#depressingthoughts

[i-have-had-enough]

I think the only way for my heart to heal from all the pain is for it to stop beating

#depressingthoughts #depressing shit #actually borderline #tw depressing stuff #bpd #borderline personality disorder #depression tw #depression #anxiety #ptsd #suicidetw #suicide #trauma #sadness #pain #broken #suicidal #suicidalthoughts #lonely

[narcissa97]

#poetry #poetic #im hurtin #hurt #love #my universe #pretty words #prettybuthurts #depressing shit #kinda depressing #depressingthoughts

[nostradamnus]

I admit a defeat.

Against me. Against my own sanity.

Happiness was and is always a suicide attempt. For me. Like a firework, the joy flashed so quick I'd die everytime the sparks end. My soul got killed too many times I lost count.

Then it's the constant loneliness again—the void, the hollow I can't seem to understand. The hollow I can't run away from, no matter how much I tried.

I don't ask for help. Out of thousands things I can excel, reaching out for hand is not one of them.

I admit a defeat. Now is me being vulnerable and powerless. Transparent, no guard up.

#depressingthoughts

[anthologyofsuicidality]

Loneliness

Loneliness creeps Over the body

Like a hundred tiny Spiders crawling

On damaged skin

Eight hundred Spindly legs

Raising hair follicles

Leaving no scratch

Perceived but Invisible

#loneliness #depression #anxiety #mentalillness #suicidality #spiders #poetry #writing #originalwriting #depressingthoughts #imagery #ptsd

[my-deepest-and-darkest-thoughts]

[Saphirra2]

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Will I ever be enough for anyone?

Or will I always be useless?

Everyone I look to has left

And I know you’ll leave me too

But you don’t have a clue

About how much pain you cause

In everything you do

I loved you so damn much

Now emotions and memories are all that I clutch

{•Start to speed up music and flow•}

You remember Halloween night?

And how we’ve never had a fight?

I guess my friends were right

Because you just used me for the occasional lonely night

You made my life so damn bright

And then you would find the other guy

And then it would all fall apart

It would make me breakdown and cry

And wish for the stop of my heart

And think “how the hell do I die”

{•Reach climax of music•}

{•Slow down music drastically to an almost talking and crying•}

I’m just so confused

It isn’t your fault

It was mine

It’s my fault I’m stuck here cryin

And dyin

And alone

#sad songs #sadthoughts #original writing #depressingthoughts #dark vibes

[anonymoon]

In regards to your latest #depressingthought, it sounds like a typical manipulation tactic: break down your self-esteem and sense of self-worth by saying those hurtful things, then they bring you back up with “I love you” to make you dependent.

Best way to distance self is know your own self worth and surround yourself with a good support system. Therapy is also cool [if it was a hypothetical question, I’m sorry and disregard this ask].

I wasn't an hypothetical question... I feel like I'm crazy when I "burst" and have anxiety because the person tells me what they are doing is alright... But it doesn't feel like that. Last couple of times I just stopped responding to the shouting but it's getting really hard since I live with this person. Nothing I do is good enough... Nothing stops them from poking me and expect me to be cool with it like if I deserve it... I don't deserve it!

I get that everyone has problems but I am not a punch bag. I try to help this person and even then they tell me the work I have done is not enough, even tho I have just done what they asked.

Anyway, thank you anon. It's good to know that someone is listening to me.

#anon #depressing thought

[what-is-the-point-01]

please.. erase my existance not like anyone will notice

#depression #depressing #kinda depressing #depressingquotes #manga #monochrome #not my stuff #mental illness #mentalhealth #trash #worthless #depressingthoughts #friendles #alone with my thoughts

[too-many-broke-souls]

All this world has taught me time and time again, is that I don’t matter.

#sad #depressingthoughts #depression #quotes #sad qutoes #sadthoughts

[you-do-not-deserveme]

They say depression kills. That part I haven't doubted. They tell you it's all in your head, that you have to fight like hell to get through it. I don't doubt that either. Every bit of it is true. I just never could have imagined that I would be the one doing the most damage.

you-do-not-deserveme

#heartbreak #heartbroken #breakup #mentalhealth #mentalillness #anxiety #depression #3amthoughts #depressingthoughts #thoughts #broken #brokenheart

[i-have-had-enough]

I can feel my heart struggle with each contraction because deep down it knows that there’s not a single molecule in my body that wants to continue living.

