#cannot go Under the water

[izzyspussy]

i think a lot of people have never been in a truly desperate situation but think they have, and this causes them to pass really harsh judgment on people who made bad choices when either irrational or having no good choices to pick instead, and i really wish people could get some fucking self-perception and work on their compassion skills and not fucking do that as much anymore

#jack facts #people be banging on about empathy this empathy that #and like sure maybe people have a measurable capacity for it but i can tell you what #that sure as fuck don't mean any fucking one of them ever bothers to make use of it when it matters lol #and i mean on the other hand it's hard to conceptualize how you would feel going through something you've never experienced before #i just wish people would be AWARE of the fact they don't know! #or like that there's a difference between ''i can't afford anything but instant ramen'' and ''i can't get any food or water'' #or a difference between being freaked out by spiders and having clinical arachnophobia #or a difference between ''my loved one is sick and i'm really worried about them'' and ''my loved one is dying in front of me'' #etc etc etc etc etc #anyway the longer i live the more i'm convinced that empathy is a garbage concept #and actually a more reliable way to act with true compassion is through at least some capacity for relative objectivity #the ability to say ''i don't know how that feels and i cannot understand it through comparison'' and to be able AND WILLING #to take people's self reports on their feelings thought processes or lackthereof in good faith and with sympathy #and also the ability to acknowledge that doing a bad thing for good reasons does not negate the bad thing being bad #but also should and does change what consequences are appropriate and/or most effective #and also like............... things people do in desperation or other irrational states do not represent Who They Are As A Person #or what it's like to hang out with them in a day to day situation #another thing i keep getting more and more aware of is like. if y'all can't even handle an irrational or impulsive choice that does harm #done by an otherwise ''good'' person under short term desperate situations #that they then do their best to reduce the harm of after the situation is over #i can not even imagine how absolutely unforgiving you must be of anyone who has delusions #and i mean real delusions and real psychosis not the hyperbolic babytalk version lol #like i don't think most of you even know what the fuck a delusion even is the way you act about things as simple & straightforward as like #fear. hunger. pain. #absolutely fucking exhausting

[ding-dongie-dami]

Breaking News: Rich people find out that having a shit ton of money doesn't save you from mortal harm or your own damn stupidity. 👀😶

#ok listen no one deserves to die a horrible death #especially with all that could go wrong under water #but i do think it is time that a bit of humbling happens for them #they do not give a shit about kids dying in mass shooting so why should i give a shit about them? #thoughts and prayers lol #oceangate #also the karma of them wanting to see a shipwreck where (mostly) the poor died is not lost on me #and they WILLINGLY got on a submarine after finding out how unsafe it is????? #money cannot buy common sense ig

[zombiifyd]

OKAY ADDING ONTO THE SAME EPISODE BUT THE WAY FUCKING GILLION WAS SO EXCITED TO HANG OUT WITH CASPIAN AND HAVE BRO TIME KILSS MEEEE I AM SO SICKKKK

#i am on episode 57 currently #this is my update because i worked today and listened to two more episodes and broke down #ANYWAY #the way gill was just 'OH MY FUCKING GOD YES I WOULD LOVE TO HANG OUT LETS GO *throws himself and caspian into the water*' #I AM LITERALLY CRYING #AND THE WAY GILL GETS SO HAPPY WHENEVER HES IN FHE WATER I LITERALLY SOB #HES SO #OH MY GOD #tearing up just thinking about this ray of sunlight tjay caspian just gave him #someone from the undersea who he calls every single night #and wanting to take him away from his crew to hang out #under sea #I DONT THINK CASPIAN UNDERSTANDS HOW MUCH THIS MEANS FOR GILLION #like honestly #i cannot wait to hear their adventure under there #but rn..... lizzie and jay 🤭🤭🤭🤭 #jrwi #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #jrwi caspian #jrwi gillion #jrwi swordfish #tagging this as swordfish bc i love these fishes #they are my favorite

[bonebrokebuddy]

Aw man, just reread my document I wrote on my speculation on how the metagene works & how modern DC could rewrite it to being a result of retroviruses & transposons and man, I really wish I finished that post.

Unfortunately, the reason I stopped was explaining it all down to the point where someone with little genetic knowledge could still understand it proved to be too lengthy and long winded of a task.

