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theosconfessions · 6 months

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if youd like to read the stephens from the beginning you can over here :)

if youd like to read the stephens continued you can over here:)

@ohsosims

theo- yeah we moved pretty fast

scarlett- for someone who didnt want to settle down you did. but he was worthy of that right?

theo- [smirks] you know im not fan of you being passive aggressive as fuck right now. why dont you skip all this shit and ask me what you want to ask me.

scarlett- okay if dustin was the type youd settle down for. whyd you cheat on him twice? i mean the second time you full on left us. him everything you built. the first time well you just couldnt control your dick.

theo- turn the cameras off.

scarlett- sure

theo- im being serious turn the cameras off. im not putting this out there for everyone but if you have questions. fair enough. turn them off.

scarlett- cut the live, blake. say what you need to. but my phones still recording .for dad.

theo- dad knows everything im about to say to you.

scarlett- so say it again.

theo- thank you. so the first time was just stupid and im paying for that with my health. you want answers to why i left you guys and although dustin and i have been good for awhile. i never apologized to you, robin or river. that was my oversight. i could it here and give excuses but there are none. the problemw ith these types of shows, scarlett. especially with guys like me who are completely full of themselves..these shows feed into that. a house full of people who want to fuck me? as a young guy? are you kidding me? i mean, scar do you really think that it was just marlee and lillie i was involved with before dustin? i thought everyone wanted me and i acted as such. so all that aside, i turn 50. im married, i have a five year old you at home to take care of since marlees head is so far up jamis ass by then. BUT the problem is im still thinking like that. like everyone wants me. how could i say no i thought. it had nothing to do with your dad.dustin wanting kids. it had everything to dowith me. im a shitty person. no excuses. i left. and then i woke up. and then sex with strangers wasnt hitting like it did before. woke up alone strung out. still had to go to work . still had to see your father everyday knowing what i did to him. the worst thing ive ever done was hurt that man. it wasnt a quick forgive for him. i was on my knees literally some days. and he rightfully told me to fuck off. he had you guys to look out for.

scarlett- how did you get dad to forgive you? i barely remember you moving back in. you were just there.

theo- wasnt easy . like at all. and i didnt deserve his forgiveness. it took time a lot of it. i had to prove that he could trust me again. we started right back at the beginning. less sex this time though.

scarlett-youre gross

theo- some things dont change

scarlett- do you think dad trusts you now?

theo- if he doesnt? he has every right not to. but id hope in the ten years that weve patched things up that he does. id like to think he does.

scarlett- i still dont

theo- understandable. i dont think river or robin really trust me either. but im grateful youre giving me a chance scarlett. that youre even speaking to me. even if this thing started off as a witchhunt. and your dads probably going to kill me when i get home.

scarlett-[sighs] blake, start the live.

theo- whats this?

scarlett- just wrapping up. do you have any regrets in doing the bachelor?

theo- i regret how i treated the people on it.

scarlett- advice for people going into it?

theo- mm dont think with your dick.

scarlett- charming.

theo- im a charming guy.

scarlett- and where does the future take you,theo?

#its a long one #but we're almost done with the interview #idk if this will give scarlett any closure and theo cant be trusted for sure to her but #i think theo admitting he is just kinda horrible sometimes was a long time coming #the stephens continued #the stephens #theo kline #scarlett kline #the sims stories #the sims 4 #ts4 gameplay #simblr #the sims #ts4 #sims 4 #ts4 simblr #the sims community

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marinebioblr · 3 months

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hi , not to hijack your blog with my problems , but i was wondering if you could help me with something ? im not going to ask for money i promise

my family recently got a beta . weve had betas several times before , this isnt a first time thing . but this one just kind of …. floats at the top of the tank .

hes not dead , hes never gone belly up , and he moves around the rest of the tank sometimes . we got him a heater and food that he could fit in his mouth and everything - he still liked floating at the top of the tank , like hes sleeping . is this normal ? or is there something we should do ?

this is him btw

sorry again and thank you so much for listening to me

Hi there! Floating near the top of the water can mean a few things- the first is that the water could be poorly oxygenated, and so he stays near the surface to more easily "gulp" more air. Hopefully you have a filter? Bettas generally do not lead good lives in conditions without one. The second is it could be a swim bladder issue, which should be fairly easy to confirm or rule out. When your fish swims lower into the middle of the water, does it seem like it is fighting to get away from the surface, and is it "buoyed" back up like it has on a life jacket? If this is the case you must treat it using additives to the water - there are few different methods and I encourage you to research those on your own, but I will say do NOT trust Bettafix (I've had terrible experiences in the past and in general the fish keeping community seems to agree using it is not worth the risk. Usually more of a skin/fin treatment anyway but it is still sometimes touted to fix swim bladder issues).

