#depression mumbles

[blistering-typhoons]

"Thank you, my dear."

#dopamine straight to the ass (that's medically accurate surely) #at least i hope that's what he says- babygirl why u so mumble #anyways depression gone i love them!!! #sherlock holmes #granada holmes #mrs hudson #silver blaze #jeremy brett

[musicalchaos07]

Nancy thinking Jonathan found someone else because who wouldn't fall in love with him

#i made myself sad #so we all have to suffer #she takes such a wild leap in s4 #like girl relax #he's still obsessed with you he's just mumbly and depressed #but also the fact that she thinks its an option breaks my heart

[noiselessbuck]

how to wash your dishes with autism/sensory issues

i live in an apartment and have to wash all of my own dishes by hand. this is what i have found helpful

getting started: i also have depression which often means dishes get left for a while. i have an agreement with my housemates about how long is ok for dishes to be left not done. everything about living with other people starts with communication but ultimately they are my dishes i have to do them no one else can.

starting: notice how you are doing sensory wise every day. if it's a day where i had to wear my weirdly texture rain jacket my socks got wet and the bus was loud then that means just as i come home is Not a good time to do dishes. i Will start flinching at every sound, hate everything i am touching, and feel gross for an hour afterwards if i do the dishes right now. so i'm going to wait.

when is a good time to do dishes? if today isn't a bad depression day i often say "im going to do the dish" as in: if i just ate cereal im only going to wash my bowl and spoon. it's not a lot of work, it hasn't been sitting in the sink, and the longer i can keep up doing exactly the dishes i just used the less dishes i have to do at once.

if there are dishes piled up i take note of that and find a time when say, ive been inside for a while, ive been just on my computer, or phone, or writing for a while, this means im not sensory overwhelmed.

what to do while doing the dishes:

no one said you have to only be doing the dishes. put on some music, an audiobook, call your friend, put on your favorite podcast or podfic. you distract yourself

how to leave the dishes:

the thing to me that makes or breaks how icky i feel while doing the dishes is how they are left. i personally hate touching cold wet things to i try to have as little water as possible in the sink while my dishes are sitting there. but i know that w something like peanut butter, melted cheese, oatmeal, yogurt, or dough from baking those things will cement to the dishes if you don't deal with them. you can either do a bit of cleaning right when you put them in the sink or let them soak. i try to leave enough dry edge so i can tip the water out later with a dry hand

sensory issues with dishes:

the main problem with dishes is that there are a lot of sensory things happening at once and they're all quite irregular.

sound:

music or even earplugs can help with the sounds of the sink the dishes clinking each other ect. but also running the water a little less and setting the dishes down slowly can do wonders for having less loud sounds. also if you have a garbage disposal doing that only at the very end.

texture:

dish gloves help some people with the textures but me personally i don't like the gloves because it adds another texture of the inside of the gloves and augments the texture of anything that i am touching. but someone else may love gloves for exactly the same reasons.

the other thing to note about textures is the tools you are using. i like to use a sponge for most things but for things i don't want to touch as much i use a scrub brush w a stick so i'm far away from whatever soup is still at the bottom of my pot or whatever.

temperature:

temperature is one of the more overlooked senses but with dishes its very prevalent. you never want the water too hot because you really can burn yourself but having the water at a good temperature and then letting it run over all the dishes will make it so each dish you are touching is a relatively uniform temperature instead of your tea cup being hot the dishes from this morning being cold.

soap:

you can try to find soap that has a scent that bothers you the least, you can find soap that comes in a container that makes sense to you and easiest for you. if the soap bottle is getting to be a weird texture you can wash said soap bottle to get it back to its original texture.

other sensory notes:

you can do any activity you want in less light, so long as you have enough to work safely.

you can do any activity sitting down. maybe for the sink you'll want a stool instead or a chair near by to take breaks in

if you have people who can help you, you can ask for help. you can ask for a buddy to do a task with, or someone to body double, or you can ask reasonably if someone else can do the dishes on a bad day. these are all tips for making it a not as bad of a time and for figuring out when are times it won't be really bad. but if it is going to be bad, or if say there's complicated dishes from baking or cooking, you can ask for help and it Makes Sense to ask for help.