Maybe one day I’ll pour myself back into research & finish that speculative paper. Bc I had a whole fun idea that relied on that background information that was about the Daily Planet reporting on the discovery of an entire city of metas with similar meta abilities. The town faced such high levels of radiation and contamination, only the population with the meta gene survived:(

#The meta ability was just super perfect cell replication. #No changes outward. They appear perfectly normal #to be clear. ppl still age. the power is just that their cells are super good at replicating the way they’re meant to #Zero chance of tumors or damaged DNA due to the radiation because their meta ability just resumes them to their previous state. #the city blows up afterward in the news cycle due to people trying to go there so they don’t die from cancer. #and don’t have a risk of cancer BUT THE CITY IS STILL IRRADIATED AS HELL AND THE PPL THAT ENTER CANNOT LEAVE #DUE TO THEM BECOMING SO RADIOACTIVE THEYRE A HAZARD TO BE CLOSE TO WITHOUT PPE #i just thought it was such a fun idea and me being me I overthink the shit outta things & made it super long and overcomplicated #because I wanted people to also learn what retroviruses & transposons were bc they’re cool as hell #and by the time I wrote 5K words on it #I didn’t want to take the shortcut and just embed other ppl’s videos explaining it bc I had already put too much effort into it #for me to delete that research #bones speaks #the cause? the city was built ontop a large kryptonite meteor. #and someone (cough cough LexCorp. but no one actually has enough legal proof to say it’s them) #and when it’s investigated. it appears that someone (cough cough LexCorp. there’s not any legal proof that can pin it on them. #so lexcorp once again escapes scott free without evidence of villany) #has been digging tunnels under the city and excavating it. the excavation not following proper mining protocols caused the city’s ground #and water supply to become extremely irradiated to the point where it’s like when ppl were just eating & drinking uranium products. #actually imma stop myself here & make this it’s own post #anyways. the radioactive bit gets figured out due to the poorly constructed tunnels collapsing and the city conducting an investigation #leading to a ‘oh shit. the Geiger counter is saying this sinkhole is Super radioactive.’ #to ‘HOLY SHIT THATS THE ENTIRE TOWN’ #to ‘wait fuck how are we still alive? to ‘a weirdly high percentage of folks in the town had metagenes so not a super significant amount #of ppl has died from abnormal lookin cancer.’ to ‘oh my god everyone that doesn’t have the meta gene here is slowly dying get them Out Now’ #bones writes in the tags #anyways. that’s kinda the story #I’ll rewrite the tags into a proper post and see if I can revise it so my paper isn’t needed to make some plot points work #bc it’s a Far simpler explanation than the one I wrote in the doc so I’ll base it off of this version instead

[barefootcosplayer]

Rapture as a haunted house…….

#I cannot stop imagining a woman whose parter was stolen to be one of the first big daddies #he was a construction diver who one day doesn’t come home #and I imagine her in bed hearing those hollow stamping steps #and she sees when she wakes a puddle of water under her front door and two boot prints on her welcome mat #like if this were 2016 I would have already written a 2k poorly worded but emotionally honest fic about Sander Cohen being haunted by his #murdered lovers in fort frolic #but sadly I am an adult and instead have to go to the antique store #perhaps later #<- unlikely tho this backslide into bioshock is probably bc I’ve been living alone for two weeks #and I’ve got a couple more so maybe I will be writing bioshock again at some point #I’d have to replay the games…. #myb…. #barefoot raps the news #the potential for hauntings rapture is just immense it would be so fun and so pretty

[roylustang]

Personally I literally do not mind when the heat index is 103F but I just cannot do this humidity bro. I cannot live if my body can’t cool itself off.

#it’s fine actually but the CONSEQUENCES #I’ve decided to run commando bc it just doesn’t make sense #imagine wearing underwear under bathing suit going swimming and then going to the bathroom #it’s so fucking ANNOYING #that’s what my life is like on the weekends #also I said my room was in the high 80s or something I think that was a lie #bc it was cooler outside than in my room #I don’t really get it #it’s supposed to FEEL LIKE 103F outside but I don’t think it does #I’m just so tired of being wet I HATE IT it’s literally like jumping in a body of water and then running a half marathon #and u only get wetter #my phone is USELESS #I could only use it when I passed the public bathrooms so I could wipe the sweat off with TOILET PAPER #running #I would run badwater but I would NEVER run the HURT 100 #maybe #I’ve never actually run in dry heat but it cannot be worse than this literally #scientifically and physiologically it can’t be worse than running in humidity

[pyreshe]

love netflix, love how they'll be like "yeah this show was beloved by fans and critics. we are going to cancel it after a single season, leaving it forever on a cliff hanger 😊" and then "anyway, who wants ANOTHER season of e.mily in p.aris?"

