#but why waste the time we have talking aboht us not being together that js so stupid

[evilduckling]

this is probably because i was looking at places to live next year n i do it with the knowledge that I wont be bringing them into that and i know that's what's best for them and i also am stupidly aware that it will be the best thing for me but it doesnt mean it doesnt suck ass

#i just got them n we still have so much to learn about each other n we love love love so why is it that we have to let it go #and i can never hide what i feel or think snd they do that better than anyone i know #every step of our relationship ive been surprised n they keep surprising me #just cos i never know what they think #n that means idk if its fucki g them up as much as it is me #i think it isnt which hurts. they view it in a differenr way #we still have 3 months but the idea of us ending is already hurting me how dumb was i to think i cld do it easily #i am not them #I just love them #just. sad #n nobody rlly gets it cos i know we have to break up and i know it is the best thing but that doesnt mean it wont suck #they wld be the one i wld talk to about this #but why waste the time we have talking aboht us not being together that js so stupid #its just a complicated situation #i hate growing up