#depresso expresso

[mamamittens]

Soft thoughts to apologize for not writing for my event today (the last official day)

NVM these are sad thoughts my bad 😬

I wonder if there's someone that met Ace and knew his parents well, both of them. And didn't realize he was their son until his execution. Frozen in disbelief thinking that Ace looked nothing like Roger and too much like his mother (I like to think he had her smile, not the toothy, kick your ass smile, but the soft, deliriously happy smile where his heart was fit to burst. That one was all Rouge). Does he mourn like his father or is the quiet self destruction all his mother? Heart too big for his chest, did he feel relief when he was finally free of it?

I wonder what dream Dadan gave up on if the idea that you age poorly if you give up on your dreams in OP is true. She was beautiful as a young woman. What aspirations did she have that faltered into the bandit life we know she has now? And based on how we saw her, it's interesting that she didn't get any 'worse' after taking Ace in given her vocal displeasure.

Does Ussop get nervous when one of the other crew members gets sick? Does he think of his mother? How much does he remember of her passing, or does he just remember desperately telling tall tales in the hopes that his dad would come back? Does he ever tell a lie and desperately hope for once it's the truth?

Does Luffy have a hard time watching bonfires? The bigger they are, the worse he handles it. Does he think of Ace on his knees finally understanding how loved he is, or does he think of Sabo screaming in the flames? Does he smell garbage burning or just flesh? A little sail boat where it doesn't belong or beads pinging across cobblestone.

Does Teach miss the noise? Does he miss being surrounded by 'family'? Or does he not even register the chill where safety used to rest? Does he value in hindsight how fondly he was regarded by so many? Do you think he hears wet gasps when passing a kitchen?

Does Doflamingo blame himself for how his brother turned out? Does he understand why Corazon betrayed him? Is there ever a time where he wishes someone understood the horrors of his childhood? How does he feel when he sees someone else wearing black feathers? Is it longing or rage?

Does Law think of home when he smells antiseptic, or sickness and fire? Does he crave dishes with a tang of amber lead despite knowing the cost? When he goes to a new island, how closely does he inspect the well? Does he respect other doctors or hold them in contempt for his homeland? Does he even remember their faces well enough to see their pieces in the mirror? Or is his face entirely foreign to his memories?

Does Sabo feel more at home undercover in a mansion or sneaking in trash heaps? Or does he always crave the wild undergrowth of the forest, imagining tree houses tucked out of sight. Does he feel strangely disappointed paying for his meals or running away from the tab alone? Did he feel bereft when he turned 17, like he was missing something or broke a promise?

#mittens muses #i said soft thoughts but theyre just sad ngl #depresso expresso #one piece #portgas d ace #marshal d teach #sabo op #straw hat luffy #ussop one piece #donquixote doflamingo #traflagar law

[beware-bittercoffee]

Buffy in the season 1 finale: “Giles, I don’t wanna die :(“

Me, every time without fail: “Lol that’s so unrealistic. Imagine not wanting to die as a teenager. Wild.”

#incorrect quotes #buffy the vampire slayer #depression #depresso expresso #buffy summers #rupert giles

[animatormations]

This phrase popped into my mind and I felt like drawing a sad Taiyo with it lol

#depresso expresso #fursona meme #what did you say to her??

[numerousenbees]

ik living for other people and pets isn’t the whole point of a life worth living, but my cats existence makes it so i cant just decide to poof cus that is a shit thing to do to my cat (and to people but im more attached to my cat)

#mental health #bad mental health #anxiety #social anxiety #depresso expresso #without the expresso #im kinda only living because i dont know where my cat would go of i died

[fictionalabyss]

I’ve been neglecting everything lately.

Not only is my mental health in the garbage, but we caught the flu like 3 weeks ago (going into week 4) and I have pneumonia 🙃

@sorenmarie87 is the only tumblr person I have regular contact with lately. And there’s even days where I feel like I’m neglecting her too, even though I KNOW she doesn’t feel that way and understands.

I’m tired of feeling like this. Like I can’t write, can’t think, can’t function. This was such a huge part of my life for so long that I actually really struggle with not being able to do it still. I should have been back by now. 

