#culpeo speaks

[andizoidart]

The skeleshifter version of Blue and Papyrus are very good friends and hang out often. They’re out on a mall trip in this drawing, waiting for Swap to come back from a store. I put them in kidcore because it just suited their personalities a bit. Papyrus is a little stressed,,

#andi speaks #andizoid #andizoidart #my art #my character #my characters #skeleshifters #Culpeo/Red fox!Papyrus #skunk!blue

[transgenderer]

The Fuegian dog (Spanish: perro yagán, perro fueguino), also known as the Yahgan dog, is an extinct domesticated canid. It was a domesticated form of the culpeo (Lycalopex culpaeus).[1] The culpeo is similar in build to true foxes (tribe Vulpini) but is actually more closely related to wolves and jackals, being placed in a separate genus within the South American foxes or zorros. The Fuegian dog is not descended from domestic dogs, which were domesticated from an ancestor shared with the modern gray wolf (Canis lupus), nor from the domesticated silver fox which was domesticated from a melanistic population of the red fox (Vulpes vulpes).

Although the distribution of the Fuegian dog corresponded with that of the Yahgan people, individual animals were not loyal to their human owners. Julius Popper pointed out the canid's lack of loyalty: "I never saw them, no matter how large their number, take an aggressive attitude or defend their masters when these were in danger".[4]

Fuegian dogs were not used to hunt guanaco. However, they might have been useful for hunting otters.[3] The foxes were also useful to humans in that they would gather around their owners to keep them warm. This was noted by Julius Popper: "The dogs placed themselves in a group around the small Onas, taking the shape of a kind of wrapping .... [M]y opinion is that the Fuegian dogs are only useful to complete the defective garment of the Indian, or better, as the Ona's heating furniture".

In 1919, when Silesian missionary Martin Gusinde visited the local Yahgans, he noticed that, to his knowledge, all of the dogs seemed to be missing. He immediately noted this as odd, especially considering that the tie between the dogs and the local people was well documented by foreign missionaries and explorers by this time. Indeed, this mutual cooperation allowed for the region to become the only stronghold of this unusual domesticated canine to have ever existed. Upon speaking to the local people and inquiring about what had happened to the animals, he was told that the entire known population of them had been exterminated, and it was claimed they "were dangerous to men and cattle". Apparently, this "fierce" nature of the animal was allegedly witnessed by Thomas Bridges in the 1880s, who in his writings, purported that the dogs attacked his mission's goats, while giving few specific details.[5]

1919! your great-great-grandma could have seen them!

[thesorcerersapprentice]

✦ C U C U F A T E ✦ CHARACTER PROFILE

Cucufate is Altaluna's (the protagonist) main ally in The Sorcerer’s Apprentice. Under the cut, you’ll find his complete profile! *I'll update this page as I come up with new details.

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✦  Full Name: Cucufate or Cucuphas (I borrowed the name from the patron saint of petty thieves and kyphosis). Pronounced: "cook - ooo (as in "goo") - fa (as in "fa-la-la-la-la") - te (as in "telephone"). ✦  Age: Unknown ✦  Sex & Gender: Irrelevant, but I'm thinking male? ✦  Physical Description: Cucufate is a culpeo, a South American canid otherwise known as a Paramo Wolf or Andean Fox (although it bears a striking resemblance to the red fox, it's actually more closely related to wolves and coyotes). ✦ Occupation: One of Valeriano's Abandoned Projects.

