#deconstructing

[junico]

judith nicolussi. you got a brand new soul. mixed media & found paper on wooden panel (30 x 40 cm). 2024

#urban landscape #city #street #stairs #mixed media #collage #art #abstracting #deconstructing #reimagining #fragments

[beauty-grace-outer-space]

Tiktok comment I saw today that gutted me completely: 

“We were just kids. The weight of everyone else’s eternity should’ve never been on our shoulders.”

#deconstructing #exvangelical

[ivvann]

Winry sketches

I love women in stem 😔❤️

#fmab #fullmetal alchemist #fullmetal alchemist winry #Winry #drawing #alchemy #the science of understanding #deconstructing #and reconstructing-

[fairiencarnate]

Sorry lady I don't open the door for people who aren't faeries or goblin folk, take your religious material elsewhere

#door knockers are boundary crossers #deconstructing #ex religious #ex christian #fairycore #personal

[thevoidscreamer]

I am on the hunt to replace my middle school music interests with stuff that hits the right vibes but doesn’t trigger my religious trauma...

Here are the bands I’ve had in my ears all the time this month, listed in alphabetical order:

born without bones (emo-inspired indie rock)

mccafferty (punk-inspired alt/indie, midwest emo, emo-folk, folk-punk)

microwave (post-hardcore, indie rock, alt rock)

modern baseball (alt rock/indie rock)

mom jeans (alt rock/indie rock)

movements (post-hardcore, indie rock, alt rock, spoken word)

neck deep (pop-punk, indie rock, alt rock)

pinegrove (alt-country, emo)

remo drive (indie rock, emo-punk)

sorority noise (emo pop, indie rock)

the front bottoms (indie rock, folk punk)

the wonder years (pop-punk, alt-rock, emo)

tigers jaw (indie-rock, emo pop, pop-punk)

tiny moving parts (midwest emo, math-rock, indie-rock, post-hardcore)

I would love to get your suggestions of similar artists! 

#moving on from reliant K and the classic crime #modern baseball #mccafferty #born without bones #microwave #mom jeans #movements #neck deep #pinegrove #remo drive #sorority noise #the front bottoms #the wonder years #tigers jaw #tiny moving parts #exvangelical #deconstructing #honoring my middle school self #queer in the usa #lets get secular up in this bitch

[nakedpastor]

The kind of love I was taught about in the church was conditional. You only got the best if you were the best. You had to give 100% of your heart and hold nothing back. When I thought I had, I was told it wasn't good enough... that I was either sinful anyway or that I was intentionally hiding something or I was unaware of some deep secret sin that I was harbouring in my deceitfully wicked heart. No candy for me! Do you know what I'm talking about?see less

#cartoonist #cartoonoftheday #deconstruction #deconstructing #exvangelical #exchristian #exvangelicals #exfundie #jesus #jesuschrist #christ #halloween #halloweencostume #christianhalloween

[jesusinstilettos]

I want to apologize to the Earth for all the beautiful sunrises and sunsets I didn’t give her credit for because I was attributing it to god. You did that, queen!

#deconstructing #deconstruction #ex evangelical #ex fundie #agnostic atheist #atheist #agnostic #humanist

[cultsurvivorsafe]

From Occulted by Amy Rose and Ryan Estrada, illustrated by Jeongmin Lee

#ex cult #cult survivor #cult recovery #recovery #trauma recovery #trauma #spiritual abuse #religious abuse #organized abuse #ufo #alien #aliens #ufos #ufology #cult #cults #spirituality #deconstruction #deconstructing #heavens gate #suicide mention #sh mention #positivity #hope

[alasbabylon-blog]

thank god for the Recovering from Religion resources page

#exchristian #exvangelical #ex religious #deconstructing #deconstructing religion #deconstructing christianity #religion #christian fundamentalism #christian

[starmothpress]

✨constantly constructing and deconstructing✨

Looking at myself with acceptance

Releasing attachment

Who is looking back at me?

What do you want from me?

Books on books on books 📚

#artist #dreamy #abstract art #ethereal #abstract #mixed media #collage #art journal #journal #sketchbook #deconstructing #construction #mixed media art #continuous line drawing

[wingsadorned]

I highly doubt this is going to reach anyone, but recently I’ve really been struggling with deconstruction.

I’m trying to deconstruct my belief in Christianity, because I’m so so desperate to be a Hellenic Pagan Witch. I know it deep down in my heart that this is what I want to be, but what’s keeping me back is the deep fear of hell that I have because of growing up as a Christian. Or maybe better put, being indoctrinated for my whole life into Christianity. I thank the gods that I didn’t come out a hateful and bigoted Christian. I’ve always known I don’t really belong there anyways.

What I mean to take out of all of this, if anyone even finds this is, does anyone have any advice on how to deconstruct the fear of hell I have? Does anyone have any experience in this? Is there anyone willing to listen to me?

