#castiel is pissed

[alexandrathegreat5700]

guys remember when dean told cas that he loved him back in the awesome spn finale where everyone lived happily ever after and no one went to super hell???

yeah, me fucking neither.

#im still pissed #i wake up at night with a homicidal rage for the show runners #this is how i cope #spn #dean x castiel #destiel #dean winchester #castiel #alex yaps

[drulalovescas]

I fucking hate when we say Dean would've never given up on that rusty rebar if Cas was alive, he'd keep fighting, and are being called delusional shippers because it's a fact that has NOTHING TO DO WITH SHIPPING!!! You don't have to believe Dean and Cas were madly in love (even tho they were duh) to know Cas had always been Dean's hope and faith. You can LITERALLY SEE IT ONSCREEN throughout those 12 seasons. Every time Dean loses Cas he also completely loses hope and his will to live. Cas was an angel that pulled him out of Hell. That looked him straight in the eye and said you matter, you deserve to be saved. That saw through all his facades, saw the good and the ugly and NEVER judged Dean for the ugly. Dean had such a shitty self-esteem but the sense of "I must be worth at least something if an angel of the Lord bothered to save me from the Pit" must have lingered at the back of his head (even if at times he refused to believe it). So yeah, Dean's it's okay I'm ready to die in that atrocious finale is directly connected to him losing Cas permanently. And seeing and acknowledging that has zero to do with shipping.

#had cas been alive (even if human) #dean would've been like #sammeh get me the fuck off that rebar and call the ambulance i gotta live #sorry for my rumblings but this has been on my mind for some time pissing me off lol #destiel #castiel #dean winchester

[ezzasaurus]

The thing about Supernatural is that there has never been anything like it ever before and there will never be anything like it ever again

#nothing else will ever give me the dopamine rush that spn does #nothing will ever piss me off as much #and nothing will ever make me cry as much #as this goddamn show #supernatural #spn #spnwin #the winchesters #dean winchester #castiel #sam winchester #jack kline #jensen ackles #misha collins

[waywardvamp]

Supernatural went on for so long I am honestly surprised they didn't do the "Let's revisit this character from a few seasons back" thing more often. I don't know, with how many people's lives they have fundamentally changed you'd expect to see them come across people more often. Or get called back. Or something.

#spn #supernatural #sam winchester #dean winchester #castiel #yes this is about Jesse Turner but it's NOT only about him it's about most one episode characters there are SO MANY that it would have been #interesting to see again #ejem Kaia Nieves I'm so pissed we never got to see Kaia and Claire interact again

[svadilfari-coded]

I don't actually ship Jack and Sleipnir, but I do think it'd be cool if he had a friend who was also a bastard freak. Plus the spawn of satan riding an eight-legged horse into battle 💞💞

#the fact is that their friendship would piss off loki gabriel lucifer castiel and the winchesters #which i think is beautiful #jack do more things your family disapproves of please #ik cw supernatural doesnt have the budget for large scale battles #but imagine if apocalypse 2.0 had ended as a mishmash of the christian apocalypse + ragnarok #but i just know they wouldve made the world serpent a regular ass dude with a split tongue 😭 #supernatural #jack kline #sleipnir spn

[castiel-left-his-mark-on-me]

I know a million people have already shared their opinions and thoughts on Jensen’s “brother” comment in regards to the confession, so this may be nothing new; but I can’t stop thinking about it so I wanted to write it down.

One of the main reasons I love (and kept watching) SPN over the years was because of Dean’s character-growth. He is just so human—and that is a testament to both Jensen’s acting, as well as Jensen’s age when he started playing Dean.

For fifteen years, we got to observe all those micro and macro changes within Dean’s character; much like a parent watching their child grow up. We noticed how Dean’s face changed, how his voice and confidence and openness morphed and grew … but we also got to see all the ways he stayed the same. We got to see his habits resurface again and again; and we got to see him make the same mistakes over and over. And even though it was frustrating to watch at times … it was also very, very human.  It was natural. It felt real … and I think that was both intentional and unintentional on Jensen’s part.

But just like how our growing child can’t see all these changes within themselves, I don’t think Jensen can see them all within Dean—not like how we can. He’s too close; but that doesn’t mean he hasn’t psychoanalyzed Dean Winchester.

