#catatonic

[aceofwhump]

Torchwood 4x07 "Immortal Sins"

#whumpedit #whump #torchwood #captain jack harkness #john barrowman #my gifs #mod post #aftermath of torture #catatonic #blood #covered in blood #bloody feet #caretaking #emotional whump

[zebulontheplanet]

As someone with catatonia, it’s fucking hard. Start a task? Immediately frozen. Try to start a task? Immediately frozen. Try to start a task again? Can’t because struggling and need prompting. My rooms been not clean for a week. I have to do some chores too.

Not to mention the semi-catatonic episodes I’ve been experiencing where Im slow and feel like I’m going through quicksand and can’t do anything besides go lay down and hope it passes. Not to mention the mutism that comes with it so I can’t even communicate with my already limited words!! Fuck me.

#zebrambles #autism #actually Schizoaffective #catatonia #catatonic #semi catatonia

[summerwages]

back at it..

#it’s only thursday #little miss sunshine #catatonic

[neuroticboyfriend]

I'm not non/semispeaking so please correct me if I'm wrong. But I think the difference between nonspeaking and (episodic) speech loss is kind of similar to the difference between paralysis and (episodic) catatonic immobility.

I wouldn't call myself paralyzed while catatonic because well... I'm not paralyzed; I can move the majority of the time, but not when I'm in catatonic stupor. Am I still immobilized and unable to speak? Yeah, definitely.

But going immobile and mute during a catatonic episode isn't the same thing as being unable to speak (nonspeaking) or move (paralyzed) all the time. That doesn't mean my experience doesn't matter. It doesn't mean my experience shouldn't be communciated.

It's just that different experiences sometimes need different terms, so that all of us can be more easily understood.

#softspoonie #nonverbal #semiverbal #loss of speech #speech loss #catatonia #catatonic #neurodivergent #autistic #nonspeaking #semispeaking #disabled #disability #autism spectrum #autistic experiences #actually autistic #autistic community #autistic spectrum #autism #mutism #immobility #paralysis #paralyzed #schizospec #schizophrenic #schizo spectrum #actually schizophrenic #schizoaffective #schizophrenia

[alixisherebutringagain]

I had a catatonic episode and I'm feeling so shameful and depressed about it.

I mean, I literally had to have people carry me to our car. I'm so ashamed. All of that because I couldn't move. I couldn't even talk. God, I hate this condition. I wanna cry so bad.

I hate catatonia. I wish I could tear it away from me.

I don't wanna tell more about it today, I'm too ashamed.

#schizo spectrum #mental illness #schizophrenia #schizophrenic spectrum #schizotypal personality disorder #disorganized speech #psychosis #schizotypal #paranoia #psychotic disorders #catatonia #catatonic #catatonic episode #shame #guilt #depressing shit #when the people from my self defense class asked my dad about it #he said it never happened to me #as if it was the first time #and when they asked if i had a condition #he said “i don't think so” #next time just say you don't care about me it's fine

[cuteangsty]

Whump prompt #6 - Catatonia

Caretaker just rescued whumpee. Maybe they were tied up, or locked in a basement, a cold cell, completely immobile.

"it's ok! It's ok, alright?!" Caretaker pulls them into a hug "it's ok you are safe now"

"s...safe...n-now"

"yeah, see? Everything will be okay now?" They say in shaky breaths, happy they are finally together "you are safe now!" They repeat "you are safe with me..."

"s-s-safe...wi-with..." Whumpee repeats, emotionless.

Immediately caretaker notices something is off

"whumpee...?"

"w-whumpe-e..." It's only repetition from whumpee's part.

"no- uh... You. You are whumpee." Caretaker looks deeply in their empty lost eyes. There's no response.

"wha-... what did they do to you?" Caretaker pulls them into a tight hug only now realizing how catatonic whumpee is.

#whumpee #whumplr #whump prompt #mine #whump #caretaker #whumper #tw catatonia #whump scenario #catatonic #catatonic whumpee #tortured whumpee

