#daisyology

[kandutchess]

I used to never understand the concept "architect of your own despair/demise" until I got older and realized that life really is what you make it like literally. if all you expect out of life is nothing then you get nothing. not even the life you dream of. if all you think about is the streets then that's all you get even if it's not the life you dream of. happiness is not just out there it's literally created out of blood, sweat, tears and fear. I don't want to go back to that dark place I was in years ago. I might've written some cool poetry but I am not designing my despair anymore I'm designing happiness only from now on. my heart will never be a trash can for despair ever again.

#daisyology #spilled ink #rambling #ramblings #spilled thoughts #real talk #real life #my observations #life lessons

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Daisyology

[kan-dey-see]

we are going to loose everything to white people and only a handful of us will die fighting for nothing as the rest of the global black population just sit back to let white people do whatever they want to whoever they want whenever they want. theyll take the rest of africa eventually, divy it up with other economic nonblack countries. black people no where are trying to perseve land just appearances and materials. so yea while our black elite have nice cars and pretty trophy women to have sex with, everything else that matters is going forgotten. and reading stuff like this just reminds me that white people will make sure they good. white people always lookin out for their benefit in the future while those of us who can make the future good for all just dont want to give a fuck about it. ima do what i can but i know most of yall want the cars instead of a future. shit like this only fuels me to continue following my dreams and that i have a lot of fighting to do.

#Daisyology #africa #south africa #when whites tell us to go back to africa they mean the parts of africa that they dont want

[kandutchess]

have I missed this place? idk

#daisyology #tumblr

[kandutchess]

I love how my bff gets mad that my school time + classes inconveniences her fun as if I had no idea going to school does that 🙄

#daisyology #irony

[kandutchess]

#depopsale #depopstore #depopstyle #depop #reseller #daisyology

[kandutchess]

I've been experimenting with the Vaporware image app

#daisyology #selfie

[kandutchess]

if I was a painter, i'd do a neo romantic piece where it'd look like a crowd of people filling up an busy intersection from afar; but as you'd get closer it's nothing but wisps of smoke. i'd call it Tuesday morning.

#daisyology #spilled thoughts #ramblings

[kandutchess]

I've lost the desire to vent now I just smoke until idgaf anymore

#daisyology #spilled thoughts

[kandutchess]

https://youtu.be/o49WR0EkvMs

#daisyology #daily life #aesthetic #its me

[kandutchess]

man I'm really gonna start this YouTube channel shit I wanna make money 😩

#daisyology #YouTube

[kandutchess]

y'all I really gave up on my poetry just to make friends. i really became what I hate the most. 😞

#daisyology #daily life

[kandutchess]

so whatever works

#daisyology

[kandutchess]

one of the many things I hate about capitalism is using personal, intimate moments to sell shit. like thanks commercial for reminding me about how I never will see my father again, but no I'm not buying a fucking grill you fucking bastards

#daisyology #vent #criticism #capitalism

[kandutchess]

more news about how my friends aren't shit:

one of my friends waited until yesterday to tell me she wasn't coming to this gala I invited her too. she's known about the gala for a whole month. I paid $65 for her ticket. she doesn't want to come because she will be late. she thinks it fucking matters.😤

#daisyology #daily life #bullshit

[kandutchess]

everybody wanna hang out once I get busy as fuck with shit I don't really wanna do but I need to do. yes I know it's beautiful outside but I have 3 essays, 3 presentations, and 6 finals in the next week so no I can't hang out now. why ain't nobody wanna hang out during fuckin spring break? psh. then I got a friend who's mad that ppl wanna hangout with me. she's miserable and she needs me to care about her misery (she don't even want me to be miserable with her becos then Id care about my misery instead of just focusing on her). I don't even talk to her about nothing no more. I just listen to her complain about being pregnant and the ppl who won't put up with her moods & shit. i care about my friends I do. but why can't anyone understand why I need time to study and do homework? why do ppl think I just need one hour in one day to pass all my classes, to study, to write 30 pages of research, to work, to sleep, to eat, to live? damn, my life isn't for nobody but me. I gotta live this shit. I'ma do what the fuck I gotta do to enjoy my fucking time on this damn planet.

#daisyology #diary #vent #rambling #thoughts and feelings #daily life #mad af #bullshit #yes