INSPIRATION

✦ Socrates & Bartleby: (*I'm in the process of rewriting this section, as it isn't very clear. Thanks for your patience!) Cucufate is based on two figures: the ancient philosopher Socrates and Bartleby from the short story Bartleby, The Scrivener by Herman Melville. What I wanted to do with Cucufate was find a way to have an animal speak without necessarily resorting to a 'human' voice (a voice that furthers our aims, mimics and thus elevates our culture, clarifies and informs etc.). This is where Socrates and Bartleby enter the picture. They both provide a language model that subverts standard communication. For instance, despite being the primary character in Plato's Dialogues and one of the most famous philosophers of all time, Socrates makes no positive or prescriptive claims (thou shalt not blah, this is that etc.). Instead, he talks in (flattery &) questions, undermining any certainty his interlocutors might feel by prodding and probing their knowledge of x, y & z until they are forced to reveal their ignorance (this is known as Socratic irony). Socrates' speech is thus a kind of anti-speech. If it spotlights a topic, it does so only to reveal the immensity of the darkness that sustains it, its lack of substance. Indeed, whenever Socrates opens his mouth, he widens the abyss that will eventually swallow his interlocutor's thoughts and beliefs whole, and terminate the discussion (silence). Hence, Socratic dialogue successfully humiliates and confuses us. It strips us of that very human arrogance, our intellectual bravado, so that we too can become wise: so that we too can share in the wisdom of knowing that we don't know. Doesn't the natural world do the same? Isn't that precisely the horror of climate change? Bartleby, on the other hand, taps into the ambiguity of certain language formulas. His signature phrase "I would prefer not to," which he repeats whenever he's asked to do his job, expresses a hypothetical that... never seems to go anywhere? It's the Schrodinger's Cat of phrases, simultaneously dead and alive; he'd prefer not to, but... will he or won't he? Yes. The ambiguity, the inaction of it, dumfounds and incapacitates his employer. Bartleby's speech thus provides an example of a language that resists, confounds rather than clarifies, and complicates rather than simplifies. Like Socratic irony, Bartleby's masterful use of the conditional and modal auxiliary verb "would," disrupts the status quo. Because Cucufate's speech pattern draws from both of them, he becomes an effective helper to Altaluna; by engaging with her, he counteracts the temptation to think along the lines of a simplistic, "heroic" fascism (good vs. evil, light vs. darkness, us vs. them), and forces her instead to adopt a more nuanced stance, capable of aptly handing contradiction and ambiguity. (*Appropriated from this post).

✦ Cunning Intelligence in Greek Culture and Society by Marcel Detienne & Jean-Pierre Vernant: "When Oppian describes the cunning of the fishing frog squatting in the mud, motionless and invisible, he compares it to the fox: ‘The scheming fox (agkulómetis kerdō) devises a similar trick; as soon as it spots a flock of wild birds it lies down on its side, stretches out its agile limbs, closes its eyelids and shuts its mouth. To see it you would think that it was enjoying a deep sleep or even that it was really dead, so well does it hold its breath as it lies stretched out there, all the while turning over treacherous plots (aióla bouleúousa) in its mind. No sooner do the birds notice it than they swoop down on it in a flock and, as if in mockery, tear at its coat with their claws, but as soon as they are within reach of its teeth the fox reveals its cunning (dólos) and seizes them unexpectedly. The fox is a trap; when the right moment comes the dead creature becomes more alive than the living. [….] If the metis of the fox is immediately detectable in its skill at playing dead, it is dazzlingly apparent in this sudden reversal. In effect, the fox holds the secret of reversal which is the last word in craftiness." (pp. 35-36)

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[marcoxdecastilla]

Is there anyone in town you find attractive ?

"This town seems to be inexplicably brimming with attractive people.  I can’t honestly say that I’ve met anyone whom I’d personally classify as unattractive here.  Obviously, I think Melanie is beautiful.  Her sister Jez is also lovely; there’s a strong family resemblance.  I met a vampire named Valentina who is conventionally stunning, and a young woman by the name of Mirana who--if I might be so bold--is breathtaking in a far more subtle sense.  Objectively speaking I will readily admit that the men in town are also easy on the eyes; though to be clear that’s not really my thing. 

// @drdrago @jezebel-dragoumis @valentinawakens @culpeos

#[marco :: wolford anons]

[one-last-culpeo]

integration: myths and truths from a fused alter

alright, i've seen a lot of posts saying integration is "murder" or even censoring integration like int*gration or int/gr/tion. i'm very very sick of this anti-recovery narrative so i'm going to call it the fuck out. this is going to be something of a rantpost.

okay, here's my background on this situation. i am currently the only alter in my system, i.e. i've achieved integration or "final" fusion. i put "final" in quotes because i believe it's possible that i could split again under extreme stress in the future and that this is not a permanent state of being. obviously, i would hope it is permanent; i don't want to split again, but i know my brain still has the capacity to do so.

i still have dissociation (to a lower degree) and alter-body dysphoria -- i still have DID, and fusing won't change that or remove the splitting mechanism or other DID symptoms that the brain created to survive the trauma i went through. my mental body image is still a nonhuman; i took on the form of one of the alters that is now part of me. but i have healed enough to be one again, and for that i am thankful.

that said, let's run through some things.

