#cuz on surface level i know

[lilacs-stash]

I need more S2 final four shenanigans so I made some.

Redraw of the forever weed brownie comic by @punkitt-is-here :3

#I didn't do the rest of it cuz I feel it'd be ooc #Which is also why I changed Lightbulb's lines a little #Only kinda related but I could do a post on why Suitcase and Fluttershy are similar characters #like I know that sounds pretty surface level BUT I have reasons relating to character development and all that #Ii suitcase #ii lightbulb #inanimate insanity #object posting #look I can draw! Art tag #cw drugs #suitcase ii #lightbulb ii #forever weed brownie

[essektheylyss]

Okay I did get distracted by a grade being posted and I am about to be both a nerd and a millennial but god ngl I do hate classes where you get full points on all your assignments but don't actually get any actual feedback on them. What is the point. If it's a class where everyone gets passing grades for making the effort but you get actual feedback and comments, that's great! But I would genuinely rather get points docked and get extensive comments on what I did well and what needed improvement and why than this.

#what is the POINT #like at that point it feels like busy work frankly! it doesn't feel like anyone's worrying about whether or not I learned something! #and like I can self reflect on my own learning. I'm good at that. that's fine. but a) not everyone can #and b) it REALLY does not help the perception that a degree is something you pay for but don't actually need to learn anything to get #which is a MASSIVE problem rn. there's no actual value placed on LEARNING THINGS. #like I know for a FACT that I have turned in B+ average assignments at best in this class. #just cuz I only have finite time and I gotta stay sane and it's not an area I'm going to go any further than surface level in. #the overview is good and important! but the work I'm doing is reflective of my investment and frankly it should've earned a B+ at most. #like at least if you're docking a point and telling me what for I know you READ the damn thing. christ alive. #you may ask yourself 'oh my god why are you like this' and the answer is. have you looked at my blog. #anyway. okay nOW I'm going to bed.

[starwhipnspin]

DTIYS entry for @traffic-light-eyes!!! :D congrats on 200 followers!!!

(i hope deadpool counts as a superhero lol,,,)

#starsfanarts #starsfanarts: ninjago #tle200dtiys #ninjago #jay ninjago #jay walker #deadpool #im not really a magical girl typa guy #and i pretty much have surface level knowledge about actual superheroes (apart from spidey but come on who doesnt know that guy) #but i wanted to do this anyways cuz it sounded fun #deadpool my beloved my bbg i had to pick him... #well and i chose jay cuz... i mean it just made sense to do so #the way i always find the time for a last minute DTIYS entry is kinda wild btw #im bending time itself by how fast im drawing these #like even when i physically do not have the time i still manage somehow

[klonoadoortophantomile]

played a lot more mother 3 today (i just finished up chapter 5 lol) its kinda crazy how much i remember from this but also Completely Forgot abt

#or just hadnt heard of before but theres been a lot of moments where its like ‘OH. THAT THING YEAH!!!!’ #oh uh i dont remmeber if i mentioned this before or not i got likethe whole game spoiled ages ago #obviously theres some stuff abt the game thats just like surface level things most ppl have heard if they know anything abt it #or ar least. thats what i think idk. like theres stuff i always see mentioned whenever the game gets discussed #like broadly outside of the fanbase #uh i forgot where i was going with this #still dont realy get the rhythm game stuff but its not bothering me as much cuz i actually have #party members now. feels like you can actually do stuff and it feels fair XD #inquisitivewaltz.txt #i was supposed to get some homework done over rhis weekend but all ive done is play mother 3. oops #that stuff was already latework too help 💀

[pussy-ache]

i probably shouldn’t read about bpd before bed

#cuz now it’s 330am and i’m crying cuz i have no way to actually mentally process love effectively #like it’s so weird to realize that as much as romantic love and intimacy interest me as concepts #i crave it until the exact moment where i can get it for myself #and then the craving dissipates #like how do i say ‘’hey i know we’ve been having fun for years and you seem to be falling in love with me #but i have no desire to actually be loved by you or touched by you in an actual real way’’ #especially because the attention i receive is the only dopamine i get that gets me out of bed #so essentially i just use people and string them along knowing i’ll never actual want more than surface level anything #and this is what i mean when i say i do not love right. like on paper i seem fine. in theory i seem fine. in practice not so much #there is something so deeply cracked about my desires sexually and romantically completely disappearing #like it really hurts him that he craves my touch and love and i crave. nothing. #like he always craves video chats and calls and loves seeing me and talking to me and idc if i ever have that. i don’t crave it at all #the roleplay of intimacy is fun and then it’s not anymore when people expect me to actually seriously want to spend time with them #i feel like i want to want someone because i’ve been taught i should #the way i operate romantically and sexually falls completely in line with BPD #i will probably be alone for the majority of my life #and i know i can do that but i was promised to some degree that the normal thing to do as an adult is cohabitate / be intimate with someone #and now i’m like ‘’well no one prepared me for a reality where because of a mental illness i might not actually be able to do that’’ #i wasn’t prepared for the possibility that i truly will live life alone because of this #and now it’s like 4am and i’m staring at the wall and having it hit me like a ton of bricks #it’s like in order to actually fall in love at all i’m going to have to beat back this mental illness at any given moment forever #and that’s IF and only IF i’m able to even fall in love in the first place #it doesn’t seem like i’m actually capable of falling in love

