#can i unfollow my brain

[feeshies]

i can't believe i had to see this post on my dash. the tag is for people with psychotic disorders, histories with hallucinations and delusions, and trauma involving gaslighting. it's really not a big deal to add it. and even with that being said, they shouldn't have to disclose their medical and personal history to get some basic respect out of you. get over yourselves.

#ableism #i don't have a psychotic disorder or anything #so i'm going to keep my personal feelings limited and to the tags #but i audibly gasped when i saw this post #'are you stupid; you don't trust your own senses' #are you KIDDING ME #guess what op: SOME PEOPLE CAN'T #i'm so happy that your brain can always tell the difference between what's real and what's not #maybe use that big brain of yours to spare some kindness towards people who can't #the level of ignorance is gross #anyway everyone who put this on my dash is getting unfollowed and blocked

[abirddogmoment]

In the same vein as my Dog Thoughts post about performance foundations last night, the more I watch Sports People, the more motivated I am to distance myself from them and be done with dog sports completely.

#i had this thought while i was still actively competing #but mav was one of the top performers for his breed for his entire career and that is addictive #photographing events this summer doglessly made it sooooo clear that i dont want to associate with Sports People #no offense to those of you who are Sports People but it is so not my vibe #i have FOMO for sure but is it enough to return to that?? #(there is an argument to be made that people need to see more people having fun in the ring and keeping it light - #but i am a competitive person and honestly there were periods where i was NOT keeping it light and thats not cool) #i can see how easily i can be sucked back in #i unfollowed and blocked sooooo many people because i simple Do Not Want To See It #idk its the same vein as calling your dog bad or asshole as a 'joke' #is it actually a joke or are you harbouring resentment and justifying it as a joke? #im not sure how exactly they're similar but in my heart they are #there is a very specific flavour thats prominent in dog sports and it is not the right flavour for me #hmm im posting a lot of text posts about my thoughts in the last 24h hope this is out of my system now #back to regular queued pictures of the pubby tysm #eta: this includes confo people btw #it should be Competition People i suppose #sports are at the forefront of my brain because i was so deeply involved for years #but ive photographed enough confo shows to know that is also not the vibe

[goldkirk]

When did the latest 1,000 of you follow me??? good lord hi and welcome, I should maybe pay attention to my notifications and activity page more 😭

#I’m not sure if you showed up about fanfiction or from one of my brief hyperfixations or from the cult post or from Star Trek or batfam #but hi welcome hello! #it’s just this! it’s just this. all the time. I bounce interests and recycle old ones #and share way too much personal life on this blog #especially in post tags #and i really love talking with people but most of the time my brain treats messages and asks and emails and texts #as if they are a deadly danger #so I WILL take up to 7 years to respond #but please know it haunts me every day #and I will get to it eventually #even if it’s long after you unfollowed me potentially #anyway. in this house we stan fairness and authenticity and compassion towards both others and self #and we are a pro skepticism and pro sourced-information and pro scientific research around here #AND obsessed with experiencing existence through the realm of story #I hope you enjoy your time here! you can always stick around and I’m happy to see you #but absolutely unfollow me at any time! curate your online experience! it should be good for you #when I or my blog no longer spark joy #please unfollow. I literally do not care. your experience is supposed to be nice for you #take what serves you and leave the rest. #this is just tumblr. you have a whole life #I’ll never be mad #👍 #2024 #this is a lot of followers. like not five digits a lot but INCOMPREHENSIBLE numbers to ME regardless lol #thanks for following whatever your reason was

[itspileofgoodthings]

this is your reminder that if I don’t follow you on tumblr I still love you.

