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28, 37 rowan, 4 cerise

wow ROWAN i LOVE that guy....

rowan

28. If they could change their class(es), would they? To what?

oh, sorcerer. sorcerer in a heartbeat. to have magic that was hers, that was in her blood and that she could channel and manipulate and that didn't belong to anyone else? that made HER unique and powerful and special and irreplaceable? yeah.

37. What is their sleep/trance like?

sob i've been playing this character for almost a year and a half and i'm just now realizing that she sure was a half-elf raised entirely by elves. when she was younger she slept fitfully and not quite enough, the one person she knew who couldn't get by on a four hour trance, but she's lived on the material plane long enough now that she's shaken that habit. she still is a pretty light sleeper though i think. that's the moon elf in her

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4. Who was their childhood hero?

oh, her mom for sure. also her dad, but like, specifically the cool versions of her dad that she'd invent because her mom wouldn't talk about where he really was or give her anything more than little details. and also marion, the cool older girl from her village who was probably also her first crush. and also. y'know. the god queen!

#cha:cerise #cha:rowan #ask game #three dead people and the god queen for cerise--

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man it really is soooooooo sexy that the fucking sun crown is what caused rowan to lose EVERYTHING--lose her home, lose her reputation, lose her patron, lose all her plans for the future, lose cress--and now it’s just fused to her head....

#cha:rowan #c:faeme #she never even CARED about this stupid thing! she cared about the noteritity pulling off a theft like that would get them #and she cared about the thrill of the challenge and she cared about it because CRESS cared about it but. the crown itself??? #and strategically she's a TERRIBLE person to have this thing on her head she's SO absolutely the party face #and so absolutely ALREADY wanted for stealing the EXACT crown which is now. again. Fused To Her Head #but narratively??? couldn't be anyone BUT her! #it's like. u can run from your past you can move on from your past but when you least expect it it will stick little thorns into your skull! #god i looooooooove that she can't hide it with illusion magic that's so goddamn SEXY! #she's a mask of many faces warlock her whole DEAL is being able to control her apperance and persona exactly how she wants! #she's supposed to be able to tuck things away or throw an illusion glamor over them she's not supposed to be stuck with a BEACON on her head #unless she WANTS it there! #she's Gonna lean into it and seem as confident and in-control as she still can but. WOW does this have her off her game pleading emoji! #SOB i just opened her sheet and i FORGOT it also boosts her charisma.... #pov there's a magic crown fused to your head it's making you even MORE charming and self-assured than usual but it's ALSO #taking away your ability to Perfectly Craft your own image. also it's the reason you got exiled from your home for 300 years and lost #the first person you were in love with. also it's--and i cannot stress this enough--so absolutely a HUGE practical problem-- #faeme today >:D

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i can’t believe the unicorns are disappointed in me this is SO fucked up. 

#cha:rowan #c:faeme #they NEEDED her and she wasn't HERE......... #she didn't INTEND to become anyone's champion but. she also didn't want to let anyone DOWN.... #especially not the person who gave her EVERYTHING.... #the hair is flashing because they're in distress headinhands #this is so fucked up. unicorns shouldn't be able to be captured. #the QUEEN of the moon court....what am i gonna DO......... #what is a rescue mission if not a heist i GUESS.

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night watch rp my literal most beloved.

#cha:rowan #c:faeme #WOW rowan is a character. #i sure didn't play her for months and now we're here!!!!!!!!!!! #epic win for mask of many faces epic win for being dozens of different people over the course of 300 years. #'maybe i'll be like...a war hero' 'a WHAT' 'maybe i'd hate it! but the point is i COULD' #man it's like. pov your ex comes back and she's not only a different person now #but she's cycled through like. eight different people in the time since she left you.... #the way that rowan kept talking about how she could be Anything but then she was like 'maybe a thief again!' #and cress went 'i can't see that' and rowan admitted that neither could she.... #MAN. man. MAN! #WOW A NEW PROBLEM JUST DROPPED WHILE I WAS HALFWAY THROUGH THIS POST!!!!!!!!

