#cluster B moment. lol

[the-ugly-ly]

you can’t call me toxic as an insult when it’s already in my bio you stupid fucking idiot cunt

#bpd #borderline pd #borderline personality disorder #living with borderline #fuck you #hater thoughts #hater moment #hater #i hate you #hate fuck me or get the fuck away from me lol #cluster b safe #cluster b pds #cluster b #cluster b personality disorder

[flittermousemoth]

I don't care how much chemistry we have, if my previous FP comes back, everyone is disqualified.

#bpd #actually bpd #borderline personality disorder #bpd memes #bpd shitposting #cluster b problems #cluster b personality disorder #borderline fp #fp #bpd fp #bpd feels #bpd meme #bpd mood #bpd moment #tfw #lol #truth #npd #me #npd safe #cluster b memes

[loldental]

I still send relevant memes to my friend from 2018 who I never talk to anymore. We don’t even wave when we pass each other anymore (same neighbourhood) it’s just acknowledged in our heads we know each other. But like. Sometimes a meme will come across that’s just very relevant to her as a person. Interesting concept.

#we used to text when we would cluster b moment in a way that was objectively terrible #and just be like okay lol same

[chaifootsteps]

Hi, hi! I've been a longtime follower of your blog, but this is my first time sending in an ask because of anxiety. You're the most consistent blog that keeps up to date with Viv and her work. As someone who first saw Viv through the Die Young animation, and watched the HH pilot when it was first released, I grew disillusioned as s1 of Helluva Boss slowly aired. It was mostly because I didn't really enjoy the Stolitz ship and I believe the Erin Frost drama had come out (god bless Erin - she, Ken and everyone else deserved so much better). Plus the world-building and character development was just so off.

I know people have said this before: the concept Viv has is good, but the execution sucks. There's a vision but the product is so damn juvenile. I'm ace, and I became attached to Alastor due to him being ace as well, but we all know how Viv responded when the ship wars were happening. I couldn't stand the constant sex jokes or swearing in HB since when was it required for an "adult" show to have that?

Thank you for the episode leaks. Only got to see ep 1 before they were removed. The only thing that made me laugh out loud was the Niffty gag where she stared dead into the camera. I also liked Adam a bit? Sure the "original dick" thing went on way too long, but he was funny too. I surprising enjoyed his song - the lil fist bump he did with Lute was cute, and I like Lute but knowing Viv's record... eh. There was this cool shot where Adam flew up and Lute and those golden angels go behind him and spread their wings making Adam look like the biblically accurate angel. Except Adam himself ruins the effect because what the ever-loving heck is he wearing? I hate it.

In terms of shipping, I wasn't into the Huskerdust interactions. Angel wasn't flirting, that was sexual harassment. In the pilot it was okay because their interaction was brief and Husk pushed Angel off. Chaggie was... something. I genuinely feel that Chaggie could've worked had they not been established as a couple in the first place. The reason why Charlastor (and I guess Charlentious?) happened is because they had chemistry and their interactions could be read as a romantic interest. Since Chaggie was already established, there was an expectation for them to have those, but they weren't delivered and we know well that they weren't supposed to be a thing in the first place. Have Vaggie still be her bff and bodyguard, but show those moments where she genuinely cares for Charlie's well-being that indicates she's in love with her, yet Charlie is completely oblivious to everything. Actually, reverse harem Charlie sounds pretty funny to me.

Btw, armchair psychology anon, as a person studying psychology in my final year of college, dw about people taking issues with your speculations. NPD and other personality disorders are ego-syntonic, which means that the individual's behaviours line up with their beliefs, hence why PDs are only diagnosed during adulthood once brain maturation and personality development is reached. The only exception to this is ASPD (which NPD shares a category with called Cluster B along with histrionic and BPD) as you can diagnose a child with conduct disorder that can become ASPD when they're adults. Cluster B PDs are terribly demonised by media and the public despite the volume of research (I blame misunderstanding and ignorance). Viv could have it or could not; it's just that she shows signs of having it, and that's it. Even if she doesn't, she's still an awful person. Idk what happened in her childhood or some point in her life for her to become like this, but it doesn't excuse treating people like crap - oh wait, ain't this her characters in a nutshell?

That's all I gotta say for now. I hope it's okay to send more like this in the future; I'd love to be a specific anon but idk what's already taken lol. Take care, Chai, and I hope you have a good day/evening.

By all means, send as many as you've got! Because this was a delight to read.

Let me know when you come up with a name. I'll give you a placeholder one for now.

