#dirtbag

[cryptidlover17]

Your mom's bf in the 2000s

#2000s nostalgia #nostalgia #2000s aesthetic #2000s childhood #ur mom #moms boyfriend #2000s older brother #nu metal #loser #dirtbag #boyfriend #Spotify

[gutcutz]

I won't even miss u tomorrow

#drawpile w Kasophism & Harper #y2k #guitar #rock #grunge #dirtbag #possom #graphic #GUTCUTZ

[surfergrl25]

dirtbag spring

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#2000s aesthetic #y2k aesthetic #2000s emo #emo scene #emo core #bastardcore #bastard #teenage dirtbag #dirtbag #2000s #nostalgia #spring #springtime #spring aesthetic #manic pixie dream girl

[c0kewh0re6969]

Dirtbag icon

#coquette #coqeutte #coqette #lana del rey #lana del ray aesthetic #lana is god #coqueta #lana stan #lana del ray lyrics #lana del ray song #teenage dirtbag #dirtbag #coquette grunge #classic rock

[bettsfic]

directors cut on dirtbag, im begging

i don't know what i was on when i wrote dirtbag but i'd kill to have it back.

initially i didn't plan to write anything for hellcheer because, yk, 3 minutes of on screen interaction and i don't actually like stranger things. but i got an ask about if i would ever write for them, and that got me Thinking* and then i slipped into some kind of fugue state where i wrote sick part of a sick thing across 8 days.

if you ever want me to write for your ship, send me an ask asking what i WOULD write for them (assuming i know canon), and i may say i dunno or i may write a 50k multichap

sick thing was not satisfying to write on a craft level because i relied heavily on the same cheap moves stranger things employs to create conflict, namely totally flat antagonists that exist only to propel the protagonist into action.

and so after i wrote sick thing, i thought i would try the exact opposite, a fic that takes place over a long time where every character has some degree of nuance.

and that challenge was...challenging. i've never worked harder on a fic, but it was worth it i think for what i learned in the process of writing it. i think it made my characters stronger and my story structures more complicated and interesting. it reframed my perspective of developing tension through context rather than chronology.

i re-read it recently and it made me really sad because i don't think some of the things i admire about it can ever be replicated. i'd love to be able to put that degree of loneliness and longing in an original work, but i've tried and i seem to lose something along the way.

i remember while i was posting it being very happy about the response, because there weren't a whole lot of people reading it, but the people who were reading it really seemed to be engaging with it. it's one thing when people enjoy a story, but it's another when they allow the story to move them. i got a lot of really insightful asks and comments. so it was hard to write and it was a huge struggle, and there's at least one chapter that i re-wrote like 5 times, but overall it was very rewarding.

#dirtbag

[blissfuldirtbag]

#trolls #troll oc #orginal art #traditional art #dirtbag

[trailjunctionarea52]

On March 6th 2024 I was “let go” from my job because of multiple write ups for excessive drinking on the job. The first thing that ran through my mind was oh fuck my hikes are now in jeopardy, but they’re not. And my second thought was I’m moving to Bishop right away.

On my 42nd birthday I arrived in Bishop, a place I love and is dear to my heart. Is it a coincidence arriving exactly on my birthday, or is it providence ? I’m not a religious person, but I am a spiritual one, so I would like to think the later.

Working at a brewery was very challenging for me because I am an alcoholic and the beer was always free. I tried holding it together for as long as I could. Living with sever depression — which can be downright debilitating at times — didn’t make it any easier, and also working through a fast and unexpected breakup without closure made it even more challenging for me. And it’s not like I could afford therapy when I need to save every dollar I earn so I can hike this year and especially next year. So I boozed, and boozed hard.

But here’s the thing: waking up in my truck and slamming two beers before work, then two more on my first break, two more on my lunch, then so many after work only to wake up shaking was fucking hell.

And even though I was hiking 26 mile weekends, eating healthy and loosing weight, boozing really slowed down my progress. So I’m grateful that I was fired, and as of today I haven’t had a taste of booze in 7 days, and I’m never touching that shit again.

Now I can focus on my hiking and manage the dark clouds that have been hovering over my head for as long as I can remember in a much healthier way.

I’m happy to be where I need to be.

#alcoholism #hiking #thru hiking #pacific crest trail #backpacking #pct #hikertrash #thruhike #eastern sierra #menatl health #severe depression #life blogging #life lessons #mental health #hiker #mountains #relationships #dirtbag #self reflection #introspection #sober #happiness #sobriety

[asktadckrew]

My name is Noel 😃

In gym class I mostly duck 🦆

And I kinda smell 😅

Puberty really sucks 😭

I like this one guy 😍

But he’s pretty shy 🥺

he doesn’t know who I am 😔

And he doesn’t give a darn about me ☹️

CUZ IM JUST A TEENAGE DIRTBAG BABY 🎸⚡️

😭😭😭

#im just #a teenage #dirtbag #baby #teenage dirtbag

[autumnonapoea]

Please let me stay in bed and do nothing for a few more weeks, I was just getting really good at it

#clocky trans girls #dirtbag #me

[gutcutz]

🩹📊🎧

#possom #purple #sona #grunge #converse #stickers #bandaid #bose #dirtbag #nosering #GUTCUTZ

[stickydeliciousbanana]

If I had land in the backwoods, you know I'd be riding hard and free. When you call me, call me by my name. Call me Luigi.

