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alifelearned · 2 years

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traumaalchemy · 8 months

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yourheartinyourmouth · 1 year

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people will really be like “I understand that you’re neurodivergent, but it’s inconveniencing me so could you just be normal?”

#and then they claim they’re not ableist at all 🙃#adhd #neurodivergent #fml #oh sorry my crippling developmental disorder isn’t convenient for your life #let me just completely rearrange the frontal lobe of my brain #because GODS FORBID you be INCONVENIENCED #I’m soooo sorry I can’t be a fully autonomous and completely self-sustaining machine #and that sometimes I am not capable of being a fully functioning self sufficient adult and I need a lot of help #so sooooo sorry about my inherited genetic condition and the associated trauma I have from it #I’ll just go kms to save you the TROUBLE of sometimes being INCONVENIENCED by me

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sunkern-plus · 11 months

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funny (in hindsight) little ocd compulsion i remember having (partially because of autism most likely): when i was like 11 i was told by one of my teachers (one of the shit ones) that people had to wash their hands and NOT run the water while putting on soap because if you DID run the water, it contributes to global warming

but little ocdtism me did not understand the concept of abstract thinking, and i jumped right to "oh god if i run the water while i'm putting soap on my hands i'm personally responsible for the earth getting destroyed"

#actuallyocd #my childhood obsession/compulsion cycles were SOOOOO funny in hindsight if i think about it #like. i HAVE to wear dresses from ONLY certain counries but NEVER hungary or sri lanka because #apparently that's where ALLLLL the sweatshops are. no other country but those. (i don't remember what my mom said was my Evil Countries list #or like. by running the water while using soap i am Personally Responsible for millions of climate change related deaths #come to think of it late elementary/early middle school was both around the time my positive schizo-ocd symptoms #and plurality stuff (that i DISTINCTLY remember) occurred. which makes sense because fifth grade was the Trauma Year #and schizospec disorders while being developmental in some extent are ALSO heavily associated with trauma #and people with tendencies to develop psychotic disorders are more likely to become psychotic or schizospec if suffering trauma recently #but like most of my trauma was bullying and REALLY subtle ableism that somehow my dumb brain picked up on. how was i traumatized by THAT

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angria · 9 months

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Parents are visiting tomorrow till Saturday. Kind of anxious. The last few trips have been fairly decent. Except that one trip last summer when mother dropped the huge bomb of taking responsibility for her role in my trauma and apologizing. That completely fucked with my head and ever since, I'm afraid to have a similar conversation.

It's like I completely detach from the past, shoving it down, locking it away, in order to function around them. Because otherwise, I can't take the dichotomy and improvement. I want to hate them. They ruined me. I never stood a chance by being their child.

Yet, in the past 3ish years, things have improved. And I don't want to admit that. Because what then? What does that make the trauma? And then who am I? Who am I without trauma? It needs to make sense. Hating them, rejecting them makes sense given what they did. I know I'm being all or nothing. But, I can't handle the grey. I can't deal with the both/and.

It needs to make sense. It needs to fit in a box. It needs to have a clear label. It needs to be bad. All bad.

#cptsd #child abuse #child neglect #developmental trauma #toxic mother #parental abuse #disordered attachment #you ruined me #never stood a chance #it's not fair #who am i without trauma?#angriadm

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thestonerwitch · 11 months

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“Your trauma made you hot at least.”

Thanks it also gave me brain damage 🙃

#mental health #mental wellness #mental illness #cptsd problems #cptsd life #cptsd symptoms #cptsdwarrior #cptsd coping #trauma #somatic symptom disorder #developmental trauma #girls who smoke weed #stoner witch #healing

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adhd-dog-guy · 2 years

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I LOVE VENN DIAGRAMS THAT SHOWCASE MY NEURODIVERGENCES (also I didn’t make these, it’s from an account I follow on insta)

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journeysendinlovers · 10 months

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I think it would be funny to write out all the disabilities I know I have just to like. Look at it. Like damn there's a lot going on with you...

#i'm becoming visually impaired bcs i have progressive vision loss #which is caused by my connective tissue disorder #which is a contributing factor in my chronic pain #but my autism is also a contributing factor in that #because trauma in autistic people contributes to neuropathic pain #oh yea AuDHD and OCD developmental triple threat #there's more too

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dissociationawareness · 2 years

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Neurodivergence and Autoimmune have two things in common:

- Each individual diagnosis is maybe 2% (likely less) of the world population, but all together the categorizies make like 15% of the world population (which is EXTREMELY common)!

- It's often difficult to tell where one diagnosis ends and another begins because of symptom overlap, and that co-occurrences are so common... and henceforth likely exist on a spectrum with many genes and factors responsible.