where to put away the dishes:

if you notice that something sensory sucks about retrieving clean dishes you have the power to prevent that from happening. example: pulling a glass cup that is stacked inside another glass cup is squeaky and bad texture to me.

if drying dishes is hard for you maybe get a drying rack or lay down a dish towle and put them on there or put them away semi wet but keep the cupboards open so there won't be anything gross

really bad days:

you can keep some disposable plates and cups and silverware for bad days, there's nothing wrong with that. if you're worried about the environment get recycle-able or compostable ones. you can also see what kinds of food come with their own container or dont necessary need a second container. example: if you have your own personal container of take out or ice cream you can eat that from its container. or mixed together stuff box salads or premade stuff can be eaten from their containers

i hope this is helpful to somebody, these are all only from my personal experience, leave more tips in rbs if you have them

#autistic spectrum #sensory issues #accesibility #snake mumbles #explaining #actually autistic #depression

[freckleslikestars]

Let’s talk Elegy because I’m currently working on the living Polaroids for it and I’m having thoughts

First things first - the bowling shoes really accentuate the height difference in this scene. She’s tiny. Also, they’re so goddamn flirty in this scene, from her delivery of ‘I would have thought that after three years you’d know exactly what that look was’ to his showing off and her impressed smirk. It’s almost too much.

He’s showing off and what’s sickening is that she likes it

You’re in public! There are children around! It’s vulgar and inappropriate! Please get a room!

But, no a more serious note this scene in particular definitely feels like they’re both doing their best to pretend she’s not dying - we we know for sure now after the last episode that she is (‘Agent Scully is in the hospital.’ ‘She’s undergoing some imaging tests. Her, uh, oncologist was concerned about some microscopy results that, uh, her tumour may be metastasising’ and ‘agent Scully is dying!’) there’s no doubt in any of their minds that this is the end and I always get the feeling with Elegy that they are both taking each and every day as it comes at this point and cherishing the moments that they get to spend out in the field with one another - he’ll show of his bowling skills and she’ll smile just a little more than normal and tease him just a little more, and maybe if they just keep having days like this - good days, where she doesn’t feel so bad - they’ll be alright. Obviously, it goes south quite quickly, but they’re treasuring the good moments.

Thought two: that sceptical look she gives him. Dana Scully is the queen of sceptical looks but this is one of my favourites. This is one that says ‘I was so turned on moments ago by your bowling prowess but you’ve just poured soda on the ground and now I’m concerned for your welfare’

I’ve never noticed before the way he wraps his arm around her to show her what he’s looking at. I dunno, it’s just a real tender moment and I feel insane I feel like I want to gnaw through the very wood they’re laying on.

He looks so lost. Screaming crying throwing up

#and don’t even get me started on her session with Karen kosseff #sorry but look at the little mumbling his lips do when she walks out in that last gif #David duchovney’s pouty bottom lip deserves an Oscar #they’re so !!!! #I did this instead of making living Polaroids because I really don’t want to watch demons and gethsemane and feel depressed right now #my gifs #the x files #msr #txf #x files #xf gifs #elegy #season four #cancer arc

[bas-writes]

I realized many jujutsu fans, especially after this week's leaks, start joking they wish it got one piece treatment. because oda doesn't kill his little meow meows and keeps resurrecting everyone etc etc.

you fools. you silly jesters. have no idea what are you wishing for.

