#child cancer survivor

[vampireknitting]

I have to get my wisdom teeth removed here on the 4th and I really wish medical anxiety wasn’t so dismissed or laughed at.

The anxiety has been slowly ramping up since Christmas and now that I have to cut out the only thing that’s managed the fibromyalgia bs. I mean sure it’s just weed. But when my health tanked and I was throwing up half of everything I tried to eat and losing weight like it was nothing. Unfortunately it was the only thing that helped stop the vomiting.

I’ve been put on and taking off several medications over the years for being the unlucky type that doesn’t react well to different meds. All the gut pills they wanted me to take hurt or was you know making me digest my own blood.

The Fibromyalgia began creeping in when I was in high school and the doctors I had told me to eat pills and go away. I had injured my knee and it just didn’t get better. I still have issues with it. Being a childhood cancer survivor means health complaints must be cry’s for attention or drugs.

They asked me to not consume any weed because they don’t know if it’ll hurt me to be put under so they can cut out the heavily impacted teeth. Which fine, I won’t fight because they could label me as some sort of user or drug obsessed or whatever. But the only drug that I know can kill you while being put under is meth.

My sister’s dental surgeon said don’t stop smoking weed because there isn’t anything out that supports either side. Pro weed or anti-weed before surgery. He didn’t want anything to add to the stress of the surgery so he said keep doing what you’re doing.

#disabled homemaker #just some thoughts #too much anxiety #i just wanna cry #how do you stand your ground against people who are so quick to label you as some sort of druggie #they argue with me when I say painkillers make me sick #I’m not asking for special treatment just for straight answers. #it’s made worse when I get eye rolls for saying my health issues started before I started smoking #I’m not asking you fucks to smoke with me I’m asking you why #how do you even begin working with an anxiety type that is triggered by medical professionals? why are drugs the only fucking answer? #I was diagnosed with leukaemia at 4.5 years old. my most important years of development #have been dominated by adults who kinda treated me like a fucking animal who couldn’t understand a lick of English #or ignored because she only misses the treatment she use to get as a child. #because I love being talked over like I don’t fucking exist or I’m just crazy #I just love the sneer I get when they read cancer survivor in my charts and suddenly I’m the paragon of health #even though I’ve been asking for help for most of my life because I couldn’t understand why I couldn’t keep up with the other kids. #because the cancer is gone you can’t possibly have any other health issue ever because that’s a direct insult the medical professionals #to insinuate that they couldn’t play god and make me magically so healthy that chemotherapy couldn’t possibly leave behind issues. #no that only happens to adults because children are supposed to be rubber and bounce no matter what #just ugh #fuck the medical system #medical anxiety

[roman0writes]

Making DJD office AU and my favorite thing right now is making kaon wear proesthtic eyes that are shinigami eyes because she’s a dork and also he likes freaking everyone else out for shits and giggles.

Helix: hey can you look at something real quick for me?

Kaon: oh sure! *pops out a prosthetic eyes and hands it to him* make sure to give it back i need both my eyes to drive home safe

Nickel: WHO THE FUCK GAVE YOU A DRIVERS LICENSE???

Tarn: don’t curse

Nickel: only when you take down those Megatron posters from your cubicle

Also has a bunch of photos of Tarn at her desk that she can’t look at cause shes blind, but everyone else who comes in the office and sees and it’s just… drama… I love it

The whole office thinks they’re dating and tarn HATES it

#if you’re wondering my kaon is a cancer survivor and had to get both her eyes removed as a child because of aggressive tumors in them #so she’s completely blind because like… no eyes #but she wears prosthetics!!!! #and those obnoxious y2k sunglasses because she thinks the shapes are fun #she uses a cane #she’s thought about getting a seeing eye dog but isn’t sure about it #you’ll see how I fit the pet into this AU it’s just really funny to me #someone ask me about how the pet fits into this au

[idledoll]

Today is the 15th anniversary of the death of a friend of mine. She's not the only friend of mine that didn't survive their cancer/brain tumor, but she was the one I was closest to, so I think about her a lot more.

We were living in different states, so I didn't get to sit at her death bed and say good-bye like I got to for some of the others. Actually, I didn't get to see her at all for the last five months of her life. I didn't even get to see her at her funeral, because her body was so fucking ravaged by the last ditch effort stem cell transplant she underwent that her family opted for a closed casket funeral. She was 17.

The problem was, I knew exactly what she looked like anyway, because I'd already been to the funeral of a boy who died after a bone marrow transplant of the exact same complication she died of. He did not have a closed casket and I remember thinking at his funeral that I wouldn't have been able to recognize him whatsoever if I hadn't already known who he was. It was that bad. He was 12.