The third is simply that your betta could be bored - betta like to rest on things or wedge themselves in places where they'll be held still. If your tank is a little sparse, it could be that it's just easiest to "rest" against the surface. Betta come from crowded environments teeming with plant life, so I say to the best of your ability, pack in the plants or add driftwood that is arched that gives your betta something to swim beneath (just make sure any rough areas he could tear his fins on are trimmed or sanded away).

Really hope this helps! Best of luck :)

#ask #bettablr #betta #brainrotdotexe #fish keeping

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xtrafluffyteddy · 3 months

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Dont say youll go

Johnny "soap" Mactavish x reader

i was listening to this song and thinking of soap so

"what do you mean your goin Johnny i thought you requested leave" you stared at the scottish man across from you setting down your coffee cup "i did but they need my help and i cant abandon my team you know that" he tried to reason with you reaching out to caress your cheek only to get his hand pushed away "yeah cour i know johnny but you have no problem abandoning me do you" you huff and shove past him fighting back the tears. Johnny was quick to follow you into yalls shared bedroom sighing as he watched you pull out his suitcases "its only for a little bit and ill be back before you know it please just trust me" johnny gently took your hands away from the angry packing you were doing turning you to look at him gently cupping your cheeks "im guessing i cant beg you to stay can i" you said with a watery laugh "Ill always come back home to you" he reassured pulling you into a soft kiss "just please come home johnny" you sniffle as you hug him tight inhaling his scent like it was the last time youd smell him.

The following week he was being shipped out to god knows where and you were stuck at home nothing but worry on your mind as you thought of johnny, days turned into weeks then months and all you could cling to was the occasional phone call or letter that would keep you goin "never thought id see as many stars as i am right now darlin" Johnny wrote in his latest letter "wish you were here to see em with me instead of 1000 miles away just out of reach" you clutched that letter close to your heart as you made your way out into the backyard staring up at the vast expanse of stars that blanketed the sky.

johnny would be home anyday now and you were frantically cleaning and making sure you had everything to make the house comfy for johnnys return. You ran to the door excitedly when you heard the knocks ring through the house swinging it open excitment on your face only for it all to crumble around you as Price, Gaz, and Ghost stood before you in their military best holding the scottish flag and Johnnys dog tags "no, no, no no no no no no" you kept repeating stumbling back into your house quickly being escorted to sit down by Ghost who held a somber look on his otherwise emotionless face

"im so sorry lass" Price muttered kneeling before you gently setting the flag in your lap all you could do was run your fingers over the dog tags ringing in your ears as you began sobbing "just breathe, breathe its okay weve got you" Gaz reassures "this is some fucked up joke right" you tried to reason as you choked down the sobs threatening to rip out of your throat "im so so so sorry lass" Price repeated as he took your hands gently "wha- what happened" is all you could think to ask as you clutched his dog tags "Makarov he had us pinned and got a cheap shot on johnny, he was dead before he hit the ground" Ghost said as he sat beside you. All you could do was fold into yourself clutching the flag and the dog tags close knowing youll never get to tell johnny you loved him or look at the stars again knowing johnny wouldnt be on the other side watching them with you.

#john soap mactavish #cod mwii #soap x reader #john mactavish #cod modern warfare

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anyo00 · 1 year

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Rumbeling questions

Before you start reading make sure to folow @infinityroom cause they make my head love it and they crack my head with toughts pffttt (in a good way) Impulse being already friendly

https://infinityroom.tumblr.com/post/683988426627989504/uhm-hey-not-to-alarm-you-but-i-think-you-should

And before he was the first to hear the endermites

I think it save to say that the galatic is peoples toughts. Proof one

here? grian? grian? grian? it can't be it can't be it can't be come here

https://www.tumblr.com/infinityroom/683989621944778752/have-you-tried-whisper-to-anyone-you-know-maybe

And before tango’s toughts with again?

https://www.tumblr.com/infinityroom/716815820217565184/omg-omg-omg-not-only-we-found-out-what-was-in-the?source=share canon proof;

“I kinda wanted to add hidden Tango thoughts in the comic but then decided that it wouldn't make sense since in canon this is just Mumbo telling the story of what happened and he's not able to see those. For once you gotta read Tango's actions and not his mind ahah”

https://infinityroom.tumblr.com/post/685707801297862656

This one echos the “its right here” and that can bet he thing you want. You want to get out so you are seduced to follow its right here….

Impulse hears something behind him…

https://infinityroom.tumblr.com/post/685709549943013376/okay-the-realization-that-this-mumbo-has-been

from the document.

Did we ever find out what this ment. “He followed an “old echo” once and regretted it.”