[schizopositivity]

throwback to my AP psych class in highschool where my teacher always said "im a little bit ocd" and our first assignment was to "study" a student from another class and then make assumptions about their life based on their behavoir, then he taught us The Four Types of Schizophrenia and he said "no one knows why catatonic schizophrenics are like that no one knows whats going on in their brain" and then we watched a video of someone publically having a psychotic episode, and then we watched the movies Stand By Me and The Breakfast Club and had to write a paper where we diagnosed each character with a different mental illness

now lemme tell you why all of that was complete bullshit:

you cant be "a little bit ocd" (he said cause he liked things organized was why) because its a mental disorder characterized by obsessions and compulsions, simply being tidy doesnt make you a little ocd, either you have the disorder or you dont

i felt so creepy having to watch and write about a student i didnt know in another class, this is just such a weird thing to do, and not anything a psych profesional would actually do so i have no idea why we did it, and then for the rest of my time at school i was paranoid that someone was studying me which as an undiagnosed schizophrenic was horrible for me

the four types of schizophrenia is outdated, it was when i was in the class, its now known to be a spectrum where people can have mulitple or even all of the symptoms of the four types

yes you can easily find out whats going through a catatonic persons brain if you just ask (once they are no longer catatonic), ive been catatonic multiple times and ill tell you any day

do not watch videos of people publically having a psychotic episode, they didnt consent to filming or uploading the video, they probably didnt want one of their most terrifying and emberassing moments posted publically so a room full of teenagers could gauk at it, it is extremley disrespectful to the person in the video and their humanity is more important than any education you could bring on by the video

you cant diagnose people you dont know, even with the proper training, an hour worth of content is not enough to make a diagnosis from, i seriously dont know why we were encouraged to diagnose anyone, especially characters in a movie, i dont know what we learned from this other than thinking we had the power to diagnose people we didnt know

this was an AP psych class so that means it was college level, i hope this isnt what theyre teaching in college and i just had a particularly uneducated teacher

#schizophrenia #ocd #catatonia #catatonic #psych #ap psych #psych class #neurodivergent #mental illness #actuallyschizophrenic #mental health awareness

[whumpypepsigal]

Whumptober 2022 | No. 7: THE WAY YOU SHAKE AND SHIVER

shaking hands | seizures | silent panic attack

Station 19 s05e17: Jack meets up with his brother Josh and is shocked to hear that Josh grew up with their biological parents and wasn’t in the foster system. Josh explains that their mom got pregnant when she was a teen and had to give him up for adoption. This news breaks Jack.

+bonus:

#whumptober2022 #no.7 #silent panic attack #station 19 #gifs #whumpedit #whump #my gifs #jack gibson #grey damon #panic attack #catatonic #tragic backstory #angst #worry #hand holding #emotional whump #comfort #support #broken #tears #crying #cradled #whumptober 2022 #whumptober

[whumpneto]

Whumptober 2023 - No. 7: “ “I paced around for hours on empty; I jumped at the slightest of sounds.” Alleyway | Radio Silence | “Can you hear me?”

Nicholas Hoult as J. D. Salinger in Rebel in the Rye (2017)

#whumptober2023 #no.7 #“Can you hear me?” #gifs #ptsd #war #catatonic #my gifs #rebel in the rye #nicholas hoult #queue

[s1l4s-l1k3s-t0m4t03s]

do i cvt or do drvg$ thats the question

#i cant feel my body anymore #im not real #im so tired of sch1z0phrenia dude #actually schizophrenic #schizoposting #schizophrenia #$elf h4rm #$h tumblr #$elf harm #$hblr #shblrr #sh tumblr #tw sh related #drvgs #tw drvgs #depersonalisation and derealisation #catatonic #catatonia

[one-piece-aus]

Whumptober Day 24

Yandere Lucci x Reader

"Where do you think you're scurrying off to?" Lucci mused watching as you fumbled with the door knob.

"To hell with this! To hell with this all!" you shouted and threw open the door, yet entering the room you found yourself in a corner. "Shit."

You turn back to the door, finding the leopard man already standing under the archway. Panic repeated how terrible the situation was for you, being an inconvenience to your thought process. While your heart raced miles, your eyes scanned the area for an escape. An open window caught your eye, however, you were ten stories in the air.

Two options: Door or Window, Fight or Flight.

If you escaped through the window you'd have to be careful climbing down, one slip-up from your footing and you'd splat on the ground. The possibility of Lucci tailing you is also likely and it increases your chances of messing up, whether it's an accident or by his hand.

If you tried to fight your way out the door, you might get past Lucci, but if he lands on hit on you it's over. You might be good at martial combat yet the scratch marks he made sting pain even now. You were no match for his strength.

What do you do? Both outcomes could easily end in your death. Your mind turned gears as it tried to scale the better option. You stood there, undecisive of the two options that you ended up doing the third option.

Lucci grinned as he approached your frozen state. His hand caressed your face, tilting your chin up and gazing into your blank eyes. His other arm possessively snaked around your waist, pulling you closer.

"Seems like we've concluded playing cat and mouse," Lucci purred into your ear. "Time to come back little mouse."