#sometimes I wonder why I have so many hangups about friendship and getting to know people and putting myself out there #then I remember the fact that I'd need one or two more hands in order to count how many pediatric funerals of friends I've been to #how I've been the last survivor of a small group of friends multiple times over #and how every single one of their deaths were so fucking terrible to witness and now that I've survived I get to live with the memories #uhhhh I guess I need some trigger warnings up in here #tw death #tw child death #tw cancer

[murderousink23]

06/04/2023 is Canadian Armed Forces Day 🇨🇦, Flag Day of the Finnish Defense Forces 🇫🇮, International Corgi Day 🌏, Treaty of Trianon 🇷🇴, National Cheese Day 🧀🇺🇲, National Cognac Day 🇺🇲, National Old Maids Day 🇺🇲, National Hug Your Cat Day 🐈🇺🇲, National Cancer Survivor's Day 🇺🇲, Child Victim Day 🇺🇳

#canadian armed forces day #flag day of the finnish defense forces #international corgi day #treaty of trianon #national cheese day #national cognac day #national old maids day #national hug your cat day #national cancer survivor's day #child victim day

[medixnoche]

something i’ve been thinking about since seeing saw x that i haven’t really seen anyone else bring up is that. the only survivor is the rich white lady. she’s taking advantage of all these people. valentina’s a sex worker, gabriela’s an addict, etc etc like. her surviving the movie (to me) kind of represented how people like her walk away almost completely unscathed even after all the harm they caused to other people. she was sort of an instigator, in the way that she was making them do the traps. it came off as kind of supportive in a way, like a “you can do it!! cut your leg off!! if you put your mind into it anything is possible!!” almost pretending to be helping them

cecilia, as a character, represents big pharma and capitalism and how they fuck over everyone. it goes after people who have no hope left, that includes the terminal cancer patients she scams AND everyone else who becomes involved with her. they do it because they need to survive, cecilia does it because she wants to get rich. and she’s not above doing anything, she WILL waterboard a child

idk i just found that really interesting, the movie takes place almost entirely in mexico and the only person to survive is cecilia, the only non-mexican person involved in the trap

#besides parker ofc. but hes died and she fucked him over too. so whatever #idk just though that was interesting 👍👍👍 really good movie #if saw 6 was good (i have opinions on saw 6) #saw #saw x #saw x spoilers #saw spoilers

[just-antithings]

Fictional characters are to antis what "the unborn" are to pro-lifers.

Fictional characters, like the fetus, are the epitome of everything good the anti/pro-lifers wants to demonstrate on their crusade. They're uncomplicated. They're abstract. They are exactly what the arguer thinks they are in that moment. They will never disagree with the arguer and never make demands of their own.

Pro-lifers rarely help born people, and in fact gleefully call for the deaths of born people, because born people make demands, and have their own free wills, and sometimes make mistakes. The unborn will always be a perfect being, a tragedy, a what could have been; "what if the baby you aborted could have cured cancer?"

Antis rarely care for real people, and in fact often gleefully abuse them for disagreeing with their stances, because real people make demands, have their own free wills, and sometimes make mistakes. Fictional characters will always be perfect, and a tragedy, and a what-if; "what if the fictional character knew you shipped them with a literal child?"

Fictional characters are a way for antis to "care" about abuse/rape without actually confronting the reality that abuse survivors, as with anyone else, are messy people who have flaws and don't agree on any one issue. Just as fetuses are a way for pro-lifers to control the abortion debate with an image that is solely about shallow, unearned pathos, and never about the beings that currently occupy this world.

Both are the weak attempts of a person who likes the IDEA of doing/being good, but not the actual work that goes into making the world a better place. You can see it in how they react to anyone who disagrees with them with unrestrained vitriol and hatred. It isn't about "protecting life" or "protecting abuse/rape victims", but about being SEEN as someone who wants to protect life or protect rape/abuse victims.

Sorry for the long ask but I had this thought a while ago and wanted to share it.

Oh yeah they’re very similar mindsets

#mod erin #ask #just anti things #just asshole things #abortion mention #rape mention #abuse mention #cancer mention #death wishes mention

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for breaking up with my boyfriend after uncovering his web of lies?

Ok. I’m going to try keep this as short as possible, and there’s some things I’ll keep out because I don’t want to accidentally reveal our identities. I (31, m) just broke up with my partner (35,m) of 3 years. We met on an app during Covid, and lived together for 2 and a half years of that. I truly loved him, he was a challenging person which sometimes led to fiery arguments that I hadn’t experienced in past relationships, but he also pushed me to feel more comfortable with confrontation and conflict which I needed. He was also really ambitious and supported my ambitions; I’ve had 3 promotions since we got together and I wouldn’t have dared to go for them if it hadn’t been for his encouragement. Basically, on the surface it all seemed really great.

That is until I discovered he had lied about his entire past - and some of his present. It all started when I stumbled across pics of “his home” online and discovered they were a museum (he claimed to be from a wealthy background). I asked him and he said it was to protect his family’s identity and swore there were no more lies.

I have never met his family, nor talked to them on the phone - they are in another country and he claimed they were old fashioned and wanted to meet in person, but Covid was in the way at first, and then his mum was unwell. After discovering the pictures were a lie, I started to really think about other stories he’d told me and what evidence I really had for them. The more I thought, the more I realised things didn’t add up.

A few examples: his mum and dad both apparently had high profile jobs but I couldn’t find anything about them online; he claimed to be from money but wouldn’t buy himself a car and borrowed mine; he claimed to have a brother my age but I couldn’t find any social media of his.

There was a lot more, but that was enough to make me question whether there were more lies. I asked him a few weeks later why I couldn’t find anything about his parents online, and asked to be introduced to his brother on social media. I told him that this felt like the most normal thing that would happen in relationships - I was very clear that I didn’t want to test him, I just wanted some contact with someone who knew him before I did. He said it wasn’t possible because he was more distant from his family than he’d led me to believe, due to childhood abuse that his parents had refused to acknowledge. I’m also a survivor of childhood abuse so this touched a nerve and the conversation shifted to me wanting to support him and make him know I believed him.

