What the hell?? Engaged?!!!! Omg congratulations!!!!! How did it go??? I mean you don't have to tell us if you don't want to. I'm happy for you. Hope you live happily ever after!!!!!
Hdjfsfkhksfhks hahaha thank you so much anon!!! It went amazing, very romantic. I’m going to gush at you because I can’t possibly hold it back so thank you very much (and I am sorry sfdsfs) - I got whisked up to a little isolated area (family’s cottage) on the water, & thoroughly distracted. I did sense a bit of a surprise but cute things are not out of character for my fiancé at all so I was none the wiser sdfsjfsdfsff
Basically he prepped everything (under the guise of “since we’re here my family asked me to clean out the old shed”) & then as the sun was going down was like “I bought you a dress :) put it on and meet me at the dock” & of course I book it out there and there’s all these beautiful lights lining the stairs & the dock PLUS roses PLUS our favourite songs are playing. Basically picture the floating lanterns scene from tangled (they were just floating on the water but like!!!! that’s how it felt!!!!!)
To top it all off it was the anniversary of our technical “first” date, bc the first thing he asked me to was a concert that ended up getting delayed, so of course we had an earlier other first date hahaha - so of course all the songs are that band, & the ring was at the end of the dock in a chest that had a message carved inside for me and YES I cried of course I cried sdsdsfdsfdfd
so anyways one of the things I've learned from that 8+ hour philosophy reading session is that the Greek Philosopher Heraclitus would go crazy over Everything Stays from Adventure Time and yes i mean that in a REALLY good way and no i will not elaborate
Just like…my mom knows what she did was wrong and cruel, she did it on Saturday, she hugged me and told me she was remorseful and sorry with tears in her voice on Monday.
There’s no way she didn’t know it was a wrong and cruel thing to do when she did it. No one has sat down with her and explained how she hurt my feelings. She knew it would hurt my feelings when she did it.
It’s the abuser mindset where you claim you’re “out of control” but you’re really not—you know, the ones where an abuser starts breaking stuff in a fit of rage but somehow never breaks their own stuff even when it’s the closest breakable object, stuff like that. Generously speaking, the rage may feel scary and hard to keep under control, but you do have control. You do. Because a lot of people make you really angry—your boss, your coworkers, your mom and your siblings, even your friends sometimes—and you don’t talk to them like this. When you had to field a call from that arrogant Trumper asshole who makes sizeable donations to your center every year, you kept your cool even though you really wanted to tell him off. And if you talked to your boss or coworkers that way, I can only assume you’d be fired. So I know you can control who receives your rage, and that that list is limited to your children and your husband.
It’s cool that you’re genuinely remorseful and all (allegedly), but next time maybe just try not doing it???
istg I’ll be feeling absolutely awful and I’ll want to starve myself and then ten minutes later I’m like “Ohmygod my thighs are so p r e t y and my body can squish that is such a fun stim!! folds are cute and feeling it feels like.. oddly good, why would I hate this body tf?”