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am-i-the-asshole-official · 2 months

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AITA for demanding a kid's mother compensate me for the expensive protective screen he ruined?

I (24F) used to work in a tutoring center with two classes, my class had around 8 kids, the other class had more because the tutor there is more experienced. I was having trouble managing my time and keeping up with all the classes the kids had. There was this one kid Mike (6M) who is a good kid but slightly mischievous, but I had a lot to say about his mother, I don't like her because she doesn't care. For example, the center closes at 6:30 and she's always like 1 hour late to pick him up, sometimes when I'm in a hurry to leave, I end up having to give him a ride myself because I can't just leave him alone and she doesn't pay me for the extra work. She even started to expect me to give her kid rides whenever she has plans, and never offers to pay. I could've been more strict with her but unfortunately I have social anxiety and have trouble asserting myself, but it's common sense to pay people for these sort of things.

Sometimes she even leaves for a trip OUTSIDE OF THE COUNTRY after she drops him off at the center (for her job- but it's her personal business and she could literally choose a different time or at least arrange for a pickup for her kid??)

Also Mike has two smartphones that he brings with him everyday and is very protective of them. I have no idea if both of them belong to him but that's irrelevant, the point is somehow he's allowed to carry two smartphones at the age of 6, I find it weird. And apparently the mother isn't even aware of it?! (As will be explained later)

It's been a minute so I don't remember what else I didn't like about this mother but there WERE other issues.

Anyway, the center was unofficial and there weren't any real guidelines for me to follow and I was new and very inexperienced so I often went to the other tutor (36F) for advice and copied her teaching style. For the poems and songs the children had to memorize, she suggested I use a recorded audio on my phone to help them with it instead of having to reread the entire thing for them over and over.

So I used this method a lot. At first I used to hold the phone for them and stay near them, but as time went to I started to trust them with my phone as I see how they handle it but I stay close to it. This continued for like a month and nothing happened to my phone. Sometimes when they are done and waiting for their rides I even let them play games on my mobile sometimes and yet nothing happened.

But one time there was a lot of homework so for Mike and another kid on the same grade I played the audio on loop and left the phone next to them, I warned them from messing with it and left to help another kid with her homework.

As I'm busy with this other kid go back to Mike and I find out he peeled the my phone's protective screen on purpose and he was laughing? Yes he's 6 but he knew exactly what he was doing. He often didn't let anyone touch his phones and often checks for damages and goes on rants about how handle a phone.

I went to the other tutor for advice and told me that was unacceptable and the mother should compensate me for it, so I decided to finally assert myself and immediately messaged her to tell her what her kid did and told her the screen costed me over 100$ (which is a lot of money in our currency) and my job was part time so my monthly salary was only about 660$ and it was the only job I had so obviously I couldn't afford it on my own.

She responded by telling me her a 6 year old doesn't understand the value of these things and it was my fault for lending him my mobile. I replied that I only allowed him to borrow my phone because I saw how he treated his two phones and listed several examples of how he handles them and takes good care of them and understands what damages them.

Her only response was: "Who said he has two phones?"

I was so done that was her only argument, but before I could reply she called management to complain about me demanding her money, they promised to resolve the issue and hung up to hear my side of the story.

My boss told me I was very bold to assume the mother would pay me, while the other tutor was on my side, and I learned in a private conversation with my boss that she wasn't a fan the other tutor's teaching methods.

Needless to say, I quit, for many reasons but this was a big factor so AITA?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

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yurislotusgarden · 2 months

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Just you and me

ʚїɞ Dazai Osamu, Nakahara Chuuya, Edogawa Ranpo x reader

ʚїɞ Keep in mind English is not my first language, so you may find mistakes!

ʚїɞ Word count: 556

ʚїɞ Short hc's for Valentines! Was meant to post something else but won't be done with it today so have this small thing I wrote rq! <3

He almost always wakes up before you, and most of the time it's a quiet time that he uses to admire your pretty face

Lil soft kisses on your face <3

But it's Dazai so he added a small amount of tickling to help with waking you up

Don't blame him, he just loves hearing your laughter

He for once didn't try to fuck up in the kitchen on purpose and tried his best

He got you a necklace that looked like it costed a lot, but when you asked he said he saved up money to buy it (You knew it was a lie, but didn't know that he stole money from Kunikida AND Chuuya’s bank accounts <33)

It was a surprise to no one that he didn't show up at the agency that day, but not even Kunikida had any big problems with it

Listen, don't question why he's paying for everything was that Kunikida’s credit card? Who's black card was that?

Don't worry he did pay for some things with his own money, he did save up something

Stayed out to look at the night sky, and you could swear that the stars were just a bit more brighter than usual

You thought he spoiled you before? Get ready bcs he WON'T miss a day where he can get away with it

Normally he would listen to you saying he doesn't have to spend so much money on you (in one day bcs we all know he will never stop) but not on occasions like this

Will wake you up so softly ugh :(

Soft kisses all over your face, gentle hand on your cheek, waist or hip

He will have breakfast ready so that you don't need to leave the bed too early

Won't leave you alone nor stop with compliments, but it's not like you're complaining

He will use any excuse to get you something

Got one of the days off to be on the valentines so he can take you out for the whole day

Ignore how he's staring at you with a small smile and soft eyes the whole day, he won't stop no matter what you say

Looked at something longer than 2 seconds? Oops it's suddenly in a bag in your hands

“Chuu, I don't need this.”

“I want you to have it though.”

Walking along the water side to look at the sunset <3

Ranpo

I swear he was more annoying in the morning than usual on purpose

Was surprisgly quiet while you were making breakfast tho

He told you he had a case and that you should go with him as per usual

You went to the place just for Ranpo to reveal that there's no actual case and it was just a lie to get you out into the city

He actually did save up some money to buy you something nice unlike certain someone

A lot of it went into sweets anyway, but he did share more than usual so, you didn't really complain

You both ignored calls from Kunikida and he just gave up at one point

You had to go back pretty early because you didn't wanna risk losing this man child after dark😭

Still looked at the stars from the rooftop of the agency dorms while laying on a blanket <3

#gonna edit later bcs i don't have ranpos banner on my phone LMAO #bsd x gender neutral reader #bsd x you #bsd x y/n #bsd x reader #x reader #bungo stray dogs #dazai x reader #bsd chuuya x reader #chuuya x reader #ranpo x reader #dazai x you #dazai x y/n #chuuya x y/n #chuuya x you #ranpo x you #ranpo x y/n

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miguel-owhora · 4 months

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thinking about mreader being the son of a like.... extremely wealthy n powerful person or something, like maybe they're a very important person in the army but idk. mreader has a couple of younger siblings but he's the eldest because :3

and it comes to a point where they're well known and people want to marry them bc of the wealth they'll have access to. but mreader's smart and doesn't take any of them, even when his parent complains about them needing to marry someone, anyone, bc idk plot reasons

and then idk what happens but i guess the parent throws a dinner party or something for the soldiers jnother guests to celebrate something, and ofc you're expected to join bc hello

and so you're mingling, talking to people, ignoring people whose interests are his money. but one particular asshole doesn't get the memo and corners mreader and harasses him, and just when all hope seems to vanish, someone steps in and scares the dumbass away

he asks you if you're alright, and introduces himself as captain john price, and silly fool he is, kisses your hand which makes you laugh. he talks w you for a while, getting to know you, gour personalities melting together in a pleasant away, before you get interrupted - by the rest of 141.