#look if oda made that chapter you would cry your insides out #if that scene made you depressed and hysteric when done by gege in oda's case it would traumatize you for life and all next incarnations #I am thanking fanlore god on my knees I haven't read 'you got it from here' from oda #oda traumatized fans with a fucking BOAT #don't put jujutools into his hands #bas mumbles #jjk spoilers #jjkspoilers #jjk leaks

[plushpyromoved]

some kind of animal or creature found in the lost and found bin

#they look like amoung us crewmate #i drew thiz in ms paint with a mouse 👍 #okay to rb btw ignore the tagz look at my creature <:] #feeling so off latley?? idk man u ever get that feeling of like helplessness? or something #probably just a depressive episode or somthin feeling very unwanted and bleehhhgh #mumbles oc tag #oc: mumbles #🔥.art

[badplush]

This is mostly a half joke but can someone please be proud of me for cleaning my fridge, brushing my teeth for the first time since last September and taking a shower

#stuffie mumbles #chronic illness #chronic fatigue #actuallydepressed #actually depressed

[sixft0ver]

Oh dear lord—

Being a geto kinnie means that it's hard for you to articulate the right words to express how you feel about yourself because you've become too detached to the point where you aren't certain of your own thoughts.

Being a geto kinnie means that you couldn't bring yourself to ask for help because you only let people view you as someone who's head strong and someone they can rely on. Vulnerability and apathetic-ness makes you feel guilty and you hate yourself for that because on another end, you have an undeniably big God Complex.

Being a geto kinnie means that you're not the type to easily let new people into your life, you have a heavy case of trust issues. Hence why you have the tendency to only be so protective towards the few people you care for.

Being a geto kinnie means that you're unable to forget your past mistakes that haunt you till this day. You are unable to forgive yourself because you've lived long enough to know what couldn't be forgiven.

#spreading my geto kinnie propaganda because i have only been able to talk about this because depressed geto is finally animated #kkyun mumbles #I'm okay y'all this is just me and my analysis towards geto's character #because believe me I pretty much shocked myself while writing this #jjk #geto suguru

[soggypotatoes]

how do gamers do it...... i started playing the one game that really grabs me (the one game i played as a kid also) and i play it for hours but the minute i stop playing i am FLOODED with anxiety as the list of things i haven't done flashes before my eyes and my brain is tired from gaming but also if i dont get SOMETHING done today ill be up all night (again - this has happened twice in a row) stressing out about the fact that i spent an entire day not getting anything done

#luckily my laptop cannot play this game #i can play it by using a free trial on an app #that i cant get a pirated copy of to work #so itll be gone in 2 weeks #but i am enjoying it #it's fun #but god.. i used to play this game for hours every day #i guess i was a lot less productive then in general? or too depressed #i could stand to work out how to let myself chill though #the only form of relaxation i let myself have is reading #and reading feels productive for me bc i feel like i have to read as many books as i can all the time #so i dont have much to do that involves just chilling without keeping count of progress #so playing this game was an experiment in seeing if i can let myself spend a day doing nothing #but i cannot.. i panique.. im too tired to clean or work on my assignment or progress in my book.. what do #ed mumbles

[anicehomicidaltree]

“Nadel und Faden” (or Needle and Stitch for you english speakers) is such a Mind coded song

German:

English:

#I haven’t listened to the english version bc I think I would cringe my eyes out like with every dubbed german thing #but fr this is a mind song to me #like he’s blaming the kid for their lack of motor skills but their literally just a kid #basically if u haven’t heard it (I don’t blame u) it’s about an adult bringing way too serious equipment for something minor #like a child gets a scrape and the first thing they suggest is stitches #and then blaming them for not being able to do their own sutures #this may come across as me infantalizing heart but i think this is just how mind acts not just to heart #he panics in serious situations and goes to the most dramatic solution like the “I’ll cut you loose” line and all that #just like how needles and stitches are unfit for a simple scrape; killing your emotions is not the correct way to deal with depression #anyways I just bought harvey’s new eyes on switch and I’m real excited to play it :]]]]]]]]] #chonny jash #cccc #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cj mind #harveys neue augen #harveys new eyes #edna and harvey #edna bricht aus #tree mumblings

[mumblers-lobby]

Crowley is about to have a terrible Christmas this year, let's gather and watch him decay/hj

#good omens #crowley #aziraphale #good omens 2 #good omens s2 #ineffable husbands #gos2 #also i'm taking the colorchanging hair HC and injecting it into him #people are gonna think he got his hair dyed for a change and my man it's just depressed #mumbling

[kingdom-creatin]

Benjamin and Kasidy are talking, Julian stops by their table to deliver something to Ben.