Anyway. Fast forward another two months and nothing has changed. Tonight, it came to a head in a discussion where he wanted to get rid of my favourite chair in order to make room for a new TV. I told him I wasn’t comfortable with this because I felt insecure in the relationship as nothing had been resolved. I went over my concerns again and suddenly his whole tone shifted. He asked if I was “ready for the truth” and asked me not to share it with anyone.

The truth turned out to be very different from everything he’d said over the past 3 years. Whether it is the truth, I don’t know, but he claimed that his mum was actually a drug addict and he hadn’t known his dad until he was 18, he was removed by child services at 14 and the character he created as his mum to me was based on the woman he lived with during that time. He never studied abroad as he had first claimed, and a whole load of other lies. The worst lie was that his mum had cancer - the reason why we couldn’t visit because she didn’t want him to see her while she was weak (this made sense with the strong character her created for her). It turns out apparently the woman who took him in died from cancer when he was 18 and he based it on that. Now, I don’t even know how much of this is true, but it feels closer to the truth than the original stories. The thing is, he’s cried on me about his mums cancer, and he’s told my mum about it (a cancer survivor), and regularly talks about it in detail. In fact, all his stories have had incredible detail - which is what made us all believe them.

Now, here’s where I may be the arsehole. After he confessed all of this, I said I can’t be in a relationship with him because I can’t trust him. But he took a big step in admitting it all to me and he’s clearly very unwell if he is lying on this scale. He clearly has had a traumatic past and he told me that his lies were because any time he opens up to people about his past he loses them. I worry that by breaking up with him, I’m reinforcing this cycle where he feels he has to lie to be loved. The thing is - none of what he told me in any of this was the reason why I love him. I didn’t care where he came from, or his claims of wealth, etc. I just liked who he was as a person. I really feel torn because on the one hand he is clearly in need of help, stability and love in order to heal himself so that he doesn’t feel the need to lie. On the other hand, I can’t foresee being able to trust him in the near future. So, AITA for breaking up with someone who is so desperately in need of love and support?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[lagoonalake]

NCT DREAM IDEAL TYPE

MARK

Personality: the sun, 6 of wands, the star

Boss energy. Someone confident and proud, spontaneous, connected to their inner child who would help him let lose a little. Someone a bit loud and cocky. Assertive, who would probably lead the relationship. Someone very visible, could be someone famous. Someone charismatic and funny, the life of the party. Someone who has a lot of energy and vitality. very optimistic and positive, who can see the light in the darkness always. Very generous and giving, could be a humanitarian. Bubbly, comic relief type of energy, a prankster. Very reliable and stable. leo, aquarius, aries, jupiter

Appearance: 2 of wands, king of wands, the hierophant

Someone who looks very strong and healthy, almost unbreakable. Someone regal, with a very shining and bright aura, could have narcissistic tendencies though! XD Muscular or fit, more of a stocky or compact body type. Thighs and calves are well shaped. Squarish face, solid features. Radiant. Warm colors. More of a traditional style or look.  leo, taurus

Turn offs: strength, king of cups, 7 of swords

When the bossy energy gets out of control and the relationship becomes a power play, someone who doesn't take care of their health, someone unkempt, someone who is too restrained, controlled, who lacks spontaneity, someone too secretive, who uses their emotional depth to manipulate others, a coward, someone passive aggressive, a trickster, someone who is two faced.  negative leo, capricorn, scorpio, gemini

RENJUN

Personality: the lovers, the devil, 5 of pentacles

Could be attracted to people who need help. Very sensitive, affectionate people, very passionate. Romantic people who understand that relationship are about sharing, that this is an exchange, who give as much as they receive. He is the kind of guy who wants to merge with his partner, so he attracts people who are like that too, who can be needy, possessive, clingy, but he can be clingy too. There is codependency in his relationships. There is a fear of abandonment coming from him and his partner, so they tend to get strongly attached but afraid to lose the other person, so there can be emotional manipulation as well. But the love is very deep, very strong, sometimes overwhelming. Us against the world type of love. cancer, scorpio, pisces, pluto, libra

Appearance: 3 of wands, 2 of wands, 8 of swords

Someone who looks both tough and vulnerable. He tends to go for people who look like they need help. But he also likes to see that the person is combative, is trying hard to rise above their issues. Someone who could be small in stature, but with a very strong body, muscular. Could prefer someone a bit skinny. Someone who could look a bit nervous, always in movements. Someone who looks like they could handle themselves in a fight, or outdoors, NOT the type who would be scared to break a toenail or mess up their hair and makeup XD A survivor. Short hair. Still who can look a bit fragile, shy, sensitive, youthful. aries, pisces, virgo, capricorn, scorpio

Turn offs: queen of wands, king of cups, knight of pentacles

Divas, people who think they are all that. Show offs. People who had it easy in life, spoiled people. People who use their connections to get ahead in life. People who are too calm, too comfortable, who seem to have everything and are happy about (he tends to be attracted to people who are a bit more complex). People who seem like they don’t need any help. taurus, leo, cancer

JENO

Personality: 5 of swords, the wheel of fortune, the hermit

He is attracted to an independent thinker with strong opinions, who doesn’t let anybody influence them. Someone who learned things on their own. Someone who could be a bit outside of the mold, have an alternative lifestyle, or simply like to spend a lot of time alone to read, educate themselves, focus on their own interests. Someone a bit philosophical. Definitely very cultured with a lot of knowledge. Very opinionated and could enjoy debates, could have a tendency to be contrarian, a bit rebellious. Someone adaptable, resourceful, open minded and who sees life as full of possibilities. Someone who enjoys change and need variety in their life. Someone who enjoys traveling. aquarius, sagittarius, virgo

