#darth bagel rambles

[darth-bagel]

also OH, they made it fuckin easier to actually get uh, the 340 ancient mods and gear now, it takes some grinding of commendations and tech fragments but I'll fucking TAKE it over doing the Operations—still working on getting them on my main (bc the accounting deadlines were on the 20th and i worked my ass of with 12 hours of overtime to get it done in like 9 days)

—but I'm fuckin excited for good gear shapes, even if it's still more of like "gear two main chars on the server for stuff and be done with it" type of thing

#swtor #my swtor #darth bagel rambles #look at me fuckin going off again the moments i sit down in my blog xd

[chaoticspacefam]

2020 In Review: Wordcount Tag

I was tagged for this by @actualanxiousswampwitch​ , thank you! I’m not sure who’s already done or been tagged for this cause I am, once again, late to the party LOL but I shall (no pressure and sorry if you’ve already done it!) tag: @rainofaugustsith​ , @darth-bagel​ , @thatmmolesbian​ , @thelastenvoyyy​ and anybody else who wants to do this. Yes, I promise I mean you!

Words: 45,314

Published: 0 (I’m not counting the couple of Six Sentence tags I’ve gotten, they’re snippets of an unfinished piece & are included below instead :), or roleplay replies, cause that feels like cheating lol.) I actually wrote a lot more than I thought I had, this is a rough guesstimate as well, as my oneshot WIPs tend to be all over the place across something like 6 different documents, some of which have existed since 2018, so I had to guess at how far up to count from the end for some of them, but I think it’s a fair guesstimate XD I also have included lore/worldbuilding docs in this because that was a 3-month long Lockdown 1.0 Boredom/”Canon is a trash fire so I’m ignoring that and making up my own lore” passion project and I’m goddamn proud of how much I wrote for that. It’s the most I’ve written in one stretch (think I finished it over a span of 3 nights or so, once I’d done all the research and made all the notes ofc ^^)

Not Published: 45,314

The Breakdown:

swtor - 45,314

for creeping shadows (my main longfic/part one of the subterfugeverse series) - 1,553  - Aria, stop being difficult! *shakes fists* XD

oneshots - 16,223

lore/worldbuilding (for subterfugeverse naturally) - 23,001 (is this ALL tomato alien lore? pretty much, yes, yes it is :’D ~400 words is “the WIP reworked timeline to correlate my worldbuilding with the canon timeline that was released”, but 98% is just...me thinking way too much about Purebloods and how they deserved way better goddamn lore. I blame @fluffynexu ‘s amazing tomato worldbuilding posts,  reading them when I went looking for “canon” lore one day for the rp is what got me started down that rabbithole (it’s awesome and if you haven’t already you should totally go check hers out too :DD), I had a “fuck you then canon I’ll do it myself too >:L” moment and once I started I couldn’t stop until I’d crapped out literally over 20k words on the subject *whispering* thank you LOL)

zephyrverse au bonus oneshots - 4,537 (stuff I wrote to fill in time gaps or “just cause I had a plot bunny”, relating to mine and k-christine’s zephyrverse au rp. None of these will likely be posted publicly, but they still deserve to be counted as words I wrote this year :’D

As you can see, most of my “muse” this year came from sporadic oneshots :’D The Ahaszaai twins also properly plot-bunnied their way into my brain in late 2019 and haven’t stopped making a nuisance of themselves the whole fucking year. Every time I tried to carry on with a chapter, one of the two of them would pop up like “Nooo write about ME! pay attention to ME!” - Yes, Ni’kasi, I will get to you this year, I promise XD

New Things I Tried:

Just Writing. Not worrying about whether “it wasn’t part of the next chapter” or “it comes from a part in the story that I’m nowhere near close to posting yet”. If I felt like writing something, or for a specific pairing/feeling/scene, whatever. I wrote until I ran outta muse juice. Yeah, it meant I didn’t technically “finish” anything this year BUT - the important thing is I wrote stuff. and that’s all that really matters, eh? :’D

Polyam ships! May not seem like a big deal but I spent a long time talking myself out of them because of internalised toxic monogamy and finally saying “you know what, fuck it! I can ship three or more people together and it can still be a perfectly wholesome, healthy and loving relationship and that’s okay” was a BIG thing for me this year.

Dialogue Scripts: which I didn’t count as wordcount because really it’s just word vomit of general tone/inflection and dialogue that I came up with right before falling asleep which I didn’t want to lose. Basically, if an exchange or a particularly punchy or moving line of dialogue popped into my brain but I wasn’t ready to write the whole scene that it fit into out, but didn’t want to forget the line(s). I wrote it out in movie script/script-style roleplay fashion e.g. Character’s Name: (emotion, hand gestures etc.) [Dialogue here] and so on. I know this is probably a well known trick of the trade, but I never took it seriously until this year. Seriously, do it. It’s great.