#I hate that tumblr did the freaking mutual thing because now everyone can see #dash curation is such a personal thing and it’s also a brain thing #If you are intellectually stimulating it’s better if I just check your blog now and then #(which doesn’t mean if I do follow you you are intellectually not stimulating) #it’s just. a delicate balance and vibe #and it’s one of those things where the more you say it and draw attention to it the more awkward it becomes #But also I’ve been wanting to make this post for a while! #idk. it’s something I’ve wrestled with for so long and then eventually I was just like. I need the vibe of the dash to be a certain way #just for my own sanity and that involves not following a lot of people tbh #anyway I just. Yeah. It’s a public space so the necessity of boundaries being established is normal and everyone’s gotta #but it’s also a community and I know how hurtful it can be to suddenly realize someone is not following you who once was #idk. I strongly encourage everyone to unfollow me #and check in when you want if you want lol #who would WANT these things on their dash #just all interspersed #No one cares Maria it’s not important etc. #but yeah it’s just very. when my depression works the graveyard shift all of the people #I’ve ghosted stand there in the room #like. It can FEEL like that

[katyspersonal]

#personal #internets #at this rate I've unfollowed both of the kinda.. 'controvercial' blogs I've been following #since there was a good chunk of actually good takes about how bad media is now and society and braindead internet 'activists' that- #-had it too good in their western countries and NEEDED to invent the reason to bully and excile people #could honestly resonate with it despite some other posts causing genuine pain. but mostly about terribly handled media #like you know that thing when corporations do terrible ass rep to pretend that they care for minorities #or artificially fabricate online backlash against their new actors to show investors that people show interest for their product because- #-of all the clicks on their article? #like discussion of this kind sorta keeps me sober #as a person with BPD I get contaminated by opinions VERY easily and as an autist I will believe everything if it is put together 'logically #that's why I HAVE to be exposed to every possible opinion so I am forced to make out my own rather than being swayed anywhere #but at this point those blog became kinda.. bad? like they don't just have 'opinions' but they hate just to hate #but now my dashboard and recs are full of exclusively things I can fully agree with and I am scared that it will rot my brain #like.. emotions are always the same. where is the 'wait WHAT' effect? where is anger? where is self-reflection? #but ALSO I realized that 'those' blogs are no better than those western 'warriors' I despise and they become narrow-minded too in the end #they advertise themselves as 'open to debate' only to always sway debate into trying to win and not into actually discovering the truth #I cannot trust any side because they're all narrow-minded and hostile but I cannot trust people without any side because- #-they're fence-sitters without morals that side with the winner #is there a secret third thing? like is there a way to not take a side but to still HAVE ideals and opinions? #my problem is that if I am not exposed to people that trash everything I value I forget why AM I valuing [a thing] to BEGIN with #and that won't do will it

[adozentothedawn]

Six Sentence Someday

Tagged by @orime-stories thank you!

Despite what it looks like, I am in fact ocasionally still writing, I just tend to word vomit about my current obsession and then never finish it.^^° So yeah, my last game that I finished was Fire Emblem Fates: Conquest and it made me go insane, so have a part of my 1k monologue that I wrote for a potential time travel fix it. It is only 5 sentences because 6 would have been awkward, but if I ever get to it again you'll get a lot more.

"They ordered me to kill you but I couldn't do it. I would have ruined everything because I looked at you and remembered cherry blossoms and warm nights. I remembered off key lullabies and larger hands than mine on my back. I couldn't do it. And I think when you looked at me you knew that."

Gonna tag @adraveins and @stylishanachronism if you have anything you'd like to share.^^

#thanks for tagging me! #i know I don't respond to a lot of tags these days but i promise i see and appreciate all of them #i'm just writing my bachelor's thesis and that takes a lot of my brain power #i am in fact currently procrastinating on that #anyway wanna guess what that scene is? #it's not hard for anyone who's played the game probably tbh most of that monologue right now is just recounting what happened #with a bit of personal perspective #that game is wild in how it fluctuates between legit punching me in the teeth with emotion and being absolute garbage #the idea of that potential fic is that the corrin of all paths is the same #kinda like how some 3h fics work #time travel back to the crux and try again #my excuse is magic dragon bullshit cause no one can stop me #i am ironically also somewhat itching to write an Odin and Camilla ship #cause i have opinions about that #might write a separate post for that some time if anyone's interested #would be another opportunity to procrastinate xD #anyway orime don't be confused about my follow message for some damn reason tumblr unfollowed me a while back and i didn't notice #tumblr shenanigans