#and like at this point im more or less convinced that if two women look at each other the show is already dead in the water #but like they will still use queerbaiting as a marketing tool in their advertising of shows #like if u look at how they showed enid and w.ednesday in the marketing material? u cannot convince me they werent trying to court #a sapphic audience #that wasnt an accident. that marketing shit has to go through a gauntlet of people. they knew exactly what they were doing #✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ: ooc / [mothman vc] take me home country roads #like the state of art and shit under capitalism makes me SO SAD #and netflix's egregious 'we gotta pump out as many shows as possible even if we cancel them 5 minutes later' model isnt the only offender #but good god if it doesnt make me sad

[jlf23tumble]

I just saw that in a different post, not the one you are referring to. One of the gold stars was saying (in so many words) that the peace ring is an engagement ring, and she linked to posts that went more into detail. But left out the fact that Harry stopped wearing the peace ring last year. She's one that preaches 'never broke up/they're still together' so I'm sure there is an excuse somewhere, like Louis is looking after it. It's really ironic. By the way in the Harry wax work he is wearing the peace ring because he wore the ring on that day to the MP premiere, it wasn't randomly added. Interestingly I think that was the last time he wore it.

Yeah, idk who made the masterpost, there's probably more than one, tbh, but it's wilde to me, the whole fingers-in-ears lalalalalalalala moment about its rather obvious absence (and occasional reappearance, just to prove it's not lost or anything)

#i'm still here for my own ring theory/head canon #we all tell ourselves stories etc #but it's a real odd one to gymnasticize yourself over if you're gonna gold-star it #the 'louis looking after it' theory is fucking coucou BANANAS and i lose it every time i think about it #this reminds me i should go and look at the latest additions to the painful outro music playlist #it's funny tho how people cannot HANDLE the idea of bumpy waters under the ship #so they come up with the CRAZIEST anon receipts #the lastest one! #i need to do a chef reaction video #'uh....1/10 i would bounce right out of a fic if this appeared anywhere near it'

[orcelito]

Nothing like a work week with no days off & a boss that's terrible at communication to make you reaaaaally really really wanna punch something

:)

#speculation nation #negative/ #i guess. #im just so fed up with the whole situation. today was supposed to be my day off but i worked 3.5hr anyways #'voluntarily' but ugh #at least i have basically two days off at the start of next week. so i just gotta get through two more days of this bullshit #i dont have money to spend on food but i really want to buy something #really want chipotle. but i dont want to go out of my way to get chipotle. #wish i had some Fucking money. but nooo everything has to be so fucking expensive #technically i have money but with rent approaching i Cannot spend it lol #im so fucking sick of my life. i want to be graduated from college and done with this shit already. #but unfortunately i have Perpetually Fucked Up Brain disease! #and also chronic fatigue that mixes terribly with having to work during school #i just do not have the privilege of being able to go to college without working at the same time #if i did then maybe id have been done with it Years ago lmao #and i cannot. i Cannot. do school full time while also working just under full time. #i tried it. many times. and i blundered it so many times. #and it made me. Without Fail. entirely and completely miserable. #part time school while working is the only way i can make this work. chipping away at collehe while trying to keep my head above water #but oh i am absolutely full of envy for people who can just focus on school. who dont have to work too. #must be fucking nice to have loaded parents and/or a properly working brain that lets you get shit like scholarships #must be soooooooo fucking nice. #lmfao i need to just go home. take a nice shower. maybe make some ramen. and then fucking chill. #if anyone tries to fucking bother me about work im going to Snap.