#Anonymous #to be named anon #viv stuff #actual blog post #vivziepop critical

[the-npd-culture-is]

Nice blog you got there cherri

ok so i have like fifteen other asks but i need to address this first because it's been an issue for nearly a month now and these anons tried to find my main and did what i think was an attempt at doxing me.

this is a post to spread awareness to my followers, despite the person concerned not being aware that i'm doing this at this moment (i will tag them and DM them about it soon). long post, but important.

i may reblog this with additional info in the future, so if you feel this gives limited information check the reblogs or comments.

these anons tried scarying me off of running my blog by constant harassment for days straight, which thankfully stopped as i ended up blocking them. as you can see they ended up bypassing my block or asked someone from another account to continue the harassment and attempts at inducing fear. frankly, what this is causing me is anger as im not the only one involved in this unfortunately.

one of the first hate anons on this blog was a spam of four or more anons asking me if i was the person the anon im replying to is mentioning here. i didn't think much of it as they came with another roughly dozen of hate anon spam which (surprise surprise/s) disappeared in its entirety once i blocked one of them. meaning a single person was harassing me.

i ended up contacting the person these anons were thinking i was, and decided to not reply to the first batch of hate, as first they had the url fully typed out in the ask and I didn't want to expose the person concerned, and second I didn't want to bother any of my followers with one salty hater. they were as weirded out as me that they got involved into this without any logical link between my main, their main, or this sideblog, asides from the fact that they were one of the handful of people that supported me early on and even accepted in dms to share my blog to a discord server (a small one, but they were excited about my blog and asked if i was ok with them sharing it and i said ok).

i had asked them to not make a callout post on their own blog about this nor to go and harass anyone. which they didn't. additionally, i sent them screenshots of the hate anons and explained to them that i didn't want to put their blog url publicly by answering the anon as I felt it was a safety issue. but they insisted that they didn't mind it and that if i changed my mind about the whole issue and decided to go public i would.

so here's their url -> @cherrifruiti (they're getting free promo lol, hopefully it balances out the harassment and targeting they went through. they're an artist and honestly good friend. we bonded more over this. go check them out)

the insistence of this anon on trying to find my main was confusing to me at first. i did not choose to remain anonymous on here for privacy reasons, hell, not even safety reasons. i deal with worse bullshit on main than here. i wanted this blog mainly to have an anonymous moderator as a way to leave space for the community voices. i felt like a faceless blog was a more welcoming environment than having the baggage of a whole person, moral alignments, blend into a space that's catered towards a specific goal and discussion. which to be fair was a huge hit for my ego. id love to share my full identity with y'all and have the accomplishments of this blog linked to me. but im stubborn and attached to my values.

to put it simply, i did not want to make the same mistake as the admin from @narcissisticpdcultureis did.

that being said, i did not lie on any of my values linked with my DNI. i wanted this blog to be accessible to cluster b personality disorder havers and the wider community regardless of their backgrounds, but with some limits for my own mental health and personal boundaries, that i tried keeping limited. notably regarding discourse. of any kind. and as another addition for resources in the npd and cluster b community. just as another community space, not a monopoly.

despite the amount of hate and adversity expressed from the admin of @narcissisticpdcultureis , i had not made this blog with adversity, harassment, anger, or "rebellion" in mind. unlike how the admin seemed to take my act of creating my own digital space and express emotional distain for my blog for the sake of existing. blaming me of doing so to put them in a bad light, while the only thing i did was point out information they already had made accessible to the public about themselves in their pinned post. which i didn't give a moral alignment to it, just stated that i was personally uncomfortable with it.

i am not condoning harassment, but I will not police your actions either. this individual(s) had put the url of my sideblog publicly in a rant of theirs aimed to put me and my work in a bad light without regards of my safety or mental health, and lead many, potentially themselves personally as well, to put me through constant anonymous harassment while i had expressed since the beginning i didn't want to be affiliated or interact with their blog, and never mentioned their url publicly up to now, to avoid the same scenario that just happened to me from their doing.

additionally, in their rant about my blog, they mentioned another npd culture that apparently was created adjacent to theirs, potentially for similar reasons as mine although this is unknown.

im gonna say one thing.

if anything, i like the attention. you decided that i, a small account, who didn't have the self estime to ever think would get traction, caused enough of a problem to make your, way more popular, blog feel threatened. i feel honored.

my only issue is that you failed to find my main blog, which frankly offended me. now my friend is the one getting all the spotlight instead of me </3

i did not judge you on morality when i decided to distance myself from your content due to your syscourse stance. but i am judging you now by your actions. i will be reporting you for harassment and encourage everyone in my social circles to do so as well.

i am not going anywhere.

#anon #mod talk #ask #asks

[cluster-b-culture-is]

Cluster B + MADD culture is telling a friend you've been having weird identity confusion moments with your blorbo and them suggesting, "Maybe you should try to avoid thinking too much about them for a while." And your immediate reaction being, "gonna be pretty hard to do that when they ARE me/when I AM them lol." (Blorbo is also very self-centered, so that did not make blorbo brain happy).