I think it’s become obvious in the last couple of years just how much Jensen has thought about Dean’s thought process, both individually as well as in the SPN canon—and he thinks of Dean as a real person. His answer at VanCon proves that. Like @pray4jensen said: it’s clear that Jensen doesn’t know where he ends and Dean begins. And how could he know? He started playing/shaping Dean in his late twenties; and science has proven that most people’s brains are still malleable at that age. He then went on to grow with that character well into adulthood—through all the formidable and pivotal moments in his own life … marriage, fatherhood, life and death. Dean IS part of him. He wasn’t just an “act” to Jensen. So much of his own development couldn’t help but sneak into Dean’s mannerisms, which made Dean feel very, very real on screen.

Think of it this way … so many of us have had difficult/complicated pasts. We have had to code-switch all our lives. There’s a version of yourself that you have to display in certain company and in certain environments; and sometimes, that version pops up without warning—when triggered by something familiar or traumatic.

Now, I’m not saying that playing Dean was a “trauma” for Jensen (at least—I hope it wasn’t), I’m just saying that we’ve all had experience playing a role in our lives; and even though we know that it’s just a role, we still think of it as a version of ourselves. We still feel like we’re just a moment away from reverting back to that person.  But can you define all the qualities of that other version of you? Can you explain—in detail, just how and when and why that version pops up? No.

You can identify some things, sure, but not all. That’s why we seek out therapy. We need an outside perspective to help us find a way to bridge these versions of ourselves and make them whole again.

This is just human nature. It’s human psychology.

Dean Winchester is a version of Jensen. He is a real part of Jensen’s life. So, when Jensen answers on Dean’s behalf, he can’t help but put himself directly into that character’s boots—exactly where they stand, here and now.

And if we flash back to that confession—Jensen knows that Dean Winchester would not have been able to comprehend all the ways Castiel meant “I love you” because Jensen was Dean in that moment.  And after Cas was taken, Dean still wouldn’t have been able to understand, because all the love he has ever known in his life—all the true, dependable, reliable love, has come along with the fight.  Jensen knows—because he lived it all with Dean, that any love his character felt was a direct result of his battles to save the world. Sam, Benny, Mary, Charlie, Kevin, and on and on … all of them of course cared for Dean—Dean knew that, but since the constant fighting framed every one of those relationships, he couldn’t help but view them all the same way: as soldiers, fighters, products of war. They were family, yes ... but they were all still soldiers. Even those he tried to keep out of the war, Dean still knew the reality was … they had to fight in order to stay alive. That was just the way it was. That was the way of the love Dean felt. Any kind of love beyond that was impossible, because war would inevitably take it away too. That’s why he ended things with Cassie and Lisa. That’s why he only ever pursued shallow flings and one-night stands. And that’s why, when he saw hunters who actually maintained romantic relationships—he always stared at them in wide-eyed-wonder.

Out of all the impossible things Dean had witnessed in his life, that was the one that consistently shocked him.

Hunters … in love and happy.

It felt unreal, even though it was right there in front of his eyes.

He couldn’t understand it. So, even though it apparently was possible for others, he never believed it was possible for him. It had nothing to do with sex … sex wasn’t a part of love for Dean. Sex was just a physical movement, like fighting and eating. It kept his body alive and moving forward. This impossible love he saw others maintaining … it had everything to do with heart; and for nearly fifteen years, Dean believed his heart was worthless.

It wasn’t until an angel stood in front of him on the brink of death and said: Dean, you are not a weapon to be wielded. You are beautiful. You are a man full of love who deserves to be loved, and I love you, that Dean thought any different.

It wasn’t until he heard Castiel say Dean was more than just a soldier, that Dean actually started to believe it. But that realization was still a long way off from what Castiel was actually telling him.

And Castiel knew that Dean wouldn’t understand—he knew that Dean wouldn’t be able to fully grasp his words and take them to heart; but he hoped that if he at least said them out loud … if he said them to Dean’s face and saved the man’s life, that Dean would go on to live and grow; and then someday, he would see that someone did actually love him once. Cas truly loved him—not because Dean could protect him in a fight. Not because he was a good hunter or the savior of the world, but because Dean was Dean, and that was enough.

And you know, if Dean got to live to 100, he just might’ve realized that; but he didn’t. He died too soon. And so, he never got to truly grasp what his angel was saying, and I feel like that’s what Jensen understands about Dean the most.

He understands that Dean never got the chance to understand love.

Not in that way. Not in the way Castiel meant it.

