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sage-hazeline · 10 months
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how do you reconnect to life after being disconnected for so long
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7nvk · 9 months
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the world stopped being real to me two years ago
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riversidekid · 2 years
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anchimayen · 6 months
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ceruinnalagetha · 1 year
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I have compiled a folder of Depersonalisation/Derealisation disorder self-help resources
It contains...
Six different tests used by psychologists to diagnose DPDR
Overcoming Depersonalisation and feelings of Unreality - a book written by several experts in depersonalisation disorder that includes some of the latest research about dissociative disorders.
The Stranger in the Mirror - a book by M.Steinberg a renowned expert in treating dissociative disorders
A meditative audiotape especially for DPDR
Several Cognitive Behavioural Therapy worksheets
Links to several other self-help resources including video and audio content, additional books and a forum for people with DPDR.
Link here at Mega
https://mega.nz/folder/JBpWVSTb#Ad6Mdz9xvO5oGUMOSJNxow
There is such little information about dpdr compared to other more common disorders like anxiety and I have still yet to meet a health professional that I haven’t had to explain the disorder to. Because of the general inaccessibility to DPDR resources and treatment, I have decided to compile some free resources, most of which were recommended to me by my psychotherapist. I wish I had access to all of these when I first started experiencing depersonalisation, so I hope this will be helpful to some people!
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actuallymagsdump · 6 days
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i look at myself in the mirror
and I think
"who is she?"
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cyanidecrxsh · 1 year
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queerpossums · 4 months
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it feels like there are bees in my head. nothing feels real and everything feels floaty and not there. moving just makes that zappy feeling worse and i can feel it travel down my spine and into my limbs
i can’t tell if it’s a neurologic thing or a psychosis thing or both
probably both
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willows-woes · 6 months
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tori spring had dpdr. sorry.
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xxeycisxx · 1 year
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Ache | Matt Murdock
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Matt Murdock x Fem!Reader
Summary: you feel really bad and matt holds you.
Author's note: I know mental illness doesn't work like that, but girls can dream, okay? Also, this is my first fanfiction i am posting here and english is not my first language, so if there is any typo, i am sorry!
Word-count: 654
masterlist here
You found yourself lying in your bed.
The world around you didn’t feel right, almost like it wasn’t even real and it made you feel anxious. Terified. It‘s touching every nerve in your body, every inch of your skin feels like it‘s not yours. Every sound that makes it‘s way through the thick walls of your apartment irritates you. Even if not loud, it feels like your eardrums are being violated. Your brain hurts. Every thought that comes in your brain is painful.
You shift on your bed, try to make it better by changing your position. You try to focus on the feeling of squeezing your bedsheets in your hands. Or looking on your ceiling, finding some minor details, that are familiar to you and maybe it will give your mind something to concentrate on.
But nothing around you does seem real. More like sort of crooked.
You try to close your eyes.
„What is happening to me?“ you wonder.
Your heart is beating fast. Maybe if you could cry, it would make you feel a bit better. Maybe it could create an escape for all those negative emotions that are overflowing your brain. But nothing comes out.
You just lie there. Trying to understand what is happening to you. Finding only hopelesness and fear, that it’s going to be like this forever.
You hear a different noise. This one comes from inside of your apartment. You dont turn around to see who it is, but after a few moments, you feel someone‘s hands touching you softly. You could recognize his touch anywhere. It was gentle. Loving.
„Are you okay?“ he asked. His voice almost scared you in your state of mind. You felt embarrased. How can you explain something you don’t understand either?
„I dont know,“ your voice sounded different to you, it came out of your mouth, but it felt as if it belonged to someone else. Matt placed his hand on your shoulder. He could hear your heartbeat, how fast and heavy it was.
„What can I do to help you?“ seeing you like this hurt him. And in your better days, it made you feel guilty, that you are the one making him feel bad. Why couldn’t you just be normal like everybody else?  He would most likely be much happier with someone, who doesn’t have to deal with things like this. You felt like a burden. And you didn’t want to pressure him into feeling like it was his burden to bear.
„Just don’t leave, please,“ you were almost begging him. You hated the feeling of him seeing you now. But you couldn’t do this on your own. You needed him. You needed to feel him. And some stupid part of you still believed, that maybe, even if he sees you like this, it won’t scare him off. He will, for some unknown reason, choose to stay.  
He said nothing. But you felt his big hands taking you and squeezing you tightly to his chest. You desparately curled up in his arms like a baby needing physical reassurence of your safety.
You both stayed in the bed like this. You tried to concentrate on his heart, while your head rested on his chest. It brought you comfort, something that you longed for so much. You felt your muscles slowly relaxing and after a while, your body no longer felt like it was made out of cold stone. His body radiated warm that gradually saturated your whole world. With him, being so close, you could smell him, it reminded you of sweet cinnamon and vanilla, but it was somehow so much better than that. He was so close to you. Right here. You could touch him. Feel him. He was right beside you. He did not leave you.