[zongzhii]

wish i could complain abt the new pkmns without sounding like a boomer but atp i'm just disappointed at the wasted potential from gamefreak's obsession with crunching a new game every year :(

#misc #recently played thru bw and wow the lore #granted the ending was a little rushed but it just gets more rushed these days #i always disliked the way pkmn lore left you with a buncha questions after the game and never dived into them #especially for a game like PLA #which im a little mad abt cuz like... cogita and volo/the celestica lore could have been such a good dlc topic #nowadays im afraid to develop attachments to the story beyond surface level enjoyment cuz god knows gf won't ever revisit a story later on #ig it's a bit unfair to expect a lot from a single-purchase kids game but mannn

[sunnydice]

calling cdream morally gray because he "wants to keep the server together" instantly unravels when you remember he's the one who tore it apart

#yeah he really saved the server when he escalated a mass slaughter and drove a kid to almost suicide for months cackling the whole time #not only is his 'ooo he just wants to keep everyone united 🥺' more of a shaky informed attribute (perpetuated by him AND his fans) #but even with that reasoning . how would that make him less of a villian lol #morally grey doesn't mean evil but maybe sad about it. morally gray means the webbing between hero and villain: bad actions for good of not #understandble reasons #and this is your good reason? that's where you throw your hands up and go well. i'd understand? #because idk how to tell you he paved the way for every single bad thing that happened to him and Not on purpose #he didnt expect sap+george to leave even after he kept trampling and abandoning them #and what goal was there with exile specifically? people Don't Know what happened there by his own fucking choice. #'yes i beat and abused and killed a kid and tried to condition him to be a Plaything for me' #'and i laughed the whole time and hid it from everyone so no one knows what i did and i wont talk about it either' #'but wasnt my reason so noble?' shut up BOY you guys sound RIDICULOUS #wheres the moral grayness in that?? where's the well actually??? wheres the 'performance' cdream apologists swear exists? #it's cuz there isnt 😭 hes just Actually like that and he likes doing it #having more than surface level thoughts and feelings abt situations doesnt make you morally gray it makes you a person #and it doesnt and Wouldnt detract from the harm he keeps choosing to cause #huri.txt #cometdontlook

[byrdblood]

hey just want to say YOUR ART IS SO GOOD!!! your painting style and your chibis for your utmv toyhouse project are so so pretty QQ

Also i want to ask more about your oc Abaddon Byrd? i am so invested already just from his toyhouse preview like?? i am eyeing the project so much!! YOUR WRITING IS SO GOOD TOO!!!

i love how you wrote everyone's descriptions so much... Im so curious on Abbadon's background and his powers and how he is with nightmare's group even further on other situations, like my gods their nicknames for him are great and the fact that he was just a painter at beginning by chance.. haha

i hope these werent too many questions or thoughts, i am just so excited haha, hope you have a nice day or night!!

thank you so much!! it really brightened my day finding this in my askbox omg LHDSDASHGADS don't worry at all so, im not actually sure if i want to do some kind of written story with abaddon, yet, but just in case, i'll try not to get too deep into what i'd call "spoiler" territory. HOWEVER, i can dig into some basics of his backstory for you since you didn't ask anything super specific? xD

basically, yes, abaddon was originally a mundane (that is, nonmagical) human painter living in a neutral post-pacifist au. nightmare only came across his work by chance during a raid, and, yanno, basically having had the world's shittiest year in terms of his work, he decided "fuck it, i deserve a treat", except art version. (what kind of god doesn't have an imposing self portrait in his front hall?)

given that abaddon was kidnapped coerced "hired" to actually complete a job (as opposed to, like, being hunted for sport) he had some level of immunity his first few weeks staying in the castle -- at least as long as nightmare was around to enforce it. but Abaddon's not a dumb guy, especially when it comes to people, so he figured early on that the second he delivered a passable finished project, he was gonna be killed. so, naturally, he drug it out a little, dug his heels in. and the longer he stayed there, the more the others -- especially dust and nightmare, arguably the most sensitive to these sorts of things -- came to suspect the strange properties of abaddon's soul, which, strangely enough, he himself seemed completely unaware of. this made him an interesting bauble at best, something to be picked apart and understood... but most importantly, it did buy him time.