Appearance: 6 of swords, 4 of swords, 9 of wands

He doesn’t have a specific type. He can be attracted to a lot of different people, and enjoys diversity. But he likes them sexy. Fierce, expressive eyes. And with a bit of a tough, intimidating. Street style. Colorful, warm. Someone who looks intelligent, vivacious, active. aries, gemini, mars, mercury

Turn offs: knight of pentacles, the hermit, 4 of pentacles

People who are very slow, stoic, who follow the same routine everyday, boring people. Although he likes the more closed off misfit type, he also doesn’t like some aspects of it when the person is too close off to the point they don’t want to see him anymore, someone who never allows any intimacy to happen, someone who is stingy, selfish, so focused on their stability they don’t allow for any change to happen, too structured, no spontaneity, people who never let their guard down, who are paranoid. capricorn, taurus, cancer

HAECHAN

Personality: 9 of swords, 10 of wands, justice

He tends to go for people who have a lot on their plate, with a lot of responsibility, worriers who are overworked, anxious, and who are hard on themselves, extremely serious, intelligent, fast-paced, hard-working and disciplined. He wants to lighten up these people and make them happy, because these people are very giving and dedicated, but they can also be the type who don’t get too much credit, who could work behind the scenes. He wants to be the ray of sunshine in their life, help them relax, let loose. He likes people who are humble and supportive, reliable, with a lot of integrity. People who are honest and polite. always ready to help. Secretary vibe.  virgo, capricorn, gemini, saturn

Appearance: 7 of wands, the hanged man, 10 of swords

So if the person looks like they have a lot going on, he’s in. XD He likes someone who looks a bit tired, anxious, he can’t help but gravitate towards those people to comfort them, brighten their mood, make them laugh. Could like blond hair, or light hair color, feminine style, a bit dreamy, sleepy, soft type of beauty. Someone who looks a bit wounded (could even be physically wounded), he has a bit of a savior complex and wants he would want to assist or help in some way.  pisces, neptune, virgo

Turn offs: 10 of swords, 8 of wands, 7 of pentacles

Although he likes the overwhelmed anxious and even a bit depressed type, he admires someone who holds on and keeps going no matter what. But he doesn’t like when a person doesn’t try, when someone is quick to give up, is passive, procrastinate, is lazy, let their emotions overwhelm them to the point they become completely numb, or is easily overwhelmed and makes impulsive decisions, runs away from their responsibilities. Sudden mood swings. negative pisces, sagittarius, uranus, gemini

JAEMIN

Personality: 3 of swords, 7 of cups, knight of wands, knight of pentacles, devil

(I pulled more cards because his reading needed clarification for me to understand)

Jaemin has a lot of options and likes to test them all. On one hand he wants to be with someone who is adventurous, feisty, fun, quick to move on. On the other hand he also wants to be in a relationship with someone who is more committed, and it would require more patience from him, more time to get to know that person. With the first type, he tends to be unsatisfied as it is fun but doesn’t give him that stability that he needs (but that he isn’t ready to offer himself anyway). And with the second type, he is afraid of commitment and runs away, breaking their heart in the process. There tends to be a lack of trust in his relationships, leading to manipulation, jealousy, either from him or his partners (especially the second type more interested in commitment). He needs to reconcile these different aspects of love within himself and find himself someone who can give him both the fun and the stability, and needs to be honest with his partners about what he wants and what he can currently give them. sagittarius, aries, gemini, aquarius/taurus, virgo, capricorn/libra

Appearance: ace of wands, page of cups, 2 of wands

A creative, artistic type. Someone who inspires him. Someone who looks dreamy, innocent, cute, cuddly. He needs to feel the passion and physical chemistry. Someone spontaneous, expressive, with a cute laugh, sunny vibes. But also someone who may be looking a bit shy, kind, more reserved. Could like it if he sees someone taking care of animals or children. Nice shapely legs and calves. Crop tops, abs or a cute tummy. Short hair. Small petite stature, short height. mercury, gemini, cancer, leo, pisces

Turn offs: ace of wands, 3 of cups, the emperor

Bossy people, people who are a bit rude and unfriendly, tactless, people who turn him down and friendzoned him, people who are too independent and see through his bs, people who come off as a bit too masculine, harsh. People who he feels no physical or sexual attraction with.  aquarius, capricorn, aries

CHENLE

Personality: page of coins, the sun, queen of swords

He likes someone who is a ray of sunshine, very positive and kind, relaxed, with a fresh, innocent aura. Someone popular and loved by all, warm, friendly, compassionate, helpful. Yet when it comes to him, they can be a bit cold and closed off. For some reason, he could come off as untrustworthy to this person, or maybe this is the kind of person who has prejudices when it comes to him, or has heard rumors about him and doesn’t want to let him in. Maybe they are close to someone he has a beef with. Or maybe they are both from very different environments that don’t mesh well. I feel like this could be a specific person I’m picking up on. It could also be that he can come off as a bit of a bad boy, or a bad influence, or maybe he doesn’t know how to express his interest and comes accross as rude or disrespectful to that person. Good girl/bad boy type of dynamic libra, leo, pisces, virgo, aquarius