Every breath I take hurts because my lungs know it’s not worth breathing life into a body that doesn’t want it anymore.

I died long ago. My existence is just a bad memory that you try to bury somewhere far away but it’s always haunting you.

It’s always there telling you what a fuck up you are and how you’ll never be enough for anybody and how no one will ever love you the way you love them and that dying will be the best thing that’s ever happened to you.

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[narcissa97]

How many times have you typed 'I'm fine'

with shaky fingertips

and bloodshot eyes?

#broken #sad girl hours #sad boi hours #bloodshot #red eyes #crying screaming sobbing #crying at 3 am #im fine #im not fine #broken hearts #watery eyes #sad aesthetic #sad thoughts #relatable #mental health issues #sadbeautifultragic #sad quotes #depressed #depressingthoughts #sorry for being depressing

[allthetimethoughts1424]

I miss you

I miss you more than anything right now. I miss your tight hugs, the fact that you wear tons of cologne, and I miss seeing your smile. I miss your eyes changing colors, your sarcastic comments, and you teasing me about silly things. I miss being able to talk to you and ask you questions about how to do adult things such as checking the oil in my car. I miss so many things about you and it hurts so much knowing that you don’t miss me at all. It hurts knowing that you blame me for everything and that I feel like this terrible person. I feel like I don’t deserve love, that I’m always going to be this bad person that you have made me out to be. That when I begged you to try to understand me and the fact that I was trying and getting help for my mental health, you didn’t believe me. I know I wasn’t perfect and I made mistakes but it wasn’t just my fault that we’re not together. But yet I feel that it was and that I’m a terrible person. 

#depression #depressingthoughts #sad #sadness #im sorry #im tired #im not okay #i miss you #love hurts #why do I do this to myself #why am i like this #whats wrong with me #myhearthurts #heart been broke so many times #broken #fear of trusting people #trust is hard #everything huuuuuuurts

[my-deepest-and-darkest-thoughts]

[ImNotTheOne/Lexiii]

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I’m not the one

I’m not someone you should be around

I’m not where happiness is found

I always seem to get distant

Whenever you get close

That’s what I hate the most

But it’s the best thing for you

The only thing you should do

Is give up on me

And just let me be

Because in the words of my favorite artist

“This heart doesn’t stay to one”

So we should just end this and be done

Because I’ll fall for someone new

And forget about you

<Chorus>

What’s the point in love?

Even though it’s as beautiful as a dove

When you put everything at stake

It only leads to a painful heartbreak

Once you find out it’s fake

Your life is the last thing you will take

<End Chorus>

<Speed up fast rap>

In all of my searching I have found

That love is just a chemical reaction

To someone else’s action

Caused by hormones

Leading to more moans

And you getting wet

And more regret

As we get more intimate

And we both get into it

But then I’ll leave

No matter what you believe

I’m living a life

That always leads to a knife

No matter what

I’ll always add another cut

Because in my life of self appointed pain

I just become less and less sane

Until I put a bullet in my brain

Because my New Years resolution

Was to meet my life’s conclusion

<Chorus>

What’s the point in love?

Even though it’s as beautiful as a dove

When you put everything at stake

It only leads to a painful heartbreak

Once you find out it’s fake

Your life is the last thing you will take

<End Chorus>

#sad songs #original writing #selfhatethoughts #sadthoughts #depressingthoughts

[zee-ro]

#Lonely #depressingthoughts #depression #self harrrm #sadvibes #mentally tired #male-ana

[forgottten-truth]

For some reason

Tonight I feel really fucking lonely. Really sad. Really alone. Idk where this feeling came from. But I haven’t felt this broken in a while.

#betrayed #heartbreak #lost #mental health #depressingthoughts #anxeity

[imjustoneteenagegirl]

I'm in a mental health inpatient unit now. I wasnt trusted to keep myself safe. This sucks because I feel so guilty and I feel like I deserve to die.

#depression #suicide #mentalhealth #suicidal #depressed #depressedquotes #depressingthings #depressingthoughts #selfharm #cutting #therapy #psychward #mentalhospital #anxiety #anxious #relatablequotes #aesthetic #death #quilt