Favorite Thing I Wrote:

Hmmm, a snippet for Andronikos/Ni’kasi that I started this week which isn’t posted yet (saving it for this week’s Six Sentence Sunday so look out for it! :D) was pretty fun to work on, I love their dynamic and Kas is suprisingly fun to write for.

Also the Aria/Vano proposal scene that I posted a snippet for the week before last. I’m having great fun with that scene, and I really enjoy putting a non-serious spin on the classic “proposal scene” tropes. Can’t wait to finish it, though it may be a while before the full one goes up on AO3, as it depends whether it ends up fitting in as part of the mainfic or as an additional oneshot

And I have a D’leah/Kissai oneshot that I need to give another once-over before I finally yeet it onto AO3 and Tumblr for you guys to see :’D

Favorite Fic I Read:

@sleepswithvillains Eleanora/Quinn fic, Helplessly Hoping. I’m horribly behind on chapters and I gotta catch up and read the finale this week, but it’s been a helluva great ride and I’ve thoroughly enjoyed the story! <3

Also The Invitation collab with @tishinada featuring Zas and Fiona had me squealing, I can’t wait to catch up on HH and see more of these two, they’re adorable ;-; @a-muirehen​ ‘s Relu/Merkara series of course! I’m a complete sucker for (friends to lovers to in Ariano’s case but yea pfpfpf) enemies to lovers ships and these two are just so good, I am on the edge of my seat every time we get a new snippet for them, ngl (grimace emoji) @darth-bagel ‘s Sylvas/Graz’zt and Sylvas/Liz/Rilfaen snippets which they’ve been spoiling me with on Discord @mercurypilgrim ‘s Ven’fir/Quinn AU oneshots, Cloudbank (Western was a particular favourite, but all are very good!) and of course @rainofaugustsith ‘s Lana/Viri updates are always fantastic, some personal favourites from this year were Almost There & Memory of Healing :3 (I totally still go back to read Commander & Advisor too sometimes, getting to see Viri be a little diabolical and messing with “MiNiSTeR LoRMaN!” was and still is my favourite thing XD)

If I’ve left you out I’m sorry!! These were the ones that stuck out in my memory, but I’ve loved everyone’s writing this year, it’s been great :3

Writing Goals:

to actually finish and post chapter 8 & 9 of Creeping Shadows. Then we’ll get to the meat and potatoes of the story and maybe Aria will stop being a brat and fighting me every time I try to stick to a semi-regular update schedule Get off my butt, finalise the name and get started on Ni’kasi’s part of the Subterfugeverse story. Maybe run the updates in-tandem with Creeping Shadows but idk if I want to wait till after CS is done before I start posting Kas’s side, or do them side-by-side yet, we’ll see ;) Keep writing! I know better than to pressure myself by setting a specific word count goal, that’s never worked well in the past

At least 2 chapters of each of the works mentioned above would be great though, more would be better! We’ll see how I go

Words of Thanks:

honestly, to everybody in the fandom I’ve met this year. Anybody that I follow, thank you for being there and engaging with me and/or posting amazing content for me to look at! I came over from deviantART where the SWTOR fandom is incredibly small and generally quite inactive and the contrast since moving over here has been incredibly uplifting. I very nearly cancelled Creeping Shadows and stopped posting fic for my SWTORverse altogether because I got next to no engagement on dA and it was very disheartening to the point where I felt I could enjoy the game and the rp partners I had, but the solo projects I’d put so much thought, time and love into already weren’t worth continuing. You guys took that spark and kept it going and I really don’t have enough words to say how grateful I am for that. Even if I haven’t published much this year, making posts on this tumblr, interacting with everyone and working on lore, plot points and so on for Subterfugeverse has kept me going through the Hellish Year of Nightmares that was 2020 <3

to the amazing new friends I’ve made in this past year, who have listened to me ramble about headcanons, character backstories, writing snippets (and rambled/sent some back), keep being awesome: @walk-ng-d-saster , @darth-bagel , @kyber-heart , @deepseacritter , @thedinalixlegacy to further friends and meme tag buddies, I get so excited every time I see a mention for a new meme or ask game in my inbox, so thank you!! : @mimabeann , @palepinkycat , @a-master-procrastinator , @raven-of-domain-kwaad , @actualanxiousswampwitch , @thatmmolesbian , @a-muirehen to my regular commentors/rebloggers/likers/askbox lurkers, I see every one of you and every time your users pop up I grin like a kid in a toy shop: @starlightjedi , @sparkles-and-rust , @wilvarin-chan , @sunsetofdoom , @ask-an-andalite , @thelastenvoyyy . @lyrishadow and more because Tumblr only goes so far back and I have the memory of Swiss Cheese. If you regularly comment, like, reblog, or anything, from me, know that I see you, and I love and appreciate you for it! <3