[quarklynx]

Folks, can we please tag posts regarding current events? not everyone is in a space where they should be seeing content like that quite so frequently

#lynx thinks #there is obviously more nuance i could add to this statement but i tried tj keep it straightforward #tag your current events and news so that those who arent up to seeing more about that than they'd like don't have to #and i get it can sometimes be a privilege to avoid those topics at all if ever but like #the human brain iant designed for a constant deluge of depressing information #and some people have trauma that could be seriously triggered by some of these headlines ive been seeing #completely untagged stuff just being shared around. some posts dont wven have text that can be filtered either #even if you come up with your own unique tag for all serious irl stuff thats still better than leaving everything untagged #i genuinely can only stand to look at news articles for so much of my day before my mental health dives #and i cant avoid social media completely because thats where i network for my commissions #but i dont want to unfollow everyone that posts untagged things #tumblr can filter some things but if you tag stuff then theres a better chance of it being filterable #also on an unrelated note it's probably not a good idea to just reblog evwrything you see without vetting the source #you could accidentally be contributing to the spread of misinformation if you don't check the source before rebloggong #idk. maybe this is privileged of me to even ask. im just So Tired. every day it's just mote death and doom and im so... tired

[vampire-nyx]

its such an interesting/odd feeling that like half my mutuals aren't (openly or primarily) radqueer, and the other half are, so I'm not. entirely sure what to post/reblog anymore- cause on one hand I would love to post more radqueer stuff and engage in some rq discourse buttt I dont wanna alienate and drive away my non-rq mutuals by annoying them with niche posts they're not into

#I guess the solution to this would be to tag rq stuff so if my mutuals dont like it they can just opt out #but that seems excessive in my brain #I would do it though if mutuals/followers said they wanted me to #there is also the fear that my non-rq mutuals/followers aren't aware of the full nature of my radqueer-ness #and I worry that some of them will be angry with me for my stances/identities #or at a lower level just. think I'm weird and unfollow me #also also there's the fear of leaning into rq content and getting my blog termed because people are insane #which is why I've avoided the topic of my identity a lot #sunny speaks

[bluurange]

I'm almost at the end of playing cult of the lamb and there's SO much about it i wanna reblog but i also wanna be a bit mindful to others so .... anything u guys would like tagged like blood or religion or stuff like that??

#ngl tho i can do liike 3 tops if u have more maybe unfollow me bc my brain doesn't work and i kNOW IMMA FORGET LMAO

[wild-at-mind]

If you ever see me becoming one of those transmisandry people, please fucking call me out immediately.

#it shouldn't happen though i am too triggered by MRA-lite material #i can't see that changing any time soon even though i haven't had exposure to the content for like 10 years #the transmisandry discourse on this site melts my brain it's awful it's just online stuff being argued about more online stuff #this is not the same as me saying i will never be treated badly for being transmasc i am not stupid i know that happens #and i am fully committed to fighting the patriachy which has nothing whatsoever to do with my individual manhood or anyone else's #it's a system and yes gender and how we fit into the patriachy is made extremely complicated in trans circles and that's ok! #i promise it is you don't have to design a new system that cis women and trans women are using to do oppression on specifically trans mascs #we're all being fucked over by the patriachy and how the fuck does it help to be divided #but in reality let's face it i can say this all i want but the real reason i'm never going anywhere near being a transmisandry person #is because i was exposing myself to MRA-lite content at a formative age and harming myself in the process #even if i didn't know i was a trans man guess what it would have harmed me just as much if i did have that awareness #and honestly when i see transmisandry discourse all i see is that fucking triggering stuff again #all it does is nitpick whether patriachy is real with tiny examples it doesn't talk systemicly and it doesn't help men in the slightest #it pays lipservice to marginised men but it has no interest in talking about the fact that men are usually simultaenously #oppressed and oppressor at the same time- this is not accusatory it is just factual #it's true of the queer community too and basically every community #but we can't seem to talk about it without just harming each other and blaming and not seeing each other as human #the internet makes it all so much fucking worse this stuff can't exist without it #anyway i'm super rambling but these are genuinely very triggering topics for me i have unfollowed people i LOVE becuase of this #and i still love them! unfollowing on a social media isn't a referendum on that i just can't see that stuff and i need it gone from my dash