[zephsomething]

Y’all I have had a headache for over a week now and I would very much like it to end

#it’s the Chronic Pain times yall #I cannot for the life of me figure out what’s causing it this time #and it’s one of those just slow steady pains where it’s just always there #like that comic about chronic pain that just had half transparent pain floating around their head #every now and then it verges towards migrain before backng dow #down #but at this point. honestly. I’d love for it to just go full migraine and then I’d have an excuse to take pain meds or maybe a day off #lol I don’t take days off for headaches or migraines #but I can dream #also? exactly zero pain meds are effecting it #I’ve tried naproxen I’ve tried acetaminophen I’ve tried ibuprofen #this is it for over the counter meds I currently have on hand #and I’m not buying new meds just be #because my brain is back on it’s bullshit #I’ve also tried drinking more water and more exercise and less screen time and more caffeine and less caffeine and I’m wearing my glasses #and limiting my time under fluorescents (as much as I can i do work in a school) and I’ve tried quiet environments and loud ones and #and putting my hair up and letting it down and braiding it and ​everything else I can think of I am completely out of ideas #zeph rambles #headaches #chronic pain #brain bullshit

[ajdrawshq]

i open kh3 and enter data greeting but i just spend the next few hours looking at all the pictures i have instead of doing anything

#i have a big set where i was playing around w the lighting things and lemme tell u #u cannot go wrong with red n blue lighting #add water decal for sweet blur effect #and high contrast #ooh also if u want an area that can be like pure darkness some parts under the scala map (broken version) work BEAUTIFULLY #u get a pure black background n just add ur own lighting as u need and boom #my favorite place for photoshoots <3 #wish i could send some of these to my phone :(

[gogoakechi]

"dont trust tiktok influencers OR academics just do YOUR OWN RESEARCH!!!!!" like oh yeah i can perform some chemical tests on the shroud of turin no problem i got it in good with the pope

#personal #academics have entire careers in their chosen field and often get hands on experience from the source #sure itd be great if i could go to antartica and study water under a microscope but like. i cannot #and chances are 99% of influencer and cannot interact with their subject to that degree either

[bloody-shadow666]

DID YOU GUYS KNOW THERE ARE SO MANY DUMB THINGS YOU NEED TO KNOW ABOUT WATER HEATERS. DID YOU KNOW. im gonna explode I hate home ownership

#i hate renting also #But at least when the water heat goes out in a rental it's the definition of not my fucking problem #let's play a game called how do I find a water heater with the exact correct amp and voltage and size and type! #we have a mobile home. we do not have a mobile home water heater. #we cannot even GET a mobile home water heater. because the installation of the non mobile home water heater FUCKED EVERYTHING UP #luckily it's electric not gas so not being HUD compliant won't kill us #But y'all will not believe how hard it is nowadays to FIND a water heater. that is not a mobile home water heater. that will fit in our #stupid water heater closet #I'm going to explode #My only win of the day is I found the interior water shut off valve so my husband doesn't have to go under the house again #Everytime a spiderweb touches him a piece of his soul dies I think #Its 2:30 a.m and im reading bullshit #M becoming a plumber by internet osmosis. I am so tired.

[disteal]

So I haven’t talked about this on main before, but the situation in South Gaza has gotten so horrifying that I’m p much throwing caution to the wind to desperately plead for eyes on this. I’m raising awareness about stories from activists in Gaza right now, including one of our own.

My lovely, wonderful friend Swin (aka tumblr user @combaticon) was deployed as a volunteer medic to a Gaza hospital on the 9th.

When the bloodshed started, she heard they needed extra hands in Gaza, she spoke Arabic and had the training, and she went.

I’ve been in contact with her throughout. She’s so incredibly brave it takes my breath away. My heart bleeds for these children she’s taking care of and how resilient they are is… astonishing.

Swin and these poor people have been under siege for so long, and they’re in desperate need of critical supplies. They have to filter water through their clothes, and it’s getting dangerously cold. Foods finally been getting through, but there’s not enough blankets and jackets to go around and there’s no fuel for the generators.

Their comrades in the West Bank have been completely pushed out by settler thugs. It’s incredibly unsafe to even be doing humanitarian work for Palestinians. Remember this the next time a Zionist tells you they’re doing this to ‘feel safe’. The IOF is arming lynch mobs.

On a personal note, this has been the most gut-wrenching week of my life. Every day when I wake up without a text from her I feel so much fear. I fight back the grief but I don’t know how to help or what to do. It’s terrifying.

Swin has asked for nothing, absolutely nothing other than something it can show the people around it to make them feel like they’re not going to be abandoned. To make sure they’re not forgotten in some pit praying Rafah opens before Israel decides to slaughter them all.

Today was a bad day. She’s alive but beyond worrying about her privacy now; she’s asked me to share this and to beg that we not lose steam and forget about them. Please share this, and please keep being fucking annoying and loud and digging your heels in with fury because we cannot let these people die silently.

