i heard someone mention that if you play the dark urge and you try to resist, the game will give harder and harder checks against you that you have to pass in order to keep resisting
and like. i think that’s suuuuuch a cool idea but more than anything i hope that if you go mean from the outset there are moments where you don’t GET the chance to resist the urge as compared to a resist playthru
i think if you really indulge and give in to every urge it should lock u into some sort of route after a certain point where the option to resist is just replaced with a different, awful alternative i.e. hacking off a leg instead of an arm
it would probably make a lot of people really mad but iiiiiii would love it. theres not a lot of narrative weight to “youve been literally awful for all of act 1 and 2 buuut we’re still giving u the chance to resist ur urges. if you want” bc then its like. what youve done didnt matter. and then it’s no longer a real narrative bc the game is giving in to the player’s desires instead of the character’s desires
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Was teasing Gill about her past Royai sins but I do think it's funny to see people insist they're only not together because of a non-fraternization policy when nothing of the sort is ever referenced in the text. (This came up because it was mentioned in the propaganda for one of those long time pining ship polls.) Extrapolating the existence of such a policy is reasonable - you see them frequently in workplaces with hierarchical power dynamics, and apparently it may be referenced in some supplemental material. However, if I were Father using the state alchemist program to fast track 5 sacrifices who've opened the portal, I would want my candidates to be forming strong relationships with people, and if those people are fellow soldiers who are a lot more likely to die than civilians, even better. It's strategically sound to at the very least grant your state alchemists a waiver. (It would also be strategically sound to start bumping off their family members, but the guy is not proactive.)
Anyway I just think it would be funnier if people in the military are allowed or even encouraged to hook up with their coworkers and they were just like that for personal reasons.
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blerg.
my mental health lately has been garbage, the most garbage it's been in a long time. just crippling anxiety, can't sleep, cry if i hear music at the wrong time garbage.
i haven't run dogs since december, mostly because of terrible icy/warm weather, but my last run wasn't bad, slash was in single lead, looking good! but the past week? the thought of getting on the runners makes me feel ill. Anxious that things will go wrong (they probably won't). feeling that i am not capable or talented or in control (none of this is true), feeling that i haven't improved in this sport (also not true), that i'm behind. I want to do more, i want to be great, I want to be better. I want to be able to get on the runners and not worry instead of being sick to my stomach before I step on, only able to cure my anxiety once I realize I know what i'm doing (yet again). I want to feel like I can run without my husband on a bike behind me. I am crippled by my own ambitions and dreams. i'm one of the few malamute mushers. i'm one of the few malamute mushers with a small team that runs dogs 16km regularly. my mentor is proud of me, my peers tell me they look up to me, I trained these dogs from SCRATCH. I love them. I love this sport. the silence of running dogs in winter is one of my favorite feelings ever.
and yet. anxiety and self doubt festers in me. why? because I'm anxious the boys will have feelings at each other? That an off leash dog will come up to me? that i am otherwise incapable? i didn't use to worry about these things. i didn't even feel like i needed to have enough snow to brake and now the trail conditions must be perfect. before i am soothed.
i am running dogs tomorrow. no matter the conditions, no matter how bad i feel beforehand. no matter how sick or sore or anything else because i NEED to remind myself i AM capable and strong and trained these dogs well. will i still feel like mental crap after? maybe. but at least i will have tried...
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we all know I could play the dentist in Little Shop of Horrors, we all know this to be true, right? like I’m a scary white guy! I laugh! I enjoy substances! I’ve got weird sex things! I’ve got an innate evil inside me!
just bc I’m 5’3 with a female voice and a bubbly aura and nice jugs doesn’t mean I can’t do it!
🅱️lease, take a chance on me someone anyone please
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It's funny that people call JGY a chaos gremlin, because he's just—really really not? Whatever the opposite of a chaos gremlin is he's it. He's frankly ludicrously goal-directed and an extremely competent planner—even when he deliberately causes chaos, as at the second siege, it's not for the sake of causing chaos but as a deliberate part of an overall plan. He can certainly act quickly and improvise amazingly well and seize opportunities when they arise, but even these tend to be folded into a long-term plan. And as always when you look at what he actually does when he has the power and can choose what to do, it's pretty clear that he enjoys and actively seeks an ordered and well-governed life with truly ridiculous amount of meetings and paperwork. Where he's broadly in charge and setting the agenda. And I mean, you could argue that the towers are chaotic in that they're upsetting various norms of cultivation society, and you wouldn't exactly be wrong, but the methods he takes to achieve this certainly aren't the kind of random chaos 'chaos gremlin' suggests—and remember it takes five years from becoming Chief Cultivator! And he was working on the idea before that! And the effects are a) likely some centralization of power b) many many people receiving help they wouldn't have before, not as a result of him individually helping them but as a result of a structural change. From his gigantic infrastructure project that took half a decade to get political agreement on. This isn't...chaos gremlin???
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"Tergiza is a dialect of Medusan, used by the Space Marines of the Iron Hands' Clan Raukaan. Little emotion is conveyed by this language, which is notable for its exceptionally rigid grammar and vocabulary by human standards."
you all need to read this one-paragraph wiki page and go as bananas about it as i am going rn
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23 matches for Ryf
It is a pleasure to burn. Cathartic, isn't it? To watch the wanton destruction, to feel the heat, to smell the heavy heavy chemical scent of it, to be soaked in it, to wear that ash on your skin like a cologne.
Good, god, yes is it a pleasure to burn. It's something that you can control... something you have in your hands... something you can do, a way to overcome your feelings of weakness, of inferiority... a way to stick it to the man, to put up a signal fire, a beacon to tell the world I AM RIGHT FUCKING HERE... and to be known by no one at all at the same time.
Burn, burn, burn, take your mind off the world collapsing around you. Burn, burn, burn, and your loneliness means nothing, your inadequacy means nothing, push the darkness away with the burning light of day, you know?
Gasoline, matches. Lighter, lighter fluid. Kindling, a spark, and oh... the whole world goes up in flame... Get back at it, take out your frustrations on it, and maybe, just maybe, there's a hope inside of you that you will burn down with it, isn't there?
You stand there, watching it burn, smile on your face, flames dancing in your too green eyes.
Words from a song come to you as you snap the burned match in your hand in half.
I never was a part of you. Burn. I never was a part of you. Burn. I never was a part of you. BURN.
I'm gonna' burn this WHOLE. WORLD. DOWN.
Your smile widens. Someday, the world will FUCKING PAY.
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