you too i want to share with you #Youtube

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#it is truly so wild to go from feeling miserable and hopeless all the time for... lets look at my excel sheet #the last 23 days. then to suddenly rocket up to smiling to myself all day. the world is so fucking beautiful #for no rational reason aside from what i have to assume is a chemical shift in my body #like is this what happy ppl feel like all the time? its truely so crazy. have i always been like this? #did i not notice this was a thing? like ive definitely noticed it in the last year but like ??? #my suspicion is that it doesnt actually last long enough to b considered hypomania but like idk i should see a doctor probably lol #u would think being happy would make it easier to do things but i just keep forgetting to do them and just like spacing out lol bc rn i #feel chill. even tho i need to make a list of the shit i gotta do by Friday. bleh. but idk it makes being in thr lab so much nicer bc i #mean. i still dont give a fuck abt what im doing but im like fuck it this isnt gonna b my problem in like 2-3 months. even tho im sure ill #still have to write up everything. but idk. it also makes it easier to b like. ok so i kno what my problems r lets plan yo make things not #so horrible so u dont just live a miserable life and then like die having lived a life of fear. like its so crazy how much easier thst is #to do rn??? well see how long it lasts but yea v strange. wish i could control my fucking focus tho. like that would b great #its like the fucking painting of hypnose. my focus is like a lighthouse wildly swinging its light around until it sometimes blasts me in #the face. like not helpful. i need to b able to do things. #i guess the weird thing rn is thst while i feel happy. i also have this like simmering fear of irrational things. like when i used to live #in my parents basement and i was terrified of the dark rooms down there at night. like that kind of childish baseless fear #but like im in i tiny tiny apartment lol like bro what r u scared of??? silly silly silly #idk hopefully it holds out the whole rest of the week and then i can travel and see my parents like !!! yo !!! happy vibes :-D #that would b kinda unhinged lmao. i doubt itll last thst long. its already slipped from this morning so we shall see #unrelated

[reikunrei]

tell me why it seems like 90% of byler shippers are the most smug, insufferable people i’ve ever had the displeasure of seeing on my dash. like can y’all be normal people LMAO

i’ve been following a smattering of general st fandom accounts that also post a lot about them for less than a week and i’m already like “damn i gotta fuckin go”

you’re telling me i survived 2013-2015 superwholock and free! shipping wars and i’m just right back in it in the year of our lord 2023? get a life LOL

#me seeing the 17th punching-down nickname for mileven: im seriously at my fucking limit #I DONT EVEN LIKE ONE SHIP MORE THAN THE OTHER #WHO GIVE A SHIT!!! BE NNORMAL!!! #saw a post today that was like 'ppl who ship mileven should be scared #bc the st social accounts didnt even post anything abt them for vday teehee mileven shippers are so delusional' #and i rolled my eyes so hard they almost popped out of my head #this shit does not matter! why are u being so mean to these 14 year old characters LOL #mileven and byler are both good! why are you pitting 2 bad bitches against each other! #when will ppl learn that it's more fun to analyze all ships wwith a neutral-positive pov #rather than trying to explain how the analysis makes YOUR ship better #like seriously go get a hobby that makes you happy #rather than wasting time trying to convince ppl they shouldnt ship smthn bc you dont like it #'oh but el makes mike feel inferior so it's a bad duo' bro what #like i see where youre coming from but he's allso 14 #and has the potential to llearn to not feel that way bc el loves him #not my l key sticking every time i use it #anyway. yeah. it's annoying #time to go back to only following cool chill gifmakers #just. i dont think i'll ever understand the desire to focus only on ships #is it valid to analyze media and come away with intricate thoughts on rellationships? yes of course #but god. i just want general discussions about solo charas and the show as a whole #stranger things is a story about LOVE and not about ROMANCE #my aro/ace tendencies are flaring up :zany emoji: #i say things #ANYWAY. I HAVE TO. SHUT UP LOL

[kn11ves]

idk what it is with me and women but they just flock to me in my time of need. 5 seconds ive been in a room and they want to tie my shoelaces for me they wanna help me do things they want to give me advice and make sure im okay i what

#i wish i was kdiding #I HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH IT! #btw im not talking about like. older women although that also happens to me #im talking about girls my age theyll just go to me like im a helpless baby bird if i need something #its not even my cane either because even when i have to do things without it (like my danza folkorica) they still wanna help me #like im so fr first day i showed up a girl tied my shoelaces TWICE and THEN drove me to my dorm afterwards with the rest of her friends i #mean that was so nice #idk what i activate in them but they always wanna help me out its so particular to me #and like. listen ok today we are learning a dance from sinaloa and to be short about it one of the moves is bending your back really far & #i was doing it wrong and bending badly and i ''nearly fell'' multiple times #except see i would never have fallen bc i have been so used to living without a cane until now that i know how to catch myself and im very #yk. good at not falling so i dont embarass myself #but it LOOKS very much like i am about to fall and at least THREE times the president was like ''oh my god ivan are you okay??'' #i spooked her so bad i felt bad😭😭 #its bc km always in front when shes teaching bc i wanna see her n others r too scared to be up front #and anyways what i was on about literally i was visibly struggling and EVERYONE IM NOT EXAGERARINF ALL THE GIRLS (well there was only one #other guy there but) STARTED GIVING ME ADVICE AND TRTING TO HELP ME one girl moved all the way accross her spot to mine and help guide me #shes so nice i hesrt her her name is charisma bro imagine your name being CHARM and she is charming :> very nice #it feels weird calling her my friend bc well we r all friends in a sense as we r clubmmates but. U Know #long rant TLDR women love me #dont tell them im afraid of them