...but, eventually, something finally happened. certain situations came to a head and abaddon was caught in the crossfire.

understandably, the situation put abaddon under a great deal of stress, not only bringing to a boiling point the family disease he didn't even know he had, but throwing him into a series of unfortunate events that would corrupt his code entirely, leading him to develop the markedly inhuman features he carries today ;) now, nightmare is no fool, of course, and if you present him with a living weapon -- especially one who seems to be holding so much resentment and misanthropism just behind their teeth -- he's going to try to capitalize on it. so regardless of abaddon's lack of LV or their piss poor physical health, apparently this new ability he developed was valuable enough for nightmare to offer him a permanent contract anyway. so now he's a permanent member all the sudden as opposed to a mildly interesting trinket the others could fuck around with for a few weeks, and to make things worse, he's human. for a group that originally called themself the bad sanses, it's just weird as shit (if nothing else!) to suddenly be incorporating this random guy. so, understandably, the guys are varying levels of chill with that.

aaaand that's the basics! if you want to know more though you're more than welcome to ask something else xD

#utmv #nightmare's pantheon #multiverse tau #abaddon byrd #ask #fair warning ill avoid going too deep into details for things i consider possible spoilers (again just in case) #but lots of surface level details should be free game #including like relationship stuff! #again youll just have to be more specific in your questions cuz otherwise i dont know what to cover

[thefaultinourchickennuggets]

seeing some quality locked tomb discourse on my dash today...really gotta reread those fucking books

#personal #the locked tomb #cuz i didn't pick up on that shit AT ALL #im also dumb #and i think i just do very surface level reads of stuff #which might be why i had such a hard time with those books #i mean i liked! #a lot! #but i don't know half of what's happening lol

[gorefetishizer]

.

#ill be all day all week all month hoping someone notices that im feeling like shit but whenever it happens i cant. not hide #really you would have to torture me to get me to admit anything #its just #it feels so dumb #to say i feel lonely or tired or overwhelmed #and recognizing anything else than those surface level descriptors its. way too scary #i joke about being at my limit #but i dont. i didnt do this things before. i didnt think this kind of things #i wish it was all just sad and not scary #i wish frustration made me sad and not angry #and detached instead of clingy and obsesive #like before #it was better when i was a child and it could be pityful without being pathetic #i really am. in my head. like this horrible caracter. but i cant even feel like its real cuz my actions could never follow it #and i wish it was a good thing but it isnt. i feel like one day ill just explode and ill end up hurting people not out of my own unawerenes #but in purpose #only to feel in control #and ive done it never noticeable that im aware of it always looking like im just stressed and not thinking but i know #im extremly aware of everything that i do #i wish i wasnt #i wish at least i didnt know that im ruining things #vent

[gertstarlight]

With the way the writing treats her character and essentially makes her a punching bag for the audience. And with the disgusting way the official instagram handle behaves when it comes to Beth and Anj (leaving her out of group pics, not posting her takeover etc) It's not surprising to me that she doesn't speak as much about Stargirl as she does her other projects. Sometimes it gives me Candice Patton vibes with the way that the character and actress seem to be treated,

ur absolutely right anon it's obvious too! those ig posts of beth w the captions abt eclipso opened the floodgates of racist comments... too many ppl used it as an opportunity to say hateful and racist shit abt beth/anj. also ppl that fought back against the racists were being blocked by the cw account so it's completely understandable if anj doesn't want to talk abt the show! like why should she be excited abt a project that doesn't celebrate her or her character the way they deserve??

#i cant comment on candice tho cuz i only know the surface level stuff #ik she was treated terribly like she has to ask the official fanpage to follow her ?? which is so odd cuz she's ur LEAD #give her the respect she deserves #but anyways this is abt anj and i think they need to step up the way they treat her #ik she loves the cast crew and writers sm but i just wish they showed her more love and just have her the recognition she deserves #stargirl cast

[thedevotionaltour]

please fund eiffel's european tour so that i, eiffel, can travel around europe to hunt down jamie hewlett and run him over with a car