Also if the hermits are worried the glitching seems to be worse

https://infinityroom.tumblr.com/post/687616300091047936/i-dunno-impulse-didnt-mumbo-say-that-it-depends

I think tango cant handle loud sounds or sounds in general;

https://www.tumblr.com/infinityroom/687620817601871872

https://infinityroom.tumblr.com/post/692412853788065792/no-no-its-not-grians-fault-dont-hurt

Later the bell he coverd his ears. And with the explotion he was litterly not okay and cacooned up

Who moves the askers in the room?

https://www.tumblr.com/infinityroom/687622375374733312/you-seem-to-have-been-moved-somewhere-else-in-the

So someone is having a blast of a time by sending us tot he other grian..

https://www.tumblr.com/infinityroom/690054270591057920/grian-i-wish-i-could-find-you-so-i-could-hug-you

and-they-never-left-the-desert (user)

galactic: (top) ahaha! (bottom) this is so fun! it was a good idea to send you to him

Whos toughts are that….?

https://infinityroom.tumblr.com/post/691591184987111424/msg-impulse-weve-got-a-problem

Mumbo is holding his head? Can he sence grain is in danger?

https://infinityroom.tumblr.com/post/691595304896692224/did-mumbo-kill-his-grian

with galatic translation;”A new layer of skin is starting to show up under those cracks.

i hope they don't get any bigger”

Meaning…. :OOOO??? Cause tango and false sure have blackish arms/legs/faces

https://infinityroom.tumblr.com/post/696392432080896000/msg-impulsesv-we-just-got-a-lot-of-information

The room is eating impluse. He had no items when he entered…

#infinity room theory #infinity room au

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dinitride-art · 1 year

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Number 10 - Season Four Episode One (Opening Scene)

Okay, so. I was looking through the openings of each season for... reasons. And I went through the start of season four because some weird stuff happened and I was like huh. That’s actually really weird, I’m going to keep looking. Because this stands out from all the other starts for some reason (stars, stars, upside down portal machine/stars, murder and death and banishment-no stars) and that’s just weird.

We start out here in the rainbow room (with ten, before this it was that kid with the newspaper and Brenner and colour theory stuff) and Brenner and 10.

So, all the kids hospital gowns have snowflake designs on them. This is weird because of all the fire imagery we’ve gotten this season (molotov cocktails, flame thrower, pizza oven). Starting out with snow also might be referencing the Snow Ball, which is important later in the season. But either way, we start with 10 and Brenner.

My first point: triangles. More specifically, Mike’s shirt pocket triangle. This specific pocket has been really interesting to look at with Mike during season four because it seems to point towards or away from Will depending on how Mike’s choices. Lying to Suzie and in Suzie’s highly religous household? Away from Will, until there’s a moment where it does point to Will-

Right here, and they have their little hand brush moment (Will’s lit very intensely) and both of them panic. It seems that when they get really scared, Mike’s shirt pocket points to Will and says hey! Here’s why. This is, the problem.

But it’s interesting that 10′s triangle and Mike’s are in the same season. We’re meant to notice them both separately, with the emphasis placed on both of them (and they’re both blue- or at least connected to blue), but because they’re in the same season it feels possible that they could be connected.

Mike and Will’s skates are both size ten and it’s odd that their skates are held in a way that we can read them. Unlike El’s skates, which she’s allowed to move around, Mike and Will’s stay towards the camera. It kinda seems like we’re meant to take note of them. My general rule for if something has meaning is if it’s in front of my face and I can see it. (which isn’t always the case, because sometimes things are hidden away, but usually if it’s there that’s because someone put it there). And I’m seeing two occurrences of the number 10 that are right in front of my face. So, that’s odd.

We see a clear shot of El’s room. This could just be reminding the audience that hey! One o our main characters grew up in this lab! But that’s a big part of what we know about El so I don’t know if that’s exactly what’s happening here? It very well might be though considering this is the opening episode of the season. However, it could also be drawing attention to the idea that numbers in Stranger Things have meaning.

Now this funky little brain wave scanning machine is one weve seen before.

We’ve seen this EXACT machine before in season two. The numbers on it? Might be important. 1511 connects to two ideas: El’s number from the lab, and 8:15. (halfway through writing theories I always feel like some ones written all of this before- and I never know if that’s true or not)

Brenner draws a sun with a yellow crayon which- I mean, that sounds pretty connected to Will to me. Also might be connected to Max’s idea of hiding in the light and how Will is lit very brightly this whole season and all that. Also could be talking about the idea of a sunny day, or even California, or about weather (like rain and water, or sunny days or snow or storms- lots of shit going on with the weather). Also there’s that pen- which I’ll talk about a little later. That pen is also the thing that stopped me in my tracks while watching this and like. Turned my brain off and on again.

Brenner is seen writing with that pen multiple times, so it’s not just there for the hell of it.

Then Brenner draws a dog- the Byers had a dog in season one. That dog kinda disappeared? And that’s a bit weird, but also one of the only connections dogs have in the show. So that’s also a tad bit weird.

Brenner and his pen again. So, I wanted to wait until I got through the role of the pen within the scene to bring this up but-

Season one, episode one- there’s that fucking pen.

You can half see it in shot here too, it’s Lucas’- but I also think that Will had the same pen (I think- I don’t have a picture of it but that’s what I remember noting in my head). And that’s weird.

