This suppose to be a Valentine's day art but like I'm so late lol _(:3」∠)_ Anyway timelapse undercut :3
Jsyk this was such a pain for me to record because I have to export the timelapse, clear it from my canvas and then restart timelapse again and then attach all of the clips all by myself because my tablet can't handle the big file size (I'm talking like 200+mb without the timelapse) _(:3」∠)_
Can you imagine how excited and happy Demon!Lexa was (and is) when she started hanging out with Clarke? A friend and a lover after so many years alone? To fall in love for the first time. To be with someone and being loved by them.
Sometimes I read your ff and I wonder if you know how deeply they wreck us in the most beautiful way. ❤️
Me every time I think about that little baby demon dipshit running around the earth for a millennia thinking "I don't need anyone. I don't even like anyone! So there! I'm perfectly happy on my own, everyone else can go to hell 😤."
And then the first second Clarke showed up in her life it was like "👀👀👀👀👀 If not friend... why friend shaped?... Sexy, sexy friend shaped..."
You know, with the way that this website goes crazy for dark academia, Dracula Daily, Hannibal, and Interview With The Vampire … I really thought we were gonna hit a Penny Dreadful (2014) renaissance era … all the vibes are reunited you would all go crazy for this …
I was having a grand old time sneakily buying makeup to use for a femme cosplay these past couple weeks like "Yess, my parents will never know until it's too late!! heehee hoohoo, im s0 rebellious! im such a naughty little sissy boy! Hoohoo~ A sassy little poppet!! oooh wat will they think when they see~!!"
And then I remembered that my parents think I'm straight and a girl, so probably "Oh thank christ, she shaved today."
ahhhhh,,,, so I (the stone butch) have been essentially celibate for the last 4 years, because dealing with a lot of sexual trauma coming to the surface has made sex so fucking triggering. like, I've been attracted to women the whole time, but any physical arousal or horny thoughts have been so rare because that all had to be shut off to keep me safe. in the last year or so, I feel like I've done a lot of healing and have made a lot of peace with myself, and it's starting to come back. my wife and I made love for the first time in a very long time, and it was incredible. I was present enough to enjoy myself so much more than I ever anticipated- there was none of the suppressed fear, nor was I fending off flashbacks the entire time. it feels like a miracle, because I can't remember sex ever feeling 100% good like this. I didn't feel broken like I usually do, which was a wildly positive experience and I just. love him so, so much. he makes me feel so safe, so loved. he knows there are a lot of ways I can't be touched, and never once has he pushed those boundaries. I feel so emotional about this and about the other people we are dating (hi :3) and feeling safe enough to start flirting with them properly 🥺. maybe there is love inside of me.