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Phantasmagorical, endive & limerance?

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Hi Natlyia!! Thank you for the ask (and sorry for the late response)

Phantasmagorical - what is your favorite fantasy involving your f/o? this can be either sfw or nsfw, but please specify.

✩ This question isn’t really applicable to Jonathan and I, in my opinion…? I guess my favourite fantasy would simply be our universe since none of the moments we had together jumped out as a favourite at the moment.

Endive - if, under the circumstance, you were able to treat your f/o to a single, beautiful day without a budget, what would it consist of?

✩ I think it would be something quite simple, not extravagant because I think that’s what Jonathan would prefer. We would fly to a city that we’ve never been to before (imagining that there’s no covid) early in the morning. After arriving at our destination, we would have breakfast at a cozy cafe while chatting with each other and just enjoy each other’s company ✨ After breakfast, we would take a walk, perhaps in a park, and just explore the city by walking around. In the afternoon, we would visit the library, because Jonathan loves reading and enjoys visiting different libraries to see what they are like. A museum of some kind is on the cards next, because he likes to expand his knowledge whenever possible so the day wouldn’t be a treat without some way of meeting this need of his （＾－＾）The day would conclude with a visit to an observatory/planetarium to star gaze ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:

Limerance - gush about your f/o, no limits… but the catch is, gush as if it's a message directly to your f/o.

A love letter to Jonathan Crane:

Dear Jonathan,

Where shall I begin...I have never written nor received a love letter and have no idea how one would go about starting. Not to mention, all thoughts of logic or writing structure departed from me the moment I sat down to write this letter so I apologize if it ends up being rather chaotic.

Tchaikovsky’s Valse Sentimentale is playing in the background as I write. As the name states, it is a waltz and I cannot help but wonder what it would be like to waltz in your arms. How warm and gentle your touch would be, how wonderful it would be in your presence, and how, despite the lack of an uttered word, you would make me feel loved and connected with you. I hope you will allow me to indulge in this fantasy one day, although I must warn you that I am not a dancer, nor will my movements be particularly nimble, I suspect.

Remembering back to when we first met, you were looking out the balcony door and rain was falling outside. You turned to look at me and you saw, in my eyes, my uncertainty about being there, and the doubtful possibility of being with you romantically. Even then, you put me at ease without the need for words. You understood my uncertainty but you were still there for me regardless. It must have been at least a couple of weeks, if not several, that we spent time in that small space. We didn’t talk, to begin with, but over time we opened up to each other by talking about our days or what was on our minds. I loved this period even though it seemed like not much happened at all. I loved how you never once judged me for being uncertain, your patience when I did not appear, your ability to put me at ease, your understanding of my need for space and time. All of this, even when it was not apparent whether we would end up together or not. I appreciate how you never attempted to make me come to a hasty decision.

Occasionally, my mood took on a turbulent shade, and I would close myself off from you, which was intended as some kind of indication to you that I can be a troublesome person and you should take leave so as not to trouble yourself with this kind of nonsense. But you stayed. You comforted me when it was apparent that it was what I needed, you let me have my own space when it was necessary. When usually, people would attempt to persuade me out of my moods, you let me experience them without judgment or persuasion. I loved this about you. You have been so kind, patient, and understanding to me. Honestly, I think I don’t deserve you or our universe.

We haven’t spent time with each other properly for the past couple of weeks and I really miss you. I miss our conversations, your embrace and kisses, and just you really. I love how we could enjoy each other’s presence without talking like when we read together in the same room. I love the way you look at me, your gaze expressing love, support, and warmth. And that sparkle in your eyes when talking about something you’re passionate about, be it your work, a book you’ve been reading, some new development in your research. I think you are gorgeous, truly, not just in terms of physical appearance, but your personality, your being. That intense look in your eyes when you are concentrating on something, the way you hold your pen when writing, the self-assured yet unassuming way you stand, the calming composure you have, the way you radiate energy when you are excited about something, and so on. Even though we haven’t spent time together properly in the last couple of weeks, whenever I think about you, I feel giddy like a child on Christmas morning, I cannot explain why. All I know is, you make me feel happy and just the thought of you gets me through whatever challenges that I have come my way. Although you never tried to change me in any way, nor to persuade me to do one thing or another, you’ve brought about positive changes in my life outside of our universe. For instance, when I felt unable to get up in the mornings, you would whisper to me that everything would be all right, that I can do whatever my mind has tricked me into thinking I can’t do, and that you would be there whenever I need you. Your words, softly spoken, gave me the energy to begin my days. And you inspired me to do the things I wanted to try/do but didn’t because I had been too afraid to stray from “the norm”, whatever that was.

Please forgive me for this poorly written love letter. I want you to know that I love you even when I am not with you. I hope to be in your presence again very soon.

Your ever-loving,

Autumn

Tagging @the-royal-niffler - thought you might be interested 😊

#unique self ship questions for unique words #thank you for sending in the ask #jonathan crane #nolanverse #self ship community #self shipping #f/o community #romantic f/o #a love letter to Jonathan Crane #I have no idea how to write a love letter to be honest #any advice on how to write love letters would be appreciated #sorry I'm not good at gushing

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