[dcwnthercbbithcle]

When it comes to softblocking, my recommendation is hardblocking me! In fact, it's my preference because I do not want to unintentionally tread over boundaries that are set with me, but I also know that I am not nearly observant enough to notice if I've been softblocked. I don't check my followers, and unless a mutual is super active in interacting with me, or often on the dash, I don't think I'd notice if I was unfollowed from them.

#its not personal I'm just slow!!! #I also make it a habit to follow everyone I can that looks neat without thinking #I probably won't remember if I've followed you before but was unfollowed due to the softblock #its monkey mode in my brain

[teaandinanity]

Sometimes I'm like 'oh, right, the inside of my head is Not The Standard Model' about the DUMBEST possible shit.

#there's some polls about non-canon pairings for the main characters of books that center a canonical pairing #and I'm just like '... why are y'all reading books if you don't like the pairing that's on the page????' #and a friend tried to explain that you can like more than one pairing because sometimes it's fun #and I just. it doesn't compute. my brain goes 'sounds fake. hate this.' #I have a tiny tiny handful of pairs where I'll happily read one of the characters with another person because I really like that ship too #but NONE of them are canonical so in that case both of the ships are fanon #and I have a few things where I went 'that's fucking stupid they have two hands and polyamory exists' about a canonical pairing #but for some reason the idea of doing that first thing when I love an official pairing makes me feel like I'm breaking out in hives #like to the point where I have a bunch of things blacklisted here and have just bookmarked my searches with all the exclusions on AO3 #anyway in conclusion I'm gonna find a way to block these hopefully without unfollowing anything I wanna be following #but sometimes people just do not tag and if I can't blacklist then it becomes Necessary so I can stop mentally wailing 'WHYYYY' all the tim #this is also me wailing ab having to unsub and never finish a fic #whyyyyy

[stereax]

woohoo spiraling out of control right now (what else is new really I've been fucked up and spiraling for weeks now) and trying to figure out reasons not to delete my tumblr and discord and myself along the way

but you know. talking about myself on my blog automatically means I'm attention seeking and fishing for pity right? should just shut up and stick to the news eh, it's all I'm good for :D

anyway if you need me I'll be in the corner reliving the past, coming to terms with reality, and trying to convince myself I'm not the problem despite every indication to the contrary ✌︎︎

#sterechats :) #09:58 pm - this is a bad idea but scheduling it anyway #what's the worst that can happen really? everyone leaves again? nobody talks to me again? #probably gonna delete this in the morning so. meh. not like it matters not like I matter :D #10:29 pm - wow it feels like my head is on fire #like my brain is actually burning and I can't do a damn thing about it #I should be happy right now! the devils are winning! my favorite guys are scoring! #but no! I'm barely keeping it together around my family and praying I don't wake up tomorrow <3 #11:00 pm - I need to get out of here #I need to get out of here out of here out of here I can't stay here any more this is killing me #everyone hates me and I need to chew my arms open maybe then everything will make sense #why am I even writing these tags what does it matter #I was so much more in control of myself when I was sh-ing #maybe I should get back to that maybe it'll help I don't know anymore #I just want my friends back but they hate me hahahaha #11:24 pm - wonder how many people are gonna block me after this one #how many people will finally be fed up and leave for good #everyone leaves and I should be used to this by now #here's a truck stop instead of saint peter's (yeah yeah yeah yeah) #11:41 pm - it's friday afternoon/there goes antigone to be buried alive #in the next world I want to be something useful/like a staple gun/or in love #I would fall off a cliff for you/a thousand times and call it a good day #maybe I'm just incapable of being human! maybe that's it! #maybe I'm not even human at all... but something worse instead... #1:22 am - moving the posting of this back from 3 to 6 am #not that that matters and not that I matter but I don't think I'll sleep #and I don't want this to post when I'm awake #I know I'm just going to get unfollowed and blocked and left behind as always #because happiness and good things and friendships just aren't things I get to have really #I just wish people would stop lying and telling me they're different and they'll stay when they're not different and won't stay