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#cluster b culture is #cluster b + madd culture is #cluster b #npd #aspd #bpd #hpd #Mod Reef #anonymous

[blood-mocha-latte]

godly, illegal, versed — gene and renée drabble

for an ask from @xxluckystrike || request an edit/drabble || i contemplated briefly writing this entirely in french and offering a translation, but figured that i wanted to go a different route, lmao. plus, renée is too wonderful to have to withstand my rusty french lol. there still is french in here and it’s all mine, so if there are fuck-ups that’s why asdfghjkl

When she closed her eyes, she always saw the windows.

Her mother had had a painting like that, years ago, when she was a child. People clustered around a shop window glowing orange with comfort, holding sweets or clothes or toys inside.

“Tout Paris brille ainsi.” She’d murmur, holding her close, pressing a kiss to her hair. “Nous irons là-bas et nous danserons dans cette lumière.”

“Quand?” Renée had asked, her breath shaky, running a finger across the texture of the canvas, wondering how man could make something so godly.

That didn’t much matter, now.

The windows of the Bastogne church did not glow, nor shine, and she did not dance under their light. 

((Once, during an artillery barrage, a fire had lit against the bodies of those lined up beside the church. It had cast its deadly light every which way, not so much guidance as a flickering omnipresence. 

She had stared at that light's reflections, watched it dance in pools of blood. The man she held, keeping one hand on the side of his face and the other across his collarbones, a poor facsimile of a hug, gasped under her. Une plaie par aspiration thoracique. A sucking chest wound. There was nothing she could do.))

“Mes frères me manquent,” Anna told her once, as they hid in the looming shelter of the church, breaking chocolate in between them. “Mais je ne pense pas que je pourrais partir d'ici.” 

Renée had closed her eyes, just briefly, a facsimile of rest. She thought of her mother, her sister. “Oui.” She’d murmured.

Both of them would probably leave, in a moment. With blood on their hands, light gone from their eyes, in their hearts knowing that to leave these screaming boys was to be worse than the devil, worse than god. More illegal than murdering a man in cold blood and leaving him to rot in his lover's bed. But it was better to pretend they had a choice in what they’d chosen than not.

Everything was the same and different; a limbo of the church. Soldiers that were tired and sick and hurting. She wondered if she’d be better at helping them if she wasn’t also.

The boy was new.

She sat with him, on the crumbling bench, unwrapping chocolate. It tasted like ash. Everything did.

He was silent, after commenting on her hands. She wondered if she gave the wrong answer. I never want to see a wounded man again. 

She had to think carefully about her words, next, and broke off another square of chocolate to distract herself.

“My mother was a nurse in the Great War.” She told the chocolate wrapper. The boy shifted next to her. Eugène, he said. His name. She’d had an uncle named Eugène. “I wanted to… to help, like her.” Eugène was quiet next to her.

“You are helping.” He said, voice low. He didn’t look at her, either. “More than most.”

No one who would notice will live. She thought, and did not say. The silence stretched between them like silk. 

“My grand-père fought in the same war.” Eugène said. “But he killed people. Hurt them.”

“So you are not like him?”

Eugène huffed. “I think I might be.” He murmured to the snow trodden ground. Renée hummed. She thought of her mother. Of her sister.

“Stay safe, yes?” She told Eugène. “Run between the fire.”

Eugène nodded, eyes on the ground. “You too.” He said. Renée nodded back.

“Il y a un garçon qui n'a pas plus de dix-sept ans à l'intérieur.” Anna told her, later that night. The front of her clothes were stained with blood. Renée wrapped her fingers around her wrist and squeezed gently, just to know she was still there. “J'ai besoin d'aide pour le garder immobile.”

Renée let go of her to look briefly over her shoulder. The boy had gone back to his soldiers on the last van. She hoped he wouldn’t have to come back with another, screaming and bloody and calling him Gene, asking him to please help.

“Chirurgie?” She asked. Anna sighed, nodded to the back. A well versed dance.

“Bras.” Was all she said. Renée scrubbed a hand down her face. It left the coppery-taste of blood and chocolate in her mouth.

“Ma mère aimait danser.” She told Eugène. The surgeon called her down but didn’t need her help for long. She searched through torn up bedsheets and everything else for what the boy could bring back to his soldiers. “Elle a toujours voulu aller à Paris et danser sous ses lumières.” 

Eugène hummed. His face was lined with exhaustion. She could see blood under his fingernails when he picked up a roll of fabric she’d torn from a dead boy’s bedsheets. “Si jamais vous voulez visiter Paris aussi,” He said, “Je pourrais venir avec vous.” 

Renée nodded to him. She was mostly just tired. She doubted she could ever dance again without feeling it in her bones.

She didn’t hurt. The plywood was like a blanket.

She imagined she could feel her mothers lips press to her hair, her arms holding her. Her warmth.

“Ma petite fille forte.” Her mother whispered. “Viens danser à Paris avec moi.”

When she closed her eyes, she saw the windows.