they've been watching price talk to you a while and kiss your hand the same way price did. they talk w you, and it's a pleasant one. you keep up with them nicely - well, moreso they keep up with you. you're educated, you're clever, you're intelligent - they're soldiers.

and while like everyone else, they only talked to get closer to your wealth, they come to realize that they actually like you because of you, not bc of your wealth, and tension builds when they realize all of the 141 members like you, too. they have money, yes, that's true, but they seem penniless when compared to you, but you never once bring up your family's wealth.

you talk for a while, liking each other's company, before your sibling whisks you away. they all watch you as you're dragged away and only look away when you disappear into one of the large and expensive looking doors - fuck, the whole place looks luxurious and expensive.

and then it's all four members giving each other sharp looks, with one thought in mind: you will be theirs, no matter the cost.

#was this inspired by satisfied from hamilton #and any other scene during the winters ball #absolutely

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rikiluvly · 2 months

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✩𝗠𝗢𝗟𝗘𝗦 𝗟𝗜𝗞𝗘 𝗦𝗧𝗔𝗥𝗦✩

𝗣𝗥𝗢𝗙𝗜𝗟𝗘𝗦

✴︎ - 𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀: 𝗡𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗶𝗺𝘂𝗿𝗮 𝗥𝗶𝗸𝗶 𝘅 𝗙𝗲𝗺𝗮𝗹𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗲𝗿

✴︎ - 𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲: 𝗣𝗮𝘀𝘁 𝗳𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗱𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝗲𝗻𝗲𝗺𝗶𝗲𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘀!𝗮𝘂

✴︎ - 𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀: 𝗜𝗻𝗮𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗽𝗿𝗶𝗮𝘁𝗲 𝗷𝗼𝗸𝗲𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗹𝗮𝗻𝗴𝘂𝗮𝗴𝗲, 𝗽𝗮𝗿𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝗻𝗲𝗴𝗹𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻, 𝗲𝗺𝗼𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝗮𝗹 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘃𝗲𝗿𝗯𝗮𝗹 𝗮𝗯𝘃𝘀𝗲, 𝘁𝗼𝘅𝗶𝗰 𝗿𝗲𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀𝗵𝗶𝗽𝘀.

✴︎ - 𝘀𝘆𝗻𝗼𝗽𝘀𝗶𝘀: 𝗬/𝗻 𝗴𝗼𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗻𝗲𝘄 𝗰𝗼𝗮𝗰𝗵 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗛𝗮𝗻𝗹𝗶𝗺 𝗛𝗶𝗴𝗵 𝗦𝗰𝗵𝗼𝗼𝗹 𝗯𝗼𝘆𝘀’ 𝗱𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗲 𝘁𝗲𝗮𝗺. 𝗡𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗶𝗺𝘂𝗿𝗮 𝗥𝗶𝗸𝗶, 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗲𝘅 𝗳𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗵𝗼 𝗵𝗮𝘁𝗲𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗴𝘂𝘁𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗲𝘀 𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗯𝗮𝗱 𝗹𝘂𝗰𝗸 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝘄𝗮𝘆.

𝗽𝗿𝗲𝘃𝗶𝗼𝘂𝘀 | 𝗠𝗔𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗥𝗟𝗜𝗦𝗧 | 𝗻𝗲𝘅𝘁

y/n: She is a dance-driven girl with the passion of becoming a dance professional but struggles due to her parents not agreeing with what she really wants to do in life. She has a genuine hatred towards Riki Nishimura and her friends never hesitate to back her up. Is also captain of the Hanlim High School girl's dance team. She is Park Sunghoons younger sister.

riki: He is co captain of the Hamlin High School boys dance team along with Sunoo. He has a girlfriend of 3 years called Jiwoo. Best friends with, Sunghoon, Heeseung, Jongseong, Jaeyun and Sunoo, who are all part of the dance team. Has such a dislike for y/n but no one really knows the reason behind it.

J: works at Flower Pots cafe and always shouts her friends a nice drink and snack when she's working. Feels the need to protect her friends at every cost. Is a part of the Hanlim High School girls' dance team along with y/n and Tsuki.

binbin (soobin): He works at the local garden center and always gifts his friends little cacti. Sometimes he ends up feeling like he's the only boy in this friend group. Gets shipped with beomgyu too much (as a joke) and genuinely hates it.

gyu (beomgyu): y/n's oldest friend since elementary and the person who never fails to make everyone feel embarrassed around him. Loves Taylor Swift #proudswiftie. Hasn't got many hobbies except for the fact he always takes a trip to the music store to test their guitars (the workers are sick of him).

tsuki: Qualified as y/n's friend by purposely sitting in the seat next to her at school and chatting about the 6 cats she owns. A super cute girl who doesn't deserve any guy that comes her way. She is also part of the Hanlim High School girls' dance team along with y/n and J.

wonnie (Jungwon): Is super silly and likes to lighten up the mood. He works as a babysitter around town for little kids and genuinely hates it. Complains but then Soobin makes sure he keeps thinking about the money. Best friends with Soobin, Gyu, J, Tsuki and y/n.

hoon (Sunghoon): He is y/n’s older brother and he is part of the Hamlin High School boys dance team. His skin is so clear and smooth that people can’t help but ask for the stuff that he’s putting on his skin. He is in his senior year and gets jelous of Riki cause he’s still so young and is already in a ‘committed’ relationship.

jongseong: Is such a player but doesn’t feel bad about it. He is a part of the Hanlon High School boys dance team along with, Riki, Hoon, Jaeyun, Hee and Sunoo. Just to rile him up people make jokes about him dating Jake (he doesn’t find it very funny). Works at Flower Pots cafe along with J.

jaeyun: Your local man whore. He gets with girls like his life depends on it, but he gets offended when they ask him to do the guilty dance because it doesn’t show etiquette?? His friends are very confused about it. He is a part of the Hamlin High School boys dance team.

hee (Heeseung): Hee is the biggest flirt ever and doesn’t hesistate to try and hit up y/n. He is single surprisingly but he seems to really have his eye on a specific someone. Argues with Riki about who is a better dancer (Riki definitely is). He is also a part of the Hamlin High School boys dance team.

Sunoo: He is the sweetest person ever, he is best friends with, Riki, Sunghoon, Heeseung, Jongseong and Jaeyun. He is good friends with y/n but never knows whose side to take, Riki’s or y/n’s. He is also apart of the Hamlin High School boys dance team.