Appearance: 3 of cups, 4 of swords, the fool

This is probably the same person as above, a specific energy he is very interested in right now. Clean, friendly appearance. Kind, innocent face, long hair, slim shapely compact body type, petite frame, popular, has a lot of friends and is very well liked by colleagues but also the public, smiley, looks relaxed, charming, spontaneous, authentic, expressive. Very likable, disarming charm. Could be a good dancer. Most likely an idol. Radiant, warm skin and aura. Cute and sexy.  pisces, virgo, libra, aquarius

Turn offs: 2 of wands, the fool, 8 of swords

Delusional people, people who are too easy to charm (he clearly likes the chase), people who are immature, naive, weak, cowardly, whiny people who don’t have their own opinions, wall flowers. People who are mean, unlikable, rude, always negative, selfish. People who are weird or unwilling to fit in, awkward, always killing the mood, different just to provoke others. negative cancer, scorpio, saturn, neptune, aquarius

JISUNG

Personality: judgement, 2 of cups, knight of swords

Someone who would make a big impression on him, a soulmate, karmic type of connection. Someone who would sweep him off his feet. A passionate, tumultuous, immediate connection. Someone who is a bit aggressive, impulsive, moves quickly, would express his feelings towards him or wouldn’t even be able to hide them as their emotions run so high. Someone who would understand him deeply, that he could share his deepest secrets with. He wants to start over with someone who would be 100% invested in the connection. Transformative, healing, intimate connection. Someone opinionated, witty, intelligent, quick to react, who can be blunt with words. Someone brave and dedicated to their path, with a strong sense of purpose. aries, gemini, scorpio, saggitarius, pluto, mars

Appearance: the world, 4 of swords, strength

He doesn’t care about looks, just that this person is strong and honest. That he can connect with them on all levels. He likes people from all over the world, and is not too attached to beauty standards. 

Turn offs: 6 of swords, high priestess, 8 of wands

People who are quick to move on, a bit shallow, who don’t have long lasting emotions, people who are nosy and want to know everything about him but don’t share anything about them, overly secretive people, impulsivity, mood swings, people who change their minds all the time. People who can’t sit still. Unreliable, unstable people. Vague, overly “mystical” people. The type of spiritual people who have their head in the clouds, speak about “angels” and “auras” and things that for him are not real and a bit weird. XD negative scorpio, gemini, aquarius, sagittarius, neptune

#nct dream #nct dream tarot #nct dream ideal type #mark lee #haechan #jaemin #jeno #chenle #renjun #jisung #kpop #kpop tarot #kpop ideal type

[survivingcapitalism]

“It feels like shit. It feels like community care is not a thing. The world is so self-centered right now. If something doesn’t immediately affect you personally, then it’s not something to be concerned about,” she said. “I live with severe PTSD. I already lost a child. I’m not willing to lose another child.”  

Hannah Neely, 42, lives in Minneapolis with her husband and two children, ages 10 and 12. She had cancer of the immune system, and between the disease and treatment, her immune system was severely weakened. Before, Neely was a teacher, but she is now too disabled to work. Her husband is a software engineer, although he was recently laid off. 

Neely, her husband and her children wear masks. They do not socialize or eat indoors at restaurants. For a while, her children took classes online through the public school system, but eventually she sent them back to school masked. 

“We go to the store, we go to doctor’s appointments, we go to our kids’ school, but that’s kind of it. And we mask everywhere,” Neely told The 19th. 

In a strange way, Neely feels “lucky” to be a cancer survivor, because it means she doesn’t need to justify her concern about COVID to others. Most people she interacts with do not think she is being unreasonable. 

“I am disabled in a way that is invisible, but sympathetic. I haven’t faced the medical gaslighting people with [chronic fatigue syndrome] have faced. … No medical professionals have ever told me I’m overreacting,” she said. 

Some family and friends have engaged in a sort of wishful thinking. 

“People sometimes say, ‘It’ll be fine. Hannah, I’m sure you’ll be fine. You can’t actually say that with any certainty,” Neely said.

[homosociallyyours]

This is a post for one of my best friends who's been going through a lot for the past few years. I'll go into more details below, but here's the heart of the matter: My friend has a serious auto-immune condition resulting from the long term after effects of cancer treatments (worsened now by the addition of long COVID to her long list of diagnoses). Over the past few years, she's gotten sicker and sicker and has been forced to change her diet from a vegetarian anti-cancer diet (she's a breast cancer survivor, and fought HARD for her health) to one that's become more and more limited as her body becomes allergic to every food one by one. She's now reached a point where one of the last 2 foods that she was able to eat safely, chicken, is causing an allergic reaction; she has to eat it anyway to survive, so is now very sick all the time.

What can you do?

One of the last hopes that she has to turn things around is something called a fecal microbiome transplant, which has worked miracles for other people with similar issues, but cannot currently be accessed through medical channels in the US for any but one (unrelated) condition. It's really easy to do as a DIY treatment though, it's just hard to find a donor: so we are putting it out there to see if one of you might be able and willing to be that person, or know someone who could do it.

Here is what she has to say about the ask:

Finding the right person to do this is difficult, but actually doing the helping is extremely easy and quick if someone was that person! If you live in the continental US and are fortunate enough to have both physical and mental good health (or know someone or have a child who fit the criteria) and are willing, you might be able to change my life! Please consider clicking through to read more and maybe even come aboard...  (For clarity: this isn't a medical procedure or anything, it is literally just donating poop, there are a few specifics but it is very much from the comfort of your home on your own time.)

