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Main protagonist of The Beast In My Spine

POTENTIAL TRIGGER WARNING: Mental health issues, the fear of coitus and childbirth, and drugs are mentioned/talked about. There is also a brief mention of suicide.

Odurkheniya-Lubochkeva Ystolukhevina Pelvzrumjachinko is a 21-year-old petite, timid Ukrainian girl who graduated from a two-year college art program. As a contestant, the main showrunner, Mirabozluthek, gave her the nickname Thimble Mouse due to her apparent shyness and watchfulness as well as her protective nature. As an independent artist, she goes by Holsudrega and utilises digital art to conceptualise and express her creativity. However, there are times where she decides to indulge in abstract painting. She finds art to be very therapeutic and thoughtful, giving her room to breathe when dealing with anxiety and stress. Besides art, Odurkheniya is capable of using her creativity to inspire innovation amongst her peers as well as view and solve whatever problems she’s facing more openly. She’s quite the introvert, finding that large groups or crowds tend to drain her motivation to interact with others. She enjoys solitude without any disturbances and is keenly self-aware of her surroundings, which can make her notice certain things that others don’t. She’s fairly quiet, which allows her to focus and listen to the thoughts of whoever she’s conversing with. She also notices the small details, helping her to understand people better and make more proper decisions in life. Odurkheniya is very polite and sweet, showing her genuine respect and consideration towards those worth her time. However, she will put her foot down when things go way too far for her liking. She also has a strong willingness to defend those who are personally close to her.

Odurkheniya can be fairly shy and awkward around new people, but she does slowly warm up to them throughout their relationship. Her shyness stems from the tendency to avoid being judged and the insecurities she comes across in her daily life. She doesn’t want to be viewed as a nuisance as she secretly desires belonging and acceptance amongst her peers. There are instances when she can be somewhat stubborn under certain circumstances and even dismissive of other people’s ideas. She has severe erotophobia (the fear of sex) and tokophobia (the fear of childbirth) due to a couple of unfortunate incidents. Anything related to sex and childbirth makes her genuinely uncomfortable and disgusted, which leads to her vomiting and sobbing. Odurkheniya is also prone to anxiety attacks when she's exposed to things surrounding her phobias or she's put through situations that aren't familiar to her. She overthinks about the possible worst outcomes that surround most of her daily situations, and she does have occasional mood swings. She’s in severe disbelief and denial in regards to her traumatic past, and she’s prone to vivid thoughts of suicide.

She’s quite indecisive, often feeling emotionally numb and immensely afraid to make the wrong decisions. As a result of her mind “going blank” and trauma, she has noticeable memory problems. This makes her feel frustrated about not being able to remember certain things and uncertain about what or has happened. She has this persistent worry about a number of areas that are disproportionate to the impact of certain events. She has difficulty experiencing positive emotions and tends to engage in negative self-talk. She’s secretly addicted to methamphetamine and heroin, which she uses to suppress her anxiety and trauma. Methamphetamine makes her feel exhilarated, weirdly paranoid and alert about her surroundings, and easily agitated by others. On the other hand, heroin makes her feel a sense of euphoria, happiness, and tranquillity as well as noticeably tired.

She is slightly smaller than the average height of a Ukrainian woman, which is about 5' 4” (162.56 cm). She has an ectomorphic, spoon-shaped body type with pinkish stretch marks on her chest, tummy, and hip areas. Her skin is the hue of luscious warm ivory and her eyes are a light green. She has an observable facial mole slightly below her left brow and a bit more can be seen on her legs and back. She has short dark auburn hair that’s in a feathered wolf cut with shaggy bangs. The ends of her soft, feathery hair is dyed an acid apple green. Ever since Kicnemura possessed her and resided in her spine, her back has gone through a few noticeable changes. Her back appears to be malnourished with her spine emerging from her flesh and the skin looking like burnt ashes. On the back of her left thigh, just above her buttocks, there's a large patch of scar tissue. It's impossible to tell how she got it and she refuses to talk about it.

Odurkheniya is often seen wearing her favourite hoodie, one that has been experimented on by using the rainbow tie dye technique with beauty bush, whimsy yellow, jungle mist, and baby blue. With her silvery fabric marker, she wrote the Ukrainian idiom “Біла ворона” (a white crow) on the back of the hoodie. She has four distinguishable black T-shirts with their own unique Ukrainian phrases and images. The first has the line from the poem “You know that you are a human…” by Vasyl Simonenko, which is “Мука твоя — єдина” (That torment of yours is unique to you). It depicts a golden mask of comedy in front of a simplistic pedunculate oak. The second phrase is “Без надії сподіваюсь!” (Contra Spem Spero!), the title of a poem written by Lesya Ukrainka, and it arches above a snowy mountain standing before a night sky. The third has the Ukrainian proverb “Життя закоротке для щастя, а задовге для терпіння" (Life is too short for happiness and too long for patience) on the back. On the front, it depicts a lone Hesperia comma, the silver-spotted skipper or common branded skipper, on top of a human skull. The last T-shirt has another proverb, which is "Або пан або пропав" (Either the master or the missing), acting as the horizon for the beaming sun to peer out of. Odurkheniya wears a comfy pair of grey jean shorts, barn red knee-high socks, and leopard print sneakers. Her ears are adorned with a pair of dangling earrings that contain her birthstone (alexandrite). She also has a nose bridge piercing, vertical labret piercing, and a few homemade bracelets on both of her wrists. On her right wrist, she has a saffron and magenta zipper bracelet, a sapphire chain link bracelet, and ocean wave bracelet. On her left wrist, she has a watermelon bracelet, a stretchy bracelet with evil eye and burgundy beads, a sunflower-patterned hololith, and a gold chain bracelet with a dog tag that spells out “Vernadobi”. She carries around a blue-green saddlebag with a pattern of stylised calico cat faces—it was a gift from a horse enthusiast friend. It contains her asthma inhaler, a small sketchbook, a watercolour paint set, graphite pencils, two Vanish erasers, a butterfly knife, and pepper spray.