Jiwoo: She is Riki’s girlfriend of three years and hates y/n aswell as Riki does. The rest of Riki’s friends secretly find Jiwoo extremely annoying (you’ll see why). She is a part of the Hamlin High School girl’s dance team.

a/n: I am so excited to start this journey with you guys!! I will be posting this smau a few days apart from eachother so I hope that’s okay for you guys!! Likes and reblogs would be deeply appreciated!!

𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 | 𝐎𝐏𝐄𝐍: @qwertyhege @k1ttylvr @coolwitu @defnotfertilizedtoesw @yourmyst4r @echoofnoise00 @lovrqis @hoondiors @pkjay @j-wyoung

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snakeredbirdbatkatana · 4 months

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So I'm not a fan of the oh sad/kitten Tim thing that a lot of people got going on sometimes I enjoy when he gets a hug.

The one thing that I hate is when we take the rich out of Tim drake.

I want Tim rolling in fucking money sugar daddy to the stars level I want him thinking bananas cost $50.

It's funny it's also angsty as fuck

Good example my mom grew up with a dad who was filthy rich like there is a road named after my moms family.

He however was neglectful and abusive when she was 17 she left got pregnant tried to reconnect and he held me once before he refused to speak to her ever again.

Growing up my parents didn't have money my dad was the only one who worked but we got by. I didn't know anything about my moms life until I said to my dad one day about how moms dad sucked and how birthdays and shit must have sucked. Specifically she told me about one present I said that was shitty cause she said it wasn't the one she wanted. It was 400$.

My dad called my mom and flat out said why does our child not know you were fucking loaded.

Just because you have money or had money doesn't mean there isn't abuse or other secrets. Rich people are fucking weird.

(Another example when they found out my grandmother was pregnant they invited her over for dinner and we're disgusted by the fact that she was wearing jeans)

I want Tim to be rich and weird. Bruce is too and I don't hear people complaining about him having money for the bats to actually work they need to be rich. No other explanation would work because only billionaires could be furrys who fight crime. If normal people did that they would be in Arkham.

This was really ranty and weird but essentially Tim needs to be swimming I won't accept any arguments.

#tim drake #batfamily #rich batfam #Bruce Wayne is a billionaire I enjoy that because real life rich people suck #Bruce Wayne #jason todd #damian wayne #dick grayson

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lavendeerlesbian · 1 year

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We get the bare minimum of people acknowledging we exist that's not pandering. Literally all most of us want is access to medical care and the right to live our lives without violent threats or harassment. Of course there are shitty trans people, there are shitty people in every group whether they're marginalized or not. No one should be harassed for just trying to live their lives, but every fucking day I have to have someone remind me that they think I should commit suicide and they think it's fucking hilarious. Some celebrities saying "trans rights" isn't helping my safety, medical care, or material existence.

"Bare minimum of people acknowleding we exist" and yet every major company acknowledges and accepts trans people (and if you disagree you can be fired), every job application now asks for your gender identity and acknowledges nonbinary identities, women's DV shelters are forced to accept transwomen or else risk facing defunding and being shut down despite the fact that most women there are traumatized and need space away from male people, males are legally allowed to go into women's restrooms and sports and prisons where they assault and rape female inmates and staff, and y'all are also allowed to undergo "gender affirming care" despite the fact that it violates the hippocratic oath and is not safe. Hell, many insurances will even cover the cost of transition so either you're lying or you're misinformed. Literal children having some restrictions being placed on transition doesn't count, as children aren't allowed to make many other life altering decisions and you don't complain about those (no smoking, no drinking, no tattoos, etc.). And I haven't even gotten into how the trans movement is inherently homophobic as y'all are trying to redefine homosexuality as "same gender attraction" and call any actual homosexual person a "transphobic bigot and genital fetishist" in much the same fashion as homophobic conversion therapists. Literally the guy who came up with the concept of gender identity, John Money, was a pedophile who did sexual experiments on twin boys which eventually caused both of them to commit suicide. Look it up. Also look up Alan Turing and the Aversion Project.

It's not just "some assholes", your entire movement is built on trampling on the rights of women and LGB people.

I'm sure you genuinely see yourself as a victim because you have been told BY OTHER TRANS PEOPLE that trans people will commit suicide if they don't get affirming care instead of just better mental health resources. You know what LGB activists told gay children? "It gets better", not "Affirm gay kids or they'll kill themselves". Like. Doesn't that rub you the wrong way at all? Why are your activists encouraging children to kill themselves?

Acknowledging reality is not oppression, either. Even radfems acknowledge that you exist and that you identify as trans, but the reality is men cannot become women and vice versa. Also, radical feminism the ideology has nothing to do with suicide baiting people, so if radfems have actually told you to kill yourself on the basis of you being trans (doubt) then I want to see receipts.

#anon #response #long post #sorry this response is disorganized #I genuinely would like to have a conversation with you about this though #anyways all this just to say that if trans people respected women and LGB people's rights and boundaries #we'd have no problem with you #and if you just excuse that behavior instead of calling it out and shutting it down then you are part of the problem

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sizzlingpatrolfox · 9 months

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Don't you think pjms theories are too much of a reach? I don't think the company is sabotaging Jimin or that Bang/Scooter hate Jimin. There's not enough evidence to affirm those things to me. The company is just inefficient, stupid and money hungry. They are in a position to give better support to Bts solo songs that are not tied to western producers, they just don't want to spend money because a bts solo has some degree of success guaranteed anyway.

I have stanned idols who sued their company, who shaded their company until they left. And Jimin doesn't do those things. He complained about the MVs, but that's about it. He looks happy, he jokes around with staff. To me he is not being mistreated, it just looks like it because they company is incompent.

No, I don't think everything is a reach. I don't think they particularly hate Jimin, it's not personal. It's just that Jimin wasn't who they were planning on investing in, and they had other things to prove and he unfortunately stepped in their way. I even think they would've done the same to any other member, of course not everyone has the star quality Jimin has.

They're not incompetent. You don't build a multi billion dollar company if you're incompetent, for god's sake. You're naive and everyone thinking the same is naive or playing dumb. A lot of what they did for Jungkook's promo they already did it for BTS as a group before; they actually did more for Jungkook than they even did for BTS. They've always known what to do, they just didn't do it for anyone else. And even if some things slipped out of their hands, fans have been tagging them and asking them to fix it and they never did. Even though they fixed everything people complained about regarding seven.

What do you mean to say, that from April to July they learned everything didn't learn in 10 years? Because that's the time between like crazy and seven; 3 months. How does that make sense? Even more, the moment Jungkook was in that studio booth, they were already planning everything for seven. So, did they learn everything between March 24th and April 7th?

All solo releases had a settled and agreed on budget by the company. I doubt the members get involved with numbers; it's the company who decides on the budget. But even knowing and understanding that, some things are hard to understand still.

Jimin didn't get 6 videos because it was "irrational" but rookie group new jeans got 6 videos. Jungkook is going to get at least 2 more when he releases his album, and I don't even have to talk about predictions but present day is enough: there's like 10 visualizers (I think it's more than that now because I keep getting the notifications) for this one single and those videos cost money too.

