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okay i have to talk about a time loop soulmate au. general premise is there’s a day you’re supposed to meet them and when you dont, you repeat the day over and over again until you get it right.

so for adam, the first go happens just like point of no return except sam and dean manage to get him out of the green room in time. they’re all like phew glad we escaped that time to reconvene and figure out our next moves. dean wants to go get dinner but sam and adam, having been freshly tortured, vote to just go back to bobbys. adam goes to sleep very relieved he’s not possessed by an angel and then—he wakes up covered in dirt, fresh from the grave.

okay. this is a soulmate time loop, he thinks, and he assumes he was supposed to meet someone at a diner after everything went down because when the fuck else, so he resigns himself to torture via zachariah part 2 and just lets things happen like they did before. after everyone escapes, he sides with dean about going out for dinner. at the diner he’s super nervous looking around for who here is his soulmate but he doesn’t see anyone except the older married woman serving them and like, a mom and her kids. so he goes to sleep confused and—wakes up covered in dirt fresh from the grave again.

now he’s annoyed and confused because when the hell else was he supposed to meet someone? this time he decides fuck it and doesn’t even pretend to side with zachariah, avoiding torture part 3 and the green room altogether, and ultimately has a weird bonding day with his brothers during which he meets nobody remarkably special. wakes up covered in dirt AGAIN.

so he plays around with things for a few days trying to figure out what he’s getting wrong, like going along with the original day and demanding to go to a hospital because hey, he’s pre-med, chances are his soulmate could work in the medical field too, or when that doesn’t work he tries different restaurants, makes sam and dean take him other places on avoiding-zachariah-days, runs away (with a better excuse than going out for a beer), just anything he can think of to make the day go differently so he can meet new people that may or may not be his soulmate. but every day, without fail, he wakes up covered in fucking dirt. he’s so sick of washing it all off.

now let’s say that in this au, you’re not really supposed to tell people when you’re in a soulmate time loop, because privacy or whatever. but adam is at his wits end and he eventually caves and tells sam and dean about it all. to his surprise, they’re not weirded out that he’s being open about such a personal matter—they don’t think it’s a soulmate thing at all. their minds jump to archangel magic; gabriel or michael could be controlling it as a way to get dean to say yes. adam is disappointed because he really did want to meet his soulmate but now this time loop seemingly isn't even about him, it’s about dean.

so sam and dean are in the know and they want adam to recreate the first day as much as possible to see where fate originally took him, which means going along with zachariah and the whole torture thing again while everyone keeps an eye out for gabriel or a soulmate (just in case) or any indication that michaels playing them to get what he wants. but there’s nothing. no soulmate, nobody that could be gabriel, nothing to say that michael’s pulling the strings. so it’s back to being covered in dirt again for adam.

he keeps telling sam and dean about the loop because even adam’s convinced it has to be archangel stuff; why else wouldn’t he have met his soulmate yet? soulmate loops don’t go on this long, they just don’t. and eventually, after weeks of the same day, he is so visibly worn down and upset that dean caves. he wasn’t gonna say yes to save adam before, but the kid has lived through this time loop over and over again and now he at least knows enough about the supernatural that him, sam, bobby, and cas could team up to probably figure out a way to get him out of it.

so dean says yes to michael, and he actually lets it happen. he becomes the michael sword. adam feels very guilty (but also kinda pleased that dean did it for him, especially remembering how hostile he’d been to them on the first day). after the beautiful room, he and sam immediately jump on trying to find a way to get dean back, to get michael out of him, but then adam wakes up covered in dirt fresh from the grave and he is so fucking mad.

michael got what he wanted, right? he got his sword, he got the yes, so whyyy is adam still stuck in a loop. adam knows he was always a backup so michael can’t possibly actually want him to say yes, but here he is, showering off grave dirt again. he tells sam and dean everything (again) including dean saying yes and it not working, so they think it has to be gabriel. once again they follow the original day (and many days after that) looking for gabriel (ignoring adam saying they’ve looked for him so many times, why would he come out now? but thus is the manner of a time loop—adam can tell them what happens all he wants but its up to them to believe him and trust in their past selves.) sam seems to think that gabriel would give in if he was caught, and he actually accuses a lot of random strangers of being an archangel which doesn’t go down great, but ultimately they have to give up that train of thought. back to square one. back to dirt.

adam is sick and tired of the loop and he’s sick and tired of explaining everything to sam and dean so he gives up for a day, letting it run exactly like it did that first time, trying to remember what he said and what he did. he’s hoping he’ll notice something new, like a moment it all went wrong, and he’s honestly just hoping for a bit of a break.