#fun facts #co-occurring disorders #I'd also like to note that we consider severe dissociative disorders like DID/OSDD to be a developmental disorder #but we also follow structural dissociation #also... what's ironic here is that some autoimmune conditions link to trauma and stress in some way #but that's also a whole bag of snakes I think #cus like... we're not talking a straight point A to B kinda thing #then... I also think to some extent there might be a genetic component to all developmental disorders #so you get the right mixture of genes for DXs and the right triggers to activate those genes #humans are weird #it's a mixed bag #but weird is cool

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traumaalchemy · 8 months

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rowanhoney · 1 year

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complex trauma is a bitch because it will be so complex that professionals won’t know what to do with you and it means you definitely won’t get any help and the best attempt is like. 6 sessions of CBT where someone tells you to cook for yourself or go on some walks but that literally does absolutely nothing because complex trauma looms over the every day and has effects you can’t even pinpoint yourself and without help it feels like you will somehow destroy your life again yourself in a new somehow scarier and more permanent way

#I’m okay I swear hahaha #this is just what January does to me #always makes me question my existence and my past #also things tend to happen in January that remind me I am actually fucked #the rest of the year I’ll be like ok! I’m functioning pretty well despite some severe trauma that continued into my 20s and never rested #and then January I’ll be like damn so that rly does affect literally everything doesn’t it #and the professionals will shrug me off #cos again it’s too complex for them #I’ve had soooooo many conditions theorised abt what’s wrong w me #and I’m like really very sure it’s c-ptsd on top of combined adhd #like it’s nothing too bad #but also I was born with NAS so there js an extremely high chance I have a developmental disorder #but cos my medical history below 2 years old cannot be accessed #like they just don’t believe me idk #the nhs is in fucking shambles and even if it wasn’t it’s a hard process

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angria · 2 years

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Of course I had to wait until the last minute to mention the dreams.

He was surprised by the level of rejection coming from him in the dream. I told him that it's pretty much routine when it comes to attachment dreams. Considering my stupid fucking wish is inherently rejecting. He said I focus on the "negative" of our relationship rather than the good that has developed over the years.

I'm on fire from the amount of self-loathing. I just want a different life. I want a new life with a new childhood. I want different parents. I want T. Which is impossible. All of it is impossible.

I don't know how to stop wishing for the impossible.

#fucking hell i hate myself #cptsd #bpd #child abuse #child neglect #developmental trauma #disordered attachment #it's not fair #i wish i had that #i just want T #stupid fuck #just need to be dead #hate my miserable existence #therapy #nightmares #angriadm

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fibrefox · 1 year

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it appears to me that when a person is exhibiting malignant projection, it may be a reflection of how they would treat someone else if the roles were reversed, or it may be a reflection of fear of past events repeating

but an outside observer may see both as a tactic of manipulation. and it is, but the motivations are different. both have elements of an attempt to control the narrative. both are rooted in fear.

but I don't think it's bold to assert that some fear repercussions, and some fear repeat trauma. and treating everyone like malicious actors will not help differentiate the two. maybe there really isn't much difference, both can sprout from the same root of abuse

if we could start from a place of compassion for people who are projecting and recognize it as a fear behaviour, there is a chance of saving those who are eager to be saved

not to suggest anyone needs to demonstrate grace and kindness for abusive people. I'm mostly considering mental health professionals, who are meant to be helpers. my developmental trauma and autism went undiagnosed and labelled as borderline personality disorder just because I am complicated and hard to understand. my complex ptsd and asd looked like emotional warfare to so many professionals over the years due to a near absolute vacuum of compassion and only negative and discriminatory bias to fill it. "but your mom didn't hit you? [takes notes]" fuck off. she systematically destroyed my psyche. psychic wounds are wounds.

mental health professionals are supposed to be the skilled people who can make these distinctions clear, and provide care accordingly. I am so saddened by how many people get chucked into the cluster b bucket and then stonewalled against accessing effective care based entirely on a disgusting prejudice

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disability-on-screen · 11 months

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#stranger things #autistic coded character #eleven #characters with developmental trauma #not accepting discourse on this lol #every argument I see that eleven isn't autistic is basically oriented around the fact that she clearly has developmental trauma #newsflash: trauma disorders and autism are not mutually exclusive #eleven displays clear signs of autistic behaviors #as well as autistic ways of socializing #she had specific vulnerabilities which are explainable through autism #she displays divergence from her peers with whom she was raised #difficulty communicating #the signals are endless #she is absolutely developmentally disabled #in addition to having a trauma disorder #again these two things can and do co-occur #please have some nuance

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