#rie writes #hi and welcome to rie projects onto characters because this is what happens when she is given time a computer and a medicine tie-in #doc roe #eugene roe #renee lemaire #band of brothers #hbo war

[violentviolette]

Thanks for reblogging that post about morally diagnosing people based on disorders. I have npd and I’ve been like lowkey mentally struggling with the anxiety that I was born bad for the past couple of days and so seeing that helped refocus my brain on reality ♥️

oh totally, i know a lot of u guys are new and might not realize but i've got aspd and npd, so same hat bro lol but genuinely u were not "born bad" at all, nothing that exists is born with an inherent morality. cluster b pd's are the result of *both* genetic predisposition AND childhood abuse. they require abuse to fully manifest and so if u have npd that means u were neglected and mistreated when u were at ur most vulnerable and not allowed the opportunity to develop in a healthy and loving environment like u should have. u were hurt and treated incorrectly in ways that deeply scarred and affected u and warped ur worldview and so are now dealing with the consequences of that abuse, none of which was ur fault or that u deserved people arent ever born good or bad, nothing in existence is, it is only our actions that can be judged as good or bad, and our actions are something we choose and can change. the person u choose to be and the actions u purposefully take every day in each moment are all that matter and u have all the power and control over those. even when u mess up and do make wrong or bad choices and act in unhealthy ways, u always have the opportunity to change and do something differently the next time. if u want to be a good person than that is an achievable goal that u can attain by acting in healthy and ethical ways and no one can take that from u

#jack.speaks #anon #npd #cluster b pd #cluster b personality disorder #aspd

[littlewhispersofpalia]

Hey, my name is Milo or Evie. Palia is my current hyperfixation at the moment, so I thought I'd create a blog instead of bothering people on my main blog LOL.

Here are a list of things that will appear on my blog:

Incorrect quotes

Ask games

Headcanons/plot discussions/etc.

Userboxes

Possibly writing in the future?

Here are a list of things I will take requests for:

Userboxes

Keep scrolling for more information on requests

Rules surrounding requests for userboxes:

If you have a photo you'd like used for it, attach it! Your ask will not be answered publicly.

Please be as specific as you can.

No hating on certain ships.

Requests are open at the moment!

Rules surrounding general asks:

I'm open to talk about just about anything as long as you're respecful.

Questions are always welcome!

That's about it lol.

Here are my other Tumblr blogs:

@littlewhispersofsolitude - My main/writing blog.

@writing-culture-is - My writing culture blog.

@depression-culture-is - My depression culture blog.

@a-crumb-of-whump - My whump blog.

@incorrect-stardew-quotes - My stardew valley blog.

@tears-of-the-wild - my zelda blog.

@mydearhosea - My Red Dead blog.

@evieafterhours - My 18+ blog.

@cluster-b-safe - My mental health blog.

#intro #palia #palia game #palia open beta

[bfkisskiss]

Howdy!! I'm Persephone!

This is my silly little blog to dump my horny ass thoughts for my favorite characters. I will occasionally do full writing pieces but for the most part this will just be a place for me to answer asks, take requests for rambling, and just generally scream about wanting to suck cock.

I'm mostly into Twisted Wonderland at the moment but I'm also open to writing about Creepypasta, Obey Me!, Genshin Impact, Bungou Stray Dogs, and others!! just ask! if it seems like something my gay ass would be into then i probably am!!

my favorite kinks to write for are piss, breeding/pregnancy, emeto, somno, and ovipos but i will write basically. anything that isnt any of the below. my favorite characters to write for are by far Leona Kingscholar and Idia Shroud ^_^

As for my rules, I won't write any sort of non-con, incest, underaged characters (unless it's creepypasta where i have a like? au in my mind where they are all adult and also because creepypasta as a whole is? very vague so. yeah.) as well as scat, gore (blood kink is fine), cannibalism, amab or cis female reader (i'm just transmasc and not confident writing those types of readers) I will also update this as i get all my thoughts formatted :3

I'm 19 years old, nonwhite, and transmasc gay aroacespec (does not make me any less horny tho lol) my pronouns are he/they/it and any neos. I won't post about it unless needed but i do have cluster b disorders, autism, and am a DID system host. Pls send me asks i wanna talk to people ahhh!!!!

#self insert #x reader #creepypasta x reader #twisted wonderland x reader #Persephone's Principles #obey me x reader #genshin impact x reader #bungou stray dogs x reader

[pezpenser205]

i feel like one of the things i dont like about the narc abuse misconceptions is that all of them are worded as if pwnpd are always aware of their own manipulation and using it as a calculated way to do harm or benefit themselves.

when like. if im being honest i dont even know when im doing a manipulative behavior or lying until ive already done it. im EXTREMELY impulsive and trying to think about what im doing for too long makes me wanna die. im not doing anything with explicit malicious intent almost ever. my FIRST impulse is to lie and close myself off because its been the only thing thats saved me in past situations. im not sitting in front of people thinking to myself "im going to compliment her hair to build rapport" like law enforcement does are you kidding me lol

they describe behaviors like lovebombing and splitting as if theres evil intent behind it. when like when im splitting i GENUINELY believe what im upset about is true no matter how outlandish it seems to everyone else. i dont have that grounded sense of rationale that everyone else does. no matter how much i try to tell myself "this is a splitting episode" that wont stop it from causing me so much pain emotionally that i feel it physically.

