#conversations through replies

[eirenical]

Hi I read your Hulijing fic and I came here to make friends and talk mlc ❤️ Hulijing is The Best Doggo, she deserves your (absolutely awesome) fic so much

I assume you mean this one? :D :D :D Thank you so much! :D I'm glad you enjoyed it and I 100% agree. Huli Jing deserves all the love, all the pets, and all the (safe) table scraps. ^_^ Thank you for stopping by to tell me what you thought! :D

#people saying nice things #endrega23 #conversations through replies #eirenical writes things

[keets-writing-corner]

Thinking a LOT about Lucifer in the latest Hazbin episode. Idk what I was expecting but not this??

As I was watching my immediate thought was just "huh... Lucifer is kinda of weird..." but as the episode went on I realized the issue

the dude is off the chain depressed, like he says it as a joke but holy cow it is SO BAD

He's manically just creating rubber ducks cuz his daughter really like it that one time but it's empty, it's never good enough but he keeps doing it, maybe cuz he doesn't know how to pass the time otherwise.

like I get the feeling he HAS better things he SHOULD be doing than making rubber duck after rubber duck. At first I was like, "Bruh why isn't the king of hell doing anything?" aaaaand then it became clear...

The dude is disassociating so bad he can barely hold a conversation let alone remember information. He clearly WANTS to, he wants to be involved with his daughter so bad, he wants to care about the things she's doing so bad, but his depression keeps interfering. It's like he can only hear every other word and he grasps onto the ones he does hear semi-out of context. Like you can see every time he catches something that he hadn't before and he just "well shit I didn't catch that part"

and that's why he reacts so weird when people talk to him. He is struggling so bad to engage with the conversation he's only getting 50% of it

does that look like the face of a man who knows what the hell the conversation is even about??? he is STRUGGLING

like Charlie spent so long telling him about the hotel, and he STILL didn't understand what she wanted. Yeah it comes off as ditzy but literally I've been in that position where your brain just "nope, not doing this right now" and nerfs your conversation comprehension. So as someone who's BEEN in that position, to me it feels exactly like what he's dealing with. He's sorta engaged with the conversation, but only as much as his brain will allow

For example, when I'm dealing with this, this is what someone talking to me feels like this where the crossed out parts are what I missed and bold is what I catch, "Hey! You know I was thinking for dinner we could either make some chicken with rice? But if you don't feel like cooking, pasta is super easy and you love that right? What do you want to do?" you can kinda get that someone is trying to talk to you about dinner, and towards the end you get the impression that they asked something that needs your input so you can decently put 2 and 2 together and try and pass off, but crucial bits were left out, I would have no idea that either chicken or pasta is in the conversation only having heard "rice". When someone is just talking at me, I can decently pass off as being engaged but the second I'm required to participate in the conversation I'm screwed. Seem familiar? At which point I have 2 options, try to give a bullshit answer, or admit that I missed what they were saying and ask them to repeat

Lucifer, unfortunately, is trying so damn hard to hide that he's dealing with like 24/7 dissociation, so he can't admit that he's missing entire chunks of the conversation, hence his really weird replies. He does eventually get the full picture and then he and Charlie start having the real conversation

Also, the Alastor/Lucifer rivalry was hilarious but also really indicative of more of what Lucifer is dealing with

Alastor is, unfortunately, really good at picking up people's insecurities, and thanks to Charlie's description earlier and watching Lucifer clearly trying to overcompensate, he immediately picks up on the fact that Lucifer KNOWS he struggles to be a good dad (we know cuz it's cuz of the depression, hard to be engaged when your brain keeps turning off) and decides to rub salt in the wound by pretending he's been acting as a surrogate father to Charlie. Now why Alastor decided to pick a fight with the king of hell is beyond me, I do not understand Alastor (and I LIKE IT) (maybe it's cuz Alastor thinks he's hot shit and was expecting Lucifer to at least have heard of him but Lucifer just treats him like a nobody? who knows)(why would Lucifer listen to radio anyways when he can't even pay attention to a conversation it'd just be white noise)

But yeah I just was expecting someone who oozed either charisma or presence and instead I got a depressed dad who's dissociating so bad he can barely function and be present in his life. The only thing it seems he CAN do is make rubber ducks cuz his daughter really liked it that one time