#whumptober2022 #no. 24 #fight flight or freeze #catatonic #one piece #whump fanfiction #whump fic #one piece x reader #one piece scenario #one piece x you #rob lucci #lucci #lucci x reader #one piece lucci #cp9 #no 24

[imagine-loki]

Imagine Loki meeting a kid who has the rather sucky power to uncontrollably drain other people's psychological trauma into themselves when making skin contact with them -- and of course, they accidentally brush against Loki's hand and are almost immediately rendered catatonic, so Loki decides it's his responsibility to look after them now

#Loki #Father #Imagine #jotun-philosopher #kid #power #psychological trauma #touch #catatonic

[promptsforyourwhumpfic]

Whump Prompt #956

Submitted by @red-river-potato01 - thanks!

Character A is seen as the fearless one on the team. As far as anyone can tell they aren't afraid of anything, and A prefers it that way. So what happens when something happens and triggers A? Perhaps they freeze for the first time on a mission, completely unmoving as the rest of the team tries to handle the chaos around them. Perhaps A denies it afterwards and tries to avoid talking about it. Does the team get them to open up? How do they respond when they learn about A's fears? You decide.

#whump #writing #ideas #prompts #stoic charactets #triggers #panic #freezing up #emotional whump #trauma #past trauma #fear #worry #catatonic

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

Fuck audhd paralysis and catatonia and executive dysfunction my dogs deserve to go outside and play but I can’t stand up they’re just eagerly sitting there whining and staring at me because I put my coat on but then made the mistake of sitting down and I feel like I’m torturing them I want to stand up so bad but I couldn’t stop scrolling so I made this post anyway comorbidities are so cruel

I just need to take them outside for like a minimum of fifteen minutes and if I cannot bring myself to actually play with them I at least need to allow them the opportunity to run around on their own and sniff the grass for a bit.

If I get a decent amount of rest soon maybe I can walk them. It’s really hard because I’m only strong enough to walk one of them at a time (I have two) and they’re trained not to pull or bolt at squirrels etc but if anything went wrong idk it just makes me nervous, the two of them could easily overpower me. So I have to blend something to spread onto a silicone mat so the one left at home doesn’t go absolutely insane with jealousy and all that food prep is so much extra work then I have to get that set up for one of them while I walk the other one and that’s a whole extra step again and then I have to do that part all over again and I also the. have to clean up the food mess and 8 paws. That’s so much stuff. Plus two walks for me. I should be going on zero walks probably, at least without a mobility aid. But it feels cruel and abusive that I hardly every walk my dogs anymore.

Im not pure evil they spend a lot of time chasing tennis balls in the back yard which takes care of physical exercise in general but it’s not the same kind of stimulation as going for a walk and taking in new sensory input every day. It breaks my heart but it’s also still a much better life than they would have at a shelter like where we rescued them from. And they were both returns, so this could very well be genuinely what’s best for them in the grand scheme of things. That’s what I always tell myself

Anyway. For now I just wanna get up and play with my dogs and get other things done, like eat for example, but I’m stuck sitting down 🙃

#rants & reflections #executive dysfunction #audhd problems #delete later #catatonic #catatonia #autistic catatonia #adhd paralysis #living with adhd #untreated adhd #adhd autistic #unmedicated adhd #comorbid conditions #comorbidities #audhd life #chronic illness #neurological disability #neurodiversity

[ssogoodinblue]

Executive dysfunction is the fact that I haven't taken my medicine yet even though its sitting right in front of me as ready to consume as it could possibly ever be but I cannot move my hands away from the laptop to stop scrolling and take the medicine. In fact instead of taking the medicine I made this post I could have taken it like twelve times in the time it took me to type this. If I could just remove my hands from the laptop. lmao. its so simple. lol.

#executive dysfunction #weed #adhd #mental health #chronic illness #neurodiversity #neurological disability #depression #dysthymia #autistic #asd #adhd autistic #catatonia #catatonic

[alixisherebutringagain]

Now that I'm taking meds and feeling better I'm wondering like am I even sick to begin with ? Nothings wrong with me. Plus, maybe this was all just an exaggeration, maybe none of my psychotic episode and symptoms happened. I just... Dreamt it ?

I don't know that how I feel right now

#schizo spectrum #mental illness #schizophrenia #schizophrenic spectrum #schizotypal personality disorder #disorganized speech #psychosis #schizotypal #paranoia #psychotic disorders #catatonic episode #catatonia #catatonic #medication #maybe i'm just fine #is it really that bad? #still feeling stressed and dissociated but it's okay