and with lovebombing i 100% thought at one point that it was just how love worked. i always scared people away because i would be too obsessive or complimentary, but in that moment i didnt see anything wrong with it. lovebombing after arguments is similar. whenever it happens i want to make it up to them and make them feel better because i dont want to lose them. im not doing it with the clear intent of manipulating them. and before i started exploring myself i didnt even notice that i was doing any harm. i legitimately had no idea that what i was doing was causing someone else pain.

and instead of teaching people how to help their partners or family members MANAGE their cluster b episodes alongside them after theyve discovered they have this disorder, people who believe the stigma just tell them to leave their partner. like just leave them lol.

its not treated the same as someone having a partner with severe depression that has worse days than others. its not treated as "i love this person and i want to help them manage their disorder while theyre working on improving themselves" its treated as "the person i loved never actually existed at all and they deserve all the pain theyre going to feel when i leave them and they deserve to be isolated in a mental hospital forever so that they cant do any more harm"

like do you hear yourself bro. thats not how people work in general and definitely not how cluster Bs work. i think youre just using the fact that they have a disorder thats "acceptable" to hate in your mind as justification for taking out the pent up frustration and trauma they caused you onto them because its easier to say that someone deserves nothing good when you dont see them as redeemable or human

#op

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5. what’s the best part of having your cluster B disorder(s)?

Oh, this thing. That *points at Clusted B*, this one, helped me to overcome a bunch of my fucking fears. This thing deleted the hate I had for my own art of whatever./// Yeah that's it actually.

6. what’s the worst part of having you cluster B disorder(s)?

Aand here's that. Impulsivity, Egoism, selfishness and aggressiveness. Because a minor thing can still make me MAD, I can't control it. I can lash out on those who I care about, and this is nuts. If my fp does something I don't like or disappears - I am gone. If someone tells me something negative about me - I can lash out or just die (not literally). Narc crashes, splitting, I HATE IT. And the worst part is that I can't control it. NPD also makes me very, and I mean, VERY repulsed by the need to comfort someone. Mostly because I never got any comfort myself, why would I give something I haven't gotten at all if I am still trying to recover myself? + I love to talk only about me. Only. Me. Only things I like. No one dares to talk about these things because they are mine. I hate everything popular but also I hate everything people around me enjoy and everyone who likes the same things I like. You see how bad it is? Ugh

Also let's talk about how it makes me feel NOTHING for days? Or how I can be so bored that nothing helps me and I get angry and sad and worse? Or depersonalization because yeaaah, this is exaaactly what I needed with the lack of identity permanence. Also if I see someone getting attention I am gonna be angry at them even if they are my close friend because how dare, I want attention too. Exactly the same even. And how I need to be treated in the "Special" way? Ugh, I don't even know myself what I want to be honest, but since I get angry at my partner now - it's something I would never get..

Anyway, I hate Cluster B with all my heart, it ruined me.

10. what is something you’d want your non cluster B friends to understand about you and possibly accommodate you about?

Let's just say.... everything. I can't be bored if there's a FP, so there's that. If I do feel bored - I am screwed. That being a FP is NOT the end of a world. I have a very prominent fear of abandonment, that can and will lead to panic / anxiety attacks and also in the worst cases - delusions. I need social interaction constantly, unless something wild happens and I got myself into something that I don't need it for a moment.

13. what is your best trait that benefits you?

IDK, really, I don't know. Maybe how defensive I am, that no one can hurt me like really really hurt me, apart from myself and the mental health itself?

21. is there a trait from a cluster B disorder you wish you had?

Oh, I would probably say a trait I would rather not have. Because let's be real, IT SUCKS.

25. is there something you want people to know about your cluster B disorder(s)?

One thing. We are not abusers and manipulative. That lack of empathy and my selfishness do not make me backstabber. And that I can be a great friend, I just need a lot of attention which is okay, we all need human interaction lol. And that having BPD is exhausting, I can't say anything good about it.

26. what is the most common misinformation about your cluster B disorder(s) that you want people to know the correct information about?

Funny how I don't interact with anything related to it. So uh... idk

#🌀 gravity taking hold : ask games #i hate having bpd #i hate having npd #i hate having any cluster b disorder #I hate it hate it hate hate hate #🌀 iacon;

[evilneo]

urgh. that syscourse post you debunked claimed a lot of traits that i have are indicative of faking. and it does have me anxious now, but at the same time- if i had the option to feel like a whole, single person, i would. if i could hold down a job, i would, like. i dunno. somethings wrong, even if its not DID/OSDD.