FULL INTEGRATION OR FUSION... - is a form of major recovery - is fulfilling and healing - makes you feel more whole - lessens dissociative symptoms considerably FULL INTEGRATION OR FUSION... - will not make you a singlet - will not completely cure your DID - is not the only way for a system to heal - is not always better than functional multiplicity - is not the best way for everyone - is not cruel or abusive - does not "kill" or "delete" or "erase" alters - is not murder.

what does it feel like to be integrated?

it feels like i am everyone combined and i am more whole and more stable and more okay than any part was before. by saying the alters who integrated to form me were "murdered" you're saying i was murdered, because i am each alter that came before and i am all of them together. i have a nearly complete memory -- of course, some areas are still lost to dissociation -- but i can't tell apart the memories made by each different alter that is now part of me. they're all just mine now.

i retained the form of one of the alters that integrated to form me, but that form is just mine now, and it feels like it has always been mine. does that make sense? all the parts' memories and characteristics have always been mine. the timeline is complete. i didn't "kill" anyone. i healed everyone, and everyone is me. i'm one, i'm whole -- if only maybe for a while -- and i'm happy with that.

it goes without saying that forced integration is bad and is abusive behavior. anyone who wants to forcefully integrate a system before they're ready should not be a mental health professional. however, we need to stop assuming that's the same thing and thus minimizing the benefits of voluntary, consensual and happy system fusion. this is an anti-recovery view and is extremely harmful to the DID/OSDD community.

integration shouldn't be something we're afraid of. it should be considered, welcomed, accepted. if you want to work toward functional multiplicity, great! if you want to work toward fusion, great! if you want to work toward these things with a mental health professional, great! if you don't have access to professional help but want to work toward these things on your own, great! your recovery path is specific to you, and no one else should shame you for how you help yourself.

we, as a community, need to stop implying that people should be scared of recovery. all healing is good healing. integration is not murder.

#actually dissociative #actually traumagenic #integration #systems #system stuff #syscourse #final fusion #alter integration #alters #did #osdd #actually did #did system #dissociative system #osdd system #system info #nonhuman alter #culpeo speaks #alter dysphoria #integration is not murder #system discourse #integration discourse #plurality #multiplicity #actually multiple #actually plural #traumagenic system #traumagenic

[dndbabes]

Leaving Yataar

We had a session yesterday! What went on is below the cut.

Tobi has a Conversation™ with Oskarr, the man he ‘saved’ from the Air Cult. He, apparently, joined the cult to be free from debt. Tobi offers to pay that debt if Oskarr promises to find his own purpose and Not Be A Cult Member.

The party goes about their day! Kuori works with Forge. They all meet at the Professor’s for supper. Tobi asks Ash why he avoided Culpeo- but Ash doesn’t say anything. He wasn’t avoiding her! Ridiculous, Tobi. [the party doesn’t know her name is Culpeo in-game yet.]

While at dinner, Corkpop confronts Kuori with Naivara’s wanted poster. He, like Ash, doesn’t believe it’s her. 

After dinner, Ash and Kuori head to the fighting pits while Tobi, Corkpop, and Oskarr head off to square Oskarr’s debt with the Hand of Yataar [The Thieves Guild.]

Naivara stays behind at the Dancing Wolf and goes to talk to at least one of Tobi’s dads. I’ll return to this later.

Corkpop and Tobi talk to the representative of the Hand in the same bar as the fighting pit, Nanya. Corkpop manages to cut a deal with her- Kuori wins against Culpeo a second time, and the debt is forgotten. 

Corkpop and Ash bet on the fights leaving up to Kuori vs Culpeo, and make sweet sweet loot. To the Culpeo fight!

Someone tries to poison Kuori from the sidelines, but Corkpop notices and manages to push the cheater into the pit. Culpeo denies any knowledge about the sabotage. The cheater, who claimed to be doing it bc he put all his money on Culpeo, was kicked out and the fight continues.

Kuori just barely wins! Knocking out the dragonborn and knocking out a few of her teeth. Tobi heals her broken jaw, but lies and says he didn’t see Kuori take her teeth. Oskar’s debt is square and the party fund is safe for now.

Culpeo is apparently in a “rival gang” to the Hand.