I get that the physical CDs that the fans have been asking for cost money, but here's the thing.. they were sold out in the first or second week. So they never planned on restocking anyways, they manufactured a certain amount that got sold out in the first week and they never restocked because they were never planning on manufacturing more. Now, Jungkook has a month worth of CDs stock, I heard that the they stocked 38k CDs a couple of days ago and I believe the first stock was 10k, and since then they've restocked like 4 times so I'm sure they're already around the 100k CDs sold. I would even bet you that if they run out of their initial stock, they will manufacture more CDs if necessary for this single.

The same is happening to other BTS releases, by the way. They've been sold out for months and they're only restocking for Jungkook. It wasn't an exaggeration when I said all the money the 7 have earned is solely going into Jungkook's career. I will keep saying that because it's a fact.

By not restocking those CDs, they're limiting their support for their own artists. But they're also limiting the support fans can give them, because how can they buy if the product is not available. And that is sabotage, no matter the reason behind.

You say "They are in a position to give better support to Bts solo songs that are not tied to western producers, they just don't want to" well exactly, and that is not incompetence. They just don't want to.

"Demand, impact" bla bla bla. If they were to restock 50k CDs of like crazy, they will sell all. And they know that. It's not that they're scared they'll manufacture and ship CDs and make no revenue; they know there's demand, they just don't want to do it.

Budget and money aside, there's still important things they could've done, important things they could still do that they don't need money for.

There's no need to for budget to combine a song's streams or let people know about change in a chart rules. The English and Korean versions were released combined, it gained streams the following two days simply because it's a good song, and it hit #1 on global. The day after it was #1, the numbers were split and thus affecting its chart position. It's almost like for three days it didn't matter but it mattered the moment it was #1, because that was the debut they had planned for a different member. Seven, of course, combined from the begining and still no problems.

Spotify customer service said the label was in charge of combining songs, that they could do it if the label asked. I wasn't sure if I believed them at first, because sometimes databases get messed up and also Spotify customer service is kinda bad. But for several reasons, one being that issue with Post Malone's song, and the other being scooter's attempt at changing the number of streams for seven after its debut, I believe them now and I'm sure that if hybe wanted to, they could.

They didn't need budget to let people know about the change in the chart rules. They didn't care to, they didn't want to announce it until Yoongi had a song out. I don't know if you remember, but this is how things played out:

-> like crazy predicted between #4 - #6 for the second week

-> announcement that 100k+ sales were deducted from the total sold that week

-> a couple of hours later: instagram posts about Jungkook "making history" with bangpd and scooter

-> bangpd on the cover of billboard magazine the next week

If you think all of that was a coincidence, you do you.

And they didn't need budget to let people know what happened to those 100k sales. They still haven't given any explanation on that.

Did they need budget to put like crazy on this is BTS playlist? Did they need to hear Jimin say he wants to be a giant popstar?

None of that has anything to do with personal aspirations the members might have and it has everything to do with management. And no, I don't believe they're incompetent.

I said this earlier this year and I still stand by it:

There is no doubt it was Jimin who decided for who long he'd promote and what activitites. Of course, I'm not ignoring that Yoongi's release was stepping on Jimin's tail, so I also think Jimin could've been somewhat obliged to cram everything into a few days because he knew Yoongi was next.

I know Jimin decided on the shows and performances he went to; Jimin always been tied emotionally to their Korean fans, and he's always respected and honored them; during the pandemic and for festa 2022 he mentioned several times wanting to do music shows. He's had a good relationship with Jimmy Fallon for years, he chose to go to his show because he likes him. I never expected Jimin to go to live lounge as well as I don't expect Jungkook to ever do a stage like set me free pt2 or even like crazy.

I could consider -I have considered- the option that everything was just bad luck or something and that after knowing it was possible to have such a debut like Jimin, hybe he wanted a piece of the cake and to seriously take credit for success like that, so they decided to go all out for JK (this is where personal aspirations come into play), making sure that everyone knew who were the people involved. Because everyone knows who's behind seven. Even Jungkook won't miss any opportunity to talk about receiving the song and being granted this chance. He literally said his life changed because they gave him this song.

I mean...

But there are two things that won't let me really commit to the possibility that all happened by chance; one being all the mediaplay around JK since early 2022. Two, and the most relevant to me it's that Jungkook seemingly never worked on his album. He said that he wasn't doing anything, that he had no plans, told people to not wait for him. I'm sure you know everything. It's not like they suddenly decided to give him a song and then a full english album, no. They've been planning this for a while, and he probably knew about the plans and that's why he wasn't really working on anything.

Maybe you're new to the fandom, but one of the years BTS went to the Grammys, I think it was 2020, a CEO went with them and he placed himself in every photo next to them. In one photo, he even moved Jungkook out of the center so he could be the center of the photo in the freaking red carpet.

That same man, along with BangPd would give interview after interview talking about how they know how to create the next BTS, because they allegedly have some kind of formula. Formula was the word they always used. Armys always got so mad about those statements, saying BTS can't be imitated and that BTS is what it is because of the members and not because of the company. Most armys who remember that, who read those interviews aren't in the fandom anymore. The people in the fandom now don't know, and don't care.

This whole thing, for more than a year, has reeked of the same ideology.

You know that they are fame and money hungry, yet don't consider the possibility that they might do everything they can to get exactly that.

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Bottoms (2023) but instead of a fight club they have a gaming club — Part 1.

headcanons(?), loose plot, and shenanigans.

The club was established a long time ago by Josie, PJ, and Hazel when the school started to require every student to be a part of a club.

PJ didn't want to partake in any club as they all seem to involve physical exertion and community service so she thought they could just make up their own and they ended up with a gaming club.

They had high hopes for the club in the beginning bc who doesn't like video games?! But it turns out three nerds endorsing the club didn't seem too appealing to the many students of Rockbridge Falls High.

They used to play different types of games until they decided to exclusively play Tekken bc it's PJ's favorite and everything PJ's demanding ass wants, she gets (/pos. she's princess).

Also bc there were only three of them and Hazel always seemed to go with whatever PJ wanted.

They play local tourneys... Oh, and they never win!

They get a ten dollar budget from the school which they use to buy food after participating in a tourney.

PJ is Lili main because duh! She's gay and dramatic.

PJ's adamant that she mains Lili bc she's 'hot and sexy' but really she just thinks her outfit is pretty </3

Hazel is Asuka main mostly bc PJ is Lili main lol she also mains Lars.

PJ thinks Hazel purposefully choses Asuka to piss her off bc Hazel always beats her.

Josie is Jin main but sometimes she plays Josie just because :)

Josie draws Tekken fanart/comics.

Sometimes Josie draws Asulili fanart to piss off PJ. She gives them to Hazel who puts them up in her bedroom <3

PJ believes Josie's a show-off for being a Jin main but Josie thinks it just shows how much of a loser shut-in she is.

PJ spams single moves when she wants to piss off Josie.