I had a bunch of traits on there too (looks at attention seeking (cluster B moment) and the introject thing lol), that guy is SO full of shit. his words are based p much solely on ableism*. im holding yous in my hands anon

*exept for the bit abt needing PTSD but thats just common sense so he gets NO credit for that

#asks #anon #i hope you feel better soon 💛 ily #a bunch of the stuff he said made me feel gross too :(

[witchlockmonsterfox]

how did you come to realise your mother was That Way? i’m like in my early 20s and i always thought i’m a bad person & a monster because i’ve never been abused yet i have strong cluster b tendencies, especially in the narcissism & lack of empathy department, and i am extremely self serving and controlling. starting to realize how parts of that were formed and reinforced by the way my mother has treated me, who has narcissistic tendencies (broadly speaking, don’t wanna arm chair diagnose bc she also did that to me my whole life lol) herself. and it’s like idk it shouldn’t have taken me two decades to arrive at the conclusion that i’m not a bad person for needing a sense of security and control that’s 10x higher than the average population like i’m not a villain for simply requiring control over my body and life……. and one time i talked to my therapist about my mother & how my need for control clashes with her behavior and my therapist was like “does she know you have that need” & i was like 🙂 yes she holds it against me during fights 🙂 idk i’m in a high conflict situation with my mother atm (live together) and i had to think of you because i just feel like maybe you had similar experiences, even if mine was never that of outright abuse. also. how did you cope LOL every day im so close to violins

there were many moments but the three biggest ones:

1) when i finally started to talk to my friends about her behaviour online as a young teen, they couldn’t believe it and told me that’s not how mothers act. a very telling moment was when i was 12 i met an online friend and my mother openly mocked me in a restaurant, which disturbed my friend’s mother.

2) after she lost custody and i was in the custody of my father he took me to a psychologist when i was fifteen who helped me realize my mother was abusive. he told me short of cases that involved severe physical abuse (like starvation or fractured bones) i was one of the worst abuse cases he had ever heard, pointing out particularly how i was so brainwashed that i didn’t even fully realize the severity of what had happened to me.

3) the final and last defining moment for me was in my early 20s when my mother attempted to take my infant daughter away from me by force. she falsely reported me to child protective services (who concluded it was a false report), got a judge to sign off on an order forcing me to temporarily hand over custody to her (which i got back quickly), and then dragged me to a court hearing to win custody.

she subpoenaed multiple people arguing i was unstable, violent, mentally ill, and a potential danger to my child, citing things i had done as far back as the age of 12 years old. i was basically slandered in court for four or five hours by her.

while i did end up signing over custody to my father due to mental illness/personal issues (my child hadn’t been neglected in any way but even regardless of that i was concerned over my child being around in such an environment… my ex and her bio dad was also very aggressive, cut himself, and physically destroyed things) i won the case. the judge found my mother’s claims ridiculous, everyone she subpoenaed had good things to say about me, and i had evidence my mother was in fact the abusive one (the reason she lost rights/custody of me was documented + online posts documenting her abuse of me.)

realizing the way your parents affected you negatively because of their own fucked up issues can be hard and that especially includes realizing potential abuse and neglect. my mother literally hit me (and i don’t mean just spanking) and i didn’t even realize i was being abused because she had me so convinced that was normal discipline and “what mothers do”.

#asks

[fencesandfrogs]

did you have a favorite character on sense8? i only watched the first season i think and i liked all of them but i remembered really enjoying Wolfgang, Sun, and Lito's arcs personally

oh man it's been ages since i watched and i'm bad w names (memory problem) so let me just cheat and check the wiki.

i'll lead with: i really like every character in sense8. picking a favourite would be hard. actually i'm just going to ramble on the cluster and associates and let u draw ur conclusions lol. i'm very indecisive n bad at picking favourites. there will prob b spoilers nonnie sorry i don't remember what was what season in my head it's all one chunk of television

will: took me a while to appreciate him, but i like how his story ended. i really like him n riley, but i don't appreciate either of them alone? like i'm thinking about it and i don't have much to say other than one thing i'm putting in riley's section to give her some meat.

riley: see will. also, i really like...there was that thing when they were playing a trick on where they were? so they got the yogurt? i was super excited bc i really like icelandic yogurt so i was like YEAH THAT'S MY SHIT

capheus: OH MAN i fucking love him. i didn't get his references and i thought it was funny when he said zebra (rhymes w debra) but i really, really, really grew to love him. he's just such a warm guy and i can't think of a single moment he was on screen that i didn't like. also as someone who can't drive (or, well, couldn't at the time and now a very big "it's complicated"), his driving? like? that was easily the MOST superhero shit in the show to me

sun: i really liked her plot line, but not while i was watching the show. i was watching this show as a fairly young teen, so i didn't really have a good appreciation for what was going on with her at first. i was very "screw your family! why the hell are you making these decisions!" now, looking back, with the benefit of a good number of years (and some more life experiences and cultural awareness), i have a lot of love for her.

