#can I still be emotional over this

[hansoeii]

stede bunnet

#no thoughts just ed and his emotional support bunny #i felt like a genius coming up with stede bunnet this better make you laugh #because im still giggling over it #praying that his name is anything close to this because i need it #fun fact my bunny who sadly passed away in 2020 looked exactly like the one ed adopts and it made me cry a bit seeing that scene #her name was soe and I changed my username for her #she was the most prcious baby she got me through all the hardships #so I believe stede bunnet can do that for ed too #ofmd #ofmd 2 #our flag means death #our flag means death 2 #ofmd fanart #edward teach #taika waititi #blackbeard #ofmd 2 fanart #my art #digital art

[crowsgrudge]

fionna's world being represented by a dandelion makes so much sense ... they're weeds. yet people make wishes through them, changing their whole meaning from something meant to be destroyed to something hopeful.

dandelions are also resilient and it makes sense that something associated with them would. you know. perservere despite the destruction caused by the scarab.

but ultimately i think what REALLY made me tear up over this is that dandelions are really boring plants. when you're a kid you blow on them and make your wish but they're not eyecatching or anything but still, fionna's final wish was for her old world to still exist as it was when she left it (> plain and simple. boring even).

like the moment she realized she would lose her friends, and that her friends might forget each other if the world got its magic back, she immediately decided she didn't want it and I think that ties back to the dandelion metaphor so well... like, do you really need magic to be real to find it everywhere? or can you turn something boring into something magical?

#remi rambles #fionna and cake #f&c spoilers #sorry i have many Not Silly thoughts about the finale #i looove fionna she was such a wonderful character .. so well written and real TO ME #shes my best friend shes my everything shes silly she makes me so emotional #like even when simon told her he was gonna wear the crown to get the magic back to her world #< the moment she realized he would go crazy she started to think about it #like she wont sacrifice a friend just to get what she really wants #i really loved her journey through the show idk #going from being so over her routine > finding out magic can be dark too > making her own magical world just by loving her friends #like its so much more than 'the power of friendship will save us!!' #yes she saved the world thanks to the love she had for her friends but it was backed up by a full journey beforehand #i think. the line about having functional toilets (while still being a p good joke) makes the point so much clearer #we have been to the end of the universe and back but we have functioning toilets !!! #like do u get it. do i sound crazy #< crazy person voice #anyway yes im done sorry #live laugh love fionna and cake

[nabtime]

Okay hear me out. Fenton parenting “i support my son being trans but i draw the line at him being a ghost” type situation yeah? Yeah. So like.

They still vivisect him and all that. But also give him top surgery. Since they’re already there and all.

Do you see my vision

#nap shitposts in the afterlife #danny phantom #like yeah this was a deeply traumatic event for dannny but also. free booblessness. #also like. the deeply complicated emotions around it all like 🤌 #on the one hand. relief at the confirmation they saw him as a boy. even if they stopped seeing him- #-as their son. bc he was a monster. not bc he was trans but bc he was a ghost. which- #-is a whole other can of worms. #so even tho they ignored him when he told them over and over that he was still their son- it wasn’t transphobia #and then there would be the sadness. the fear. the anger. #the anger at everything they took from him in one fell swoop and they didn’t even know. #how was he supposed to be happy about this step in his transition? proud of his scars? content to be shirtless? #he could never enjoy the feeling of going shirtless at the beach. not with the vivisection scars so vivid. not with the ugly memories there #anyway. also i think the concept is kinda funny.

[moeblob]

Lil warm up doodle because I'd been playing some Thropes and then watched some dubbed DunMeshi and am a Damien Haas enjoyer so. Enjoy a Shez.

#fe warriors three hopes #shez #i usually watch subbed anime but my brain recently hasn't been able to process subtitles + not english #like my brain cannot filter the difference and then i simply get stressed out because i dont know what was said via reading #and its been... bad tbh #so i swapped over to the english audio but still with subtitles and its been fine ! #i also really enjoy how damien sounds so excited cause when i would watch him stream #and he would go on a story telling adventure it was so enthusiastic and genuine #and i like how he has that same vibe in the show #that said i have never drawn fanart for dunmeshi and dont wanna start now while i have other art obligations #i can dabble with learning how to draw different characters after i do comms if i feel up to it #but fe is such a default for me its really easy to draw as a doodle/warm up #also im incredibly biased to being fond of damien cause he commissioned me for emotes for twitch #which is incredibly flattering and no other va has bought art from me ? so thank you mr haas for the honors #i also am a shez enjoyer and love the vibes of both shez looks

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[mcytlin]

Thinking about the last three standing.