You can click here to fill out a google form to see if you might be able to be a donor. The questionaire is detailed: fecal transplant is a bizarre and magical thing in which the patient sometimes can even end up acquiring personal preferences from the donor- the gut microbiome (sometimes called the second brain) is incredible! But this means that any illness, chronic issues, or risk factors you carry may also be transferred to the recipient so while it may feel invasive, getting detailed info in very necessary; I am just too sick already to take on any more problems.

A note- yes, it is possible to buy screened and processed treatments even in the US: unfortunately the cost (~$2k per round of treatment) is way outside my reach, particularly given that it isn't really any better than just getting poop directly from a good candidate (proven via studies), and that often it takes trying a couple donors/ rounds to find a match that gets results. If anyone wants to just buy me that stuff, I sure wouldn't say no to that, but given the severity of my situation (medical and financial; I cannot work due to disability) it is likely I will need to do medical fundraising at some point and I am trying to save that for an even worse point. Also if you have that kind of money to help out honestly it would be better spent on specialists or my astronomical food costs. I will cover all costs associated with this process if I find someone though, of course!

Thank you for reading/boosting/etc, please consider sending the link to possible healthy friends or family who might be a fit, or consider whether you have a child fitting the bill you might be willing to enlist- young microbiomes are the best ones, as children's systems have had less time to be ravaged by the effects of the modern world or the simple deterioration of age.

#signal boost #medical issues #health #please fill out the form at the link that's below the read more #and share this post and/or the survey link with anyone you know who might be a good fit #i'm not exaggerating when i say that the worsening of her condition is really fucking scary #genuinely don't know what i would do without her #also how great would it be to tell everyone your shit is LIFE SAVING??

[theoi-crow]

Here's your daily reminder that TERF rhetoric and propaganda encourages policing the body and actions of ALL WOMEN including non-trans women who are:

-POC (because society pushes a white = feminine narrative)

-wlw

-tall

- poor/middle class

- born with features deemed too masculine like noticeable veins, large hands, etc.

- butch lesbians

- like video games, horror or hobbies society says are for boys

- have short hair

- cancer patients (who happen to have no hair) or recovering cancer patients whose hair is very short

- recovering cancer patients who had to have their breasts removed

- child-free women

- women who wish to but can't have children

- women who want/need to get an abortion

- women who've had their uterus removed or need to get it removed for their health

- survivors of domestic violence

- women who are atheists or non-religious

- rape victims

- children

- athletic women/minors

- elderly and are in the process of having their femininity stripped from them

- exploring who they are

- and more!

Anti-trans rhetoric encourages the policing of bodies and ALL WOMEN regardless of status receive the fall out because the policing of trans bodies = the policing of women!

The only ones that benefit are the very misogynistic white men who uphold the patriarchy because anti-trans rhetoric is eugenics!

#lgbt+ #lgbtcommunity #lgbt #lgbtpride #tw terfs #terf

[angelisgonnastartchangingurls]

alice on a wednesday

annie found alice to be impossibly glamorous. she was a woman in her mid-forties. an artist of some note (annie had googled) and a professor at a local university. she had a personality that was somehow both bubbly and cool. she had very good posture and was an engaged conversationalist. she often asked annie about herself as often as she talked about herself, and annie, bamboozled by her bright eyes and alien beauty, shared too much.

"how are you? how's ryan?" alice asked inquiring after annie's boyfriend.

"he's okay, i think?" annie said. "he seems really distracted with work lately."

"a.k.a. you're not fucking," alice said.

annie chuckled and tried to regain some professional composure. "it's okay. it's fine."

"annie, honestly, it's not," alice said. "you're a woman in your prime and he should be getting you off a few times a day, lest you seek pleasure elsewhere."

"i wouldn't do that," annie said.

"i would," alice said. "and i would not feel guilty."

annie had not been surprised to learn that alice had never managed to make a long term relationship work. but romance never much concerned her. alice's worries and annoyances fell into two categories:

her mother, a wild russian immigrant who was perpetually causing trouble and

her own neurological health

alice was a brain cancer survivor, and told annie when they met that in a sort of spiritual, kooky way, she believed maintenance of her mental health was key to staying in remission. annie said that medically, she couldn't really agree, but liked the notion of it.

a side effect of alice's brain surgery was that she'd lost the ability to raise the volume of her voice -- she spoke at just above a whisper. she mitigated this condition by using a wireless lapel microphone and a little box-sized amplifier she kept in her purse and set on the table in front of annie during their sessions. it lent her voice a lightly robotic quality that annie found oddly soothing.

she asked alice if she'd ever been unfaithful in a way that had hurt anyone.

"i don't think i hurt them in a way that was unfair," alice said. "sooner or later, the people who stay in my life as friends or fuck buddies or what have you learn to travel at my speed. and why shouldn't they? it's a fun speed."

"but early on, some hearts get a little bruised and beaten."

"yes," she admitted. "when i was 17 years old, i slept with my boyfriend's older sister, and i remember he was pretty mad about that," she said. "he beat the shit out of her."

"oh, fuck," annie said. she didn't swear around most of her patients but alice never clocked it.

"yeah, i got violent with him after that, clawed him up," she said, laughing. "i still keep in touch with the sister. they made up, it's all okay."

"i mean, is it?" annie asked.

"who knows," she said. "you have a brother, right?"

"yes," annie said, impressed at alice's recall.

"robbie," alice said. "i assume you have never competed with robbie over a woman."

annie laughed. "no. i mean, that must be very rare. unless you have more histories with siblings?"

alice grinned her catlike grin. "not negative stuff no, but I have in fact had sex with two sets of twins. two women, two men."