Idk Lucifer is tragic to me. Whatever the full details of what heavan did to him absolutely broke him and he can't deal with it. He's aware of it, and he doesn't know how to fix it, so he tries to over compensate and sorta makes an ass out of himself but no one says or does anything cuz this guy is supposed to be THE king of hell

Suddenly it's making a lot more sense why he just rolls over and lets heaven do what it wants and even told Charlie to go in his place the start of the show. He's not in any headspace to hold a basic conversation let alone negotiate! He didn't even know who Alastor was, he's been so out of touch

idk I like him, he seems sweet, I hope Charlie brings some light back into his life. He really needs to get out of that rubber duck room

#hazbin spoilers #hazbin hotel #lucifer #lucifer morningstar #analysis #dissociation #look idk what to tell you all #I watched the episode and everything makes so much more sense #when you realize he's only intaking like 50-60% of the conversations #he's not bad at listening his brain is literally preventing him from getting everything #literally I've been there #the difference between him and me tho #is that he can't show it #he's the king of hell #he has to bluff his way through conversations #but yeah literally rewatch the episode with this in mind #and watch him reply to the things he DID catch #anyways #NEW BLORBO???? #who'd've thought I would go into Hazbin Hotel #and come out with freaking LUCIFER as my favorite character #I love him #he's so sad

[sergle]

oh GOOD. OH GOOD!! I just found out that patreon, for me, eats messages sent in their actual messaging page, and sends them when they're sent in the little pop-up messaging client I get when I hit the message button on a patron's name. That's what I WANTED. I was desperate to go re-type all of these. thank god I get to do that.

#THAT'S WHAT I WANTED!!!!! #oh my god.. drags my hands down my face #I thought I was going through and nailing it notifying some ppl about some shit and replying to a couple things and HEY! GUESS WHAT #I have to message them through my relationship manager and not my Messages page. SICK. GO OFF ACTUALLY #sergle.txt #I hit enter and it doesn't show up in the convo. and I was like hm #in my foolishness I was like ''this probably shows up when the conversation is refreshed'' #no. wrong. incorrect. it just goes to Space. that message gets sent to god #if I send a message THROUGH the patron relationship manager. with the little button there that pulls up basically a chatbox version of msgs #the message I send IN THERE does in fact send!! and I can see both in that chat and in my actual messages page that it has INDEED sent #FUCK!!!! (yelled into a jar and then quickly capped to contain the scream)

[ramshacklerumble]

Fun fact: Cookie cutter sharks will eat their own teeth for the nutrients

So now imagine Gia punching Finn (for some reason or other) so hard he loses a tooth, but then he just picks it up, stares at it, then pops it in his mouth

i can't quite think of a reason why gia would punch him-- it's usually saved for people who strike first or are giving their close friends a particularly rough time-- but the look on gia's face...

i'm not quite sure how to describe it, because it looks like their usual non-expression, but there's a splash of 'i don't know what i was expecting actually.'

and they'd walk off because really what else is there to do after seeing that.

(props to finn tho if he still managed to stand after getting a full on punch from gia, they're kinda known for their one shot k.o)

#gar speaks #i have many...many asks to get through #i wanted to doodle for replies but after...what a month? i had to resign to the fact that yeah that's not happening #so text only it is sorry #idk what it is about finn but he's got a similar 'weird little quiet kid' vibe gia has #that makes it so that them having a conversation in my head feels utterly alien #i feel like they'd just stare at each other #gia yugo #finn clearcove

[bonefall]

Does Bramblestar die in your redux of the Broken Code? Or is he ousted? If not, what is your reasoning for having him to remain in power (beyond any wishes to stay semi-canon compliant)

The reasoning that Bramblestar isn't ousted after TBC is only because it technically wasn't him committing the acts of the Impostor... but he is on thin ice.

(context for newcomers: Bramblestar has been leader since the end of Po3 because Breezepelt killed Firestar. Girlboss moment)

After the events of Squirrelflight's Horror and the death of Leafpool as a result of his botched raid, not to mention his behavior at the end of Po3 where he disowned his adopted children, and caused controversy by publicly demoting (and mistreating) his very popular deputy and ex-mate, not to mention a second mate and a genius engineer leaving the Clan, Bramblestar is a very unpopular leader.

