If you’re not, how so you expect to be loved? How do you expect to look good and be attractive to people? You being fat is not gonna help you. It doesn’t matter the cost, being skinny is always the better thing to hope on. And the best way to achieve that is by not eating. Because is not only going to get you fat, but is going to make you look like a fatty. You look gross when you eat.
The best question to ask when you want to eat is “why do you want to look and be gross?”
Save yourself from that degrading thing. You can do better. You can always look better; be thiner.
But it’s not about being thin this time. It’s about control. Three weeks ago I was sexually assaulted, and old tendencies feel safe. They give me the feeling of control I’m so desperately craving.
Today my partner told me that they don’t find me attractive. I knew they had some questions about themselves and what they find appealing in a relationship, so I asked some clarifying questions.
Eventually we got to the question of “Do you lack all romantic/sexual attraction, or is it just me?” And the response I got was “Just you.” I’ve always been very self-conscious about my body, and we’ve talked about whether or not my body bothered them, and they’ve always assured me that my body was fine.
There was also a comment made about how they really only sleep with me to satisfy a need, not because they love me.
We live together, so it’s not like we can just avoid each other. We’ve been together for years and they’re just now saying something. I feel disgusting and used.
Maybe if I was skinnier things would be different. Maybe if I was prettier or more handsome they’d actually like me. I wish I hadn’t given them so much of myself. All that time and energy, the hours I spent reassuring them or comforting them, the things I went out of my way to do just so they would be comfortable was wasted on someone who used me to satisfy a need.
I feel sick. I hate who I am, and I hate my body. I hate everything about myself.
you aren’t hungry. it’s all a lie. drink water and eat later when you actually need it. only eat when you actually deserve it. don't eat now you fatty. eating now will make you a pig. eating now will make you fat. so don’t eat. don’t start the binge. it’s that easy. your starting to look fat.
What? Too upset to give a fuck? Grow up. At your weight, you could be fasting for weeks at a time and still be fat. You’ll never be as skinny as me, as ana’s perfect angel.
Put it down, fatass. Get on the treadmill for once in your life.
1000 cals today and I feel disgusted. I keep telling myself it’s okay because I’ve been at around 600 cals a day for the past week but I just feel so gross and nauseous