I don’t really have anyone to rant to about this because, well, I don’t personally know any other Hellenic Pagans or witches or people that have deconstructed their Christian beliefs, but I feel like I desperately need someone to help me and talk to and ask for help.

#deconstructing christianity #hellenic pagan #witchblr #deconstructing #advice? #hellenic devotees #hellenic community #pagan witch #witch community

[junico]

judith nicolussi. giotto caramello. found paper on postcard. 2024

#postcard #collage #abstracting #deconstructing #reimagining #fragments #giotto #layers

[beauty-grace-outer-space]

Maddie Zahm Lyrics That Instantly Reduce My Deconstructing Traumatized Brain to Tears

Song - Where Do All the Good Kids Go?

Lyrics that destroy me:  

I was way too young to lead people to the other side. I thought so much about death I couldn’t live my life.

I was always way too young To be that good at growing up. Does anybody really know where all of the good kids go? I was always way too young; now I can’t catch up.

I got drunk the first time at twenty-three; a total black out, I didn’t know when to leave. I hated playing never have I ever, so I hooked up with a random stranger. I can’t tell the difference between fun and danger.

Song - You Might Not Like Her

Lyrics that destroy me: 

If you would’ve told me I’d throw away my purity ring In the middle of an airport my younger self would laugh, would never believe that;  it’s against everything that we stood for.

Someday you’ll kiss a girl and you’ll panic. Some guy will break your heart and you’ll feel manic. Then You’ll learn to let people have their opinions and talk about your traumas and like the body you live in.

Someday you’ll learn to keep your own secrets, say you’re doing okay and really mean it.  You’ll lose your faith a bit and question if she’s you... and for awhile you might not like her,  but I do.

Song - If It’s Not God

Lyrics that destroy me:

When they were wrong I could never keep quiet, I'd search for the truth and had faith that I’d find it, set myself on fire.  Let myself be the liar.

All the Sunday’s I worried I’d disappoint my mom cause I never understood some types of love being wrong. Something inside me was always steering left;  what father picks a few just to leave the rest?

I heard a voice inside my head, they disagreed... so If it wasn’t God, then thank God: it was me.

They called me a sinner when I was a saint hiding in her bedroom praying depression away killing herself for eternal life and losing her interests to be a good wife.

Song - Pocket Bible

Lyrics that destroy me:

Met some guy in my science class.  He was gay; I didn’t get that. Wish I had known it then, ‘cause looking back he could’ve been the best friend I couldn’t have.

Passed out advice, never passed out on drugs, carried around judgment and tried to label it love. Thought I knew how to live exactly right; truth ain’t travel sized.

What’s it gonna take to heal a heartbreak? What happens when you kiss a girl for Christ sake? If I’m getting high am I a mistake? Just a good kid gone bad.

Why’d they start to want me when I lost weight? Why do I feel better when I don’t pray? I must’ve missed a verse that was vital Cause none of this was in my pocket Bible.

#deconstructing #maddie zahm #religious trauma #exvangelical #ex christian

[pocket-size-cthulhu]

I hope that you're able to find another faith community :) the one that I'm part of is really dedicated to not considering anyone too anything as long as they follow the community braver space guidelines. I have had a couple of times when people were weird about it, but because I have a supportive community with rules if I was uncomfortable I could say hey, that was hurtful. I really enjoy the interfaith aspect because I am able to learn so much. Mine is run in cooperation with the local universities, so maybe try there?

Thank you friend!! That's good to know. I'm not like actively looking right now (giving myself a bit of a break - I'm sure you get it lol) but it's wonderful to know that spaces like this exist and where to start looking for them! It truly sounds so lovely!

#mormonism tag #mormonism tw #deconstructing

[fairiencarnate]

We're supposed to accept "love the sinner, hate the sin" as genuine love. But "love the believer, hate the belief" seems to upset a lot of christians. If you take offense to the latter, think real hard about how you use the former.

#personal #ex christian #deconstructing

[dosiadove]

4/8/24

today I was very anxious because of the eclipse. everyone in my church either believes that the world would end today, or that this is a sign the world will end soon. mom and dad have been saying the signs are pointing to Jesus coming back. i was afraid everytime I heard a car honk. i feared it might be God's trumpets. Jesus has not come back yet, but it is only 7pm now. still time. i am in my father's office at church.

i don't understand why anyone would want Jesus to come back now. it feels uncompassionate and prideful. that just because we want the world to be healed and to go to heaven, that we will do it at the cost of others. when/if the rapture happens and Jesus comes back, so many people will die. people not sinners. we are all sinners. i don't want anyone to have to suffer. it doesn't make since that we deserve to go to heaven more than others.

d.d

#deconstruction #deconstructivism #deconstructing religion #deconstructing christianity #deconstructing #religion #eclipse #dear diary #diary entry #diary #writing #journal entry #entry #3/8/24 #3/8/2024 #Christianity #anxienty #anxitey #anxious #mental health #anxiety #solar eclipse #religious trauma