FAMILY:

Unnamed father

Vernadobi (step-father)

Unnamed mother

ALIASES/NICKNAMES:

Thimble Mouse (by Mirabozluthek, Kriptahmozendus, and Toxiplusneza)

Holsudrega (artist pen name)

Odarkhe (by most of her friends)

Lubokeva (by a few of her friends)

My little broom (by Kicnemura)

Swamp Chicken (by Kicnemura)

Solnyshko moi (“my little sun” in Ukrainian) (by Kicnemura)

Kulbaba (“dandelion” in Ukrainian) (by Kicnemura)

Lastivka (“swallow” in Ukrainian) (by Kicnemura)

Bdzhilka (“bee” in Ukrainian) (by Kicnemura)

Miss Pelvzrumjachinko (by Dimophelaktus)

Ferruginous Swift (by Giespozhan)

Taciturn Osprey (by Giespozhan)

Kheniya (by Rumahelt)

Unchaste wretch (by Shelobad)

Drolja (“slut” in Croatian) (by Shelobad)

Pizda (“cunt” in Croatian) (by Shelobad)

Svinje (“wild pig” in Croatian) (by Shelobad)

Vernadob (by Garfhelodius)

Odaren (by Kelatodrich)

Ystola (by Kelatodrich)

Poor craythur (“creature” in Irish) (by Lusczrefhona)

Min kjæreste (“my dearest” in Norwegian) (by Jorvastein)

Månestråle (“my moonbeam” in Norwegian) (by Jorvastein)

Ystolukhe (by Eylcaborith)

Lubochkeva-chan (by Yoshazume)

Holsedruga (by Libakzurchet)

Pelvzrumja (by Libakzurchet)

Lefki (“white” in Greek) (by Hildeborta)

Odurkheliini (by Oyrvacke)

FUN FACTS/EXTRA INFORMATION:

She’s asexual

Her birthday is March 6th (Pisces)

Her blood type is O+

She’s allergic to house dust mites, nickel, and red meat.

She has asthma, fibromyalgia, somatic complaints, and eating disturbances.

She has a bit of Russian blood within her family lineage

Whenever her anxiety kicks in, she rubs her hands together or picks at her delicate skin.

She doesn't know a lot of English due to her struggle with adapting to unfamiliar languages.

She likes scented candles, poetic language, the natural beauty of gemstones and crystals, the sound of windchimes, the beach, soaking up tranquil ambience, folklore, true crime documentaries, walking through old cemeteries, and antique art.

She dislikes creepy men, feeling pain and tenderness throughout her body, epileptic seizures, lukewarm chocolate milk, the texture of tinfoil, being dismissed as weak and unintelligent, war and genocide, extreme cold, loud noises, and aquatic pollution.

Besides creating digital art and abstract paintings, her other hobbies consist of listening to music, collecting stuffed animals, making paper mache masks, visiting art and nature museums, baking, and journaling.

Her favourite animals are the moose, chamois, steppe polecat, and Eurasian eagle-owl.

Her favourite flowers are the iris, cornflower, viburnum, high mallow, and apple blossoms.

Her favourite comfort foods are Chervonyi borshch, ptashyne moloko, bryndza, syrniki, and mlyntsi.

Odurkheniya has too many favourite colours. If she did have to choose, it would be Uranian blue, magic mint, aquamarine, and celadon.

Her biggest pet peeves are people who overstay their welcome, those who can’t apologise, technical difficulties of any kind, not feeling welcomed at a gathering, leaving the toilet seat up, and loud chewing.

She knows a secret technique that could make her feel better while she's having an asthma attack, especially when she forgot to bring her inhaler. This secret technique is the Buteyko method, breathing slowly and through her nose. This method is used to keep the air in one’s body to stay warm and moist, making the airways less sensitive.

She likes to keep her house clean every weekend, but when she needs to dust off her furniture, she’ll wear a mask before she does that or the dust will get in her nose.

She used to be pretty tomboyish and brash during her high school years

Odurkheniya's eyes are quite sensitive, so she doesn’t like noticeably bright lights.

She painted her bedroom in magic mint

She doesn’t like going outside at all

She’s a perfectionist when it comes to creating art

She still keeps her old drawings to herself and most of them are sketches from when she was 11.

She has a problem with over planning

Unbeknownst to many people, Odurkheniya secretly believes in cryptids, extraterrestrials, and even UFOs.

Odurkheniya sniffs a lot

She also clears her throat somewhat frequently

She enters all familiar and unfamiliar rooms quite timidly

She prefers to have the lights out or dimmed at all times

Odurkheniya’s guilty pleasure is re-watching childhood shows and movies for nostalgia, even if some of them aren’t really good.

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