lito: i lied he's my favourite. as soon as he came up on the list i realized that, without hesitation, he's my favourite. no ifs ands or buts about it. i don't know why. i never really related to him very much (i would LATER, but i always adored him), and i wasn't like "oh cool gay character!", so i can't really say. i just know that i adore this man. what he does for daniela? holy shit dude. lito my beloved.

kala: i really like her but i don't have much to say. also i like the scene where she's mixing chemicals. i like her relationships. i just really like her but in a quiet way. she never stole the show for me, but i love her a lot.

wolfgang: eh...i d k. i never got into his plots. nothing against the dude, he just never really spoke to me? i did LIKE his plots, i just wasn't half as invented, and i thought he just was kind of meh. like cool dude go have your diamonds. whatever. i want to b really clear that the fact that i'm being so passé about him is deceptive because if you asked me to compare wolfgang and a character from like. anything else. i'd go oh yeah wolfgang is 10 million times better.

nomi: uhhhhhhhhhhhh. she's torn up in a tangle of emotions for me. i was watching this show as a young, trans teen with home life issues (if you can't tell from the disorder), but she also didn't "hit too close to home" or even "close to home." at the same time, she was kind of the dream. (well, sense8 plot aside.) she got out. she transitioned. she had a fucking amazing girlfriend. so i have this weird emotion about nomi i don't know how to express. i think it's positive, though.

amanita: what you thought i was only doing the cluster? nope. i have to get amanita in here so we're also doing a few bonuses. i fucking LOVE amanita. i love how she adapts to nomi's situation. i love her i love her i love her. going through the past few months, i now know just how valuable having a support like her is when you're dealing with multiple people in your head. (no, osddid and sense8 aren't alike, except superficially, but there are some meaningful comparisons to be made.) so. yeah. she's always been really top tier for me, but i have a new and profound appreciation for how important she is.

hernando: he's fine. i just feel weird leaving him out since i'm gonna do daniela. i get his struggle, i really do. i just don't love him.

daniela: FUCK YEAH DANI. okay i love her sm. she really, really had to grow on me: at first i thought she was kind of a bitch, and then i thought she was REALLY a bitch, and then i loved her. i have no idea when the flip switched, but it did and it did HARD.

riley's dad: sorry i don't feel like seeing if he has a name i assume he does

wait hold on tumblr yelled at at me for having too many characters in a block LOL

staff hey hey hey staff please make bullets not work as one block if ur gonna b like that about it that's really annoying

(also please let me copy text across more than one block. it's really hard to move around multiple paragraphs of text at a time. it's been driving me crazy. pls help me.)

okay ANYWAY.

riley's dad: i really, really love him. holy fuck i want to give him a hug. no. i want to get a hug from him. i love him sm.

so yeah that's how i feel lol

#ask #anon #mine #sense8 #yeah you got a very long answer bc i have so much fadsl;kfjds for these guys

[mreowsu]

Hello,

Do You only write for male characters or You do female as well ?

If You do, can I request Zeri x rich!fem reader ?

THX :)

OUT OF THE 'ORDINARY'‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎LOL zeri

zeri never would have expected to be bagged by the school's prized beauty

⋆ thank you so much for being the first request so far in my inbox! I hope I am able to satisfy you since the request was unspecified and I wasn't quite sure what you fancy. anyhow enjoy! ⋆ pardon the way I write.. I am aware that it is hard to read. I am rusty and if you have noticed I barely include convos. I am bad at writing them. I'll do my best to improve in time. please continue requesting!

summary : fem-reader. rich reader. highschool au, inspired by the art of jm-chrome

In the dazzling halls of Valoran High, where lockers gleamed like polished silver and the scent of youthful exuberance hung in the air like the sweetest perfume, there existed a woman, wrapped in elegance--adorned in lavish couture that left her peers breathless and envious. The heiress of unparalleled wealth and sophistication floated through the corridors with an effortless grace that turned heads and left a trail of curious whispers in its wake, her every step accompanied by the delicate jingle of golden accessories and the rustle of silk.

This captivating individual, was a paragon of opulence and mystery. With a wardrobe that seemed to defy the laws of fashion, she effortlessly blended the extravagance of haute couture with the boldness of style. Her eyes, like kaleidoscopic windows to the soul, shifted hues with her ever-changing moods, leaving those who dared to gaze into them entranced by the sheer complexity of her being.

In the swirling vortex of teenage drama, the marvel found an unexpected ally in Zeri, the quirky and lovable artist known for turning every mundane moment into a canvas of vivid colors. Zeri, with her neon hair and mismatched socks, was the embodiment of whimsy and creativity in a world that often seemed too serious.