While this is going on, Naivara is talking to Feng at the inn the party’s been staying at. She asks a bit about how they found Tobi, finds out he’s almost 14 years old, and hits on Feng. He’s a bit tipsy so he’s almost tempted [otherwise known as Naivara has the lucky feat and got a 19 on a DC of 20.]

[I, as a player, am lovin this.]

Back at the temple, Oskarr tells Tobi what he knows of the cults. There are 4; The Howling Hatred [air], Black Earth [earth], Crushing Wave [water], and Eternal Flame [fire].

Tobi trips on a tripwire set by Ash. Pike [a npc cleric at the temple. Yes she’s AU Pike from Critical Role] sees him w/o his helmet on. It’s awkward.

Morning! Naivara awakens next to Forge. Kuori goes to get her, they head to Corkpop’s. Tobi shows up later, and tells Braelin that his dad is alive, but in prison for 20 years. He doesn’t tell Braelin that other council members were executed.

Ash goes fishing! He actually catches something this time. [after 2 hours of trying]. He has a fish dinner.

Shopping! Corkpop gets a pet fruitbat [named Sterling] and Kuori gets Lucky [Naivara’s pet fox] a toy and some treats. Kuori also talks to both Lucky and Sterling because he can cast speak with animals.

Then everyone finally leave Yataar, much to the relief of our poor DM whose had to voice so many NPCs in 2 and 3/4th sessions.

As we’re leaving, Naivara kisses Feng on the cheek and he’s like “Please Don’t”. Tobi Leaves This Plane of Existence. Jesse loves it. Varis asks once more if he’s sure he’s never seen Naivara before, perhaps in Nerileth. 

We head through the Dessarin Hills! Fight some Gnolls. Corpop brings up the wanted poster while Tobi is the only one awake. Tobi is adamant that it’s not a problem now, and he wants her to tell him the truth without using magic to force her to.

#dnd blogging #dnd shenanigans #dungeons and dragons #dnd #dungeonsanddaddies

[andizoidart]

A close up of my darling Papyrus from the skeleshifters!AU! His design is only tweaked just a bit from normal and he is one of my favorites.

#andi speaks #andizoid #andizoidart #my art #my character #culpeo/red fox!papyrus #skeleshifters

[andizoidart]

Little man Culpeo/Red fox Papyrus

#andi speaks #andizoid #andizoidart #my art #my character #skeleshifters #culpeo/red fox!papyrus #papyrus #he approaches

[one-last-culpeo]

kin vs nonhuman alters: things that need to be said

just wanna throw this out there... please stop lumping nonhuman alters in with kin, therians, alterhumans, and pet regressors. (while we’re here, this also applies to fictionkin content invading tags meant for fictional introjects in systems.)

we are not the same, our experiences are not the same. i am sick of checking my shit every morning and seeing that pretty much every post in the nonhuman alter tag is still about otherkin. i have absolutely nothing against otherkin or therians, but i just do not want tags made for my kind invaded by content that doesn’t represent me or my experiences.

keep in mind that animal alters (and other nonhumans) exist on a spectrum of cognitive patterns, behaviors and functionality levels. some of them may be indistinguishable from humans outwardly unless they tell you about what they are, while others may rarely front and act fully like an animal when they front. this is largely because there are several different reasons nonhumans form, and they result in very different outcomes. when people conflate otherkin/therians and nonhuman alters, they are mostly thinking of nonhumans who are very good at presenting human (like me). however, many are completely different from me. dog alters often form from severe abuse in which a child is treated like a dog and forced to act like one, for instance -- these will usually behave like dogs when fronting, and you wouldn’t compare them to kin or pet regressors, now would you? they are every bit as important as humanoid alters and animal alters who can mask as human, and they deserve to have posts about them that fit their needs.

- animal alters who function like animals when fronting deserve to have content made for them, in the tags intended for them. - animal alters who appear human from the outside deserve to have content made for them, in the tags intended for them. - nonhuman alters who are not animals deserve to have content made for them, in the tags intended for them. - otherkin & alterhumans deserve to have content made for them, in the tags intended for them. - therians deserve to have content made for them, in the tags intended for them. - pet regressors deserve to have content made for them, in the tags intended for them.

but don’t mix them up. i’m pretty sure we’re all tired of it.