[silenthillbunni]

💉🏨🧸🩹

#ok but honestly i just want my health to go back to 'normal' now (normal meaning how it was one month ago) #im so so so so hungry all the time. i barely eat anything #and i cant eat the way i normally do (which isnt even stereotypically unhealthy even) #but i cant just eat whatever i want. and that includes veggies and healthy food as well #and my mom is telling me to eat. my doctor said i just need to eat and see what gives me bad reactions etc #but i have like a psychological lock in my headthat makes me so scared of eating #it just sucks so fucking much to have food and then my back burns and my stomach hurts af #i just wanna feel healthy and normal in my body :(((( #i know it's life to get sick but i have normally bad anxiety and this kind of stuff makes it worse #im so exhausted thinking abt what i can eat. and all my options are so expensive as well and im poor #im hungry all day and i just wanna eat bro #and i dont wanna be in pain anymore im over it!!!!!!!!! #it's making me extremely angry and irritable too. like gimme food or i kill!!! im so mad constantly sksk

[piratadelamor]

self isolation as a form of self preservation is going to end up killing me someday

#im already a fucking adult if i dont do something about this shit im gonna be lonely as hell #i just wish i had made friends at college like everyone else #instead of the poor choices of friends i made when i got in for the wrong ideas i had about the type of person i wanted to be #i simply ended up with no friends at the worst place to make friends #imagine me having 8 different classes each semester. each class had about 60 different students #each subject had at least 4 different teachers teaching that so you could choose when and who to take that class with #850 new students each year it was rare to end up on the same class as someone twice #unless you were already friends before and decide to take the classes together #most of my classes didnt have group projects either. no dynamic stuff just reading and reading and reading #it. was. HELL #i actually had like 3 people i could call my friends there but our classes never matched #and im not an easily approachable person i wanted to DIE when i made a friend there that told me she was scared to talk to me before #how many possible friendships i lose all the time for seeming unnaproachable?? for my fucking face bro i cant do shit about it #today my best friend from work also told me that when she first met me she thought i was cold and arrogant #but that i also seemed cool so she was like ok lets give her a chance #i keep fucking hearing it all the fucking time i have MANY friendships that started just like this. people judging me at first #this is so sad and lonely to me i dont wanna be this person #one time a friend also said something like im glad im already your friend id be scared of you if i didnt know you #like????? scared of WHAT. i never treat people badly. i dont fight i dont do gossip i dont do anything to hurt anyone #im always trying to get people together and have fun i always talk to everyone im always nice to everyone #im always trying #so why the hell people still think im unnaproachable #i dont get it i've been hearing this from FRIENDS my whole life. not from people who dont like me its people who LIKE me that say this #what the hell am i doing wrong besides being born with my fucking face #and then. above all. to make it all worse. i self isolate bc im scared of rejection. man i fucking hate being me #i really dont wanna be lonely

[hershelwidget]

Who’s been telepathically asking me for more 3 of Everyone content

This time with Tom and ALSO??? PASTEL COLIN

Yea P. Colin has this funky thing about him where he’s the most picky vampire-computer in the world and Dusty World residents just have that PUNCH to em and he saw Tom first so

Dreamy Lamp is in on this too but in like a ghost hunters way. i wont elaborate

peak interaction

p. colin does have buttons i just forgot to draw the rest of him

#dhmis #dhmis au #dont hug me im scared #well shit bro might as well give the au its own tag #dhmis 3 of everyone au #yippie!! ok anyways #dhmis tony #dhmis colin #dhmis lamp #also yes i went a weird route for pastel colin. i dont know how it happened #he’s just. he’s a vampire by choice #dreamy lamp is secretly doing a documentary about it. its a whole thing really

[twunkzilla]

Ngl it's so annoying when people try to make like. sex between a man and a woman "queer" like... this is something you do in privacy and you're worried about being valid? you are worried about the opinions of strangers on what you do in the bedroom because you're both bi or trans or something? like? there is no queer dude it's not real it died a long time ago

#i met a straight guy who was like. trying to force himself to like men for years because he was insecure about being straight #and im here with the exact opposite problem where i hate men and i hate being seen as gay and im scared for my life being gay #and like #i probably could have had a meaningful conversation regarding that but i just asked if he was retarded fnxjfjsjfjx #its just such a meaningless problem dude like idk i dont trust it the word straight has a meaning #its giving lesbian trying to make getting with pre t trans men seem gay #like bro i cant even say that i am gay im ashamed of myself and i have to put up with men choosing women over me #because i cant offer the same kind of life #if you dont deal with this problem why in gods name would you want to