"yikes," annie said. "i mean, not to sound judge-y. i can't imagine having sex in front of robbie."

alice laughed. "i'm basically an only child, so i don't know. i think it's different with twins. they're copies of each other. and the women, like it or not but we live in a society that sexualizes female twins so by the time i met them they had a lot of experience with each other."

"huh," annie said.

"it's initially sort of gross but when you get down to it, i don't know," alice smiled. "kinda hot."

"what did you mean when you say you're basically an only child?"

"i never told you about amanda?"

"no," annie said, fairly confident. sometimes she forgot things her patients talked about, but not alice.

"when i was 15, my aunt killed herself," alice said.

"oh god," i said. "your mom's side?"

"no, my dad's sister-in-law," she said. "his brother's wife. and you know, that was crazy, so my uncle and his daughter who was 17, they came to live with us for a year. they moved from israel."

"that must have been a series of shocks for them," annie observed.

"yeah, i mean, my cousin amanda just did coke and fucked guys in my room, but it did feel like having a sister for a while."

"in your room?"

"yeah in my room, in my bed. i used to find like, thongs and condoms in my bed."

"i don't know what it's like to have a sister, either," annie said. "but i don't think it's like that."

annie went to ryan's apartment after work. he talked to her in an almost uninterrupted stream for an hour about things going on at work until, her relentless ability to pay attention nearly failing her, she stood in his kitchen and pulled her skirt and panties off. he stopped talking and stared at her exposed bush. "hey," he said.

"hey," annie said. "fuck me."

"ok," he said.

he took her over the sink, roughly, like animals, his fingers on her clit, his lips on her neck. he was a little soft at first, like he'd forgotten how to get hard in the two weeks or so since they'd last had a vanilla, post-date screw. but all annie had to do was get a little vocal. "i'm so fucking wet," she told him, and felt him stiffen right up.

they came at the same time, annie's contracting pussy pushing his cum out around the base of his shaft. she felt it between her thighs and heard it hitting the tile floor. as she pulled away and turned to kiss him she touched herself and brought her fingers to her lips. his eyes lit up. she had him back, at least for a while.

she spent the rest of the evening in a blouse and panties, sharing a joint with ryan, watching TV with him, and then mounting him again on his couch. she didn't take her panties off this time, just pulled them aside. sometimes uncomfortable, but very effective when one wanted to feel particularly slutty. she put her tits in his mouth, bounced to orgasm on his cock, and then sat on his thighs and stroked his cum out onto her bush. cleaning herself up in the bathroom she laughed imagining telling alice about it. she was sure she'd approve.

[astrolocherry]

The Elements of Astrology ~

written by #astrolocherry

~Fire Priestesses - Aries, Leo, Sagittarius Whatever in the world she wants - she wants it now, and refuses to compromise or make any deals. A romantic at heart who can fall in love with the world, she cannot contain her  passion and appetite for experience, elation, and affection. The inferno of the Goddess rises viscerally through her body when her carnal desires have been activated. And there is rarely shame in her sexuality, so she is never afraid to unleash her wild side. Fire can dominate, or dominate through submission. In any way, she tends to subconsciously control the environment through her sensual command and hypnotic intimate flow. She can make you feel like you are standing on the gateway of heaven and hell together, and have no doubt, she will make you feel like you can have both…but you can never have both at once. If you want a safe bet, you’ve drawn the wrong hand.

~Earth Priestesses - Taurus, Virgo, & Capricorn Earth priestesses are here to rule the world and leave a legacy in their name.  Their talents are made for the material plane,  their heels are made to glide like ice skates along the corporate floor, their eyes are made to calibrate value and potential in direct vision. The earth is their palace, and they make it known. They revere their ancient diplomatic powers and reach those supreme positions that ensure they will be given a say in how this world is run, because, don’t think for a second that you can pull this ground from beneath them. Earth is not afraid to dream the dreams and honour the work of the great women that stood before them; the leaders, the thinkers, the queens, the mothers, the creators, the survivors, and the monarchs that constructed the way making their path possible now. 

~Air Priestesses - Gemini, Libra, Aquarius Air priestesses are the blend between independence and dependence, cute and clever, a sweetheart with words sharpened like knives. Air lives in the mind, they never really came down to earth. More time is spent hanging out with their own thoughts than anybody else in the world. These are thinking girls, so don’t be surprised or agitated when they forget something so basic as their keys or seem to struggle with simple domestic tasks... Air has that freedom of forgetfulness, and doesn’t bother much to save space and supply energy to such things. They would prefer satiate the appetite in the mind rather than the stomach with drops of word ink. Air is the element of intellect, they tend to know what talents they have and don’t have, so they may not offer to help bake you a cake, but they will stay up late reading your child to sleep, they will be prepared to help anybody who approaches them for conversation, and they can make your problems vanish with their conversation or mere natural presence.  Like a breath of fresh air blown through your mind, body, and environment- a cool, cleansing rush of telepathic love.