Kasidy: Why hello stranger! I haven't seen you in days.

Julian: I've been filling out reports for Starfleet Medical. [He hands a padd to Ben]

Kasidy: I knew there was a reason I didn't join Starfleet, I couldn't do this paperwork.

Julian: Smart. [He receives the padd back and walks away. His tone is flat and tired.]

Kasidy: Well, there was a time when you couldn't get him to shut up! [She glances at Julian, confused and slightly concerned.]

Ben: I think I like him better this way.

Kasidy: That's mean. [Her tone is reproachful.]

Ben: I was just kidding. [He laughs breathily and smiles.]

Kasidy: No, you weren't. [She looks unhappy and shakes her head softly.]

[Ben's smile drops and they look at each other, both bothered.]

---

I don't even know what I want to say about this moment rn, just, every time I see it, it makes me love Kasidy more and simultaneously really want to just shake Sisko around.

#and give julian some augment grade anti-depressants and therapy #her and garak are the only ones to really comment on how much of julian has been lost in the war #the war and the reveal of his augmentations and the prison camp all one after the other #how much he's changed and not for the better #obviously they're all depressed and traumatized and just constantly hurting from everything they've gone through #but the casualness of ben's “i think i like him better this way” despite all that julian being “this way” means about his mental state #makes me mad #julian bashir #benjamin sisko #kasidy yates #ds9 #kingdom mumbles

[bas-writes]

i'm at this level of life when a good, well-earned meal almost brings me to tears because life is good and camembert pizza with grapes exists in it

#it's 3rd day in a row when im more tired than depressed so im really looking forwards this week #especially since i have 4 days off at the end of it hehe #bas mumbles #cw food

[kawee-chan]

@sugaryspirits said: @kawee-chan 6, 14, 18, and 22! I’m desperately looking for new songs

i gotchu friendo u vub ✨

6. song that makes me feel like i could kill god

i hope you don't mind metal cuz i cant believe i nearly forgot about the entirety of Wuthering Height's Shadow Cabinet album. lots of the same vibes in this but SPECIFICALLY this one gives me big fuck you god vibes...the speed, the lyrics--HO.

14. song that i’d make everyone listen to

I'd tell everyone to listen to Cosmo Sheldrake cuz he's a VIBE. but Linger Longer makes me want to

18. song that makes me want to burn the world down

a super fitting one uvu ✨ Runner up from the same artist and album: Joan of Arc.

22. song that reminds me of a character

BECAUSE YOU KNOW IM A JULIAN STAN...here's one from my playlist. you can't tell me this is something he'd sing about right before his trial/hanging. like hoo the animatics i've pictured...

#kawee's mumble jumbles #ask mumbles #music mumbles #if burnout and depression didnt have it's claws in me for that last one.....OOOOOHHH!!!!

[badplush]

I wish my mental illness was more "cute" and profitable and relatable.

I wish my anxiety was the kind where I needed to just sip tea in a blanket fort instead of having panic attacks so violent I throw up everything in my stomach and need to go to the hospital.

I want my depression to be "just a little sad" instead of loosing time for weeks and weeks and being too stuck in my own head to ask for help.

I need my OCD to be more "color coded markers" or "must wash hands NOW" instead of having to trigger myself in order for An Event not to happen.

I am begging for my intrusive thoughts to be about eating leaves or yelling curse words instead of thinking about throwing myself into the nearest highway or self mutilation or things I'm scared to type.

#stuffie mumbles #mental illness #intrusive thoughts #ocd #Actually ocd #obsessive compulsive disorder #Anxiety #actually anxious #depression #actually depressed

[tokkias]

anyway this is an informal post to say that if you ever really wanted to see me write something and if you were willing to shell out some cash to guarantee me to write it, unlike my slowly tumbling pile of ask requests, i would do that and my dms are open

#mya's mumbles #i wanted to open writing comms but i got really busy with nalu week stuff #and i got cripplingly depressed #and i'm still the second thing but im like 6.5/7 for nalu week so i have the time to write