[bonnie-bug]

made the mistake of watching one of those fake emergency broadcast videos on youtube (specifically one based in quebec where a good chunk of the world was rapidly covered in 14+ meters of snow in the middle of summer) and even tho it wasn’t supernatural spooky scary it hasnt left my fuckin head and now i cant stop thinking “what if something like that happens. what if there’s a demon attack. what if there’s some kind of creature in ur hallway right now. what if a fuckin scp was real and your only warning was an emergency broadcast just like that”

I dont even believe this kind of shit is real WHY is my brain so fuckin paranoid about supernatural shit. lowkey it happens every night but it’s always worse when I watch something even slightly supernatural horror adjacent. why. I only even watched the stupid video BECAUSE it wasnt a creature/scp/supernatural horror based one and I thought I’d be fine :(

#I’ve always had anxiety around alert noises tho :/ my mom was paranoid abt storms and so had a weather alert radio when I was a kid #and since she was always afraid of bad storms that made ME scared and I dreaded every time I heard that radio go off #and it’s the automatic alert sound for so many emergency broadcasts it still gives me an anxiety spike to this day #so maybe that has something to do with it. but why also spooky horror creatures. #it’s never normal shit like ‘’what if a guy broke into our house’’ or anything no it’s always a fuckin demon or something #I should be clear here and say these paranoia. things never actually tip me into an anxiety or panic attack or anything dont worry #but. it IS annoying. and I’m so tired of it. and I’ve come up with coping mechanisms but idk how to make them Stop #bc just saying ‘’bro it’s not real’’ does nothing bc i KNOW its not. but they still keep happening #would these count as some kind of intrusive thought. bc it definitely causes me distress but it’s not like. the harmful idea kind #and idk what the nuance is and what actually counts as an intrusive thought and not just Brains Thinking Shit #And Sometimes That Shit Is Distressing #idk. I’m procrastinating getting my water from the living room bc a lot of my Bad Thoughts are centered around that hallway/living room area #maybe I’ll just turn on the light or something. I dont want to make my dad get my water for me #bc ‘’I watched a slightly spooky video this afternoon and now my brain is convinced demons will kill me’’ is a hard thing to explain #I mean he’d be nice about it and get my water I’m sure but I also dont want him to worry abt me kdbdbdkd #ok. I’ll turn on lights and go. and hopefully I can actually sleep tonight kdbdbdk #I’m not sticking this in my post tag bc I dont want to find it again and trigger another paranoia night lmao

[showupatmyparty]

oh goodness

#i feel like #girl idk 😭 #the way me and the guy I met at admitted students day are full are FLIRTING RN #like through text help #i met him for the first time in person though dont worry #we bonded over speak now #and I deadass thought he was bullying me at first and I ran away #but he’s not kidding he actually listens to Taylor #I STALKED HIS INSTAGRAM AND HE MIGHT HAVE A GIRLFRIEND #i know they dated through June #but then no National gf post for her so…. #bro idk #he said he’s giving me his hoodie when i see him again on move in #and he planned a list of things we can do together #MAN WAS ON JEOPARDY #sorry for the rant #it’s ellie again lol #SHOULD I BE SCARED #HE WAS SO NICE THOUGH

[d0llyrat]

Hmmmm

#i need to vent a bit. #if you dont want to read negative stuff please ignore this #but I need to get this out of my chest and I just dont want to annoy anyone about it #everyone knows already anyway. whatever #i know you guys want me to keep going and to not give up #but i feel like i cant bro #everytime something happens i just want to. not exist. i dont want to be here. its freaking depressing and it just gets worse #my dad keeps telling me good stuff about myself and he begs to me that i dont give up. that i should keep going #and show everyone how 'cool' i am. he tells me to tell myself that i love me #but i can't bro i really can't. it just keeps getting fucking worse #my dad probably just sees me that way cuz. duh im his child #but is it really like that? i dont think it is. im not going anywhere. things are always for a bit of time and then i lose it all #i dont even know who i am #i dont know what i like or what i really want. i dont think im doing things well #this just keeps making me lose things. people. moments. everything #im crying bro. i hate reality. i have been wanting to get so distracted that im not even dressing the way i used to #i just take whatever thing i find around. #i just realized ive been wearing the same socks for idk how many days. im unmotivated to work on feeling good with myself #i just keep getting worse #i dont want to hurt anyone. or scare anyone. please understand me. i am really trying my best to keep going but it always feels like #its the same in the end. like a cycle #i haven't started therapy but hopefully i will soon. i hope it helps me. #im so scared and i feel really alone. i need irl affection. #sssndkwjwjdfkkffgh whatever im going back to distractions. #thanks for reading ? dkswjkff

[justalilstar]

boo

AHH

#bro dont SCARE ME like that #I almost dropped my bepis!!! #/j #/lh #oc #sona #i feel like now is a great time to say that i adore getting asks #it gives me something to do =D