Brenner’s pen if from September 8th 1979- and there’s stuff to say about the seven in the number. Also weird. Also connected to season one. But what i want to point out is that season one starts November 6th 1983. That’s years between the appearances of these pens. Hawkins is small, so they were probably bought from the same place/came from the same place. But they’re also the same damn pens.

Why the Hell are they the same fucking pens.

Either we’re connecting the Party to the lab like symbolism and meta wise, or we’re connecting them within the narrative (...i think that’s right? I mean like logistically and within the bounds of the shows reality that we are presented). Both are concerning options.

On Will’s readings we get the (serial number?) 3-A615. (I don’t know what this one might mean- maybe nothing- but Stranger Things is weird with numbers and I don’t trust them). Will’s readings also are really different than 10′s. With ten it looks like they’re monitoring something happening with an actual body function. It’s got a pattern that’s similar to a heart beat monitor even if i does change, it generally keeps that shape.

But with Will, it’s not like that at all. Since Will is kinda going to get possessed real quick here, I guess these readings do make sense, but it’s weird that Owens is using the machine- the exact same machine no less- in the first place.

Also with Will we see all these people watching the footage being recorded in the lab. In season four we find out that Brenner and Owens have all of that footage on hand and use it for the Nina project with El. Brenner and Owens? Sketchy as fuck. Will is definitely on Owens (and Brenner’s probably) radar for possibly having a connection to the Upside Down.

The pen comes up yet again. It’s really just there all the time. There’s also the yellow crayon that’s been left out of the box that we can see. Considering the brown crayon was the last one Brenner used, this stands out. At the top of the page Brenner is writing on it either says that Ten is 13 or 14. Both of these are interesting options. 14 would mean 7 + 7, which is bad- and connected to both Will AND Mike because Will told Mike that it was a seven and it’s a thing for them. 13 comes up later here

Side by side (and even just thinking back on the scenes with El) it’s really clear what’s happening. When it’s happening is pretty interesting. Both of these scenes take place in the first episode of a season; seasons 2 and 4. These seasons parallel each other so much that I genuinely think Mike could be possessed in season four. That’s how much there is. From Steve’s sunglasses, to the relationship problems with being in love and who you actually want to be with (Nancy, Steve and Jonathan - Will, Mike and El), to the arcade and rink o mania, and the disco balls, and the snow ball, and so much. It’s so much.

So these both being in the same episode in the season is interesting to me. Season two and season four are also the only two seasons that have nine episodes. The Snow Ball happens in both episode nines. In episode two of season 2 it’s the Halloween episode where they go to the street Loch Nora and Will has a bad time. In s4:e2, Mike goes to Lenora- and everyone has a bad time. They find El/El comes back near the end of both episode eights.

There’s a lot. Honestly too many to list because we’re not done with season four episode one just yet. But yall get it. The parallels. They’re intentional.

Just like how when Henry starts murdering children, Ten’s readings are very similar to what Will’s were in season 2. The parallelssssss

These shots were just weirdly similar to me. I think it’s just the ominous framing and caged in feel created by the door frame adn the hallway perspective, but those lights are also a bit odd.

Now we get to number 13! It’s one of the only door numbers we’re able to read when Brenner sees what’s been going on outside. In season one, if I remember correctly, Will needed to roll a 13 or higher right? Which he did not roll. So there’s that connection.

[A child covered in blood, a green block, a red block, a yellow hexagon, a blue block, a white block, a blue rod, and a green and red crayon are in frame]

[A child next to a pool of blood. A wooden block, a maze, and an overtured yellow bin are in frame. Tattooed on the child’s arm are the letters ‘007′]

[A blood splatter and a child’s arm are in frame. There is a blue half hexagon, a flat red square and a yellow flat rectangle in shot. On the child’s wrist are the numbers ‘005′]

No pictures for the stuff up there I described because during this scene I had to remind myself that, hey, they’re alright, they’re actors m’dude. I was more comfortable with just describing the shots. Anyways, what I really wanted to focus on was that we’re shown the numbers on two out of three of the kids wrists: Seven and Five. Seven might be connected to that 13 and have some season one ideas. Five might be connected to 8:15.

The green and red crayon with the first kid reminds me of Will colouring and making the fireballs green because, no red crayon. So do those green and red blocks. The other blocks are a yellow hexagon, a blue block and a white block. Colour theory wise that’s most likely Will, Mike and El (white because of season four- but also could be red. She can do both. I believe in her). The whole rainbow room is really interesting for colour theory. The kid without the number in shot has the most going on around them where as the other two only have a couple notable objects.

This opening scene might be connected to Mike, Will and El. Which means that there’s a few different possibilities for what this is telling us. But first a short summary to get my thoughts in order.