~Water Priestesses - Cancer, Scorpio, and Pisces Water Priestesses are the stars of mythic theatre performing the greatest stories on earth. They don’t have to move or speak a word to make the force of their presence known, and every spirit in the room becomes hypnotised beneath the cosmic spell that only they remember the ingredients. Marvellous, mysterious, and formidable forces stir chaos and maelstroms within. Though, most of their ordeals are kept secret, so nobody truly knows how far below they have sunk before they rise again. It’s difficult to conceive how she manages to fight all of this on her own, and yet still create a wave in the world with the command of her psychic tsunami. she is not made for the earth but she can dissolve and soak the boundaries completely, her water sisters are starring in mythic plays while also dominating the corporate, business, and political floor with the resources she got told were weaknesses. resources like life experience and resiliency, empathy opened through personal tragedy, a sensitivity that enhances the depth of relationships, passion, sacrifice, emotion, and love. 

Cherry

#elements #fire signs #air signs #water signs #earth signs #aries #taurus #gemini #cancer #leo #virgo #libra #scorpio #sagittarius #capricorn #aquarius #pisces #astrology

[newspatron]

Junior Mehmood: From Laughter to Legacy - A Life in Indian Cinema

What are your memories of Junior Mehmood's films? Share your favorite moments and thoughts in the comments below!

Junior Mehmood, a name synonymous with laughter and iconic performances, captivated audiences for over seven decades. This article delves into his extraordinary journey, from child stardom to becoming a beloved legend in Indian cinema. However, in November 2023, Junior Mehmood received a life-altering diagnosis: stage four cancer. This news cast a shadow on his remarkable career and brought to…

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#actor #Bollywood #cancer survivor #child star #Comedy #director #drama #Indian Cinema #Inspiration #Junior Mehmood #legacy #Marathi films #producer

[xclowniex]

the saddest thing about cat Janice is that she confirmed in her comments that she isn’t a Zionist, just followed those accounts to get info. They don’t care, they just want an excuse to harass a disabled and critically ill woman. The amount of comments along the lines of the cancer being karma was astronomical. Like, as a cancer survivor & moral OCD haver, I was made VERY upset by the people wanting her head for following two instagram accounts.

Oh this 100%

I remember when the whole news broke of her "being a zionist"

People were saying that she deserved her suffering and deserved to die from cancer.

Which is disgusting.

Like people were wishing her death based on an assumed opinion on a conflict half a word away.

There were also thousands of comments saying that we should still support her because her son might not be a zionist and he's the one getting the profits from the song.

Which is disgusting and going to fuck him up mentally when he gets older.

Like imagine tragically loosing your mother as a child, growing up and looking back on videos using her song and just seeing people go "I'm only supprting Cat because her son might have political opinions that align with my own"

That would be terrible for anyone!

It boggles my mind how people do not see how they are being made to be extremists.

Like how is the first thought in your head "this person deserves death and suffering" and not "I should do more activism to hopefully get this person to align with me"

#antisemitism #israel #palestine #antizionism #zionism #cat janice #ask clownie

[saintmeghanmarkle]

I'm now utterly convinced MEGAN MARKLE IS ON THIS SUB. MY REASONING BELOW. by u/deedee50

I'm now utterly convinced MEGAN MARKLE IS ON THIS SUB. MY REASONING BELOW. Two days ago in a post a member stated they were scared, posting their thoughts on markle and hank trying to work their way back in. i tried to link to the posters and posts but it would'nt let me.Another poster posted this reply in the post.." I know so many of us, globally, are beyond exhausted of those two, but as a Texan, I am livid. The absolute NERVE she has of even crossing the state line is beyond me. Her heartless "pap walk" in Uvalde was heinous enough, but I recently saw the photographs of her checking the cameras with the photographers that SHE brought, to make sure they got "perfect shot**".** She did that several times. And while she did, she would move mourners out of her way, mourners including mothers who had just lost their child. She was at an elementary school. Disgusting does not begin to cover it**.** She has never reached out to Uvalde since the few hours she was there for her photo op. She has never done anything for the families of the victims (2 of the victims were not only teachers but also mothers), the survivors, the faculty or for the school itself. Absolutely vile."Now we have hank and skank visiting... Harry and Meghan were visiting Uvalde in Texas for a local event to support families who were affected by the mass shooting in particular the family of the teacher mentioned above.Co-incidence? could they have organised it in 2 days? BUT there were many other posts prior to that one , stating the same sentiment & feeling regarding her Uvalde visit, so is this visit part of her 99th re-launch to improve her popularity ratings. Does she read here to gather how the sinners feel about her and how to improve her image, after Uvalde I'm convinced she's lurking, even posting at times, as shes apparently prone to "putting the feelers out". Plus she had to pay to sit on that panel (or rather WME did). To play the victim again about being bullied on line, when they have called the sugars to thank them for their support, same sugars who told me they hope my cancer kills me soon. they're 20 plus abusive msgs i rec'd like that, showing the hypocrites they are. ty for reading everyone. Your opinion?​​​​ post link: https://ift.tt/AW8JfLp author: deedee50 submitted: March 10, 2024 at 01:46PM via SaintMeghanMarkle on Reddit disclaimer: all views + opinions expressed by the author of this post, as well as any comments and reblogs, are solely the author's own; they do not necessarily reflect the views of the administrator of this Tumblr blog. For entertainment only.

#SaintMeghanMarkle #harry and meghan #meghan markle #prince harry #fucking grifters #Worldwide Privacy Tour #Instagram loving bitch wife #Backgrid #voetsek meghan #walmart wallis #markled #archewell #archewell foundation #megxit #duke and duchess of sussex #duke of sussex #duchess of sussex #doria ragland #rent a royal #clevr #clevr blends #lemonada media #archetypes #archetypes with meghan #invictus #invictus games #Sussex #WAAAGH #deedee50