You fell asleep after a while. With him, holding you, hoping you could freeze this moment and stay like this forever.
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bigmooneyes · 2 years
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wikipedia poem about dpdr, because i can never find the right words when trying to explain; so borrowing them will have to do
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Depersonalization-derealization disorder From wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Specialty: Psychiatry, clinical psychology Symptoms: Depersonalization, Derealization Usual onset: Young adulthood Duration: chronic, episodic
Contents [hide]
The core is the subjective experience of "reality of one's self" or detachment from one's surroundings.
thought to be caused largely by interpersonal trauma adverse early childhood experiences, specifically emotional abuse and neglect have been linked
the state of mind could last either hours, days, and possibly even weeks at a time.
These experiences which strike at the core of a person's identity and consciousness may cause - substantial distress;
the real thing was overwhelming;
fearing loss of control, detached from their own thoughts; these symptoms cause -- unreality,
dissociation from the rest of society; disconnected or detached from one's self; or from one's surroundings.
there is an alienation; uneasy or anxious -- constant or varying intensity.
Insidious onset may reach back as far as can be remembered.
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Society and culture [edit]
patient who "feels that he is no longer himself", attempts to describe experiences that are difficult to articulate into words.
In order to comprehend the nature of reality we must understand what reality actually is.
some descriptions were metaphors;
as if the world around them is foggy, dreamlike/surreal, or visually distorted.
The ability to sense that something is unreal is maintained when experiencing symptoms of the disorder.
^ Radovic F (2002). "Feelings of Unreality: A Conceptual and Phenomenlogical Analysis of the Language of Depersonalization".
the conceptualization of dissociation involves detachment from one's self;
it doesn't diminish just the experience, but more or less all experience.
the majority of people (about 80%) responsible for child maltreatment are the child's own parents.
^ Thomson, Paula; Jaque, S. Victoria (15 March 2018). "Depersonalization, adversity, emotionality, and coping with stressful situations". Journal of Trauma & Dissociation.
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Prognosis [edit]
as if the world lies within the understanding of reality.
experiences with depersonalization may be frightening, a loss of control over their thoughts or actions; persistent or recurrent feelings of detachment from one's mental or bodily processes; difficulty concentrating; a sense that self or the world is unreal; impairment to one's ability to perceive reality.
The Scream may have been inspired by depersonalization disorder. (i.e. patient is aware of a perceptual disturbance)
symptoms tend to be constant and quite unsettling.
an illness of lost opportunities.
^ Blevins, Christy A.; Weathers, Frank W.; Mason, Elizabeth A. (1 October 2012). "Construct Validity of Three Depersonalization Measures in Trauma-Exposed College Students". Journal of Trauma & Dissociation.
Anxiety vs. fear
Symptoms
Types 3.1 Existential
The most common comorbid disorders are depression and anxiety; significant and uncontrollable feelings of anxiety and fear; fear is more complex than just forgetting or deleting memories, the hereafter, the next ten years or even tomorrow.
DPDR is typically chronic and continuous; between reality and the symptoms; a feeling of being detached from the world; divorced from their own personal self; Treatment of DPDR is often difficult and refractory.
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Appearance [edit]
I find myself regarding existence as though from beyond the tomb, from another world; all is strange to me; I am, as it were, outside my own body and individuality; I am depersonalized, detached, cut adrift.
Is this madness?
(In the upper right corner is a heavily edited black and white ghost picture of The Brown Lady of Raynham hall. The descriptive text underneath it is unreadable.)
all dissociative phenomena involves a detachment from reality; Familiar places may look alien, bizarre, and surreal.
they are not in the notion of the present; experiencing themselves and their lives from a distance.
as if the world around them is disconnected; distorted. as though time is passing them by.
they are able to recall a memory but feel as if they did not personally experience it.
In some cases, individuals may be unable to accept their reflection as their own, thoughts and acts elude the self and become strange.
^ Daphne Simeon; Jeffrey Abugel (7 November 2008). Feeling Unreal: Depersonalization Disorder and the Loss of the Self.
think critically about the nature of reality and existence.
depersonalization is understood as a defense; a type of coping mechanism.
Although residual sunlight does not penetrate the depths inhabited by deep-sea lizardfish, their eyes aid in detecting sources of residual or bioluminescent light.
^ Mauricio Sierra (13 August 2009). Depersonalization: A New Look at a Neglected Syndrome. Cambridge, UK: Cambridge University Press. p. 120.