1. El’s backstory, One, and the truth about the Mind Flayer and the Upside Down. That’s the first level of what’s happening here. It’s about El and Henry and the Upside Down. It’s setting up the theme of trauma and flashbacks and the Nina project and Vecna. At a first glance that’s what’s happening.

2. Parallels of season four and season two. Going a bit deeper we can see how season two and season four both have episode ones with similar scenes in the lab. Ten and Will are both seen in the lab with the similar devices. We now know that Brenner and Owens were working together in season four and that there is a connection between the recordings of Will and the recordings of El used for the Nina project. At a second glance we see how this starts to connect to the overarching plot.

3. Fine details and numbers. That machine that we saw hooked up to Will and Ten is actually the exact same machine with the number 1511 on it. We can connect (loosely) Mike and Will too Ten because of what we see in Rink O’ Mania. We can also connect the scene to season one’s opening with the pen that Brenner has and the pens that the Party have being the exact same. Number seven and 13 on the door also connect to season one. There is a dog drawn on Brenner’s note pad that could be referencing the Byers dog in season one, and a yellow sun and a yellow crayon that could be referencing Will. Will is also related to fire imagery because of the spell fireball. Ten’s hospital gown has snowflakes on it which is almost the opposite of that, and connects to the Snow Ball.

Will is definitely connected to the Hawkins lab in some way, but I think that he might be number 15. I don’t recall how many kids there were, at least 13, but I don’t think that there was a 15. 8:15 and 1511 on the machine are what’s making me think this. I also think that Mike is somehow connected to the Upside Down. The triangle and the tens are part of why I think this- but also just Mike in season 2. He could feel that El was alive, and we know that she was visiting him in her head. He was also one of the only ones able to tell when Will and the Mind Flayer switched out- and while yes this is because of mikeandwill, Joyce was also in that room. That makes me think there was something else going on. Similar to the way that we don’t see Henry mention Will all that much, he doesn’t talk about Mike either. When he and El are fighting in season four, those two should’ve come up. This is a thought that’s been bouncing around in my head for a bit and it’s out there. I know. But then there was the thing with the 10′s and the triangle and the pens and it’s kinda hard not to bring up the Mike theory at that point... the theory being Mike being connected to the Upside Down in some way.

Mostly this is about Will and those parallels though. Because there are a lot of those. Anyways Will probably has powers and Owens and Brenner and all the lab people probably know about it (Luke and Leia, there is... another) and yeah. Also maybe Mike because he’s got some weird stuff going on t-

#stranger things #will byers #st season 2 & 4 #byler #pls dont hurt me because of what i think about mike #i know im reaching #im just stuck on how he could feel that el was alive #and him somehow like never being attacked #even when he is #like in season two with the demodogs #in the lab #and in the tunnels #and he just seems like he should have just a bit of harm done to him #like maybe even just a broken leg or something #but no #every season hes perfectly fine #lucas and dustin and max this season?#not perfectly fine #mike and will and el?#emotional turmoil to the max but otherwise theyre ok #nancy and jonathan in season one got hurt #hopper is hurt like every season #will was hurt like all of season two but he lived #mike should be like at the top of vecnas kill list #but hes not #and we dont actually see vecna show nancy mike in her vision #we dont see mike in any visions #somethings going on with him #i kinda want them to throw him in the upside down and see what happens #i mean its plausible thatll happen in season five

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dissociativedreadtheatre · 7 months

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Hi, this is the system who sent the past linked to that post, my gosh thank you so much for your kind words to us and answering us. It honestly calmed us down quite a bit. Also thank you for your education on the term HC-DID and so sorry we used it in that ask, we were very disassociated and upset and we use to use that term before finding out more about the background of it. Thank you so very much for your reassurance because that post really shook us up. Weve been wanting to joint your discord server for a few days now but struggle to feel valid enough to take up space and identifying as a survivor is hard for us honestly. Weve never ever openly talked about or even acknowledge what weve been threw and even then often many of us feel it was deserved or inevitable or just simply that we were "made for it after all" and so it somehow feels like were not allowed to be in victim spaced berceuse were often dont feel like a victim. Thats why that post shook us so bad, our mind latched onto the idea that maybe it just didnt happen at all and we kinda spiraled. Hopefully we get the guts to join soon tho berceuse it dose seem like the exact support and community weve been looking for for years honestly and are in need of, thank you so much.

You are more than welcome, it is very understandable to spiral about conspiracies, trust me, I doubt that there is a survivor out there who hasn't had the same issue. You are valid for feeling uncertain about your own trauma, especially when it feels like everyone is telling you that what you remember, what pain you feel, isn't real. I can assure you that what you remember, despite it being awful, is real, and the pain you feel from it is valid. Something to cope with that feeling is the idea of..

.. even if your memories turn out to be fake, which is highly unlike, that pain, hurt, sorrow, sadness, guilt, anxiety, fear, and any other emotion, is still valid. If, at the end of the day, its not real, you are allowed to feel that pain, you are allowed to be upset, because despite that memory not being real, the feelings are so real.