And yes PJ was definitely a button masher. When they were younger Hazel beat her twelve times in a row and she got so mad that she didn't talk to Hazel for a whole day until Hazel showed her what practice mode is actually for.

She grinded so much that time that she failed a test but it was all worth it when she finally beat Hazel. It wasn't that long until Hazel was, yet again, unbeatable to PJ.

Josie is defo the best out of all of them, she's naturally great at remembering combos.

Josie and Hazel loves discoursing/theorizing about the plot and characters with each other.

Hazel makes them club shirts every year bc she's the rich one.

Hazel loves experimenting with/building fightsticks.

Hazel likes to write down combos she find on YouTube and she shares it with the club when they meet.

Hazel also takes notes about what everyone needs to improve during their sessions. Josie takes notes when it's her turn.

And PJ thinks it's stupid, "You guys don't need to do all that. Literally, no one cares about this club but us. We could be not doing any of this and no one will care,"

When they got to senior year they were given a notice by the school telling them they were gonna shut them down and m cut off their budget if they don't rack up at least ten members and gain any significant achievement for the school.

"Fuck this stupid fucking school. Why can't we be ugly, gay, and untalented in peace?! Does that mean it's one dollar for each student? Do they think my Tekken expertise costs a dollar?!"

Luckily Hazel got Sylvie and Crystal to join. Annie's also there, she doesn't play, she just sits there and complain the violence.

Sylvie is Panda/Kuma main. Crystal is King main. Annie will play Julia but only if she's playing against Sylvie.

Hazel also got Stella Rebecca to join too but only cuz she told her about the tourney prize money.

Stella started out as a Chloe main until she saw PJ playing as Alisa once and got into her bc chainsaws ^-^ !

They're still missing three members and lo and behold— Isabel and Brittany joined the club.

#bottoms 2023 #pjhazel #hazel callahan #josabel #this got out of hand but also idc #it's MY fixation and I MAKE the rules

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That night, Maggie cried while Frankie attempted to console her.

"Ignore them! They're just being so sour because they've forgotten how good cake tastes. If they knew, they'd eat so much they'd end up the fattest nobles in all England!" insisted Frankie.

"It's not about that! I don't care about cake! It was a stupid second of superficial gluttony and now it is costing me my future reputation as the Lady of Newcrest and my soul's place in eternal paradise! What if word gets out that I am a glutton? Who will marry me then?"

"Someone with some common sense!" Frankie replied.

Maggie sighed, "You still don't get it."

"I don't, Mags, I really don't. When I age up, I'm not going to care if I am the size of a waif or a whale. That stuff doesn't matter. You're a good person and that's what matters. Any Lord who cannot see that is not worth being with anyway."

Maggie sniffed and wiped her eyes, "You sound like Peggy."

Frankie suddenly felt deeply uncomfortable and shifted topic: "Besides, I don't think you should even get married -"

"Frankie", complained Maggie, "Don't start all that again."

"What do you need a spouse for? You saw Peggy's marriage - she was the smartest, most beautiful, most brilliant woman on the planet and her husband did nothing but cause her trouble! Then she has a baby, and what happens? Dead! You don't need any of that."

Maggie did not reply, but continued preparing herself for bed. Frankie's anti-marriage lectures had become so regular that they were practically part of the night-time routine.

"I say we both forget getting married. We wait for mama to pass so you're the Lady of Newcrest and then we ditch all of this and go see the world. You'll have all the money for us to buy a ship and hire a crew and go on endless adventures!"

"I don't want endless adventure!" snapped Maggie. "I want to be a good leader of Newcrest and a true follower of the Pure Faith. That means staying here and doing what is right for my lands and the people I lead. I'm tired of you bugging me with these childish dreams. I cannot wait for your birthday so you can grow up and understand the world as I do!"

As Maggie got into bed, pulled the covers over her head and returned to crying under the covers, Frankie crossed her arms in a huff. She did not bother to continue her argument with Maggie, but she wanted to retort that she would never understand the world as her mama and Maggie did, no matter how old she was.

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#sims 4 history challenge #great british sim challenge

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Ranking the boys in ease of gift shopping for because I can:

Wild - He likes a lot of things and doesn't care about the cost. $100 dollar bottle of wine? Awesome dude! $3 keychain? Sick! Now he won't lose his keys! (he still will) He's also super open to trying new things so even if you accidentally buy him knitting needles this boy will happily try his hand at knitting. He'll never finish the project, of course, but he'll still be stoked that you got him something.

Four - He emails everyone his wish list as soon as Autumn ends. No, Wild, he doesn't care that it won't be a surprise when he opens his gifts. He's not taking any chances with this group.

Hyrule - He's easy because he's always needing something. He's so busy he barely has time to go shopping for himself so at the end of the year he's got a huge backlog of things he wants. As long as you pay attention to him during the year and take note of times he say "I wish I had (blank)", you'll be golden.

Twilight - He doesn't care much about physical items but he'll be happy to receive usable things like soap refills and lotion. It's boring to buy for him sometimes but at least you know what to get him if it comes down to the wire. Although if you do branch out and get him something more risky, he'll be just as gracious. He's just a good boy who's happy to get what he gets.

Legend - Despite his prickly demeanor, this hoarder will take anything. So he's not hard to shop for, per say, just tricky. If you want to give him something he'll actually use, it'll take some research. You might even need to study all the contents of those mason jars he leaves all over the place. But even if what you give him isn't to his liking he'll at least be able to sell it. Or, you know, just add it to the growing pile of crap in his room. Either way, your gift will be happily accepted.

Sky - Sky's a bit of a mixed bag. He'll like anything he gets but he also doesn't really need anything. So yo have to put in more thought. Or, you know, ask him. He'll pick up on any subtle attempts to ask and just as subtly direct you to something affordable but nice enough that you don't feel like a cheapskate buying it for him. And he'll even act surprised when he unwraps it on Solstice morning.

Champion - Another one with a wish list. The only problem is that Champion doesn't usually want many things so it's a big rush to claim an item before everyone else. And if everyone gets to the list before you? Good fucking luck my guy.

Warriors - He would be higher because he also provides a wish list, but everything on his list is expensive. Either be ready to pool your money or empty your pockets because Wars isn't above exploiting the holidays for profit.

Wind - A little shit who loves to complain about everything and also, thank to Time, has newly discovered expensive tastes. Even moreso than Warriors because he mostly wants tech. Truly, shopping for him is a nightmare because if you get him the wrong thing, Wind isn't above asking for a gift receipt straight to your face.

Time - What do you buy for a guy with such deep pockets? Whatever it is, it has to come from the heart, which makes him the hardest to buy for.

Bonus:

Dark - Easy-peasy, this guy will take anything and be actually kind of touched you got him anything in the first place. Especially if you actually put thought into it and it isn't just a gag gift (not to say he doesn't appreciate a good gag gift)

Shadow - Also pretty easy. Food and fancy little bath bombs. Also foreign goods he can't just casually swipe off a shelf is also prime gifting material for him.