I couldn’t possibly remember to tag everyone and I promise if I missed you out it’s not because I hate you! Anxiety just sometimes be a bitch and I don’t wanna look like a clown calling someone a “friend” if I’m not explicitly sure we are, in fact, friends. I think you’re all awesome and I’m so glad to have moved over here and met you all <3

#long post #wordcount year review tag #elven's writing: stats #repost bc i goofed some links woops sorry everyone #^^; #will i eventually post any of this stuff? yes! #i will. i just...don't know *when* the time will be right for most of it hahaha #the only bits i won't post are the zephyrverse-specific oneshots cause i just don't feel like i want to #but everything else will (eventually) in some capacity be thrown into the void for all of you to read #shameless friend appreciation post #shameless mutual and follower appreciation post #<3 #swtor sort of

[darth-bagel]

okay fuck it. guide to Sylvas Sha'ael and names because ho boy there's a bunch of those.

--so main canon Sylvas. A Smuggler, turned Pirate, turned Crime Lord-- Voidviper, working with Sith Intelligence and maintaining residence amd fleet on Nowhere--

Their original name is Tivan'n Caes, which is so not common knowledge that it doesn't exist in any files, only like 4, mmmaybe 5, people in total are aware of that name. (which makes the Force Sensitive AU use that name as well, eventually switching to Sylvas Nydhis post Sacking.)

For several years afterwards, they used Revas Arramis as an alias. Usually only used for a specific time in their past before a specific Incident.

Most used Sylvas Sha'ael.

And on top of that we also have the Ascendancy AU, where they grown up with their parents instead on Corellia ao they have a chiss name-- Corrs'ilavt'hisha. Core name: Silavth. Which is only in that particular au where they land themselves in Imperial Agent Story.

You can tell this is my main bastard. So many names they need it's own guide XD

#swtor #my swtor #darth bagel rambles #chiss #oc: sylvas sha'ael #oc: sylvas nydhis #oc: revas arramis #oc: tivan'n caes #oc: corrs'ilavt'hisha a.k.a silavth #all one person. #just either all over the timeline or all over aus #believe me there's so much more au's XD #but this is the most comprehensive i can get XD

[darth-bagel]

This is the first time I got to pick those dialogues and damn, Silavth could probably have shot her and it'd be less brutal of a burn-- also this is exactly where Kaliyo has the "oh so this was all an act" a propos Blade persona.

#swtor #my swtor #chiss #imperial agent #oc: corrs'ilavt'hisha a.k.a silavth #ascendancy au #and they are not ever really being that mean #Kaliyo asked for their assesment and she got it #Silavth holds nothing back when asked about their off the record honest opinion #sorry not sorry Kaliyo #it's gonna be interesting those two working in close proximity #Silvath is very specific person. their parents in Ascendancy certainly made a number on them #--and yes. who doesn't love some AU Sylvas action uwu #gotta really put out that name list for them #darth bagel rambles

[darth-bagel]

... i finally made that horny blog òwó

#swtor #kinda #darth bagel rambles

[darth-bagel]

So I've been on a litte bit of a solo rampage this weekend-- yo, guys--Veteran Flashpoints solo are not that fckn hard. I had a lot of fun, like Kaon Under Siege is slightly on the more complex side but-- the mechanics are interesting.

The only one that defeated me was Veteran Lost Island. I got 5/6 bosses down, couldn't clear the last one for the life of me, just got murdered on third phase 4 times and I had to stop bc my wrist was protesting.

But that's the fckn last one I need for Flashpoint Master so, idk I have to either find some company or brave the group finder at some point.

OH ALSO. 330 BLUE GEAR ACCOMPLISHED ✨💙

#swtor #my swtor #darth bagel rambles #yeap i dragged a stealthy dps for this. #i don't care. i could do some of it with Noxy #but she'd fold on Kaon pfjfjfj #this was fun tho #just that last damn boss will irritate me until i fckn clear it somehow #i was so closeeee #i did all the hard shit. the second boss was hard and took several tries #just because it just launches your companion into the ether if you just leave it be #and the fckn bonus boss was just. pure luck and AHHHHHHH with healing yourself constantly pfkffk #i need some peeps to finish that one. #i never did that before xd #i am this much of a solo player apparently pfjfjf

[darth-bagel]

i recently made up an au for Sylvas for what would happen if they weren't left on Corellia and instead grown up with their parents in Ascendancy. AND BOY IS THERE A LOT THERE. Plus I made them into the canon Agent, for extra drama ✨

Ascendancy AU let's go.