Thinking about Scott being the embodiment of “I would die for you. If you are close the the end I will let you strike me down so you can go on for longer. If it’s between you or the rest of the world, I’ll choose you to be the one to take me out. If it’s you against me I will willingly go down so you don’t have to.”

Thinking about Martyn being the embodiment of “I would kill for you. If everyone is hunting you down, I will be beside you and defend you and take you out myself if that’s what you ask of me. If our allies have betrayed you I will turn my blade on them and make them suffer for the pain they have brought you. I will not die for you if that’s what it takes to keep you safe, but I will go into battle time and time again for your sake.”

Thinking about Impulse being the embodiment of “I would live for you. If you are gone I will go on in your stead. If you are not there to leave a mark on the world, I will be the one to leave a mark for you. If you ask of me to carry on until the end, I will get up time and time again to honor your wish. I cannot not die for you anymore, and I do not kill in your name, but I will persevere for you so you may live on in me.”

#can you tell i'm still emotional over the finale #limited life smp #trafficblr #martyn inthelittlewood #scott smajor #impulsesv #rambles #character analysis #I guess? #limited life spoilers

[ganondoodle]

i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo

#ganondoodles talks #also probably sounds like self pity #but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist #i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think #but the internet never gets to see that much of me #i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere #so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing #i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out #i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with #i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong #im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh #it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again #sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with- #-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it #doesnt sound like a good excuse #... i want to thank those that do stick with me #even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise #there are little things that still make me angry at myself #like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing #and i got two #and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop #i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late #i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom #no matter how much i enjoy the ask #and i love getting asks!!! #im sorry :((

[transmechanicus]

Really fucked up that two ppl can care about each other and make their best efforts to communicate and still end up hurting each other so badly they cannot stand to be in the same room.

#my stuff #i feel soooo bad talking to my therapist about the same topics over multiple weeks #like i feel like they're sooo sick of it like damn can this bitch get Over It alreadyyyy #hi yes actually can we talk about the near catastrophic sense of betrayal and loss that has haunted my soul for over a month? #can we talk about how I overcompensate for other's possible feelings and emotions to desperately mask my terror at feeling out of control #can we talk about how even when I know ppl acted with logical reasons necessary for their situation it still hurt me? #and that this pain fills me up with so much anger and frustration that I'm powerless to put anywhere that won't hurt someone #so it just cooks me inside and makes me grind my teeth constantly for weeks #im so angry i did not deserve to be treated like this it's not fair and I have no capacity to fix it or control when it feels better #i just have to survive and wait until i forget about it and hope they don't decide to reach out and fuck it all up #cause i can see that happening #i'll finally be free of thinking about them and generally going about my day unbothered and they'll ask to get coffee or something #and I have no idea what I should do in that scenario. because I don't think we can be friends. #and you have not treated me with the compassion and warmth I treated you #i would want to say mean things. hurtful things. I would want to bite back for once. #and that's not me. that's not who I want to be. #i don't wanna see you. go away. don't talk to me if you're not going to make the pain go away.

[antiqua-lugar]

I never played early access so I have no idea what the vibes were there, but it's wild to me that some people really thought Gale was gonna have some secret evil plan? Like never mind his whole personality, he is the only companion who approves of every single good choice anyone makes.