#townhouse au #hsh au #st0rmyverse #literally christmas eve and just now starting to feel it #enjoy some random hc

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gofancyninjaworld · 1 year

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(Almost) Everything You Need To Know About Pro-Hero Pay and Conditions in One Picture

This is the home of the second-ranked pro-hero, a much-lauded, hard-working hero and the de facto mainstay of the Hero Association:

I wasn't expecting a mansion but *this*?

Not only is it nothing much to look at, but she seems to share it with her sister.

This is as good as it gets. Want more? See below the cut.

Wherever those billions are going, it's not to the pockets of the heroes who risk their lives. We knew that heroes weren't well paid, at least at Class C, and that the Hero Association leverages the fact that it's a non-profit to shame heroes into not complaining. I'm remembering the shock Sonic had when he impersonated Saitama and discovered how little the dude was getting paid (Majin Drama CD 4). He just couldn't understand how anyone would risk so much for so little reward. On the good side, it did mean that Sonic stopped harassing Saitama while the latter was working.

Looks like the shitty pay goes all the way to the top.

This definitely adds a lot of context to individuals' decisions. A few to note.

It makes a lot more sense of why so many A-Class heroes have been moving into headquarters. The difference that not having to pay rent makes is large enough to be compelling. To the detriment of everyone who has lost their neighbourhood A-Class hero, but these individual choices are hard to fight.

Flashy Flash's remark about the mercenaries really resonates here. If money motivates you, this is definitely not a job for you. At any level.

It positively punishes anyone with caring responsibilities. Metal Bat drops everything to go pick Zenko up at the end of the school day? Why? It's not because he doesn't take his hero work seriously -- quite simply, he can't afford to hire a nanny!

It brings into sharper focus why, although Genos has come to accept being a hero, he treats the Hero Association like it's an expensive, vicious summer training camp -- because it's pure charity. His pay doesn't even begin to touch the sides of the costs of his hero work. As soon as he gets what he came for, he's gone. One can only donate for so long.

Along the lines of the numbers just not adding up, it makes a lot more sense of why Drive Knight is so careful about his engagements and tries to make sure that he gets something out of his efforts. Altruism is all very well but broken parts cost money.

Suiryu may have turned over a new leaf, but with pay as atrocious as it is, his love of money is probably going to keep him looking for alternative ways to be a hero. I hope we get to see the shock on his face when he finds out that, no, A-Class heroes aren't paid well. I think he's going to be horrified all over again to find that Sneck and Max put their lives on the line to help him for a sum that he wouldn't get out of bed for.

Altruism is all very well but baby has standards he's accustomed to

Hero work has been treated as a prestige job: one where the realities may be awful, but the social cachet makes it desirable anyway. We can't quantify it, but the awful pay in itself must contribute to why the Hero Association is always recruiting as good people find that they care, but just can't make the numbers add up.

It's a shame. Nobody needs heroes to live like sports stars, but of all the things the public would like to see, having pro-heroes at least have dignity across the board would be welcome, and no one would mind if at the higher levels the heroes can have nice things.

Can you say things are ripe for a shake up? I sure can!

#OPM #meta #hero pay #add the nonsense that being a pro-hero comes with and the wonder is that the HA has as many heroes as it does #pssst: I'd love it if this could get more notes and interaction than it will on Reddit

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levmada · 1 year

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i come with hurt/comfort ideas >:)

what if trans!levi is worried that reader will leave him when he comes out to them and once he starts to transition he worries even more bc he's starting to change physically and poor baby is so scared that reader won't love him like this anymore :')

- 🥛

anything for u milk :')))))

wc: 3.6k

content/warnings: male!reader, reader and Levi are engaged, emotional hurt/comfort, internalized transphobia, a few uses of a deadname/misgendering (but reader doesn't know any better), modern!au, transman!Levi, mental breakdown, some blood from minor injuries, coming out

"Yeah! Yeah... She loves it," you chuckle. "Thanks again, Mom."

He...

He looks up from his notebook, his pen pinched between his pointer and middle finger. Your mom called just when you were finishing up with the dishes. A fine end to a nice and relaxing dinner.

He shoots you a glare as you go to wipe the remnants of water on your pants. Wisely, you smile apologetically and grab a rag instead.

"Thanks for lying," he retorts, pulling his notebook into his lap. But he means that.

"I can't lie forever," you point out. "You know... you don't have to like it just because she bought it for you, and your graduation. I know she knew how you feel about that sort of thing."

Yes. Even though your parents see more money in a year than he, she, he ever has in ten, a pit always opens in his stomach when any amount of money is spent on him.

"I’m used to it by now," he snorts, closing the notebook as you lean down and kiss his hair.

The one thing he's lately realized, he would not change about himself. It's black and chopped short, shaved around the base of his skull and his ears. Mom started doing it that way when he got the bravery to bring it up one day, an incredible feat for him as a little kid.

He has always liked it better short. Easier to take care of. Less likely to tangle.

You sit down besides him, your brows lifted with one last open opporuntiy to be open with you. "Are you sure? It's your college graduation—you can wear whatever you want."

"It's fine, sweetheart," he replies. His lips press, but he can't think of anything more reassuring to say. He's not been good at lying lately. Hiding.

And he’s distracted by the thick, stifling feeling from his lipstick. Lately, he's been wearing more makeup. But it hasn't helped him with feeling even okay about his appearance. Most of the time, he’s okay.

It's not just the (most likely) absurd cost of the dress, but whenever he thinks about stepping into it, he wants to crawl out of his skin. He doesn't wear dresses, but he's never said no to one, he argues with himself. He got his GED in front of a computer screen, and no event before that in his life ever warranted dressing up that much. He was too busy surviving the streets.

Or maybe he's just making excuses. Like he always, always, always has.

"Leah."

He tenses. "What?"

Without his noticing, you'd touched his hand, which is smaller than yours, and daintier than yours…

“We gonna finish season four tonight?"

He catches himself feeling a burst of excitement, but his stomach ultimately sinks. Not only does he get to enjoy evenings with you cuddled on the couch watching this show, but he's complained multiple times, teasingly, that you intern too much so you haven't gotten the time to sit down together and actually continue it. You graduated a year before him, and, of course, you wore nice slacks and a button-down to your graduation.

He does want to. Maybe he needs it.

But he should've shaved two weeks ago—as is his rigid routine—and because it's so damn hot for spring, he won't be able to stand the climate under a blanket with you for very long through lounge pants.

And besides, it's getting embarrassing, the hair.

…And the reality of the discomfort he feels whenever you so much as lay your head on his chest has hit him harder than ever, all instigated by that stupid gift... A gift he should be fucking grateful for.

So he'll be late. You look crestfallen by that, and, feeling shame come down upon him like a tidal wave, he awkwardly walks out of the kitchen with the notebook clasped under his arm instead of actually showing that he cares and he’s sorry he’s been distant—and loves you like he wants, needs, to.