They didn't believe Bramblestar was possessed at the beginning of TBC. They just think he's throwing his weight around, the way always does.

They don't finally stand against him because Graystripe recognizes he's an imposter like in canon, either, they stand against him because he is doing bad things.

But... because it wasn't him, and because Squirrelflight saves him from the Dark Forest because she's the kind of person who would never leave a clanmate behind, he is still leader in the beginning of ASC.

I don't rewrite arcs until they're fully completed... but I do know that by the end of Bonefall TBC, ThunderClan is not happy with his leadership. VERY not happy.

#Bramblestar #Bonefall Rewrite #Bonefall TBC #I get a lot more asks these days than I used to so I'm trying to do-- #'theme replies' to group the asks together somehow #So everyone's dashes aren't suddenly flooded with several different topics and there can be more of a “conversation” you get me? #I've got 3 Bonefall TBC asks here now and I'm gonna run through them #SO feel free to jump in y'all it's TBC time #Bramblefake #The Imposter

[proteusolm]

I wish there was a way to phrase a request for a source to back up what someone is saying which makes it absolutely clear that I am genuinely asking and want to read more about it. I feel like it always comes off as a passive-aggressive way to imply that they're talking out of their ass.

Sometimes I read something online about a topic I consider myself knowledgeable on that I don't immediately recognize as true, and I want to read where the person got the information to either learn a new thing that surprises me or figure out where that inaccurate perspective might be coming from, you know? Not as a backhanded online argument tactic.

#that said if someone replies 'google it' or 'do your own research' i do then assume they made it all up #i did my own research in the form of several years of college on this topic. and it didnt tell me that. squints. #i have had some great informative conversations with experts online through asking them for more info when they say something surprising #so it does work out sometimes

[dinosaur-mayonnaise]

three way emails are so ANNOYING

you add a third person and suddenly none of the regular social rules apply.

and don't even get me STARTED on cc's. i can never be a corporate girlie bc to me these are the horrors.

#are you meant to say 'dear all'? #are you meant to name the two other people? #who knows #if one of the people reply to your email saying only 'dear [y/n] do you reply back saying only 'dear [their name]'??? #do you still include the third person in the 'send to' option? #or do they get downgraded to 'cc'? #and what if the other two people are having a conversation without you but still including you in the email #are you meant to acknowledge them? #bc i always find 'yes i've received this' emails such a waste of time #but also is it rude to ignore them? #but also are you intruding on their conversation if they're talking amongst themselves? #but also would they still send it to you if they didn't want you to reply? #or do they just want you to be a passive observer? #don't even get me started on when YOU'RE the one cc'd in #let alone being bc'd in #pain torture agony #i hate this someone needs to burn outlook #let's go back to handwritten letters through carrier pigeon #or better yet telegrams which charge by the letter so you don't have to bother with pleasantries

[malewifebillcage]

who's calling death the wolf toxic? is it the x reader community i bet it's the x reader community

it’s them for sure but also people in the ao3 tag are writing death/puss fics where he’s acting like a stalker or a toxic boyfriend and i’m just standing here like 🧍‍♂️

to me he is so vanilla aside from all the murders like i just know that he takes up crocheting as a hobby when he is not out reaping souls

which isn’t to say i don’t like the stalker/toxic bf dynamic bc i read them anyway and enjoy them (put the orange cat in situations, heh) i just don’t think they’re as true to his character LOL

#broke: death the wolf is a toxic stalker #bespoke: death the wolf is just some fucking guy when he’s not on grim reaper time. he and puss are just Acquaintances™️ #he probably reads classic lit too #puss naturally asks what he is reading to make conversation and immediately tunes it out after the first 3 words bc he cannot read #orange cat behavior 😔 #actually no . death reads murder mysteries of all things #he thinks they’re absolutely terrible and he can always see right through the plot but they at least help him kill time (pun intended) #ne way random headcanon dump i guess. we need more antagonists who are just some fucking guy tho #ask #reply #corinthussy #mutual #unrelated but the x reader tag is just full of little red riding hood!reader fics which is just so uninspired lmao #like yes from that perspective he would be very toxic but be original pls #if i were a reader imagine author i’d do a hades and persephone type au but that’s just me at least it’d be actually spicy