#bg3 #gale #i even read a post about his emotional manipulation re the crown of karsus #yes he is pushy as hell but this is still a result of his deep desire to do good and thinking he is garbage and everyone could do better #gale wants power because after realising mystra Should Have Never he decides that all gods Should Have Never actually #it's his trauma taking over #and he does this the whole romance! like he is desperately trying to one up himself #he literally goes I can do better than be me! i can be a superior me you are worth of! #i'm not sure it's even manipulative when all you have to do is telling him he is enough as the man he is and he folds immediately #and apologizes after #and also like he firmly beliefs what he is saying

[chaika-jpeg-shitpost]

mahoyome anime vs manga comparison

Aaaah, I really love how they adapted this moment! In the manga it sounded like Chise chose the thorn rune because she wanted to understand Elias better, to become someone like him, but in the anime it seemed like she felt a distance growing between her and Elias ever since they had started attending the college. She misses him and conciously makes him a part of her everyday life even when he's not around.

(manga chapter 79 page 23)

#mahoyome anime vs manga comparison #obv in can still be interpreted both ways at once but i loved that the anime addressed her feelings in a less abstract way #i wish elias reacted to her choosing a thorn rune somehow #i doubt that he'd get emotional over this but it would definitely mean something to him #mahoutsukai no yome #mahoyome #the ancient magus' bride #the ancient magus bride #ancient magus bride #tamb #mahoutsukai no yome season 2 cour 2 #mahoyome season 2 cour 2 #the ancient magus' bride season 2 cour 2 #the ancient magus bride season 2 cour 2 #ancient magus bride season 2 cour 2 #mahoutsukai no yome manga #ancient magus bride manga #elias ainsworth #chise hatori #robinthorn

[yardsards]

queen of never retouching her gotdam hair dye

#eliot posts #toh #toh spoilers #the owl house #amity blight #also it appears to have gotten lighter in addition to the roots. not even witches are safe from the peril of semi permanent hair dye. #though tbh i've kinda grown to enjoy seeing my dye fade and the colours shift. adds some variety to my appearance. #and getting to re-dye is actually kinda fun #re-bleaching the roots is Terrible though #sometimes i just put new dye over brown roots and it doesn't match the rest of the hair but it's Close Enough to not be that noticeable #season 2 episode 2 in which amity decides to dye her own hair and stains camila's sink ourple #and the rest of the episode is her trying to clean it #im assuming her not touching up her dye is like she misses her siblings and doesn't wanna do that without them there. for Emotional Reasons #just like not wanting her hair to be all green so putting that off #but i can still poke fun #she is like a little sister to me. i love her but sometimes i gotta dunk on her.

[mama-we-all-go-to-huesos]

No comment just tears today

#rottmnt lfls #fun fact: I started working on the (still in progress) icicles pmv because of Mikey’s heart wrenching reaction to the noodles #this chapter makes me want to finish that PMV idea just so I can animate Mikey screaming like letting out his emotions will somehow cure me #of my own agony over this gut-stabbing fic #also omg happy late birthday Eternal!!

[daily-linkclick]

thank you everyone for following this blog for the daily doodles! i think i'll officially stop the daily doodles (for now) but i'll still be uploading doodles from time to time! i'm so happy to see a lot more link click fans on tumblr, and to see a lot more people appreciate the trio and the stories they touch :]

#i'll still be around!! just wont be uploading daily doods anymore #maybe when the hiatus starts or if the manhwa picks up!! #especially after that last scene im so excited over lu guang KDJFDF #i just cant keep the daily part for now #i would LOVEEE to make bigger illustrations so im kinda happy to be relieved of the daily doods #dlc says #thank you so much for the ppl who followed this lil humble blog!! #im glad to have seen the early days of lc tumblr where no one was uploading anything #and now theres so much #glad everyone can find something they like in this show !! #i only made this blog as some kind of drawing exercise #so im kinda emotional to see how far ive come from hehe #i love this show for inspiring ppl to move on... WAAAAA LINK CLICK SOBS #SORRY FOR RAMBLIGN KJFHFSKF #btw for any ppl ive regularly reblogged or feel free to ask for my main HEHE #^ or talked to in dms* forgot that bit

[hecksupremechips]