#swtor #my swtor #darth bagel rambles #chiss #so uh #this is my reminder to me to actually make them in game later today #i have everything ready. i even have a name òwó #we have some shit lined up with Ela and Tearless and Shade... #i just need to actually make em pfkdkdkd #yes i made a chiss name for them and *I'm so fckn proud of myself* pjfjjdjdf #plus i wanna start posting screenshots again and all #i wasn't doing a lot here for a while fpkfkf

[darth-bagel]

Still technically have more things from Hutta and also roasting Kaliyo but... I just like how they look here.

#swtor #my swtor #chiss #imperial agent #oc: corrs'ilavt'hisha a.k.a silavth #i'm gonna be short bc i don't like writing lots of tags on desktop #but am doing some black talon so just #have a more proper agenty-blueberry #because they immediately changed on the shuttle back to Vaiken Spacedock #*can't look like some backwater pirate* uwu #darth bagel rambles

[darth-bagel]

Good for business with a pinch of chaos, not getting extra people murdered or violence?

#swtor #my swtor #chiss #oc: corrs'ilavt'hisha a.k.a silavth #imperial agent #decisions-decisions #they went with the ls choices Kaliyo dissaproved. #after all. they are not here for fun chaos #they are actually doing their job. *those two will be interesting stuck on one ship* #darth bagel rambles

[darth-bagel]

Look at them, all prim and proper... this version of them is not as in touch with their emotions. Very repressed in comparison to their canon Smuggler self, good actor though.

#swtor #my swtor #chiss #imperial agent #oc: corrs'ilavt'hisha a.k.a silavth #yeah Silavth is... they can pretend very easily but personally they aren't really in touch #with their emotions. #they can read and recognize them in others usually well enough but... #yeah it's gonna be interesting going forward #darth bagel rambles

[darth-bagel]

okay there might be some in character reblogging back and forth... because someone had a genius idea to make an in character blog for Skaia and i am like 3 seconds from possibly making one for Sylvas sooooo I'm just gonna use this one for this until further notice.

beware of horny VaporViper my dudes

#swtor #darth bagel rambles #oc: sylvas sha'ael #friend's oc: vitas'kai'anaf a.k.a. Skaia

[darth-bagel]

nobody:

me about Sylvas going into their 50-ties around KotFE/KotET time:

@tearlessrain @swtorcompanionsgoofin òwó

#swtor #my swtor #darth bagel rambles #oc: sylvas sha'ael #chiss #...they got to their v good looks at around 25 and *spent* the next 25 basically without anything changing much #besides like scars and maybe some smile lines pfkffk #so their hair going silver was... an experience of hhhhhhhhhhhhh #anyway enjoy my random Sylvas bullshit pfkfjfj

[darth-bagel]

working alone in an office is the best. i sat down to print documents and then completely forgot to actually print them. good thing that my attention span can snap like a rubber band sometimes and i caught it before i wandered off doing other things.

...yes, i am a responsible accountant, idk what you mean.

#bagel in the office #bagel in the office at the end of the month #no *i am doing things you can't come in* #darth bagel rambles

[darth-bagel]

also since i am in a rambly mood, going on pts today to see things and test out that sweet, sweet map ✨

#swtor #swtor 7.2 #swtor pts #darth bagel rambles #gonna make a character and have some fun #sadly likely not Sylvas because i won't get my chiss optionz on Smuggler #maybe Silavth tho

[darth-bagel]

okay new setup is done, had to tweak sizing and everything, some stuff doesn't work like that daily thingie that pops up with daily reset and has cartel market sales and all is apparently somewhere around a mile under my actual bar but.. whatever. they'll fix it and this works for me ✨

#swtor #swtor 7.2 #and yes. i care only for the minimap #the story stuff can wait a week #or a month #i have more important things to do and i'm sure there's bugs #darth bagel rambles

[darth-bagel]

hope you're ok

oh, I'm more then okay, at least at this point.

it's just a bit of my blog spring cleaning and wanting to catch up on everything now that i feel i actually have space to do it, you could say. I'm trying to pick things up a bit more again--but I'm good 🫂🫂🫂 thank you for the concern 💙

#darth bagel rambles #thank you again #but yeah i had the plague like way back in at the beginning of 2021 #and then i mostly was just doing swtor stuff over discord with a bunch of friends #... i actually wanna get this blog running a bit more #and having a backlog of asks to go through seems like a solid idea #that and maybe like #setting a solid queue for screenshots and all that