Dean was still too naive, too broken, too jaded; so, he did what all humans do, he put the complex into terms he could understand, and that was that Castiel loved him the way that Sam loved him. The way that Benny and Charlie and Kevin loved him, the way that all his found-family love him; and after Cas was gone, he buried his face into his hands and wept because once again, he failed to protect his family. And even worse, he failed to at least let Castiel go knowing that Dean loved him too—in the only way he knows how to love, he was too broken to say even that.

He let Castiel down in every way possible, so he curled into himself and sobbed.

He should have said it back.

He should have held the angel close and said it back.

Dean realized it too late, and Jensen knows how much that hurt him.

It wasn’t about sex.

It wasn’t about romance.

It was about love and loss, and Dean was all too familiar with both—but only in the ways he had seen all his life.

The love of family and the loss of family.

He never had the chance for more.

He never got to see what else his own heart was capable of.

That’s what I feel Jensen meant with that answer, and that’s what I think he understands the most about Dean's character. We may be able to see the bigger picture because we're on the outside looking in; but Jensen was in Dean’s boots every day for fifteen years.

All he could ever see was what was right in front of him—and when Castiel made that confession, Jensen could only see it through Dean's eyes. He could only feel what Dean felt. He knows that when Castiel said those words to him, that was his best and truest friend in the world saying goodbye.

Another brother-in-arms was lost to him; but this time, it felt different. It hurt more, and if Dean just had a little more time—he would've been able to understand why.

#Jensen Ackles #Destiel #15x18 #vancon22 #Dean Winchester #Castiel #I hope that made sense #I have had so many thoughts about this #and the more I see Jensen responding about both 15x18 #and the rest of Dean's reactions #the more I realize that he just feels Dean is a part of him #and if he's being honest with himself #then he has to also be honest with Dean #and he knows he can't slingshot Dean into a more developed #and emotionally grounded character #that would take time #and Dean's time was robbed from him #Jensen seems just as pissed about that as we are #but to me #I don't see him as anti destiel or anti romantic love for Dean #he is just realistic about Dean as a person #it makes sense to me #and I appreciate the dedication to the slow progression of the character #anyway #take this as you will #they're just my thoughts

[gayhuckleberryinatrenchcoat]

So listen up: Tulpas are basically things that come into existence because a lot of people believe they exist, right?

So IF supernatural beings were are real, Dean, Cas and the whole spn cast would technically be real too, they would be tulpas, right? Because we all kinda believe in them, maybe not as in „I know that’s a real person out there in this exact world“ but as in „these characters are incredibly real to us because they are so fleshed out we can imagine every reaction they‘d have in any possible situation“.

So, if tulpas exist, Dean and Cas exist too.

I rest my case.

#not sure I believe in supernatural beings #just saying if they were real it would be dope #or not #but it would be awesome if we could tulpa Dean and Cas into existence #although I‘m sure Dean would be very pissed #spn #spn crack #dean winchester #destiel #supernatural #castiel winchester #deancas #castiel #spn family #supernatural family

[samwinchesterpsychiatry]

(tears streaming down my face) DEAN WINCHESTER AND HANNIBAL LECTER ARE NOT BLONDE!!!!!!

#PLS STOP SAYING THEY ARE !!! #pissing me off #supernatural #dean winchester #dean winchester is NOT a blonde #sam winchester #castiel #hannibal #nbc hannibal #hannibal lecter

[kerryweaverlesbian]

Lucifer is so fecking annoyinyg. Piss orf.

#PISS ORF. LEAF ME OLONE. #spn liveblog #stab him castiel!!!!

[jjs-other-other-blog]

3 major milestones of supernatural, the 200th episode, the 300th episode and the grand finale. What do they have in common? Glad you asked! Well, you see, the people behind spn hated Castiel and Misha with a passion, but they also couldn't get rid of them bc fans loved them too much. So they simply excluded fanfavourite main character Castiel (as well as his son, another fanfavourite main character) from all 3 of these huge celebrations. Because the show was always at its best when it was just about the brothers, amirite?

#supernatural #spn #castiel #jack kline #misha collins #not petty at all #if i was misha collins i'd be so pissed #like they treat you like expendable shit and fire you only to come crawling back bc “for viewing numbers it'd be great if you came back” #you return bc deep down you love that gay angel and it basically saves the show. you end up giving it 12 years of your life and career. #but they explicitly don't invite you to the big celebrations even though they wouldn't even have been possible without you. #like fanfiction was funny as a musical-love letter to the fans. #but lebanon? the “i have a family” line would've hit much harder if said family had really been their instead of featuring blood family only #family don't end in blood - the greatest lie supernatural ever told.