Come back home when you have some sense

You can throw your life away just not at my expense

You’re not the son I raised

#jhariah #this one just rawrrfrrr #and then uh another line thats like ‘tell me did you raise a man?’ #nice #im just listening to the new album to cope with nasty sickness and feeling out of it #god this album is really good it has every emotion in there like this song for example just the part where they scream the chorus its like #hnnnghhh #hm some other moments from the album im liking a lot uhhh i love re: concerns a lot #the part where hes like reading off the complaints and then the part where hes just screaming and its like BAM BAM BAM BAAAM #sasuke is so good and the bit at the end where its like ‘i just want you to know im so so...’ #like hes gonna say sorry but cant seem to say the word for whatever reason and i know nothing about sasuke #but i has to imagine the fan girlies are eating gravel over that one lol it gets me #and theres just that like spooky echoing afterwards #the intro to fire4fun goes SOOOOOOOO hard i was losing my shit its awesome #the entirety of trust ceremony is giving me big feelings but specifically that part towards the end where its all quiet and you hear #its like whistling i think? like a marching band is coming in maybe #but it also kinda sounds like nature too and idk i like got a little bit um magical at that part cuz i was driving down a big hill #and it had been raining but there was a clearing in the clouds and the sun was bright and like at this particular hill #you can just see everything like the land stretches for miles theres trees hills the river farms all that shit #and idk with the extreme stress and depression ive been feeling its hard to have these moments where life seems worth it #and its hard to really feel anything anymore or to feel in the moment but idk i was just going down that hill seeing everything and it was #very majestic so yeah that song is definitely gonna have the same effect as pin eye for me #which i must mention pin eye again its still OOOOGHH very good it came at a pretty good time for me #yeah basically this album is uhhhh whats keeping me somewhat grounded rn i recommend 👍

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

got so into my laughingstock feels that i burnt my fuckign toast

#shit was Black #literally was in my kitchen Wailing about them and forgot the bread slices i put in the toaster oven three seconds prior #s'ok i made a new set but oughhhhhh i am still sooooooo so unwell about them.... #OUGHHHHHHH THEMMMMMMM #theyre just... snf.... theyre just two silly goofy guys in love.... #silly goofy fruity fellas and they love each other <3 #SIDE NOTE GINGER SPREAD ON HONEY/BUTTER TOAST ABSOLUTELY FUCKS TRUST ME ON THIS #absolutely unprompted #but yea i was specifically thinking about that fic i have in my head #yall know the one by now. the one i desperately want to write and I SWEAR I WILL EVENTUALLY #but the fuckin... Misunderstanding... it makes me insaneeeee #its the most unhealthy part of their relationship AND THEY ARENT EVEN IN A RELATIONSHIP YET #damn theyre so healthy. theyre so. wails screams howls #but howdy being an oblivious idiot to his own emotions is so important to me #mans is whip smart & quick in every other area #but in this One Subject hes dumb as a rock & that hurts both of them <3 #but it also turns into something they can cry w/ laughter over later #someone asks how they got together. they exchange a look. and burst out howling #full on wheeze-laughing Cannot Form Words #y'see most couples would have some lingering 'i cant believe you did that' and/or guilt #but barn & howdy would just find it hysterical. full on 'remember when you-' 'yeah lmfao' #THEYRE SOOOOOO <3 #yknow if i ever find someone i want to have a partner-esque relationship. i want to have what laughingstock has #i do genuinely believe that howdy might have feelings for barn #but i like to live in the delusional world of my mind where they're Established <3 #grabbing them and slamming them together like a violent 5 yr old playing with dolls #kiss! kiss damn you!

[fictionadventurer]

The Rosemary Tree is the first time I've had to put down a book so I could sob over how beautiful it was.

#elizabeth goudge how do you keep doing this? #her books are such a strange thing for me #either they're 'yes it's pretty but could you please get to the point and have something happen?' #or i am slammed with waves and waves of intense overwhelming emotion so i almost can't stand how deeply it affects me #i think it helps to read it at the same time of year the story occurs #the dean's watch during advent was a life-changing experience #and now reading this book in march is having a very similar effect #i actually had to go in a room by myself to properly cry #because someone caught me tearing up #and how could i begin to explain that i'm sobbing my heart out because miss giles is reading the secret garden? #i've cried over sad moments in books but i've never felt anything like this #such intense joy and sorrow all mixed in so you can't tell which emotion is causing the tears #it's been like two hours since that happened and i'm still shook #my world is upended #and i'm being reminded in an entirely new way of what really great literature can do #the rosemary tree #elizabeth goudge