except this time, things do change, but not in a good way. adam doesn’t escape the green room. he’s right behind sam and dean, just like he was that first day, but he’s gotten lazy and is just a few too many steps behind and then—the door slams shut, locking him in. he’s freaking out a little because this has never happened before but he makes himself stay calm because hey, even if he does say yes, he’ll wake up at bobbys all covered in dirt again. right? right??

well. michael comes, adam says yes, and he’s waiting for the loop to start up again, but it just… doesn’t. adam is angry. and confused. did michael actually want him? why wouldn’t he want his sword, why would he choose a backup? he literally already had dean, why did he only end the loop after adam said yes?

alas, michael puts him to sleep before adam can think too hard about what happened. the apocalypse goes as it does in the show with everyone ending up in the cage, but for adam? watching sam get rescued twice? it’s sooo much harder, because he remembers when his brothers would have saved him. he remembers dean saying yes just to get him out of the loop. he remembers both of them dropping everything to help him figure it out. he remembers them spouting family at him over and over again and he remembers believing it. but of course it just so happened that the one day he didn’t tell them about the loop it ended and he got stuck in hell.

for a long time adam is 1000% sure that sam and dean will come for him. he’s not even a little worried about it because, once again, dean said yes to michael for adam. they wouldn’t leave him down there. but the years keep going by and he keeps not being rescued and it’s hard to reconcile the sam and dean that abandoned him in hell with the brothers who fought so hard to help him.

a few years down the line, once michael and adam can interact without yelling at each other and have actually become friends, adam talks about the loop and his confusion about it and his frustration at michael for causing it. but then michael confesses that he was in a time loop too. he thought it was about dean, perhaps orchestrated by his father as distant approval of the apocalypse or something. michael remembers all the times he didn’t make it to the room in time, he remembers dean saying yes and having a vessel and then suddenly not. he remembers all the times zachariah couldn’t reach adam even in his dreams, all the times adam fought off the angels. he doesn’t know why he was in the loop; if it wasn’t god, what was it? why was it both of them?

but adam is listening and he is connecting the dots. a time loop involving two people that only ends after they meet? yeah, he’s pissed and also excited and annoyed and awed and really just confused because apparently, apparently, he and Thee Archangel Michael, Prince Of Heaven, are soulmates.

but hey. they’ve got nothing but time to figure it all out.

and now if we wanna pump the midam breaks we can ponder the other time loop in spn as well as other soulmate pairings. bc apparently it works for angels too, so. in mystery spot, did sam wake up that same next tuesday and think, oh god, i meet my soulmate on the day dean dies? are dean and cas soulmates? how many times did dean claw his way out of his grave? how many times did cas pull dean from hell?

and thinking about chuck too. why did he decide on time loops for soulmate meetings? are they drafts of his story? Is it fun watching people relive the same day over and over again? and how are michael and adam soulmates? does chuck decide who’s paired with who? who else could make that decision?

immediately going back to midam, michael, upon being told by adam that uh, dude, i think we’re soulmates, has to deal with the fact that even though dean was his supposed destined vessel, even though the apocalypse was only supposed to happen as michaeldean vs samifer, even though he’d only resurrected adam to use as bait, apparently all that is wrong? he lived that day over and over again and was only set free by adam. he was never meant for dean, the apocalypse was never supposed to happen, he was always gonna end up in the cage, wasn’t he? the loop wasn’t god’s approval; it was actually him being thrown away, erased from the narrative. at the same time, he’s realizing he actually is a bit fond of this human he’s possessing, and it’s horribly jarring to have everything he’s ever believed in completely shattered just as he develops feelings for the first time.

the horrifying realization that god put them in the cage on purpose and wouldn’t be coming for them paired with knowing that sam and dean never got to know or trust adam in the way he knew and trusted them so they wouldn’t be coming either. and then lucifer is freed and it’s maybe, maybe us next? but it takes hundreds of years, and when the cage is opened and the winchesters come calling to tell michael hey, your dad seriously sucks ass, michael can only say that is very old news to us, how can we help beat him?

it’s just a very juicy concept to me. sooo much to work with.

#once again i have gotten carried away #oh and i knowww there's more to this #this is straight up almost 2k #and we can even still have michael going back to dad after all of this #chuck decided he was adams soulmate and he was Right so what if hes right about ending the world too?#or like. u chose to leave me in the cage and now ur gonna pick lucifer over me to help you?? let me show you what i can do for you even now #see how powerful i still am after all you did to me #mine #midam #it’s fun to enjoy soulmate aus without delving into fate and predestination #but it also Is fun to get meta with it #mmm let’s consider the implications of a meddling god who only cares about entertainment and how that intersects with a world #in which everyone has a perfect Other #best of #soulmate aus

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