 I have WIPs. I have things to post. I have things to write. I just...... can’t.

I can’t do any of it.

Wtf is wrong with me?

#self loathing i guess #depresso expresso

[mirror3rror]

All my tears have been used up

I'm trying my best, but I guess my best wasn't enough

#im tryin my best #depressing shit #depresso expresso #yay...

[hatzilla]

#coffeebreak #mentalhealth #depresso expresso #quarter life crisis #dodie #this song has traveled far with me #burrowed in the deep abscess of my heart #the pain setting in as i look back on my life and grieve what has been lost #if I couldve done more #I'm 25 I'm 25 #am i enough? #will i ever be enough? #i am blessed by those who still love and care for me now and have not left #but how can i protect them? #how do I escape the fear of loss? #dumb night rambles #the tags are for me #Spotify

[httpshamilton]

Marcus: Treat spiders the way you want to be treated.

Callum: Killed without hesitation.

Marcus: No.

#formula 2 #f2 incorrect quotes #marcus armstrong #callum ilott #*cue callum’s Spotify playlist #depresso expresso

[mindless-tomfoolery]

#mindless doodles #mindless tomfoolery art #digital art #my art crap #my art <3 #mindlesstomfoolery #what do i tag this #brain rot #kinda depressing #depresso expresso #feeling numb #comfortably numb #i feel numb

[depressoexpresso5000]

Please read

This is my first time ever doing anything on Tumblr so I'm sorry if it's messy for a bit lol. But requests are always open and I'll try getting to every single one of them. I write for literally anything except for rape cuz uhhhh hell no. Also all my stories are x male reader cuz it seems like there's barley any anywhere. But reader can be dominant or submissive.

Anywayyyy can we just appreciate how hot these dudes are?

And the fact that's not all of the hot ones is just crazy 😩

#slashers #male reader #newcomer #depresso expresso #hot serial killers #slashers x male reader

[wnyoung]

my life is literally complete. i saw ruel live.

#depresso expresso #ruel #i love that man so so so much #he slays

[18moosie]

I think I'm just tired of being tired

#just a thought #idk what to tag this as #depresso expresso #insomnia sucks ass

[pearlotter]

I’m writing down my thoughts here because I’m tired of keeping all my feelings inside and pretending like everything is ok

And I feel like there is no where else safe to post them without the fear that someone will yell at me or try to make me feel worse than I already do about them

It’s so hard watching every one else “lap” me

With new models and all these opportunities

I’m happy for them, I want to celebrate their wins

but my stupid fucking brain takes the opportunity to tell me how fucking bad I am at everything

“Why can’t we do that?” “Why are you such a failure”

“This is why no one likes you” “you’re so fake”

As thought I haven’t spent all my energy for the last few months escaping a toxic situation and fighting for my life living paycheck to paycheck

Or the fact that I feel so lonely in this space, that even the friends I have made don’t even want to talk to me

Im burnt out but I can’t afford to be I have to keep going, even if it hurts

All this stress and isolation feels like acid in my throat from crying, I think about quitting daily

The loneliness of suffering while smiling because you’ve always been the strong friend

I just wish someone would care

“I see you, I see your struggle”

#ifyouseeityoudont #too many emotions #depresso expresso #safe place #no comment #no interaction #vent tag

[numerousenbees]

not my duviri drifter character, but couldnt find a screenshot of this line so had to look for a gameplay.

this line is my mood today

#warframe #warframe duviri #warframe drifter #no spoons #depresso expresso #honestly if i didnt have class and homework i would still be asleep #might draw my drifter in this scene if i gain the motivation and patience

[fictionalabyss]

honestly, you guys, I thought I’d be writing again by now.  But I’m just getting worse and worse. I’m sorry.

#i barely even take care of myself these days #depresso expresso

[diludae]

You ever spend 2/3 of your day being all depresso expresso in bed and then you get dressed to go nowhere and think "wow, who knew I was such a bad bitch"

#bad bitch #depresso expresso #°✶ 𝙙𝙞𝙡𝙪𝙙𝙖𝙚 [𝙧𝙖𝙢𝙗𝙡𝙚!]