[littlecutiexox]

I’ve been struggling so much recently regarding social interactions, keeping conversations online, honestly have no idea how people have the social battery

#ive been diggin myself into a hole because ive just not replied to friends #ive been soooo avoidant with dealing with it #which is so bad #and i know im an ass for that #my social battery is literally 0 #ive not been used to being in contact rveryday in person with people and its been so different for me #since i see my partner almost every day and i see the one friend i have in the area the other days #and still try to have my days to myself #i feel like im drained even thinking about having conversations online or through social media #like a video call is better #but im sl exhausted with the idea of texting #anyone else feel like this? #i know its my own wrongdoings and im causing people to justifiably be angry with ne

[vickyvicarious]

DICK MARSH BLEASE. If you are gonna write a Toxic Dracula AU at least imitate also the parts where Dracula uses dialogue indicators??

Marsh: in my novel, Dracula, But Much Worse, I intend to ensure every detail is noticeably much worse, even those that didn't stand out as good in the original! even the parts that are just seen as standard for most fiction writing!

Marsh: see Stoker, this is how you make a bestseller

#the beetle weekly #i'll be honest #i had to reread parts of the sydney and paul lessingham conversation several times to make sure i had the right person all the way through #what a mess 😭 #anonymous #replies

[eirenical]

Excuse me but you tagged a post of Yang Yang as dmbj cast, could you please expand on that? I thought I'd seen most of his shows but I haven't seen that one!

Sure! Though you may know the show under another name, and that might be why you don't recognize it.

DMBJ is Dao Mu Bi Ji, also known as The Lost Tomb and The Grave Robbers' Chronicles. Yang Yang played Xiaoge/Zhang Qiling in The Lost Tomb 1.

It's a really fun story, consisting of multiple dramas and movies and spinoffs, and of course the many many MANY novels the dramas are based on. They change casts for each drama (with a few exceptions), so we only had Yang Yang as Xiaoge for about ten episodes, but he was really good in the part. ^_^

If you want to know more about DMBJ/TLT, I'd be happy to tell you, but that's a MUCH longer explanation. ;D

#anonymous #conversations through replies #eirenical blogs tlt1

[nobuverse]

"...Hey fellas, aren't we all technically....just ghosts really? Ghosts with superpowers?"

She's trying to figure out if she should be offended or not.

#idolsummons #; see the world through my eyes: watch it burn [ dash commentary ] #im laughing because i kid you not the reply i have queued for tomorrow has her literaly say #Pretend im a ghost for the sake of this conversation #so lIKE WHAT D YOU MEAN GHOSTS ARENT REAL #the fool of owari [ nobunaga ] #servant manifestations [ threads ] #; fuck this shit lets start a riot [ crack ]

[look-at-the-stars-tonight]

Hi what do you do if you don’t like someone but they think you’re friends and talk to you like you’re friends and can’t take a hint

#he’s too fucking needy and all he does is take and take and take #and I don’t have any love left for him #and I don’t know how to say that in a nice way #there are strangers who I’ve had five min conversations with #and I’ve gained more out of those ‘relationships’ than I have in this one in a whole year #like. I just Cannot deal with him he’s fucking horrible for my mental health #I’m sorry he’s going through stuff. I’m sick of being there for him when hes never there for me #and now he’s sending me ten pics of his hair and being like ‘which one is best’ and Buddy. we are not Friends #like it’s a silly silly little thing and I am replying because I don’t want to be rude but we’re not friends #and I don’t know how to convey that without being cruel #I didn’t talk to him for like several months until yesterdya #and he talked about how he missed me and wanted to hang out more #and I don’t Want To I’ve moved on to people who actually add value to my life and don’t use me constantly #like thank u for liking my personality! I Cannot reciprocate. sorry Buddy #I do have so much love to give but just not for him #but then I feel bad because IM also so fucking needy all the time. do people feel the same way about me and just don’t tell me #because it’s too much of an inconvenience to hurt my feelings because they can’t get away from me?? idk #I think me and him are similar and every time I say that Evan goes 🤔🤔 but idkkk #everyone else says we’re very different and I’m not annoying in the way he is #but ugh. #one day I’m going to be SO secure in every single one of my relationships. one day soon

[kakashihasibs]

Okay so I'm answering this with a screenshot so i can block you if i need to later. no offense bud but i kinda doubt the "/genq"-ness of your question.