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5, 6, 19!

thanks mer :]

5. Which of your d&d characters has been the most like you?

elodie was definitely the most like me when i created her, and she probably still is the closest, but the longer i've played her the more she's developed as her own character and the further she's gotten from being Me. cerise is honestly way more similar to me than she SHOULD be considering the uh. everything about her. and then she's an npc and the similarities are easier to see bc it's a game in the real world but beck motw also deserves to be on this list

6. Which of your d&d characters has been the least like you?

there's oneshot characters who are the easy answer but in terms of real characters it's actually probably jess? her 20 cha and boldness and flirtatiousness is about as different from me as you can get. rowan is up here too, but especially lately rowan has been taking on more of this like..."fake it til you make it but we're all going to make it together" thing going on that's moved the needle more in the "similar to me" direction. and then honestly it's a bit soon to say but i think my crop bonus guy is gonna end up taking this one in the end, especially if i do it right

19. How did you discover D&D?

:] i'd played a lotr ttrpg with my family through middle school and high school, and then my friends and i went together to check out ttrpg club at the beginning of freshman year of college, didn't really vibe with anyone there, leaned into our little huddle and went "i bet we could just do this ourselves" and then we did! with dungeons and dragons fourth edition bc that was the edition that our friend owned the books for even tho fifth edition had been out for 3 years at this point--

#ask game #cha:elodie #cha:cerise #cha:jess #cha:rowan #c:crop

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5, 6 and 20 for rowan :]

thanks mer pleading emoji

5. what is a specific, defining physical feature that they have?

definitely that star in the middle of her forehead! being touched by a unicorn is pretty uh. defining. she likes it though :] other than that i think she has a really distinctive nose, like her mom's, which means she also likes that :]

6. what quality do they like the most about themselves?

skeleton key dot mp3! she LOVES that she can go anywhere and be anyone, she loves that given a bit of time she fits in anywhere she wants, she loves that she can reinvent herself over and over. always find what i need!

20. describe one of your favourite rp moments with this character

oh SO many...that one conversation with cress from last time when she was like "what the fuck are we doing we're gonna get killed" and rowan had to talk her down from it is still bouncing around in my mind tho. it was kind of weird to see rowan be like...soft in response to cress's harshness, and, if not optimistic exactly, at least not totally hopeless. it made me understand their dynamic a bit better, i think--i kind of assumed cress was the one who pulled rowan into a life of crime, and she definitely did, but i think this black hole goes both ways. cress's idea to steal the crown, rowan's "okay. yeah. let's actually do it." cress's bitterness at the sun court and all the fae, rowan's "hey, the two of us can do literally anything we want." and then. well. rowan the one who got caught!

#she deserves to be a bit of an icarus i think. :] #cha:rowan #ask game #i am working thru these. so slowly. the cool ask games always come around when i'm BUSY--

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the single uniting trait of all my dnd characters is being SO fucking pissed off when they have to deal with the fey

#and SO true besties!!!!!! #cha:bird #cha:kara #cha:rowan #i just like that for rowan and kara it's all this complicated backstory stuff and for bird it's just. FUCK this FUCKING guy--

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just realized rowan is the only one of my current characters who doesn't have a single oh hellos song on her playlist which absolutely checks out but is also really funny

#everyone else has at LEAST one if not multiple #I can't help that they make good character songs that are in line with the themes i like to explore 😤 #the rowan playlist is a work of art but now i kinda want to see if i can add one just for completions sake #she's just not as much of an oh hellos character is the thingOH BITTER WATER #so true finally using a song from dear wormwood to actually represent a romantic relationship instead of all the symbolic bullshit i usuall #use songs from that album for #might fuck around and put it near the end even >:) #oh or EXEUNT maybe....... #cha:rowan #but like. liss and cerise both have four oh hellos songs...elodie and alita have FIVE... #sparrow had two and bird and kara each have one...so true me having a brand #playlist #also rowan and kara are the only ones with no mountain goats #and i think liss is maybe the only one with no stars which is kind of wild

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rowan caerdonel // half-elf warlock

finally revealed her secrets :]

1. “Bravado” by Lorde

and i can tell you, when the lights come on i’ll be ready for this

2. “The Bullpen” by Dessa

it’s been assumed i’m soft or irrelevant, ‘cause i refuse to downplay my intelligence

3. “What’s Up Danger” by Blackway

i could keep the world balanced on my nose

4. “Lost” by fin

i won’t be seen at any cost, ‘cause if i’m found i’ll end up lost

5. “Dear Fellow Traveller” by Sea Wolf

you spoke my language and touched my limbs, it wasn’t difficult to pull me from myself again

6. “This Must Be The Place” by Sure Sure

and i can’t tell one from the other, did i find you or did you find me?

