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[captainlevi06]

When you are overwhelmed:

Find a quieter place

I find it helpful to go outside or on a short walk, possibly with some soft music or white noise.

Getting away from loud or overlapping sounds helps immensely

I also prefer dimmer lights or natural lighting when possible.

Hydrate

Water is essential for all bodily functions, including sensory and emotional regulation.

Have your preferred water bottle with you and sip slowly. Add flavouring or ice if desired

Eat something

Again, taking care of your needs is key

If possible, get a small snack and eat slowly. My system usually keeps oyster crackers with us. They’re bland but have a good amount of salt which is important for us, as we have POTS

Most of our overstimulation is caused by being hungry and not realising it

Identify irritating clothing

Is an article of clothing too tight? Are you too cold or too warm? Is something itching?

Once you’ve identified anything that’s uncomfortable, make any adjustments you can that will remedy the issue

These solutions don’t have to be conventional to be effective. Flipping socks inside out can prevent you from feeling the seams. Dabbing cool water on your wrist and/or ankles can help cool you down.

Stimming

Stimming, or self-stimulatory behaviour, can help calm you down.

Safely stimming can include tapping your fingers, chewing gum, rocking back and forth etc.

There are also stim toys and chewable necklaces for this purpose. I have recommendations if anyone needs them

Identify and Devise a Solution

What led you to feeling overwhelmed?

Write down, either physically or digitally, what caused this and start to plan a solution

If it is a problem with completing a task, We use an app called Goblin Tools. It’s free on the website and the app is $0.99, neither of which have ads. It has a to do list that uses AI to break down your task into steps. It also has a feature to identify tone in writing among other things.

Break down your plan into small, manageable pieces. You don’t need to do everything right now.

Final steps

Communicate your needs to others. If you need to adjust your environment or tasks to accommodate your needs, tell others clearly what you need and how they can help

Breathe. You’re going to be okay. You are not a failure for needing to take a break. You are not a failure for being unable to take on everything at once.

You’ve got this

- Levi

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[pricklymuffinzzzzz]

TW basically just general system guilt and such

Can we please stop normalizing taking responsibility for other alters actions? Admittedly there are some alters in a system who enjoy taking on responsibility and it’s literally their job.

But that still doesn’t mean they have full control over any other alter in the system. At the end of the day an alters actions are theirs and theirs only.

I usually apologize on behalf of alters but I’m genuinely just tired of it. Especially when singlets expect that’s it’s some sort of moral duty to take care of other alters or clean up their messes.

I don’t want to. I already have to live with the consequences of someone else’s actions. Actions in which I had no say in or control over. I’m just tired of feeling guilty for something I didn’t even do.

Again all alters are individuals, all alters make different choices good or bad. I’m not gonna apologize for someone else’s mistakes. Sorry if that’s controversial lmfao

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[frog-plague]

I really want to be able to be open about having alters and not having to pretend to be someone we're not

I hate having to hold conversations about things I wasn't there for and writing as if we're one person

We're so many people so many unique and amazing people but we can't talk or act the way we want to

I just want to be me. But me isn't what people know

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[jumpnina]

Question for other systems, how do you deal with people wanting to do different things with the body? I'm one of only 2 girls in the system and everyone else wants to go on hormones and get top surgery but I'm already annoyed with the fact that I'm not allowed to shave my legs or wear girly clothes and makeup. I don't want to do this but I know that they all get really dysphoric and I'm so upset that we can't all look the way we want to

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[the-edgy-fuckerz]

Tbh being a system fucking sucks sometimes, like in the span of 5 minutes like 4 of us switched while trying to find something to eat, now I'm just sitting here crying, I want to eat but I don't know what or have the mental strength too, I don't know who the fuck I am or what is happening, the system life isn't "aesthetic" or "desirable" its not having friends in your head, I love my system but man its rough -❓

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[screams1996]

so i won’t fall unless you ask me to

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[magicbungelic]

I think the biggest thing contributing to my doubt about being a system is that I'm aware of my trauma, I'm aware I was there during said trauma even if not fully