The irrational thought was my neighbor was paying any attention to the presence or lack of presence of a dick. My neighbor doesn't give a shit if i have a bulge or not. He's a nice guy and he's gay too! :D plus he was busy hugging Leia bc he's one of Leia's most favorite people.

BUT! Surprise surprise! it's not wholly irrational bc /if/ my neighbor does notice (and he was an asshole) it could endanger me. Small little things like that can be noticed (however unlikely) and someone might clock me. And that's really the root of that thought. I'm always worried someone is going to clock me and act on it.

But the root of your question really seems like a "why dont you pray the queer away and you'll be so much happier"

Sure if i could just therapy/pray away being queer (both trans and ace/gay!) I would deal with a lot less worry. I wouldn't have to worry about my parents rejecting me or a cop seeing my ID and hate criming me. I wouldn't have been hate crimed or have gotten corrective rape threats. if only i did as my doctor told me and go to therapy to realize my beauty as a woman so i wont break my poor mother's heart. (Yes a doctor literally told me this. Nearly killed myself afterwards bc it was just such a helpful and thoughtful thing to say /sarcasm 🙄)

Bottom surgery, like any surgery is dangerous, but it is not uniquely dangerous. My surgeon has a LOT of experience and is very skilled. I'm not worried about it anymore than i was worried about top surgery (which for the record top surgery was life SAVING).

But like bud why do anything if there is a "safer alternative?" Why go rock climbing when it's so dangerous? Why drive to see family when driving is so dangerous? Why get tattoos or piercings!? There's risk!

Why get a major surgery that will greatly increase your life satisfaction instead of going through traumatizing conversion therapy? Geez bud idk 🤷‍♂️ maybe i enjoy making my body mine. Maybe i dont want to or have to be satisfied with what other people say i should be, look like, act like.

Maybe i just think I'll look hot with a dick. Maybe i just want to feel safer in public places. Maybe maybe maybe. I have a million and one reasons for wanting what i want and no amount of fear mongering or concern trolling will deter me.

The universe saw fit to give me myself and i will create a self that is home. Full of as much art and scars as it takes to do that.

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Edit to reply/add (bc i dont want to make this rebloggable):

While you are correct about this, it took several years of therapy and navigating medical politics, i actually purposely avoid making an argument/point based in medical necessity.

The closest i get to mentioning medical necessity is when i say "surgery that will greatly increase [my] life satisfaction"

Bc mainly if it is merely a problem of medical necessity/treatment then anon's point has a stronger leg to stand on. If i need medical intervention then /why not/ try conversion therapy 1st? Both are "medical interventions" after all and conversion therapy is cheaper and appears less risky.*

Instead my point is based in bodily autonomy. That bottom surgery is my choice and my risk to take on. That regardless of medical necessity, I have chosen to get bottom surgery and that's all the reason there needs to be.

I mentioned possible reasons i might have, e.g., safety, comfort, aesthetics, but i dont name one over the other. My reasons are mine and not for someone else's scrutiny.

Anon and others might not be able to understand why i would chose to get a "dangerous surgery" but they dont need to. They only need to know it is what i have chosen for myself.

*The actual efficacy of conversion therapy is like nonexistent. It doesn't work. It makes people miserable and suicidal. But, there are people (including anon it seems) who think it works and that's why I'm forced to treat it as a "possible" solution. Arguing against conversion therapy would be a different kind of argument than the one i made here.