He's even hiding this stupid notebook from you. Technically it's a relic: he’s reused it several times throughout his years of college. He doesn't like spending money on new supplies if it's a waste, so recently he dug it out of the attic.

To anyone else, it'd look like the ramblings of a crazy person. The remaining pages are scattered with names, and sentences—sentences he has happened to overhear in real life—written down referring to himself with he and him instead of she and her.

Before now, he hadn't opened it in forever, and thought the names he came up with when he was younger were completely unfitting or cringe-worthy, but still. He got a funny feeling when he read over them and realized he still liked them more than his name.

With practiced neatness, he dresses down to just a bra and short underwear—he’ll shower after this—cranks the faucet in the tub on, grabs his razor and soap bar, and starts lathering his legs.

He's anxious, but, maybe that's just because he turned you down and he doesn't know how to make it better. He can barely even explain the problem to himself. Himself.

"Yeah! Yeah... He loves it."

At first, he doesn't even notice when it happens because he never slips up, but the next time he brings the razor down, a lone line of blood has already fallen halfway down his calf like a tear, mingling with the soap. Disgusting. It catches on his ankle.

For a moment he just stares. That's my blood. No matter what I am, both sides bleed, huh.

Stupid. Fuck.

Before a drop can hit the acrylic tub bottom, he slaps his hand down on the dribble and angles his calf so the rushing faucet hits it. The red dilutes, and washes away.

But it's a bad cut, shit. He glares at it. He really fucked up royally if he's going to need a bandage for this.

Just like that, he loses the rest of his motivation to shave his legs. Normally, he would just push through it—half-shaven legs are even uglier than unshaved legs—but for some reason, he just...

"Lee, when you start growing up, it's just something that happens. It's not bad," his mother said. "But it is bad to use safety scissors, okay?"

"Grow up?"

"Yes." And her lips had turned up. "Into a beautiful young lady. But you're already the beautiful-est."

And he giggled.

Why am I thinking about that now?

The bandage crinkled when she stripped it open, and delicately stuck it on his arm. Where he had been curious to find hair growing there, and used safety scissors to trim it.

He remembers beaming, because Mom was beaming, but for some reason it’s not a happy memory. In fact his chest feels hollow.

He touches that pale scar next to his elbow, hangs his head, and snivels as… as tears break over his lashes.

Why why? Why am I so fucked up? Why is all this shit so wrong? Can’t fix it… Just fix…

Something changes in him. It's not an urge, not even a need but a recoil in response to his nature—something is at its most basic and fundamental level wrong. It's not in his head, or in his hips or his chest—it's in his blood.

Suddenly the bra is stifling. He hooks his hands under the straps and shoves and pushes as hard as he can. It takes long enough for the idiocy of the whole situation to creep into his mind when the fabric tears, ripping, a thick and satisfying noise.

This isn’t idiotic at all.

He throws it down, breathing in harsh huffs. His eyes are wide, crazed, as if he's seeing something extrordinary and alien, a feeling propelled into motion.

He’s no longer thinking. He tears off his necklace, and because this was one of his Mom's and it was cheaply bought on a dime and she died so long ago—it’s easy. It’s scary how easy it is. Some of the pearls plop in the tub, but most go skittering across the bathroom tile.

The sound is like a roaring cheer, the kind of cheering only heard when a crowd is watching a warrior fight to the death against lions and bulls.

He rips his earrings out, and throws them down. That feels less satisfying, but he doesn't want this to end, so he turns his rage to his short, black acrylic nails. With his thumb and forefinger, for each and every one he digs around the edges until they're loose enough to wiggle, and peel off his nail bed.

It fucking hurts, but this pain is better than every ounce of discomfort, insecurity or agony, delivered in doses from a spoonful to a cannon-shot over days, then months, then twenty-five years. In fact it’s freeing. It’s transforming.

By the time chips of black litter the floor, four of his nails are oozing blood. Good. He rips off his stupid silver anklet, and then—

His silver ring, with that flashy diamond he can’t help but resent.

He's sobbing so hard he can't breathe, stooped over the way he is. Can’t even see what he's done because his stinging vision is blurred. Spikes of pain throb in all ten of his trembling fingers as he slides the engagement ring off, slowly this time.

He places it down beside him on the tub, being just as careful. A spot of crimson red is left behind on the white tub. A stain on the ring, and a stain on your engagement.

No. All of it.

You're going to leave him, he can just feel it. He can't go out with you. Neither of you can be with your friends without him wishing he was someone else. He can't even have sex with you without all the lights off and his eyes closed so he can be someone else. Normally it’s so good he can almost forget, but not anymore. No more.

It's not fucking fair. He loves you so much, but he just can’t seem to...

His crying abated a little when he noticed the ring. It now resumes in earnest as he brings his arms up and hugs his chest.

At least he takes solace in the fact that you never showed any interest in men before, right? You're definitely not gay, you've never dated another man as far as he knows, so how can he say you're bisexual?

He can't just say he is a man and have that be true, he knows that, but Please, he pleads with no one, Stop caring about me. I'm someone else.

I don't want to be this.

He sits there for a long time, just crying like a pathetic little girl under the sound of rushing water, stooped over and his arms pinning down his chest, blood drying on his leg and nails, scratches by his chest where he clawed at the bra… He's such a wreck.

When snot starts to drip on his lip, he finally gets ahold over himself. He wipes it and takes a hitched breath that doesn't fill his lungs at all. He needs to clean this shit up.

And while he does that, he can think of a plan for after.

He leans forward, bracing the counter so he won't have to stand as he fishes around inside a drawer for the tube of antibiotic.

After a little fumbling, he grabs hold of something that feels like a tube, but when he lifts it to see, it's a tube of mascara.

Rage gets stuck in his chest. Snarling, he throws it down too, and slams the stupid drawer. It bounces back open, naturally, so he does it again, and holds it closed this time. He sits like that, just catching his breath for a while.

There's a knock on the door.

“Lee, did something fall? You okay?”

He freezes. He didn't even hear your steps come up the stairs, and that snaps him out of it all. The chilling, unforgiving reality of the mess surrounding him stares at him. He cringes, crosses his arms tightly around himself, and hangs his head.

"Leah?"

He screws his eyes shut, then blinks them open. "N-No."

Somehow his voice is firm, but he hates the sound of his voice.

The water is still rushing. He reaches around and twists it to the left, off.

"Is it okay if I come in, baby?"

What’s the point in hiding it?

"…It..." More tears jump to his eyes. "...It's unlocked."

Of course, a torturous silence infects the air as soon as you open the door. He was prepared for that. He just stares at the floor, focusing so that maybe he'll melt through the floor, or next he blinks, wink out of existence, and wake up in a natal ward.

Despite all that, he's shaking from his heart to his shoulders and knees. It feels like he’s going to die.

The first move you make is to kneel down beside him. Your hand appears on his bicep, warm. "You're bleeding... Here, let me see."

His hands curl into fists, truly gasping for breath now. He can’t with his chest. “I-I—I made a mess.”