#last post like this for today i promise i promiseee 🤗 and i say today cuz i make zero promises for tomorrow lol SORRY #it is weighing soooo heavy on my mind like it is just so. idk it's gonna sound silly but like kinda like it makes me sad it breaks my heart #cuz i really did only see the surface level of it cuz i just idk i wasnt exploring official stuff sk heavily i really was more in the fan #made stuff realm in middle school. so it's like to just go back through so much phase 1+2 art and just get. hit with that image after image #it like. hurts! it's silly as fuck to say but it does! like im filipino! im asian! and the band i love treats and depicts asian people #in a very racist manner. and a lot of the white fandom has never been very kind to poc either. cuz they'll love the characters but when #black or brown people say hey. some of this is really really bad. they get really mad at us. a lot. like listen i love russ i love noodle. #but there is no way to defend almost anything jaimie and ppl involved in the writing have depicted them. #and i dont know. it just sucks to remember. it just sucks that's all there is to say. so much of my fandom experience in middle school was #having to learn how much racism lies within fandom. and how much white people just hate us doing anything in fan content. #or just seeing us as fellow fans.or seeing poc depicted in their media. i didnt have a very fun fandom experience in my early t(w)een years #static.soundz

[lonaami]

trying to talk to my sister about any kind of fictional character that’s done terrible horrible no good things and it’s like talking to a brick wall

#I looked her straight in the face and was like #I’m not even gonna bother cuz you always try to hold these fictional characters to real human standards and I don’t know #how to get it through your thick skull that that’s a stupid way to look at a story and to be honest #makes the story boring when you do that like yeah I know he did that and I can tell you exactly why he did the bad thing he did #But you sit there and are like “yeah he’s clearly just evil and a bad person” and it drives me INSANE #WHERE IS THE COMPREHENSION WHERE IS IT #Like I’m sorry did you not realize the reason he did this was because of the trauma he went through during these scene #(IM NOT EXCUS NG HIS ACTIONS ANNA) and it caused him to lash out this way and become emotionally vulnerable and the actual antagonist took #advantage of that and whispered things into his ears and and and I could literally go on but go off I guess #Eat your cereal of bland storytelling and surface level comprehension #ANYWAYS #rant over I guess lol #faye.txt #what’s funny is is this is about Star Wars enfndjdnsjfnnew

[astro-inthestars]

you should get into touhou as there's many girls to be gay over in it

Oh come on, I'm not that easy, pal.

#astroanswers #i have standrads too yA KNOW. #just having pretty girls in a media isn't gonna get me easily?? like sure they'd be pretty but like #i fall for characters for a REASON not just cuz they're pretty #and if that's the case then it'll be in a different light compared to certain characters who i freak out over constantly- #anD MOST ESPECIALLY THOSE STEREOTYPICAL 'WAIFUS' from like. anime and j-rpgs ans stuff... like it's rare for me to fall for those if at all #......but i digress- it'd be bold of me to assume before getting to know the characters! #to your credit though anon! there are pretty girls! #just not my types... at least at surface level!

[dadsbongos]

it is CANON yuji is a DOM.

tw author has comically surface level knowledge of bdsm terms and dynamics and uses it against the public. also nsfw immediately after the cut

Yuuji is a dom. Specifically, a pleasure dom.

I think he could have sub potential, but he just can’t get comfortable outside of the power position. He likes receiving the attention, sure - but what he prefers? He easily prefers giving. Using his unnatural stamina and big heart to just run you into orgasm after orgasm. To watch you go from his well put-together partner to a babbling, drooly mess all because of him is nearly addicting.

He doesn’t like giving orders, he likes giving suggestions - making blanket statements and just hoping you latch onto them ‘cuz he knows they’ll feel so good. He studies and tasks every little twitch and gasp and moan you grace him with, storing the information just to use it against you later.

“Y’should sit on my face.”

“Want you to ride my cock. Use me to cum.”

“Wanna feel me deep, hm? Right there, yeah?”

And he loves, loves, loves praising. He’s all breathless and red staring at you - eager to worship your body and tire you out like he’s been chosen for it by some omnipotent power.

“So pretty when ya cry for me. So, so pretty.”

“Yeah, baby, like that. Just like that. You’re so good.”

“You can take it; always do. Such a perfect hole for me, huh?”

The best thing, though? The best thing about Yuuji is that he can get downright as feral as you about your ecstasy. Living for the sensation of your nails in his skin and your teeth on his shoulder when you get overstimulated and whiny.

“Keep going - one - one more. You can give me one more, right?”

“Need it- need to feel ya cum all over me, angel.”

“You’re soaking, angel… How much wetter can I make you?”

i’m going insane

#god damn dude kinda need him #yuji x reader #yuji smut #jjk x reader #jjk x you #jujutsu kaisen x reader #yuji itadori x reader #yuji itadori #yuuji x reader #yuuji itadori x reader #itadori x reader #itadori smut #jjk smut #yuuji smut #mama's little man <3 #anon chatter :).