#do i even make sense

[okwonyo]

i used to be extremely insecure about my personality and the person that i am; i feel things in such a deep way that the slightest change in your attitude can make me overthink for days, i love people so much that i forget to put myself first most of the time, i have troubles accepting the love given to me, everything i ever let go of has a mark of my teeth on it and i am in constant need of reassurance and support. the thing is, i am just human and i am who i am and i can do nothing but accept myself and grow to be a person i am proud of. it is okay to be a bit rude, it is okay to feel bad at a given time, it is okay to cry a lot, it is okay to distance yourself from others when you feel bad. well, my point is, you hating on yourself for the person you are won't change anything. as always, the solution will always be love. love yourself and the people around enough for you to find the energy grow, like a flower find it's energy in the earth, the sun and water, and become someone you are proud to be. learn to find love in everything— understand that the beauty you find in the world around you is a reflection of your own.

#⠀⠀. . ⠀⠀bambi answers⠀⠀୨ৎ #do i even make sense #honestly this is just a embarrassingly long ramble #cringe kinda

[nailtagyuri]

naily and taggy arent main characters they still do stuff but theyre the kinf of guys to hang around as NPCs in the main town while the rpg narrative happens

#do i even make sense

[ye-xiu]

last post for the day i think 4th gen stans deserve the quality or rather lack of it among the entire batch of groups debuting at the moment like it’s all manufactured it’s all visually appealing in a synthetic and clean and entirely abstract way with no soul or body the music is lacklustre and the vocals and performances are even worse bc the idols of this generation have no actual musical training and their artistic ambitions get smothered by a tiktok algorithm but everyone buys into it everyone wants content every hour of the day everyone wants to be oversaturated by unattainable popularity and consumer-friendly influencer behaviour because social media and the internet has rotted attentions spans to nothing ... i can’t even blame teenagers for buying into this but i will sure as hell question any adult who actively participates in turning a whole market of pop that’s been known to be eclectic and creative into just a more stylized version of its worst parts

#do i even make sense #al.txt

[ryuvnosuke]

love is such a difficult feeling to feel. it's warm and it's cold and fills you up so much you might explode and leaves you feeling so empty. it hurts and it heals and if you're a broken creature it might put you together again temporarily but only temporarily and then you will fall back and maybe some pieces will be missing because they're not yours anymore. it makes you big it makes you small it's so difficult but it's so easy because what am i when i'm not loving

#ela.txt #do i even make sense #i feel so much love inside but i find it so difficult to let it out where it matters

[sunglassesmish]

https://twitter.com/livelyackles/status/1579411577832632320?s=46&t=EBfehXjLIyHSH62E4cdOuw

🤍

#anon #ask #jensen ackles #danneel ackles #is it weird that when i see them together im like ‘how do they have kids?!!’ #it’s like i have this preconceived notion that attractive people shouldn’t have kids for some reason #do i even make sense

[froginthestars]

How do you avoid being down because you know you are going to be very depressed soon and it’s all out of your control ?

#Do I even make sense #i’m not ready #i don’t want it to happen #what do i do

[sillverstreets]

ive fucked up so much ki ive forgotten what a fuck up is like

#do i even make sense

[therelentless]

ooc;; for the last couple of days, i haven't been able to english all that well. like I'm not even trying to be funny, it's frustrating.

#{ house meeting! } ;; ooc #and it's not only about what i write on here #but also for my classes #i look at it and just go like #what is this shit? it sounds all sorts of wrong #do i even make sense #so it's not like i can just take a break #🙃 #it's like i need a reset or something

[yagamisdiary]

heyyy amara!

i js wanted to ask... how do u get urself to write sometimes? knowing that ppl could be super unsupportive n toxic and mean on a piece of work you've spent hrs working on. bc i really wanna continue writing but i'm just so scared that it'll flop yk? and it sucks bc i'm putting a bunch of vulnerable emotions that r hard to even think about out in the open for thousands n thousands of ppl to judge. i wanna write so bad but something in the back of my mind is stopping me

look, you could write the most beautiful work of art the world has ever seen and people will STILL hate on it. that’s honestly what keeps me going tbh

ur art is not going to be for everyone because not everyone has the same taste/interests. not to mention there’s ppl who like to hate on things that other ppl like to seem different or cool so there’s that as well

it’s GENUINELY an incredible feelings to know that ppl love ur art because they love the same things as u do

if u write a story based on what u THINK ppl are gonna like, ur not gonna feel that great when ppl like it because it’s not really what u wanted to put out if that makes sense

for example, when i wrote parasite people either loved or ABSOLUTELY HATED it. but i never paid attention to the ppl who hated it because i was sooooo mesmerized by the people who loved it because it was MY STORY. i made it 100% the way i wanted to and i put my all into it so the ppl who loved it made it feel a million times more special bc they loved it for the way it was.

