Hey.
This year has been the most stressful for me. Everything that has happened for the past few months has been rough for me, not just online, but in my personal life as well. People that I’ve looked up to getting into controversy, college is really kicking my ass and I have just started on it this year, and the passing of a family member that I’ve known ever since I was very little. It feels like everything I go or even do something, something bad happens. Like I have some kind of curse or something, I don’t know. It’s really getting into my head that I want to yell out in anger.
Plus, there are times where I really question my placement in the world. Like yeah, I draw and make models. But, what else do I offer besides those two? Nothing else. I’m just one of those random strangers that some person will randomly find on the internet who just so happens to have a standard and regular hobby that’s really passionate about it when I was like, 12? 14? Eh. Basically, I’m just like everyone else on the internet: A nerd that draws on sketch paper and models on their laptop that makes fan art of different franchises that I have an interest in.
Sometimes, I do have… thoughts that I kept to myself for a while and I keep on wondering: What would the internet be like if I wasn’t here at all? Like, I just disappear one day and never came back? I wouldn’t worry about stress, drama, or anything else. I would just be nonexistent. I keep those thoughts to myself and not burst it out like I’m a attention seeker. I’m not saying that I’m actually going to commit suicide, just a what if scenario. I don’t know, I’m just rambling at this point.
I’m fine with people not noticing me, I’m completely fine with that. Again, I’m just some random person on the internet. Though, I may get left out and a little lonely on a few occasions. I completely understand that though, everyone is busy with stuff and got no time for chitchat. I ain’t asking for attention, just wanted to say what I’ve bottled up for in my chest.
If you read all of this to get here, congrats. Uh, have a gold star. I just wanted to say what I’ve been holding on to what god knows how long. And yes, I’m completely fine, not gonna jump off a cliff or anything like that. Just know that I’m a nobody on the internet, not a somebody.
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WIP intro!
( my writeblr intro can be found here )
Wolves Gone Wild ( WIP tag: wgw )
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There is calm before the genesis of the storm:
It starts on Level Three, from the lips of a sailor and it spreads like a deadly disease. From the hands of farmers in the fields, to the stalls of merchants in the cities to the homes of the wealthy in the Capital.
The citizens sing about it on cold evenings when they gather around the fire, and the workers whistle melodies at midday when they harvest the crops. At the end, it is heard over the radio.
The hymn of the wandering God who ascended from the Well.
Aston had dreamed of the Stairs his whole life:
The sweat on his brow, the hot iron in his palms, and the raging wind whistling in his ears under a sky embroidered with lapis lazuli. So when he finds a boy passed out on the Poppy Hill with the salt of the Ocean etched on them instead of a Marking, a premonition of the impending downpour awakens within him.
That was just the beginning- the smell of smoke from a fire burning miles away. It was the wind of change. Because these things- the good, the bad, and the in-between- have one thing in common. They are made of lightning.
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Wolves Gone Wild is a NA, low fantasy ( no magic ), queer adventure that is set in a world of my own making that serves as an allegory for capitalism and the gap between the socio-economic classes.
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Setting:
The World consists of Seven Levels which are vertically connected via a natural phenomena called Stairs. Each Level acts as a continent, and each has its own unique ecosystem.
There can be found two openings for the Stairs on each Level. One, that one can climb upwards to the entrance of the upper Level, and one that one can choose to descend in order to go to the lower Level. Ascending and descending can be proven to be deadly due to certain conditions in each Level, and few attempt it.
The Levels, as they are known, are:
Level 1; a volcanic wasteland. Otherwise known as Hell, it's a place where no man lives.
Level 2; a vast Ocean.
Level 3; this is the Level where most of the population resides. Most residents live in villages amongst agriculture fields which cover about 80% of the Level while the other 20% is a more mountainous area with a couple cities.
Level 4; an unhibited, underground area full of caves and mine shafts.
Level 5; a mountain range found in the arctic. The only people who live there are found in a sole city carved in the mountaintops which is charectarised by its technological advances.
Level 6; a dense forest.