[Times of Gaza] [QUD network] [Eye on Palestine]

[link to GCC registration website as the link in this picture is broken]

Please keep in mind that the Global Conscience Convoy is NOT soliciting donations, and registration is to sign up for attendance to the actual event in Cairo. There’s a list of other actions you can do to boost awareness for their protest at Rafah on the website.

#palestine #world news #gaza strip #israel #dis.txt #long post #psa #important #i just want her to come home man #i’m so so so so proud of her

[credencecore]

In response to the ridiculous reaction the public is having to a basement being sealed up and then someone knocking the seal in and reentering the basement , I am now going to be accusing all churches that have basements of having *checks notes* evil torture chambers down there

#y’all cannot be serious #I have seen some of the dumbest tales I’ve ever seen in my life about the tunnel #it isn’t even a tunnel #it’s a basement #with corridors #because that’s what basements in NYC look like #because there isn’t a ground #there is multiple layers of industrial mayhem #under every block of NYC #do you guys think the subway is surrounded by dirt??? #it’s not!! #it’s surrounded by a network of tunnels so that it can be accessed and repaired #all of NYC is on top of tunnels #subway tunnels #corridors to access electrical and plumbing #water and sewage #have you sincerely believed these men where going Tunnel Lady TM #they knocked in some sealed up rooms #but they didn’t build them #some of them are younger than the rooms they reopened

[pibsboots]

I've always had chronic fatigue. I remember being twelve, and an adult mentioned how I couldn't possibly know how tired they felt because adulthood brought levels of exhaustion I couldn't imagine. I thought about that for days in fear, because I couldn't remember the last time I didn't feel tired.

Eventually I came to terms with the fact that I was just tired, and I couldn't do as many things as everyone else. People called me lazy, and I knew that wasn't true, but there's only so many times you can say "I'm tired" before people think it's an excuse. I don't blame them. When a teenager does 20 hours of extracurriculars every week and only says "I'm too tired" when you ask them to do the dishes, it's natural to think it's an excuse. At some point, I started to think the same thing.

It didn't matter that I could barely sit up. It was probably all in my head, and if I really wanted to, I could do it.

When I learned the name for it, chronic fatigue, I thought wow, people that have that must be miserable, because I am always tired and I cannot imagine what it would feel like if it were worse.

Spoiler alert, if you've been tired for a decade, it's probably chronic fatigue.

Once I figured that out though, I thought of my energy as the same as everyone else's, just smaller in quantity. And that might be true for some people, but I've figured out recently that it absolutely isn't true for me.

I used to be like wow I have so much energy today I can do this whole list for sure! And then I'd do the dishes and have to lay down for 2 hours. Then I'd think I must gave misjudged that, I didn't have as much energy as I thought.

But the thing is - I did have enough energy for more tasks, I just didn't go about them properly.

With chronic fatigue, your maximum energy is obviously much smaller than the average person's. Doing the dishes for you might use up the same percentage of energy that it takes to do all the daily chores for someone else.

If someone without chronic fatigue was to do all the daily chores, they would take breaks. Because otherwise, they're sprinting a marathon for no reason and it would take way more energy than necessary. We have to do the same.

Put the cups in the dishwasher, take a break. Put the bowls in, take a break. So on and so forth. This may mean taking breaks every 2-5 minutes but afterwards, you get to not feel like you've run a marathon while carrying 4 people on your back.

Today, I had a moderate amount of energy. Under my old system of go till you drop, I probably could have done most of the dishes and wiped off the counter and then been dead to the world for the rest of the day.

Under the new system, I scooped litter boxes, cleaned out the fridge, took the trash out, cleaned the stove, and wiped off the counter and did all the dishes. And after all that, I still had it in me to make a simple dinner, unload the dishwasher, and tidy the kitchen.

It was complete and utter insanity. Just because I sat down whenever I felt myself getting more tired than I already was.

All this to say, take fucking breaks. It's time to unlearn the ceaseless productivity bullshit that capitalism has shoved down our throats. Its actively counterproductive. Just sit down. Drink some water. Rest your body when it needs to rest.

There will still be days where there is nothing to do but rest, and days where half a load of dishes is absolutely the most I can do. But this method has really helped me minimize those, which is so incredibly relieving.

#chronic illness #chronic fatigue #chronic pain