#csa victim

[bpdpotato]

you traumatized me for a lifetime, but it was just another sunday afternoon for you.

#bpd tag #actually borderline #borderline #therapy #actually bpd #tw depressing stuff #trauma #csa victim #tw abuse #childhood trauma #borderline personality disorder #cluster b

[sickmuseum]

#vent #csa survivor #cocsa survivor #csa victim #cocsa vent #cocsa victim #sa vent #sa survivor #sad writing #vent art

[victim4life]

#based on a page from my therapy book #vic #vent art #ventart #repetition cw #ventcore #traumacore #trauma art #trauma vent #tw repetition #tw repeating words #tw repeating text #cw repetition #cw repeating words #trauma #ptsd #actually ptsd #csa victim #sa victim #sa vent #actually traumatized #traumatized

[haunted-echo]

My body is mine and I get to choose how it is handled.

#<3 #Victim vents #recover #csa recovery #sa recovery #csa victim #csa survivor #sa survivor #survivor #assault survivor #assault recovery #recovery #abuse survivor #childhood trauma #ptsd #ptsd recovery #abuse recovery #healing

[flowersbark]

having a complicated relationship with sex/sexual things after sa is so weird because like . it'll be 1 am and ill be switching through apps and ill be thirsting over a character and then ill open tumblr and i remember everything bad shes ever done to me

#cw vent #sa survivor #sa vent #sa victim #vent blog #vent post #tw vent #vent #sa trauma #cocsa survivor #cw cocsa #cocsa vent #cocsa victim #tw sa mention #tw sa #sa recovery #tw csa #cw csa #csa vent #csa victim #actually traumatized

[terriblethingss]

and every single person i look up to, i wonder how disgusted they would be if they knew, if they knew the things that were done to me and the things i did to survive, i wonder how much they’d hate me if they knew. if they could see my rotting insides, the bugs that eat away at my eyes until everything is dark dark dark. i wonder if they’d wish i’d never been born too.

#csa victim #trauma vent #trauma #childhood ptsd #csa vent #csa survivor #tw csa #my words

[enchantingducktheorist]

I'm just thinking about how the people that violated me are probably sat down with their wife and kids having tea. They probably don't know what he did and he's probably living a good life and not bothered by the fact he touched up a child and did other awful things meanwhile I have to sit here with the feeling of him touching me and knowing I'll never be clean or innocent again. He probably has a good life and he's not haunted by what he's done to me.

I just hope he doesn't have kids otherwise god help them having that horrid man as a father.

I just kinda wish that the people who did these things to me ended up killing me so I wouldn't have to live like this.

I can still hear his breathing and the words he said to me in my head and it won't go away. It never goes away, it's getting really bad tonight.

#mental health #dissociative identity disorder #complex ptsd #actually ptsd #ptsd #ptsd recovery #tw trauma #tw abuse #child abuse #actually traumatized #traumatic childhood #post traumatic stress disorder #csa survivor #csa vent #csa victim #cptsd problems #actually cptsd #cptsd vent #vent post #vent #tw vent #did posting #mentally fucked #mental illness #actually mentally ill #actually did #trauma #ptsd tw #ptsd thoughts #tw ptsd

[yuricin]

"they're a minor" "they're just a kid" being a minor isn't an excuse to abuse and traumatize people, dumbass. you're too focused on the fact that they're a kid and not holding them accountable instead of paying attention to the person who they hurt.

minors are just as capable of abusing other minors and even adults like anyone else. but this shit is always glossed over because "they're just a kid"

and just because someone is older doesn't mean that they're not capable of being abused by someone younger.

#cocsa vent #cocsa victim #csa vent #csa victim #trauma vent #ventcore #angercore #anger vent #traumacore #actually traumatized #actuallytraumatized #tw cocsa #tw csa #tw abuse #abuse #sa vent #sa victim

[factumnihil2]

to anyone feeling depersonalization, uh, i have a sentiment. even though it doesn't feel like it's yours, your body is gonna protect you.

#csa vent #csa victim #csa recovery #csa survivor #sa recovery #sa vent #trauma #trauma vent #said this to a friend in discord and they said it was comforting #and my goal with this blog is to help ppl recover. #and comfort is part of that. #if you Are said friend in discord. pls dont leak my blog where i post explicitly abt my trauma #pls n ty

[fagfucked]

the idea of people perceiving me as sexually appealing is nauseating and pleasant at the same time. i want someone to want me, but i know they’re perceiving me wrong if they do find me attractive. i’m not meant for you. i wish i was monstrous and inhuman. then, i would accept being wanted. being wanted would feel right, then. because it would be real. not exploitive or predatory. they seek me out despite my flaws and awful formation. they love me not for what pleasure i can provide but for what and who i am

#tw SA #csa survivor #csa victim #sa survivor #[ file ] shit #mavrick.txt

[iwillbreakyourfuckingskull]

I love being a physically and mentally strong 35 y/o man who can fight back and take no shit from people and never having been a little girl who was sexually abused by her own family. Right? That never happened to me.... right guys??

#tw csa #tw inc*st #csa survivor #actuallydid #actuallycdd #tw sa #csa victim #repressed memories #levi.speaking #my.posts #csa vent

[sickmuseum]

#vent art #childhood #childhood trauma #csa victim #csa survivor #cocsa vent #cocsa survivor #cocsa victim #vent

[satanictheist]

If you call people who suffer from POCD pedos then I sincerely and truly hate you. POCD is usually caused by CSA and comparing us to our abusers is vile.

#anti para #vent tw #vaguepost #csa mention #trauma #csa survivor #csa victim #csa vent

[bpdpotato]

The thing about being a self-aware borderline is that you're a living contradiction.

It's like, "so, I'm completely aware of how irrational and clingy and stupid I sound and I know you don't actually hate me, bUT DO YOU HATE ME???"

Or, "yes this was a very minor issue and I shouldn't really be angry about it but I'm gonna punch a wall bc RAGE"

And I think, in a way, being self-aware makes it very hard to talk about because you know how irrational you sound and you know how other people will think you're weird or wrong or unstable and it sucks.

#mentally ill #bpd tag #therapy #body dysmorphia #body dysmorphic disorder #actually borderline #csa victim #borderline #actually bdd #actually bpd #mentally fucked #mental problems

[eclecticbutterfly44]

My inner child just wants love.

She just wants to be happy and make other people happy.

She doesn't understand not to trust people.

She does as she's told because she wants to be good.

You knew that...

You fucking knew that she would do anything you told her to...

And you fucking raped her.

#vent #csa survivor #actually csa #tw s/a #sa survivor #sa victim #csa victim

[terriblethingss]

i want someone to hurt me i want someone to be gentle with me i want someone to degrade me i want someone to praise me i want someone to hold me i want people to stop touching me i want to be fucked i want to be loved i want to be left alone i want to be saved i need to be saved i want to be special i want to hurt myself i want to be hurt i want to be destroyed i want to be safe i want to be in danger i want to be dangerous i want to kill i want to be killed i want to be hit i want to be cut i want to explode i want to be okay i want to be okay

#csa victim #csa vent #tw csa #csa survivor #childhood ptsd #cptsd #actually cptsd #trauma #trauma vent #actually traumatized #my words