Don't let some stranger on the internet tell you what you are allowed to and not allowed to feel. Pain is pain. A quick not about HC, its no problem that you used that term, I am glad that you understand the negative connotations attached.

You are more than welcome to join our discord server when you are ready. There is no rush, take all the time in the world. For now, if you have any questions at all, you can use our asks and we will always attempt to give you the best response we can.

We are a place that allows you to feel less alone, and we sure as hell aren't going anywhere. You are allowed to join when you are ready. It is terrifying to actually work through the stages of grief when you realise that you are a survivor, it is horrible. You are a valid survivor, no matter what you went through, what matters is that you're still here with us, and that is incredible as is. What happened, happened, it is not your fault, it was not of your choosing, but you are no less of a survivor than I, or the next person. You had no choice, you survived, that is what matters. You are allowed to take up space, you deserve a seat at the table just as much as I do.

I want you to know, that right now things may not be okay, and thats okay. It is okay for things to not be okay. Things will eventually be okay. Maybe not tomorrow, or the next day after, or in a week or two, maybe not even in a month, or maybe not even in a year, but I know that things will eventually be okay.

You are doing incredibly well, let things take time, you are not alone, never, not at all. If you need anything, we are here, we always will be.

#cult survivor #ramcoa #ramcoa server #tbmc

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a-very-tired-raven · 1 year

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Aw dammit, you guys are makin me wanna post this now(10:05) instead of 11:00, but im strong lmao (WARNING, long post ahead)

Anyways, i wanted to start this post off, by giving a thanks to all the truly wonderful people ive met on this platform from this year, last year, when i first joined, and the years to come. Youve all made my experience here wonderful, and to be honest youve made me feel so very very welcomed, and especially loved.

I came to this (wonderful)hellsite during a really lonely time in my life. A few years ago, around the later days of june, 2019, looking for more undertale content. What i didn't expect to find at all, were all the wonderful people im so so so very glad to now call my friends.

All of you, and i mean all, of you invited and welcomed me into your blogs with open arms, kindness, and silly jokes. Even going to the lengths introducing me to your other friends and making me apart of your friend groups. And...i genuinely cannot express how thankful i am for that.

Im so serious, i feel so loved and cared for every single day now, i always have someone to vent or talk with, someone to joke and ramble with, so many people that ive intertwined into this little online family of mine.

Weve all been through..a lot these past three years. What, with covid, loss, hate, and so much more. What im grateful for, is that i havent lost any of you, which not only am i suprised about, but also so grateful. You guys make me feel like the best verison of myself, and make me feel..well..me. we've all stuck together and looked out for each other, helped each other out with our problems, and shared art and stories.

Ive had the pleasure of meeting some very fine, brilliant, and respectable people thus far, and have had the honor of talking with some astonishing young friends. Ive even had the pleasure of gaining followers, and have received fanart of my own characters!! Which, i would have never guess would have happened. Ever. And yet it did, and that means so much to me.

So i suppose what im trying to do, or well..say here, is that all of you have turned my life for the better, and id like to thank you for that.

Thank you, @let-love-run-red @ratsoh-writes @und3rwat3r-a5tr0naut @vrnicky @a-gods-somewhat-mortal-form @icelingbolt @shimmer-lamp and @glaucus22 for being my very first friends in here, for welcoming me so warmly, and sharing your art and introducing me to so many cool people. I wouldn't have had as good as an experienced as ive had with you to have shown me kindness in the way the way you did

Thank you @glitchysquidd for giving me the honor of seeing your artwork, and goofing off with me from time to time.

Thank you @mochamashi @kuvvydraws and @underfell-crystal for being so nice to me, and taking time out of your days to chat and listen to my stupid little jokes

Thank you @luminawithherdaemonlinh @wisteria-and-crocuses and again @mochamashi for all the fanart youve sent me iver the months, and all the kind and craziness youve shown me. Thanks for going on crazy little rants with me wisteria, and a big thank to you lumnia for supporting me and my art for so long

Thank you @shimmer-lamp for being there with me since day one, for letting me vent and trusting me enough to confide in me at times.

Thank you @rainbowut @the1920sisntaphasemom and @scienceisfood for giving me so many ideas and laughter, i really do appreciate you guys and i feel as if i dont say it enough. You guys so are hilarious- seriously, i appreciate it

Thank you so so much @hearty-dose-of-ranch @kioko-noodles @fruitsnackart @skele-fucker @sendryl and @und3rwat3r-a5tr0naut taking me in your friendgroup so fast, and so warmly. Before you guys took me in, all of you inspired me and my art so much...i could hardly believe i was actually talking to you guys and was considered a friend??! My hands were shakey, my breath was wobbly, and yet you guys never thought twice about including me. You all have been there for me since ive met you, you all have (patiently)listened to my stuttering and ramblings without a second thought, youve all introduced me to so many cool things and have made me feel so so loved..i cant possibly thank you enough. Youve done so much for me

Thank you @ratsoh-writes for enduring my chaos and bad jokes. Youve made my dumbass feel incredibly welcomed, not to mention being such a big fuckin inspiration??? Youre one of the reasons i started to get confident in my art man. Ive used your art as references so much- and youve been such a good friend to me as well?? Be angry about me gettin muchy all you want, i love you ya stinky sewer varmit.