[itspileofgoodthings]

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#sometimes I KNOW the number of people I have wounded by unfollowing and I hate that tumblr makes it so easy to tell now #but I simply have an unhappy and prickly brain #and I have gone from feeling soooo bad about unfollowing anyone to just recognizing that I just had to be practical about how I needed #my dash to be #but like. It’s never because I hate you. Sometimes it’s because you’re TOO interesting or you blog too much like me #Or it’s just more discourse than I can take in at any one sitting #and I’ll still stop by your page to stop in when I see you in my notes #but also. it just kind of kills me because I know that it causes hurt sometimes no matter what I say! #and like. making a post like this might make it WORSE #anyway idk why but I was reminded of this yesterday when this former student asked me wistfully if I remembered her #and I was like of course! and she was like but you have so many students … #and it’s true. impossible to make them all FEEL equally seen even though i try #I am NOT comparing you to students just saying tumblr is like teaching in that it brings you into contact with many people #and the sheer number means you can’t stay close with them all #Anyway see what I mean by the chattering

[luckystrike-x]

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#i swear to god i can't hear one more thing about the nuances of the american system #everytime i read about how dystopian the us is it makes me wanna bash my brain against a wall #i wish there was a way to blacklist these “educational” and “informative” posts about how unaccessible healthcare isanother cop is #getting away with murder insulin is not affordable despite only costing 1 simoleons to manufacture or whatever #or how you should still vote for biden or not vote for biden or maybe vote for biden but VOTE never STOP VOTINGcall your rep!! #i simply. can't. fucking. stand. it anymore #i got all this.....american knowledge in me i absolutely never sought it just got chugged down my throat daily #there is this tone like we're all in the know no need to specify whom certain news might possibly be concerning as if there was only #one country on this planet #i'm just here on this website getting splashed by these completely untargeted informations ceaselessly #idk maybe it's such a non problem i just need to curate my tumblr experience better and stop following so many usamericans #but rn i just reached the limit of what i can bare #i can't follow what is going on in palestine whilst still learning new shit about the usa and give it some kind of value #i will not shed a single tear for america literally one of the richest most soulless country #just fix yourself #or don't idc #from now on i'm unfollowing on sight if i see another post about some fucked up american thing it's bye i'm so done

[sweatyflytrap]

mutual bingo 🦦

One of my first friends on this site!!! You are the fucking cutest and the sweetest and whenever you show up in my notifs I am like look ELLE IS HERE!!!!

I love when u come to tell me about how quali doesn't matter and old man has the dawg in him while we both know he is fucked 😭😭😭

I always turn into this 🥹🥹 whenever u see a snoopy post and send it to me because u know i will be hyped about it because ohh my friend inside the phone though of me 😭😭

Also the way you causally talk about your number of major injuries makes me scared of you and also very worried for you, u need to be wrapped up in bubble wrap for your good🔫

#we have a warriors bond (puttibg things that give both us brain damage of eachothers timeline and refusing to unfollow because I LIKE THIS #PERSON) #i hope i always keep seeing you on my dash my love 🫂🩷 #sorry this was late i went to eat pasta and cry about olive oil 😭😭😭 #also how can i forget our biggest shared passion #the need to leave teeth imprint on the verstappen thigh