#Luigi #Backwoods #Dirtbag #Dirt bike #Motocross

[showerbong]

josh hutcherson bicurious (im paraphrasing)

i'm drinking miller and pirating contagion again on my laptop, which is overheating, and the fan is kicked on so high because i'm using all my available RAM with all the pop-up porn adds on this foreign streaming site called ww7.soap2day.co, and i am too lazy to try to close the titty pop-ups so i just let them loop, jiggling their tits over gwyneth paltrow's face as she hacks up a lung in the kitchen and keels over at matt damon's feet. i always forget that gwyneth paltrow has this insanely cunty and extraordinarily short-lived character arc as patient zero where shes in the movie for like 11 minutes and then next thing you know shes getting her head sawed open for an autopsy. the fan and the pop-up porn are so loud that i have the subtitles on and they just say [SAW BUZZING] and gwyneth's sort of stunned open-mouthed face is taking up the whole frame just staring slightly off screen. i feel like this has been said before but i love her character work here in contrast to the goop vagina rocks and pussy candles. me and jamie have been taking these quizzes recently to get our seasonal color analysis and i think gwyneth is a soft spring here. she's like pasty and bloodless but also so pastel while shes getting her brain dissected. me and jamie keep getting all four different seasons when we take all these different mommy blogger quizzes but i am just going to keep taking the quiz until i get what i want, which I think would be winter because its chic and classic and im so absolutely bored of midwestern people. i've only been to new york three times but i feel like its not too late to at least delude myself for a month or two that i'll move there next fall.

i keep seeing all these online debates about this new hunger games movie and something about the katniss / anti-katniss female lead character archetypes but i always scroll past before i have any sense of what they're talking about. i went through like 11 years of icloud photos tonight to show jamie because it got too complicated trying to explain all of the different phases & aesthetics i've cycled through. its so embarrassing to admit but in college literally everyone called me 'peen' for four whole years as some sort of extended callback to a weird comment i made freshman year about being team peeta & katniss and how i was team peenis. i really never set myself up for success and it was never mean spirited but it did feel particularly TARGETED, even when i came back to school in the fall one year incredibly TANNED and TONED from just working all summer and going to the gym like twice a day to avoid awkward one-on-one time with my mom. there was even this one dude that i fucked like three times or so, and we were like good friends but when i'd see him walking around campus he'd be like 'hey peen' and then proceed to text me to hang out a few hours later. classic that this would happen to me but again i did kind of bring it on myself in a moment of needing to just be the loudest, biggest breath-sucking striver in the room. i almost always succeeded, though, in captivating and maintaining.

you know years later i did finally succeed in reinventing myself as a cool fun party coke girl, but like one who also knows every pavement song and went to post-bar sex parties at this one allston dj's house. i think i fucked at least a couple guys who had josh hutcherson vibes but were considerably uglier. i think josh hutcherson once said that katniss & peeta & gale should have a threesome or something. in my personal experience, during this time i did have a threesome with this guy who i must have thought looked vaguely josh hutcherson, kind of stocky but with a nice jawline, but in reality this dude had a weird fupa and carried himself with a sort of an all-around, prematurely-aging affect. once after we boned he asked me to take pictures of him for his tinder account, and everything was just so boring then so i said sure yeah im game, and i truly had nothing else to do, so he had me take a bunch of shots of him laying completely naked on top of the bed with a copy of infinite jest folded open on his lap covering his crotch. you can see like a sliver of ballsack in every single picture. this, along with a few additional reasons, is why i think gwyneth paltrow's lobotomy on steriods speaks to me. i think a lot of my problems in life would be solved if i was just team gale

#alt lit #spilled words #girlblogging #spilled ink #nanowrimo #shitpost #autofiction #flash fiction #nano 2023 #zine #lit #writing #dirtbag #dasha #girl blogger #ottessa

[emotionalmingo]

Good Morning! :)

#digital art #illustration #artist on tumblr #small artist #nft news #nft crypto #metaverse #blockchain #nftartist #myart #vagabond #grifter #dirtbag #nomad #drifter #hobo #rambler #vagrant #tramp #gypsy #bohemian #wayfarer #roamer #art

[bettsfic]

So Organic Chemistry in general is *haunting* me in a good (but painful) sense. The line at the start: "Rex was with his girlfriend. His real girlfriend." The more the fic progresses, the more that statement takes on complexity and weight and... I can't even!

I have to reassess the possible intention behind that line in the context of the opening scene (Ahsoka to Anakin) and in a meta (you-the-writer to me-the-reader) sense, and in the changing context of *how and in what way* Ahsoka is an unreliable narrator. So yeah, I have been Pondering it and kind of re-evaluating it at the end of each new chapter!

Also, Not If, When, has been lingering with me, kind of wondering about the characters and how they're all doing in the "present" of when she's recounting the story. That bit about the various foster kids and how Glo has felt kind of like the guest. Their whole dynamic and marriage, and how it seems to work but I get the feeling maybe Mike is happier because he's getting what he needs and Glo isn't sure she *wants* what she might need to be truly happy? Idk.

Anyway, sorry to hear you've had a crap week. I hope the next one is better.

ahsoka is a VERY unreliable narrator, and she's growing and healing at a different rate and direction than rex is. (direction doesn't mean "away" exactly. it's more like rex thinks he's moving in a straight line and ahsoka is bouncing all over the place like a pinball machine.)

also, re: not if, when: you know those periodic jumps into the future where we find out about the foster kids and that she's become obsessed with cinnamon? well in earlier drafts, there *was* a present timeline, set 12ish years later, where gloria meets up with caleb at a business conference every year and they sleep together. if it were fic, i would have kept it because that was where the smut was going to happen, but when i finished the past timeline i decided not to keep the business conference parts of the jumps into the future.

but i was obsessed with the idea of an ongoing annual affair with a lot of history, and that became the premise of dirtbag!

thank you for the lovely ask @maple-clef!

#organic chemistry #not if when #dirtbag