i was so consumed by the love that i didn’t even pay attention to the hate. my mind would only focus on the good because it made me feel comforted that ppl loved my raw ideas and story

#amara’s asks #advice time #do i even make sense

[jjksshawtybae]

im hoping on getting to live in the college campus or studying far away as far as the limit where i need to rent my own apartment when i go to study in medschool

#do i even make sense #study motivation #studyblr #study blog #student life #studyinspo

[ye-xiu]

every scene between ran-joo and soo-jun is so good like the past loyalty the destroyed trust the painful betrayal the ruthless business calculations the misguided affection that causes all that resentment from both sides but more than anything ran-joo’s rightful anger ugh it’s such an interesting dynamic that’s just bursting with history that gets revealed more and more over time and is never boring to watch i want 100 minutes more of them

#do i even make sense #i still need to catch up on two ep’s so dhshhshshs #castaway diva #al.txt

[caniexist]

Blaze is scam coz capitalism

#blaze #blaze trends #blaze this #tumblr #please #pretty please #love you #pleasant #ay #hey #yo #good #bad #nice #medium #hot #cold #ok #capitalism #do i even make sense #no

[221bluescarf]

I feel so exhausted

Not physically, but mentally. I'm so tired of having to remind myself of what's real and what's not.

I'm tired of being afraid of everything.

I'm tired of hearing words floating around me. Telling me I'm a liar, a failure, and everyone hates me.

I'm tired of worrying because maybe people won't believe me.

I'm tired of accusing myself of faking.

I'm tired because the only time I stop being afraid that I'm faking... Is when I'm busy believing all my ideas and delusions are real.

#do I even make sense #221bluescarf.txt #actuallybipolar #schizospec #venting

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[stuckinapril]

lived my whole life in guilt bc i thought i was responsible for people's feelings. newly realizing that other people are responsible for their feelings and reactions, even if they make it seem like i'm the problem. a lot of the time it really has to do w them and their own emotional regulation. i can't keep thinking i'm not allowed to have space bc of other people's insecurities. like i literally refuse to dim myself. other people are responsible for their feelings just as i'm responsible for mine.

#like i'm always gonna operate from a place of kindness but i've had to deal w so many people who're bad at communication/confrontation #which led me to think i'm the problem #that i deserve to be given the silent treatment or dismissed disregarded belittled etc #that's j not true. i'm far from perfect but i think so few people deserve that kind of reaction. and my biggest revelation is i do not #even if people want to make me think i do / that their reaction is justified / that i'm a burden etc #my biggest problem is i humor people like this for too long bc it's been normalized behavior to me #does this make any sense to anyone. it's the end of the year and i'm reflecting on so many things #p

[mbat]

im never going to not utterly adore the trope of eyes reflecting someones emotional state tbh. eye color, eyes glowing, hell, even something as human as pupil size, but especially if it expands past the limits of humanity and goes like how cats eyes go soo big lol. physical form changing inhumanly to reflect ones emotional state going out of their control is just so. mmm thats so delicious

#tropes #so i sound weird saying it like this? im just sick of pretending its not one of the best tropes out there okay #INHUMAN EYES ARE ALREADY SO COOL BUT THEN THEY DO THAT AND ITS LIKE!!!!! THATS SO FUCKING AWESOME!!!!!! #points at crowleys eyes going full snakey when hes scared. MORE OF THAT!!!!!!!! #dude my j. ghost has it too. his eye color changes to reflect how happy or upset he is. no one can stop me damnit #my post #ITS ALSO COOL IF ITS MORE THAN JUST EYES BUT THE EYES ESPECIALLY. #like someones whole body practically falling apart because theyre so upset that its overwhelming. dude thats so fun #DO I EVEN MAKE SENSE #idk but im having fun #its not enough for someone to start crying. if you dont start looking less and less human whats the point /j #also not technically emotional state but someones eyes glowing really bright the more powerful they are. duuuuude #are you getting the vision. are you seeing what i see #i just woke up and im rly hungry so im just like. saying shit tbh ok