Thank you @springbon-t-art for showing me kindess even more since i joined the hellscape that is tumblr. Youve showed me nothing less then gentle smiles and kind words, and i thank you for that. Your art has inspired me for years, and most likely years to come from now. So thank you for inspiring me enough to pick up a pencil and start scribbling down on the floorboards

And a big big thank you to @let-love-run-red love...i dont even know where to begin. You've helped me through so much, you've inspired and taught me so much fuckin stuff...you've been one of the best damn friends i could ever have. You've supported me and my cringe drawings since the day i entered your inbox as that shy little anon on that late August day.

Hell, you're the damn reason i started writing. I still remember the tips you given me, all the advice and confidence. And i sincerely thank you for that. You have shown me nothing other then kindness and hardcore support. And i cannot express how much that means to me

And theres so many more people i have yet to thank but unfortunately cannot due to tag limits and my memory. Id have to make another post and make sure i havent forgotten anyone lmao, but thank you all!! To my close moots and followers, to the big inspirations ive yet to summon up the courage to talk to

I seriously, would have not made it this far without you dorks, and i sincerely, and genuinely, hope ive made an impact at least a fragment of the size you guys have made on me. Thank you all for giving me a place to call home on this little site.

Right now the time is 10:41 as i wrap this up, so im gonna go ahead and post this(probably willl be 11 or 12 by the time you twerps get to this point lmao)

So HAPPY NEW YEARS!!

And happy many years to come!!! I cant wait to see what this years brings us, what bonds strengthen and friends we'll meet. Thank you for the wild ride and for all the adventures to come!!

#jeep.jeep #yearly call out post(affectionate)

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my-castles-crumbling · 3 months

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im really sorry to dump this here but im actually so upset and i need to get this out and i have noone else to say it to

(just a note though that religion and homophobia is discussed so its okay if you dont want to talk about this)

i just found out my best friend (like, sirius and james kind of friend) is massively homophobic. weve been friends for years snd years now and he knows im a lesbian and he never said anything outwardly bad about it before now, but last night he had a few drinks in him and started talking about how he doesnt support the lgbt+ community and firmly believes anyone in it is going to hell, and that he hopes one day we'll 'see the light'

he then went on to say that hes not going to actively hate on queer people because what we do doesnt affect him or his life, and as far as ive seen thats completely true, hes never done or said anything hateful towards the community besides what he'd just said about going to hell etc.

i really dont know how im supposed to feel about all this. i felt like crying last night when he was talking because this is like, my platonic soulmate yk? and hes not actively or directly saying/doing anything against the community, but it also feels like what he said was hateful and all, but again hes never discouraged my own sexuality (in fact, hes actively encouraged and supported me when ive tried to date girls) so i almost feel id be wrong to be angry about what hes now said after hes still supported me anyway, even though he feels so strongly that its wrong

i just feel so lost and i really dont know what im supposed to do or feel about it

(sorry again to dump this on you aha)

Hi!!! <3

Ugh, this is so hard. Friends are so important, especially friends like you described. But a friend that doesn't support your identity? Honestly for me, this would be a BIG red flag. Because..idk I'm not a super trusting person to begin with, and to hear that would break my trust.

To me, at this point in history, if you're not actively being an ally for someone, then you might as well be fucking them over. I mean, does this person vote for policies that could hurt the lgbtqia+ community, and you by extension? Does he associate with people who are actively doing things to harm that community or other marginalized identities?

It seems like an excuse. "Oh, I don't shout my hatred from the rooftops, so it's okay." No. No, it's not.

And, to add to that, how will it feel now, to talk to him once you begin dating someone? Will it feel fake, even if he supports you? What about, down the road, if you ever get married? Will he want to be in your wedding? Will he refuse to go?

I guess, to me, this is a huge problem. But I'm also different than you. It may be, to you, he means enough to you that it's worth looking past. But I don't think I could do that.

The reality is, this sucks either way. And you have every right to feel upset and hurt. But I guess now you have to decide how you want to be upset and hurt by this.

I am so, so sorry that you're going through this.

#ask #asks #ask cas #lgbtq+#lgbtq #lgbtqia

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thesicklycowboy · 7 months

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$10k in medical bills, ambulance ride, nearly dying and another $100 later and finally I did it. I got ONE of my major life saving goals done.

🕺!I got two EpiPens!🕺

Still have to wear my apple watch to bed to monitor. But now I can actually save myself if shit goes down. Such a relief.