I don't have the visual memories anymore but I know I did before as part of the old host, after I became aware I'm not the old host anymore (my theory is I split from them) I noticed these visual memories disappeared, but I do remember having them

I remember the pain of them and I stil have some emotional attachment to them even though they don't feel like they're mine anymore

Isn't it the whole point of this entire thing to hide the trauma ? It doesn't make a lot of sense to me that I'm the one forced to live everyday life without any choice and still remember and be affected by the trauma

I'm still forced to live through more stressful situations all by myself, but in times that are not as desperate I can feel the influence of the others. It doesn't make sense to me

Either my brain is very bad at its job or I'm not a system at all. If that's the case then I just don't know how else to explain my experiences, I can doubt being a system all I want but I can't deny that these experiences did happen and that it all matches with being plural. But it doesn't make sense to not be related to this trauma, unless there's some other trauma I'm not aware of, which is possible

Anyway thanks for reading

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[thundersyst3m]

"Bro you look like a different person always man"

Bro i got some news for you-

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[qjpsys]

ive been a snappy asshole to our family today bc our body is in so much pain and theyre calling me out for acting ""out of character"" and ""not like myself"" like.. sorry we have different people in our head who act differently in the same situations, unfortunately, i have a low frustration threshold unlike teo, im not sorry either >:(

#❇️ ​fizzy #vent post #sorry yall #im not vibing #we are in so much pain #im not trying to be an asshole #but i cant help it #did alter #did system #dissociative system #did osdd #osddid #system vent #did vent #tw vent #actually did

[pigeon-system-boys]

The most lonely part of DID is not being able to talk about your trauma irl. Not at all - it's too bad for people to even hear about it. You don't meet any kindness while talking about it - only weird and scared looks.

It's so fucking lonely

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[pricklymuffinzzzzz]

Jokes I don’t think are funny,

Jokes about when mixed ppl don’t look mixed

Jokes about how “borderline” or manic someone is acting

Jokes about “the voices”

When someone jokes about how they haven’t eaten all day, like okay??

When someone jokes about another persons mental illness when they haven’t gotten permission.

When someone jokes about wanting to go to a mental hospital, saying “I need the vacation” “silly people vacation” etc, treating it like it’s not severely traumatic. Stop joking about that shit.

Oh and stop fucking joking about having ptsd, it’s not fucking funny, shut the fuck up

I can’t stop anyone from making these jokes but can y’all shut the fuck up sometimes? Like unless you’ve experienced it, when you have the trauma it’s funny. But when you just say that shit for fun it’s so fucking annoying.

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[iwillbreakyourfuckingskull]

How DID Disrupts Appropriate Decision Making - A Personal Switchy Ramble

This is based on our personal experiences with being a DID system. Seemingly each alter was split to hold clashing personalities that couldn't be integrated. This is because we as a child needed one "extreme" persona for one environment and another "extreme" persona for another environment

For example, our alter Sof is bubbly, forgiving and diplomatic, while I, Levi, am quick to anger, hold intense grudges and won't trust other people. My acute stress response is always fight, while Sof is more prone to fawn. I would not mind watching evil people being tortured to death (and participate), but Sof possesses very high empathy, since we wouldn't survive if we didn't forgive and submit to our abusers. I got to store the whole "never forgive, never forget" shit, while Sof can't help but see that evil person as if they are a victim deserving of another chance

This makes it extremely hard to act appropriately to everyday situations. We have been so used to living between extremes that mundane shit is difficult to understand. I am quick to cut off people and move on, while other parts will let us be walked all over instead of setting boundaries or just avoid everything going on - thereby isolating us instead of addressing what needs to be dealt with. Because our self is fragmented, our decisions will fluctuate as different alters front. When one alter makes a decision, the rest will panic, since they believe it was the wrong one, which leads to heavy dissociation and even panic attacks, self destruction and/or flashbacks