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fractalsuggestions · 1 year
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this is a little self-indulgent but i love colors and designs, so...
here's my take on a DPDR (depersonalization-derealization disorder) flag
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here are the stripes, top to bottom:
blue- community & overcoming isolation
green- grounding & recovery
yellow- depersonalization
white- general feeling of disconnect, with a white square in the center for a feeling of "something missing"
light blue- derealization
gray- general dissociation/combined depersonalization+derealization
black- loss of time/emotion/opportunities
there's sort of 3 sections of the flag: the center represents symptoms of the disorder itself, the bottom represents the negative outcomes of those symptoms, and the top represents recovery and connection and understanding among people who share this disorder
there's already an existing DPDR flag, but I really wanted to make one that included stripe meanings. the existing one mostly just has colors taken from the cloudgender flag, which as a neurogender related to DPDR is certainly relevant, but i wanted to make one that wasn't derivative of that seeing as not every person with DPDR is cloudgender (for example, me)
the original DPDR flag is perfectly fine! as I said this is a bit of a self-indulgent thing and i honestly thought of this design before checking if there was an existing flag. link to the original flag will be posted in a reblog!
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unidentity-dpdr · 1 year
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Hello!
This is intended to be a half-informational, half-personal blog on the topic of depersonalization-derealization disorder, commonly abbreviated as DPDR.
A longer explanation of DPDR can be found here, but in short: DPDR is a dissociative disorder wherein one experiences chronic depersonalization and/or derealization not caused by another disorder to a point which causes distress and/or impairs functioning. Depersonalization and derealization are two specific types of dissociation: depersonalization is a disconnect from one's self or personhood, and derealization is a disconnect from one's surroundings.
Neither are exclusive to DPDR as a disorder, and either can occur as a symptom of other disorders, other dissociative disorders especially. The abbreviation DPDR may also be used to more broadly mean "depersonalization/derealization". On this blog, I will be using "DPDR" to refer to the disorder, as that is how I experience these symptoms.
An unidentity is a term I have coined for a specific type of depersonalization I've experienced and have been told others experience as well, but have found no specific documentation of. I have chosen to coin a specific term for ease of communication and greater awareness regarding this specific symptom. Other people with DPDR who experience this are welcome but not required to use this term. A longer explanation of unidentity is can be found here.
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bl0w-m3 · 7 months
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𝓓𝓮𝓹𝓮𝓻𝓼𝓸𝓷𝓪𝓵𝓲𝔃𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷 / 𝓓𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓵𝓲𝔃𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷
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Side note: if you are not diagnosed with this disorder but relate to any/all of the symptoms, please do further research and speak to a personal mental health provider! (I know medical diagnosis is out of question for some people with certain healthcare, but please do a lot of research before self-diagnosing!)
Depersonalization-Derealization Disorder is characterized by chronic feelings of being “detached from your body” or the sense that things around you are not real, sometimes both. It’s most commonly described as feeling as if you’re living in a dream you can’t wake up from.
A common condition in people who experienced trauma from abuse or those under extreme stress, this disorder can be serious and get in the way of day to day functioning. Many people have short episodes of depersonalization or derealization, however when it becomes disturbing and never fully goes away, it becomes a disorder.
Although similar, Derealization and Depersonalization are different.
Depersonalization Symptoms:
- Feeling that you’re seeing your thoughts, feelings, or body (or parts of your body)from the outside. Common examples are watching from the corner of a room, or feeling as if your floating in the air above yourself.
- Feeling that you’re not in control of your actions or words? Like somebody else is controlling you.
- The sense that parts of your body appear disfigured, or “not right”. It can also feel as if your head is wrapped in cotton, or as I say a concussion without the pain.
- Emotional or physical apathy and numbness, dulled sense of and responses to the world around you.
- Memories that lack emotion, feeling as if they may or may not be your own memories.
Derealization Symptoms:
- Feeling as is people and and your surroundings are not real, like you’re living in a dream or movie
- Feeling emotional separate from the people you care about
- Distortion in surroundings, may appear out of shape, blurry, or colorless. It may seem like there are only two dimensions, with no depth. On the flip side you could also be more aware of your surroundings, and it may appear clearer than normal.
- Distorted thoughts about time, feeling as if recent event happened a long time ago.
- Distorted depth perception, unrealistic thoughts about the distance, size. And shape of objects.
Derealization and Depersonalization Disorder can be scary and isolating. If you’re experiencing symptoms and feel alone, please reach out. Somebody would rather hear your story than go to your funeral.
More Resources:
Depersonalization-Derealization Disorder - Mayo Clinic
Depersonalization - Colombia University
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samijami · 11 months
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This song feels so much like DPDR it's insane lmao
(And I love it-)
Oh I just looked it up and it is about DPDR ok lol
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where-did-my-sanity-go · 11 months
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