Level 7 is a myth, as far myths go. Often called as Heaven, it can only be a dreamlike place.
Markings: One gets a Marking at the age of seven. It is a tattoo all people are required to get at the base of their neck which states the following information:
Level in which they were born
Name and Surname
Date of Birth
City/village in which they were born
Father's name and surname
Mother's name and surname
Those who are exiled will have their Marking is crossed out with a knife cut, leaving visible only the Level in which they were born and their name, the rest are usually covered by the thick scarring. Markings are used as an id, so by being exiled one can be denied entry in most places.
Those who dare are always rewarded: the highest paying job one could have in this world is being a Supply Runner.
Supply Runners are trained individuals who ascend and descend the Stairs, carrying with them supplies and resources and bridge the distance between the Levels.
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Plot ( kind of ):
Juno, Aston, Kenta and Rin are united against all odds on Level 3. With different ambitions in mind, they embark together on a journey up the Levels, seeking after their dreams. During their ascencsion, a storm is found and it seems more dangerous than ever. As the group finds themselves interwined with the fate of the world, they can do nothing else than face the tempest head on.
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Main Characters (and some funny descriptions):
Juno Braudshaw ( 21 y/o - they/them - Level 1 )
Has problems
Has seen some shit and has scars to prove it
Can and will fight you if needed
Someone really needs to feed them, they're always starving
Is the glass half empty or half full?
They're the first to arrive and the last to leave
They makes up conspiracy theories
They will lie down and sleep next to you and there’s nothing that can stop them
Was adopted by Rin ( not officially but as a bond )
Too good for this world, has suffered too much
If you smile at them or hold a door open they will die for you no question asked
Their entire existence can be summed up with the “this is fine” meme
Lovestarved, touch-starved but mainly, food-starved
They like to count ocean waves
Aston Metcalf ( 23 y/o - he/him - Level 3 )
Problem causer
Your problematic fave
Also that dark haired angsty boy(™)
Is an orphan and mad about it
ADHD(™)
You wish you had a haircut that looked as nice as his
Really just needs a hug dammit
Flirty disaster
Will fight you
A bit loud
Omg, he’s so loud
Quiet? Never heard of it
In reality, he tries a lot
Family is of great importance to him
Kenta Hayes ( 22 y/o - he/him - Level 3 )
Is problem
Have you ever heard of Shots by Imagine Dragons? That’s his theme song
Exiled from the Capital and couldn’t care less about it ( he does care about it but for other reasons )
He cuts his hair on his own and he’s not always successful
He has many piercings that cost at least two months of rent
Actively cares about three things and three things only: loving his mother, hating capitalism and being ripped as hell
Dummy thick/buff
He likes archery and carving small wooden totems
Vegetarian
Anxiety (™)
Scheming face 24/7 but in reality he's just trying to figure out what to have for breakfast
Let this good boy get some sleep, he is too stressed for this shit
Mutter mutter mutter mutter mutter mutter
Rin Nguyen ( 20 y/o - she/her - Level 3 )
Problem solver
Mum friend but don’t try her
Doesn’t have time for anyone’s bullshit
Brutally honest
Has seen some shit
Money(™)
She will light up a fire and cook a warm meal while the other three ( more likely two: Aston and Kenta, Juno is a babyboy they would never actively cause harm<3 or would they?? Hehe ) are fighting, but she will also dump the plate of soup on their heads if they tire her out too much
Her smile can destroy anything on her way
Sarcastic lil shit
Lives for the memes
Knows her way around
Connections, connections everywhere
She likes to collect herbs and flowers
She will let you vent to her about your problems but she does not promise that she will help you
The glue between the four of them
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Side Characters:
Ioh Park ( 20 y/o - he/him - Level 2 )
The Creature ( 27 y/o - they/them & it/its - Level 5 )
Blythe Anderson ( 25 y/o - he/him - Level 3 )
Sorn Do ( 19 y/o - she/her - Level 5 )
Alcar Do ( 19 y/o - he/him - Level 5 )
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Taglist ( ask to be added! ):
@serenanymph
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