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#cuz i feel like now everythings on a fucking invisible timer and i cant take my time with anything or else mom'll fukcing
mapleshmaple ยท 4 years
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#its. really incredible how my mom always somehow manages to pinpoint EXACTLY whats making me feel like shit#and just crank it from a 10 to a 100 without thinking twice about it#and when i tell her that 'hey. maybe can you possibly NOT do that please' shes like 'WELL I SAID IT WITHOUT THINKING#SO THAT JUSTIFIES/EXCUSES IT >:/'#and just. drops that shit and i mean!! ok. thats cool. thanks for that.#i was feeling like shit about how im not gonna live to see 30 at this rate and just. really missing my grandmothers that passed recently#and its my grandpas birthday/her step-dads birthday today and hes 94 and shes walks in on my three hours of sleep having ass#like 'this may be the last birthday we have with pete- both him and grandmom do a lot for us' AND I MEAN#I WAS GONNA GET UP ANYWAY WITHOUT THE FUCKING. THAT. SO THATS REAL COOL. SUPER APPRECIATE THAT.#that and shes going back to work and literally just sitting there all day and our boss is like 'hm. im gonna bring everyone back#and start back up on six days a week. even if we only make like. five sales a day.' and moms just#been going off about that and about how i need to get bloodwork done and its.#i dunno!!! i dunno. im just real fed up with everything right now and really burnt the hell out#cuz i feel like now everythings on a fucking invisible timer and i cant take my time with anything or else mom'll fukcing#go back to treating me like im six and take away whatever it is of mine she doesnt like and just throw it at the donation bin or some shit#so if im. slow to reply im really sorry i just need to kinda vibe for a bit bc im on the ass end of being burnt the hell out tldr
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