"Don't worry about that,” you say quickly. “Hold on, I'll get you something to wear, okay? I'll be right back."

"Something big," leaps out of him, unable to swallow it.

"Something big," you promise. You pet his hair, and then you're gone.

Why? is his very first thought. Pearls and his torn white bra, sprinkled with black nails and a silver chain litter the floor. The tube of mascara rolled behind the toilet.

Despite his leg and his scratches, you place the clothes beside him—out of view of the ring...—and then close the door behind you. You'll be waiting outside.

Dread sits thick and heavy in his stomach as he pulls on a black sweater that could fit two of him inside, undershorts, and long lounge pants. After your reaction just now, he has even less of an idea of what to say than before.

When he takes a timid step out of the bathroom, he doesn't even look up at you as he ambles to the foot of the bed and sits. His hands, which he lays on his legs, are still trembling.

He hears you sigh. Concern and stress, more than irritation or anger.

You come over, once again.

"Can I touch you?"

He shrugs, still looking at his torn nails.

"That’s okay. Can I sit with you?"

He nods. The bed dips slightly when you do so, leaving just enough space between you for your shoulders to brush together.

"Do you..." You stall. He can sense you picking at your sleeves, something you do when you're nervous.

Brows furrowing, he frowns down at his lap. He never meant to make you upset.

You try again. "Do you not like how you look? I'm not really understanding, what happened? Shit. I noticed something was going on, but I didn't ask... I should have. I'm really sorry, Lee."

"...It's fine."

"But it's not."

You're right, though. Everything is falling apart, actually.

He's not sure any words can completely convey what he feels inside. But he can't just leave you hanging, either, and he can't live like this anymore.

He finicks with creases in his pants as he tries, in a low whisper, to explain.

"I..." His breath catches. "I don't like how I look. I don't like anything about it. I've never liked anything... about it. I'm not actually what anyone thinks. What I thought I was, was trying to be.

"Makeup is disgusting. And jewelry is disgusting. And so is my name,” he gasps. “Look... I'm sorry for disappointing you."

He winces, and curls his fists to put his anxious energy somewhere. It hurts. He opens his mouth, but it's dry, and words don't form, and he can sense you knowing that as you look imploringly at the side of his head. You should hate him.

You speak lightly. He imagines your voice walking a tightrope. "Do you mean… you're transgender?”

He scoffs. "I tried to make it work. But I... Nothing feels like it should fucking feel," he spits.

“…That would explain a lot, I think. I hear you. I’m not mad.”

"It's too late. To say the least. And you won't be able to change my mind.”

You huff gently. “I wouldn't try to change your mind.”

A beat of silence. You shift, your hand now hovering over his upper back. He finds himself leaning into it, to which you begin stroking soft, soothing circles.

If you don't stop, he's going to fucking cry again. This isn't what he expected at all.

"Would..."

Fuck. He fucking hates the sound of his voice when it shakes. He blinks rapidly, sliding his hand down his face.

"Would you hate it? You should just tell me now and get it over with so we don't waste our time here," he explains quickly, as quick as his breaths. “Say it.”

"I don't hate it, or you," you say firmly. "Lee—Baby, I think... I just want you. For you. I just want you, and for you to be happy, or at least not to be this miserable… But… I noticed you took off the ring."

"Not because of… That was for, in case."

"Oh, baby," you sigh softly. It sounds like you're moments from crying too, suddenly, which makes him feel even more guilty. Dragging you down to his miserable level.

He hates it, but at the same time, maybe this is the best way things could've gone. You could've gotten angry, or not understood. Or just have told him he's wrong and something's wrong with him for thinking so. He has scoured the internet, and forums. He's pretty sure nothing's wrong with him, but he's not fine, either.

"I'm not gonna leave you. If this is what you need, then it's what you need, and I'm going to support you. You're always going to be you, and that’s who I wanna be with.”

That's it. He locks his throat and looks away.

This is apparently your signal to kiss his hair, stroking his back in firmer motions now.

As long as he's okay with it, you volunteer to clean up, and then get some things for his fingers and his cut.

He nods. Hopefully during that time he'll stop crying, and come to true terms with how you feel.

He takes note of all the sounds coming from the bathroom as you work. A broom and the tinkling of the pearls, the scrape from the acrylic nails. The sound of a grunt as you probably reach for the mascara and the soft shuck of the drawer. A little water to clean up the blood.

Surprisingly he gets ahold of his tears quickly compared to last time. Mostly he finds himself wading through the motions of this new reality. It's like his life is rolling over to a more comfortable position. It's surreal.

So he pulls up his pant leg without complaint for you to dutifully clean off the clotted blood and tape on a bandaid. The same as four of his fingers that bled. For the others, you stroke and kiss his knuckles, an expression of such fondness staring straight at him that he gets the urge to fall apart all over again.

Could you really feel the same for him like this? What if it all falls apart later?

He can't wonder about that—he has to trust your word, which he does. Five years of being by his side and a few months of being engaged screams out your commitment to him.

And you don't lie to him. He has to believe that everything will be okay. He's already made it this far.

He sniffles as the diamond ring suddenly appears. Once again, you take his hand, but before you do anything, you look up, searching his eyes. He nods rapidly, spreading his fingers for you.

You go up on one knee, paralyzing him. The cool silver sliding onto his ring finger feels like being locked in, secure. Like putting on a seatbelt or locked into a rollarcoaster ride.

You beam at the look on his face, one of your coy ones. "See, now you're my fiancé—with one 'e'."

"Idiot," he mumbles, because he can't stop from his lips curling the slightest bit.

“I can get you a different one, maybe, but I know what you’d say.”

He scoffs softly. “Just marry me faster.”

“Oh, I will.”

With a soft sigh, you sit next to him again. This time, he leans against you with more of his weight, so instantly you wrap an arm around him. Your other hand lays on his leg in a silent show of support. He lays his hand down, too.

“I'll call you by 'he/him', and I'll remember, if you’d like that.”

His stomach swoops. “…Yeah. I would.”

It feels like he’s dreaming.

Whenever you let each other's friends know—conveniently, for him, he doesn't have any family left that he sees—it'll be natural, but soon. The whole idea instantly fills him with nerves he doesn't want to put up with until tomorrow at least.

In fact, the road ahead will be long. He's more nervous than he's ever been, yet so exhilarated he can barely sit still. You agree to worry about it all later.

"One last question?" you propose.

"Hm."

"Do you have any idea of a name? Or is 'Lee' okay?"

He nibbles on his bottom lip. Those journal pages jump to his mind. It's not that he doubts himself, really, but he wishes he could've gotten the chance to ask Mom what she would've named him...

He clears his throat. "Yeah.”

“Yeah?”

“Levi."

You giggle, making him tense.

"I love that," you muse warmly. "It fits you. Beautiful.”

The beautiful-est.

“Tch.” He relaxes at your side, his lips curling up all over again. “…Yeah. Thank you.”

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