In a parallel universe where the extraordinary was commonplace, this regal figure found herself unexpectedly entangled in the intricate web of high school drama. Zeri, the lovable yet misunderstood art prodigy with a penchant for vibrant hair colors and oversized sweaters, was her unsuspecting counterpart. She had an uncanny ability to blend into the background, her vibrant canvases the only testament to the kaleidoscope of emotions swirling within.

The tale unfolded in the bustling cafeteria, where the scent of truffle oil wafted through the air, and students clustered around tables with their equally extravagant lunches. The woman, surrounded by an entourage of admirers, caught sight of Zeri sitting alone, engrossed in a sketchbook filled with her fantastical creatures, whimsical landscapes.

Intrigued by the enigmatic artist, she decided to venture into uncharted territory—the world of the ordinary. With a toss of her perfectly coiffed hair, she approached Zeri, her radiant smile cutting through the mundane like a ray of sunshine.

"Hey, you with the paint-stained fingers and dreamy eyes," she called out, drawing the attention of the entire cafeteria. Zeri looked up, startled, her heart doing a somersault as she met the gaze of the mysterious beauty.

From that point forward, a magnetic force seemed to pull them together, their lives interwoven in a tapestry of teenage romance and misadventures. As the days turned into weeks, the Luminary and Zeri formed an unlikely alliance that transcended the boundaries of social cliques. The woman, with her opulent lifestyle and Zeri, the artistic rebel, became inseparable. Their friendship blossomed into a whirlwind romance, the kind that only existed in the hallowed halls of high school. The high school halls became a stage for their unfolding love story, a romance that defied the ordinary and embraced the extraordinary.

As the woman and Zeri navigated the turbulent waters of high school, they discovered that love, like art, had no boundaries. Their relationship became a beacon of acceptance and self-discovery, a testament to the idea that true connection transcends the limitations society imposes. Their worlds collided in a symphony of laughter, heartfelt conversations in hidden corners, and stolen glances across crowded hallways. The sophisticated woman discovered a world beyond galas and red carpets—a world painted in Zeri's vivid hues, where love bloomed like the most exquisite flower in her studio.

Their love story unfolded against a backdrop of iconic '90s rom-com tropes. The unnamed heiress, previously immune to the charms of teenage romance, found herself participating in elaborate schemes to win Zeri's heart. From sneaking into each other's houses after curfew to orchestrating grand gestures involving boomboxes and mixtapes, their love transcended the boundaries of social strata.

Zeri, in turn, became the muse for the woman's artistic endeavors. She posed for her in a series of captivating portraits, capturing the essence of their love with every stroke of the brush. Their high school was a canvas, and their love story was the masterpiece that left an indelible mark on Valoran High.

Picture this: The Luminary whisking Zeri away in a sleek limousine to secret hideaways filled with exotic flowers and fairy lights. The two of them sharing midnight picnics under the stars, surrounded by the soft melodies of the woman's favorite musicians. Zeri, with her paint-stained hands, capturing her beloved's ever-changing essence on canvas, each stroke an expression of their transcendent love.

The high school gossip mill buzzed with speculation about this power couple, but the couple paid no mind. Their love was a force that defied the norms of society, a kaleidoscope of emotions that painted the world around them in vivid hues of passion and romance.

Cue the grand finale: The highschool prom, a glittering affair that would go down in Valoran High's history. Where dreams took flight and hearts danced in rhythm, became the climax of their story. The heiress, adorned in a sophisticated outfit that blurred the lines between fantasy and reality, took Zeri's hand, and together they twirled through the kaleidoscope of lights. The entire student body, previously divided by cliques and social hierarchies, watched in awe as the couple showcased a love so pure that it melted even the coldest of hearts.

The cafeteria, once witness to their first meeting, transformed into a dance floor where the two embraced amidst a sea of balloons and confetti.

But their journey wasn't without its challenges. The woman's enigmatic aura attracted the attention of those who sought to unravel the mystery, leading to a series of misadventures that tested the strength of their bond. Yet, through every trial and tribulation, the power of their love prevailed, a force more potent than any societal norms or high school gossip.

In the end, as graduation approached, the unnamed wonder and Zeri stood hand in hand, ready to face the uncertainties of the future together. Their story, a cheesy 90s high school rom-com that defied expectations, became the stuff of legends at Valoran High.

The Luminary and Zeri stood atop the metaphorical pedestal of love, their union a testament to the transformative power of acceptance, understanding, and the magic that happens when two souls, seemingly from different universes, collide and create a love story that defies the ordinary. Leaving Valoran High behind but carrying the memories of a love that defied expectations. In a world where labels and status held no sway, they became the champions of an extraordinary love story--one that transcended the ordinary and painted their hearts with the vibrant colors of true romance.

And so, in a world that often sought to confine individuals within rigid definitions, She and Zeri carved out a love story that shimmered like a timeless masterpiece, a testament to the transformative power of love, acceptance, and the courage to be true to oneself in the face of adversity.

written. 11.11.23

word count. 1200

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