#buuut on the other hand. well. he's obviously not available. and my dumbass decided to crush on him when he was available for a time. bc i

[vampireskull]

why am i friends with one of the best guys I've ever met who checks all my boxes and requirements for a partner, i know he likes my personality and looks, but he has a gf of several years. i hate that for me

#lmao I'm not a homewrecker I'm not trying to make a move on him before anyone comes for me again #but why did i decide that the first guy i actually like and know rly well had to be the one who is about to be engaged lmao heart been broke #so many timesss #i know at this point it's infatuation and i guess it's more of a logical crush #bc he rly fits most things i want in a partner and he's a good committed dude. so on this side of the logic spectrum I'm like 💞💞💞💞 #buuut on the other hand. well. he's obviously not available. and my dumbass decided to crush on him when he was available for a time. bc i #didn't even dare to entertain the thought before. #but what i mean with logical is like. there are no butterflies. I don't even really feel the urge to kiss him or something idk I'm just not #nervous around him. but ig that's bc we've known each other so long. #but tbh i think we wouldn't rly work out. I don't know if it is bc I can't imagine myself in a relationship rn or bc I can't imagine myself #in one with him. but it would just be an awkward deal. i don't wanna be constantly compared to his gf he has now #and honestly i think once i have my own relationship this shit is gonna blow over quickly #bc maybe I'm just projecting my romantic desires onto him #hmmmm #but where tf am i supposed to meet a good guy :( #⚰️