I think a lot of people, including us, have this wrong idea of having alters being some sort of superpower where you have experts in all kinds of things who can do tasks for you when you yourself can't handle them. But there's a reason CDDs are classified as severe mental disorders. Being a system isn't a superpower. Being a system is the result of severe childhood trauma, and traumatised people struggle. Of course decision making is hard when the consequences of one misstep could be detrimental for you as a child. When every decision feels like life or death, because that's what PTSD does. We are stuck in the past while time still goes on. It's like living in two dimensions

Idk this ended up very rambly and kinda reassuring towards myself at the end, but I'm gonna keep this in. There's definitely been other alters helping me write this during the last part (yo lol, Sof here). I wanted to make a more coherent post, but hey, this is what DID is like, so just gonna keep it like this

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[onyx-got-clowned]

Can yall PLEASE tell me how to block tags because i am going to rot in my bed because of seeing brain dead posts <- nvm a kind soul helped me :3

this ends up on y’alls tag, that’s mb, tumblr kinda likes to do that 💀

I’m going to rant below, so you pro endos and endo systems can leave before you angrily type in the replies with steam coming out your ears

bro… you all sound fucking stupid as hell i have no remorse for you at all 💀 “endos deserve a place in the plural community to!” Why? Do they get a gold star and a lollipop cus they have ‘people’ in their head? That formed NOT through trauma? Bffr it’s a TRAUMAGENIC DISORDER! NOT PLAYTIME WITH VOICES IN YOUR HEAD! I have suffered through SO much fucking trauma, just for endos to try and exist. Dude, you ARE NOT VALID! Your label goes against literally the entire basic criteria for being a system… i do NOT want to hear from your dumb ass.

“Oh! But stop policing other people’s labels! You can’t do that!” OH NO! WHATEVER WILL I DO! OK GUYS! WITH THAT LOGIC, NO ONE IS ALLOWED TO DISAGREE WITH MAPS, R@PESEXUALS, ETC! BECAUSE WHO AFE WE TO JUDGE? THEIR JUST LIVING THEIR LIVES!

if you support endo systems, or are one, STAY 50,000 yards AWAY FROM ME.

-🩸

#Fuck yall honestly #So fucking annoying #get your ass out of this community #That isn’t even yours 💀 #Onyx vents⭐️ #🩸 speaks #Its Nyx btw #LITERALLY PISSED TF OFF #anti endo #endos fuck off #system stuff #traumagenic system #traumagenic #actually osdd #osdd 1b #osdd system #endos dni #Osdd vent #did vent #syscourse

[trapped--in--a--jar]

oh boy this hit close to home- goddamn

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[thehavochouse]

Current system issue:

We were thinking about proposing the idea of name change to our introjects who's names are from a closed culture. The issue is that... their names and their identities are still very close to them and I feel like forcing them to change that will do so much harm. Right now we're not in the best place to start healing. And I feel like this will just fuck everything up. But on the other hand I feel SO GUILTY just because they exist. Just because of their names. I feel like I HAVE to make them change their names. But that's almost impossible due to communication issues and them just not being ready to heal....

#did rant #did vent #rant post #did system #anti endo #system #system things #actually traumagenic #fictive

[unstablemotions]

DID is such an annoying disorder. Do you know how fucking horrible it is to have ab unreliable memory and being in flashbacks all the time? Not knowing who you'll be at any moment? Being misdiagnosed your entire life because you change by the minute? Not having any treatment options available in your entire country? Not being able to be open about who you are since no one understands and will be afraid of you? Being haunted by things you don't fully remember? Having to drop out of your education and leave your job because of your amnesia, ptsd and fatigue? Losing friends because parts of you are so scared to be ridiculed and rejected again that they isolate? Being retraumatised because parts of you think that their only worth and purpose is to please others?

I could have had a masters degree and a full-time job by now. I could have been married with the love of my life and raise cats together. But I am so fucked up because some people like hurting children and some people don't care to stop it

#did vent #cdd vent #trauma vent #personal #my posts #also i know other disorders/disabilities have the same struggles attached to them #but man cdd is not fun 😔💔