7. “Would That I” by Hozier

though i’ve handled the wood, i still worship the flame

8. “Two Birds” by Regina Spektor

but one’s never going to let go of that wire, says he wants to as well, but he’s just a liar

9. “The Moon Will Sing” by the Crane Wives

i loved you like the sun, bore the shadows that you made with no light of my own

10. “hoax” by Taylor Swift

my best laid plan, your slight of hand

11. “The Archer” by Taylor Swift

combat, i’m ready for combat, i said i don’t want that, but what if i do?

12. “Press Restart” by WALK THE MOON

i could use a little time and space, just broke the hell out of my heart, i press restart

13. “The Great Unknown” by Jukebox the Ghost

no you’re never gonna change by doing what you’re told, you don’t want to let yourself down, so don’t be scared to stand out

14. “No Plan” by Hozier

there's no plan, there's no race to be run, the harder the pain, honey, the sweeter the sun

15. “Our House” by Crosby, Stills, Nash, & Young

our house is a very very very fine house, with two cats in the yard, life used to be so hard

16. “The Gambler” by fun.

we’ve got fifty good years left to spend out in the garden, i don’t care to beg your pardon, we should live until we die

17. “Easy Tiger” by Billy Raffoul

people gonna love you, then they’re gonna leave you, that’s just the way of life

18. “Three” by Sleeping At Last

maybe i’ve done enough, and i finally see myself, through the eyes of no one else

19. “Enough For Now” by Ethan Gruska

maybe i’ll try, maybe i’ll die trying to let this be enough

20. “Skeleton Key” by Dessa

i come from over the horizon, pass through every dozen years, go home, tell of my arrival, the skeleton key's here

21. “A Mask Of My Own Face” by Lemon Demon

i look into my eyeholes and what do i see? a handsome motherfucker motherfucking looking back at me

22. “Lent” by Autoheart

i don’t wanna i don’t wanna be like this--back then, yes maybe, now it’s crazy

23. “Bulletproof” by La Roux

do your dirty words come out to play when you are hurt? there’s certain things that should be left unsaid

24. “Kyoto” by Phoebe Bridgers

i don’t forgive you, but please don’t hold me to it

25. “Landslide” by Fleetwood Mac

can i sail through the changing ocean tides? can i handle the seasons of my life?

#cha:rowan #c:faeme #playlist #i LOVE this playlist it's one of my FAVORITES #1-4 about rowan in the moon court :] #5-11 about cress :] #12-13 about being exiled! #14-17 about andrew #18-21 about making her life on the material plane and who she is now #22-24 about coming back in general and coming back to cress in particular #and then. y'know. landslide! #my BESTIE lovelove

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1, 24, and 41 for rowan!

oh rowan my BELOVED rowan?

1. what is their coffee shop order?

medium iced coffee with a shot of hazelnut and a little bit of soy milk

24. are they good at keeping secrets? does it depend on how big the secret is?

yes and not really! she's better at keeping her own secrets than she is at keeping others' secrets--got a lot more practice keeping her own, 300 years, in fact. but in general she's not giving up information--even SMALL information--without a good reason

41. are they good at controlling their emotions?

mmmm good question. she is in the sense that she's hard to read and a good liar, but she's not in the sense that she does let her emotions steer her decisions a lot of the time.

#BANISHING myself from answering any more until i'm prepped for my silly little podcast. but i'm thinkinge about rowan :] #ask game #cha:rowan

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sometimes 22 cha is just aggressively manifesting that everything is fine!