#if this question is genuine then you really gotta think this through #do you support conversion therapy? bc that's what this question is advocating for. #also dude i am in therapy. i had to have two therapists sign off on bottom surgery #the 2nd one almost refused to write a letter of support bc i haven't told my dad I'm trans #but she still wrote it bc she thought denying me bottom surgery would cause me undue hardship and harm #rape mention #suicide mention #transphobia tw #ben replies #ask #anon

[mrbingley]

new ppl after they’ve been around me for several days: you’re quiet, aren’t you

me, a pensive and reflective listener unable to think of an immediate reply i feel is worthwhile or enjoyable enough and any genuine response would require further consideration that expands beyond the perimeter of this casual conversation so i end up saying nothing: yeah :)

#unless you are Friend conversation is so difficult. and even then i wish i could take the time to sincerely think everything through before #replying. this is why i'm a writer. i can take as long as i need. i would have thrived in letter sending days. #J: text

[icewindandboringhorror]

one of the bad things about having such low social energy/social anhedonia/little interest in interacting with others in any capacity/ Hermit Disease™ is that like.. once every FIVE months here and there I’ll get fleeting bursts of social energy and will message one or two people to catch up with old friends or etc. and then it’s like... 

tfw you message someone and then wake up the next morning to see that they REPLIED to your message so now you’re actually supposed to message them back, which is an obligation you were somehow not expecting despite the fact that YOU sent them a message 

#I feel bad because it's like.. I know I WAS THE ONE who reached out to you but also I have depleted all of my energy stores and have like no #capacity to respond that this point.. Which usually I'll get to it in like 2-7 days and people who know me (people who I would actually #message) know this/are aware it doesn't mean anything/are okay with it so its not really a big deal but still lol #girls and squirrels i am so sorry i dont know what to tell you but I have Disorders gjhgbhj #oh same thing when someone messages me and then I respond and I'm like 'whew finally got that off the to do list! now I dont have to worry #about social interactions for the next few days' and they RESPOND to my RESPONSE within like 30 minutes of sending it #so now I'm back at the point where I owe them a response even though i JUST crossed that off my to do list ghbh #And there's some people out here who are like 'omg.. if people don't text me back in 30 minutes then they must hate me! i want to be texted #back immediately. true friends will drop everything theyre doing just to text you!! >:T' whereas I'm like #god if I reply to you and you reply back to me within less than 24 hours I'm going to scream... just give it a good 2 or 3 days.. let the #message sit PLEASE.. it's social buffer time.. let's recharge our energy... the the conov age like a fine wine #(unless it's urgent. obv if we're coordinating plans or scheduling something we both must reply promptly exactly) #AND ALS THIS IS just a caveat of text communication like I HATE text communication. another reason it's SO hard to find new friends is that #nobody wants to just talk on the phone/discord voice chat/Some Medium Of Real Time Audio Communication anymore #everyone is like.. 'oh just send short little messages through a stupid fucking chat client or text me or message me on a social media' and #it's like.................................... no........ i dont think I will #Real time communication is SO MUCH faster and more efficient like. It would take me 2 hours to type something that I could say in a 30 minut #e conversation. People who I have genuine conversations with (like 5 hour long talks) are the ones who are not afraid to just be like #'yeah i have somehting I want to talk to you about. can we schedule a phone call thursday at 10:30am?' #also like.. if you text me at 3pm I am not going to respond to the message (depending on the contents-obv will reply sooner if #urgent) probably until 3 or 4 days later. If you call me at 3pm then we're talking at 3pm for as long as you want (or as long as is practica #l - also assuming I'm not already in the middle of something etc. etc.) #Like phone calls/voice calls/whatever - are so good because it's immediate. no having to go through and spell check. I am also a rambling pe #rson with complicated thoughts and i AM INCAPABLE of having short conversations. no matter how hard I try #you send me a sentence of text and I will write back 3 paragraphs. this makes text-form communication THAT much more taxing and time consumi #ng - whereas I can explain even really complicated things in Real time in like 20 minutes MAX when it would take 1.5hr to type and proofrea #d and etc. in text. ALSO I love that it is a Structured ONE TIME interaction. I know eactly when a phone call will start and can plan for #when it will end. Text form communications are ongoing background interactions with no clear start or end. no structure. etc. #in person/phone/real time communication is just SO much easier for my brain to process and depletes my social energy slower #. it stinks that the entire earth is slowly moving away from the only form of social interaction that is convenient to me lol.. BUT ANYWAY