[serethereal]

i think my main issue w supernatural is none of those people are attractive. not a one. therefore i can not invest my time in it. sorry

#with other long shows there’s someone u can watch it for get into it for but like. get real. i could get over it if the castiel actors face #didn’t piss me off so bad. it’s cause he kinda looks like sebastian stan

[castielmacleod]

It’s beyond agonising that like. Later spn seasons would have Cas absent for a string of episodes, so the show could do some salmondean case episodes (apparently the core of the show, though my eyes glazed over through most of them). And that in and of itself is whatever, except then the writers would BLAME Cas’ absence from these intentionally Casless episodes on CAS. And so you sit through all these salmondean episodes of middling to poor quality and then the next time you see your beloved side character Castiel, well guess what. Dean is fucking pissed at him for “disappearing” and is given free rein to yell, guilt trip, and act like Cas has to ask his permission to do anything or go anywhere. Never in my life have I seen a show NARRATIVELY PUNISH a regular recurring character for the crime of being recurring. I can’t emphasise enough that Cas was for external reasons deliberately kept out of the episodes that internal characters would then blame him for not being in. It is insanity inducing.

And it’s one more thing that makes it so clear that spn SHOULD have been allowed to naturally evolve into an ensemble show, because frankly it DOESN’T make sense for Cas to just leave sometimes and there is really absolutely nothing conducive about essentially writing him off and into the show multiple times a season just so it can have its precious brothers-only episodes. And I mean Cas is only the most obvious and most heavily punished example of this, but they also did it to Crowley (literally billed as a regular same as Cas through s9-12), Mary (punished horribly for it tbh, by both the narrative and the fans), and Kevin (and he was usually off on the RUN or being held captive or something horrid like that). And the thing is!! Other characters and brothers episodes don’t even have to be mutually exclusive! How devastating would it be, really, if a salmondean centric episode happened to start with “we’re heading out to xyz, bye Cas” and end with “hey everyone, we’re back”???

I just think this show could have been vastly improved if recurring characters could have been treated as like, assets to the storytelling, and not as objects to get out of the way as quickly as possible so the focus can temporarily go back to the brothers. Lol.

#My posts #Castiel #Like lmfao maybe if you literally have to force-function brother centric episodes regardless of how poorly it serves the plot #then your show shouldn’t be or perhaps naturally isn’t “brother centric” #Like can you imagine if say Star Trek pulled this shite #And you had Sisko like “Doctor Bashir you weren’t at your post yesterday and no one could find you and we had a medical emergency!!” #”You didn’t even answer your comm! You can’t just disappear like that!” #“I’m reporting this to Starfleet Medical and believe me they are going to be Pissed!” #And it was just one of Sid’s contractual episodes off #That’s how salmondean treat Cas like literally. Except even worse because Doctor Bashir is employed by an organisation with set duties #And Cas helps salmondean literally out of the goodness of his heart and doesn’t actually need their permission do to ANYTHING. #INCLUDING leave if he wants. But Dean still chews him out like he expects nothing but yes sir in reply #🤷🏾‍♂️ #Sisko would never btw

[sastiel-is-my-serotonin]

Castiel has a sharp whistle that can be heard around the world and has used it a few times to the displeasure of the Winchesters who recognize it.

#Cool concept for different whistles mean different things #Cas is pissed off at them so now they have to hear them #There's trouble coming be prepared #Goodbye I'm sorry I'm not there to say it #castiel

[casgod]

in the good spn living in my head, destiel should've gone canon one of two ways:

desperate kiss while one of them is beating the other up

hesitant handholding after a near-death situation

#i prefer the second one actually #that wouldve been so sweet and good #wouldn't have pissed off the homophobes that much either #destiel #spn #castiel #supernatural #deancas #dean winchester #cas #cas and dean #dean x castiel #dean and cas #bi dean #cas x dean #casdean

[bytebingtech]

Henry Kissinger: Architect of 20th Century Diplomacy

#henry kissinger #diplomacy #crab rave #good riddance #kissinger #crabs #rest in piss #🦀 #war crimes #see you in hell #henry kissinger is dead #good news #PALESTINIAN VICTORY!! #mitch mcconnell #us politics #destiel #politics #war criminals #international law #castiel #dean winchester #breaking news

[bisexual-castiel]

This is the funniest scene I’ve ever watched from this show.

#I’m pissing laughing #he looks absolutely terrified #he just wants to leave and hang out with his angsty boyfriend #supernatural #destiel #dean winchester #castiel