#i love rowan..... #sometimes u have no choice but to keep going so. forge ahead and it'll be fine! #if she says it emphatically enough her friends will believe it and she'll also believe it and it'll be true. #queen of fake it til you make it #beloved. #cha:rowan #c:faeme

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the fact that faeme party has been dragging rowan’s ex-girlfriend around for like four sessions now is so funny....

#pov your ex who betrayed you and has been lying to you is just. she is just hanging out-- #she's gonna die if she goes off on her own and no one wants THAT! #c:faeme #cha:rowan

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epic win for fighting with your hot ex in dnd :D

#i'm SO HAPPY SHE'S HERE....... #literally as soon as sam went 'uh she's blonde' i went oh????? oh cress??????????? but i wasn't SURE #but there she is!!!!!!!!!!!! #there she is and she's HIDING and she's SCARED.... #'i lost you and then i lost the tiara and those were both bad' is. looping in my mind #as is the like three times she said 'i can take care of myself' #as is 'it was an ACCIDENT'! #bc like. rowan never blamed cress bc she thought it was an *accident* rowan has spent 300 years hating her bc she thought it was *on purpose #but what do you MEAN you didn't leave me on purpose #what do you MEAN you're not like. happy and comfortable on your trophy you're HIDING in the WOODS #and you're in DANGER #but at the same time. rowan's been ANGRY for THREE HUNDRED YEARS #the songs on the playlist for 'seeing cress again' are LENT and BULLETPROOF and KYOTO #hence sam and i just YELLING at each other for like three minutes straight slkdjfslkjdf #but then i get the 21 insight and...she's *scared*....... #and well! y'know! hmmm! #not to mention like. if lorelei my best friend lorelei left someone SHE loved and it WAS an accident and she DID love her.... #WELL! #cha:rowan #c:faeme #i am SO glad that secret is out :D

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can’t believe the first thing someone said to rowan when she got back into the feywild was “aren’t you a famous criminal”....ABSOLUTE wrongs (rights)

#rowan's kinda proud of it tho sdlfkjsldkfjs #like. this causes so many problems. but her dad must be sooooooo pissed-- #epic win for teenage rebellion sunglasses emoji #all she wanted was to be someone! and! well! she is!!!!!!!!!!! #cha:rowan #c:faeme

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songs for cerise and rowan?👀

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Cerise: "Up the Wolves", by the Mountain Goats

i'm going to get myself in fighting trim, scope out every angle of unfair advantage

YEAHHH!!! this one's with the other hopeful songs at the end of her playlist mostly for the first stanza but MAN if this line doesn't make me insane every time. she's fighting to survive but she's also fighting back!

Rowan: "Easy Tiger", by Billy Raffoul

another lover you'll come to find, people gonna love you, then they're gonna leave you, that's just the way of life

christ. yeah this one's on the playlist right after fun,'s the gambler, so. sometimes you get exiled to the material plane and fall in love with a farmer and decide you want to try a Normal Life and you do and you're happy and then he dies and you're a fey who keeps living!

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rowan, arcis, jess, and sinead for the playlist asks :D

wow mer we sure are in four games together...pleading emoji

Rowan: "What's Up Danger" by Black Caviar

i like high chances that i might lose, i like it all on the edge, just like you

this one's early on the playlist because this was for the young, reckless rowan desperate to prove herself. this is who she was when she met cress.

Arcis: "Hungover in the City of Dust" by Autoheart

we're hungover in the city of dust, let our minds run round in circles while we figure it out

tbh i'm not sure i still stand by this one. i Really like the song and the playlist needs something downbeat at that point in it and it's on here for reasons of like...not being who you used to be, feelings of isolation, etc, but it's also definitely a song about people who Stay while everyone Else leaves which arcis definitely isn't. so we'll see if i take it off she's still a new character <3

Jess: "Devils Point" by Wicked Shallows

what do you do when the devil offers you a drink? what do you say when it's cold outside and hard to think?

:D she sure is a warlock! the drink in question is magic <3

Sinead: "The Cave" by Mumford & Sons

i know my call despite my faults and despite my growing fears

MAN! a cleric who is leaving their home and their duty in order to follow their purpose for the first time in their life is something that can actually be so personal,

#ask game #ty mer kiss ww #cha:rowan #cha:arcis #cha:jess #cha:sinead