The hair is hairing, the brush is brushing but I don't know what I'm doing…
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neil josten the type of guy to keep track of all of his outfits so he doesnt rewear the same thing too often and stand out bc of it
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i can't explain this but eva sanchez absolutely has new york city vibes
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i wanna make myself a fancy meal
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i generally wanna see if you can guess-
you know me
people would say i have a criminal record that would give me deathrow
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Do i know you personally? Or just through tumblr?
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Well... tumrblr isn't therapy. I have to learn this somehow once and for all. Not broadcast my vulnerabilities.
I need an outlet. Do I? Or therapy? Already taking anti anxiety meds but I'm not sure if working and may actually be detrimental (I haven't had this much self harm impulse for a while... which isn't saying too much severity wise but still. Also harder to get up and may be making me feel bad even earlier in the day! What if it messes up my ability to feel good in the morning! Things start out good usually then go downhill. I sent theDr. A message. I already stopped one anti anxiety med bc my heart was like 114 bpm when sitting still for a while).
Need something. Idk. Everything is hard. Emotions unstable and i panic easily and spiral easily. Like today. Again. Idk if I have a disorder or what. I feel so helpless and often hopeless. When I think what I want vs what I have the capacity for. when i try to get there and fail miserably at the SMALLEST step. 😞
Is there any solution. I feel like i am different from everyone even mentally ill ppl... I don't fit in with anything, I'm unique but not in a good way
In any case... I can't expect tumrblr to help me. Help as in distraction maybe. But too much temptation to vent. 😞 why.
I see others talk about their issues and they get sympathy, ppl gently attempt to help. I have gotten some of this. But. At this point ppl probably tired of me, everything is the same and I say stupid stuff. I'm toxic. Why are they following? Idk.
I really can't expect anyone to help me. Ppl don't want negativity. I've got to somehow figure out things. I like tumblr and it has seemed more of a home than other places but. Can't let it be a solution. Bc itisn't. Idk what is. .
Maybe I should go off for a little while. Something. I have to have self control to not post stupid personal stuff no one cares about. I don't want to be a spectacle. Don't want to be known for this
It's just I have so many emotions and with such intensity if I don't express them in some way-- idk what will happen
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i first thought about espada/josé as a crackship on discord to laugh at but now i don't think that it's no longer a crackship for me...
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I think district 12 saluting to katniss in the first book is akin to the district tributes holding hands in catching fire (shows of solidarity and appreciation that are almost immediately upended because they’re put in a system and can’t get out alone)
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ok i’m going ALL RANGE MODE everybody stand back
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Tbh i dont mind stranger things fans associating non-metal songs with eddie. But i do that with gojira's the art of dying
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leo writing brainstorm into the tcw transformers au gave me the final push I needed to make my own transformers blorbos into star wars blorbos
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yknow AI art has ruined an entire genre of painting to me, i saw one of those smooth anime-realism pieces and immidiately thought ''ugh, AI art'' until i noticed it was posted by an established deviantart user 6 years ago. like ive never been a huge fan of that genre but it looks like a pretty difficult style to master and i feel bad for the artists who specialized in anime-realism only to have their entire market jacked by people typing keywords into midjourney.
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