#culpeo speaks #serious post #nonhuman alter #non human alter #opinion #otherkin #nonhuman #kin #therian #animal alter #alterhuman #long post

[one-last-culpeo]

i did it y'all

i told the person i love (singlet) about having DID and being nonhuman, which i've been really afraid to do for so long because of stigma.

he was really welcoming and accepting and willing to learn about stuff! i'm so, so relieved that things worked out on that front. it's genuinely a huge weight off my shoulders that he knows and that it doesn't change things between us. it was hard to do but i'm really glad i told him!

i am proud of myself yo. :>

#culpeo speaks #nonhuman alter #alters #system stuff #actually traumagenic #actually DID #actually OSDD #actually a system #actually plural #traumagenic #traumagenic system #positive vibes #i am proud #i did the thing #system #did system #singlet

[one-last-culpeo]

hey all, i was wondering if there were any other animal alters out there who wanted to chat. i'm friendly, please send me a message if you wanna talk!

even if you're not an animal alter you're still welcome to message, send asks or anything like that. ^^ i humbly request that systems rb this for visibility, i am one hella lonely culpeo

#culpeo speaks #send me stuff #actually traumagenic #nonhuman #nonhuman alter #animal alter #did #osdd #did system #osdd system #alters #system stuff #system alter #actually did #dissociative system #actually multiple

[one-last-culpeo]

hey I'm just wondering, do DID people view their DID as, like, a mental illness to be cured or a positive thing about themselves? I know someone with DID and I'm trying to understand how they feel about it but a lot of this is confusing. some perspective on it would greatly help :]

hi there! thanks for the ask. personally, i think it’s somewhere in between -- of course it’s a mental illness that comes with a shit ton of problems, but the alters themselves aren’t always the problem. the thing that sucks about DID the most is the trauma that causes it -- that’s what has to be dealt with and healed, and that’s the hardest thing. also, the hardest part of the actual disorder (not the cause of it) is probably the dissociation/memory loss and not the alters.

even if you’re full blackout with pretty much no internal communication, like my system was, you can cope by having a sysjournal. having memory discontinuity is very shitty sometimes, random dissociation is shitty. having alters themselves? not particularly shitty.

on the other hand, if you focus on being an alter rather than having other alters to share a body with, i think the worst part about that is not feeling completely whole or wishing you didn’t have to share fronting time with others so you could have a more complete and fulfilling life. also alter-body dysphoria for alters who look different than the body (different gender, different form, nonhuman, etc.) dysphoria is one of the unpleasant things about being an alter for me, considering my status as an animal.

so, in my opinion: yes it’s a mental illness, but it doesn’t have to be cured. it has to be worked with, and every system should try to heal. but there’s functional multiplicity, which is even a better end goal than final fusion for some systems, and there’s some things to think positively about too. <3

#culpeo speaks #culpeo answers #DID #OSDD #DID OSDD #did system #did positivity #alters #system #actually plural #actually traumagenic #actually dissociative #dissociation #system stuff #alter dysphoria #system questions

[one-last-culpeo]

sometimes i wonder if i'm the only culpeo in a system

i might be. huh that's strange to think about

also, on an unrelated note (adhd moment) are there any nonhumans out there who wanna chat? even better if you're specifically an animal but i'm happy to talk with anyone, even human alters or singlets tbh, i'm just bored and wanna connect

#culpeo speaks #adhd rambling #nonhuman #nonhuman alter #need friends #dms open #dm me if you want #actually plural #actually dissociative #system #did system #actually did #did osdd #did #osdd #alters

[one-last-culpeo]

i'm stressed out & have to take a final today

wish me luck and/or send me pictures of culpeos/andean foxes/andean zorros please, it sounds stupid but being able to look at something and go "huehuehue that's meee" helps me destress

i know i rant a lot about not conflating nonhuman alters with kin and i still stand by that, but i'm tagging this with kin tags as well because i figure kin and therians are pretty likely to have animal pics they're willing to send haha

#animals #nonhuman alter #animal alter #actually plural #actually traumagenic #alter #therian #otherkin #canine #culpeo speaks #sorry for spamming your tags with this i really need support

[one-last-culpeo]

update

hey guys, i know i haven't been on in a while. i'm not dead, don't worry. work is just super busy lately </3

#culpeo speaks

[one-last-culpeo]

i'm just a fluffy ball of self-aware cringe... yes i run on all fours on the treadmill at home, what of it

#nonhuman alter #DID alter #system #DID system #DID #OSDD #plural #actually plural #actually traumagenic #animal alter #culpeo speaks