God I fucking hate this medical system. Ive gone into anaphylaxis 4 times. From diff things each time. This time was the closest to death.

And this was the only asshole to actual help and take me seriously. And she was a pcp not even the ER docs who couldn't do shit. She got me prescription higher intensity allergy daily meds for my other allergies, epipen for deadly ones and allergist referal. All in one visit. Amazing!/sarc

The ER docs and paramedics claimed my reaction was an overdose for hours til finally my drug test was negative. Even interrogating my traumatized and shocked fiance over and over asking what I took and if I was suicidal.. All the while turns out the only reason I lived was cause my fiance helped me take a benadryl/put me into the recovery position and called them. I got better as it set in. Then they gave me an IV, a pamphlet on info about being tired and mild allergies. And told me to go.

I woke up and I couldn't breathe. And not even in the regular allergy way. No. Like I was slowly drowning. Every breath was harder and harder and slower and slower. And each less satisfying than the last. I had such low oxygen for so long I couldn't move really at all without severe shaking and effort when I managed. Could only speak in a rasp then not at all. Kept blacking out. Tingling lips/limbs and an intense weight and heaviness in my body. I have never felt it that clear before. The feeling I was going to die. I was silently angry and horrified and frustrated. And wrote my final "I LOVE YOU" and "GOOD BYE" into the my fiance's arm with a shaking fingertip because I couldn't speak. I felt my conscious "shift" in a way at the end. Like I was about to pass out. But not fall asleep. Like I was teetering on the edge of something else. It was horrifying. And my Fiances traumatized. But no it was a drug od, oh wait no the one benadryl musta made you sleepy even tho you hd symptoms prior and never any history being tired from it or hm idk must be mild allergies 🤷‍♂️👨‍⚕️👩‍⚕️ I fucking hate hospitals. Especially the ER.

A random kind nurse who swapped in at last second was only one who immediately diagnosed it correctly. Long term mold exposure poisoning worsened by preexisting mold allergy. And helped us realize that oh shit this happened cause our air purifier filter was clogged af. So basically off. And that's why I nearly actually fuckin died. All that right before giving me socks and having me go. He also gave me legal advice on how to take down my landlord for the mold problems weve had for two years now(too poor to move.)

#spoonie #actually disabled #disability #vent #cripple punk #disabled juggalo #anaphalaxis #suffocation #suicide cw #overdose mention #medical gaslighting

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pwnyta · 1 year

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I can't speak for POC but this latest MHA chapter feels, gross??? It feels like it's taking some stuff from the Black Lives Matter protests, but also turning it super violent and horrible

And suddenly bringing up some kind of massacre that we've never heard of before (then again, Japan does work hard to cover up all it's bad stuff)

But hey, Shouji face reveal!

Id be more excited for Shoujis face reveal if it was somehow different from he reference sheet weve already seen. Cuz like... we already knew what he looked like under the mask so its not MUCH of a reveal.

OTHER THAN THAT

Glad were all on the same level!

Exactly. If Hori was going to use something like this in the story he should have either never had mutant characters to the sorta-core cast like Shouji Kouda and Toko or even Ectoplasm and Cementoss, or he should have brought it up with them earlier on. As it is its pretty clear that he brought this up to try an make Spinner seem more sympathetic specifically. He does this way too much.

Its not Togas fault shes like this her Quirk makes her like this (we'll ignore all the characters that also have scary Quirks that youd think might influence their personality (cough cough Tokoyami whose Quirk is literally sentient))

Spinner has been discriminated against his whole life for being a mutant (please ignore all the other mutant characters weve had in the story before this was brought up that have never dealt with this kind of thing)

Shinso was discriminated for his villainous like Quirk thats why he couldnt be in the hero course or whatever (Please ignore the other characters with villainous Quirks that have no problems or even someone like Kouda whos arguably got the same Quirk but worse suited for Heroics because he lives in the city so at best he can control like small birds and rats so how did Kouda pass but he couldnt? WHO KNOWS.)

Stain talks about the corruption of hero society and now weve had it shoved down our throats... the fact weve never seen any heroes do anything particularly bad... except Endeavor who IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT PERSON NOW NO SERIOUSLY HES A PRETTY COOL GUY NOW LETS JUST LET IT GO who the fuck is Shoto? ...weve in fact seen heroes even 'selfish heroes who are hero-ing for the wrong reasons' fight tooth and nail to protect innocent people and the Hero Commission... ??? like?? Who the fuck were they? We have no idea they did some shady stuff right? ???? WHO?

I just... Its so dumb.

#BNHA Ranting.

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goremet-chef · 11 months

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HI i just got back from a like. 7 hour gaming session of the forest and SHITT MANN (RAMBLE)

we had a few goals, one was to put up spike walls for our upper base, n then another was to finish just small furniture things

the main one was to go to the caves and get the schematics cuz i wanted a glider. we GOT IT and it was all good and we made em but MANNN

my throat started to be like? TIGHT? feeling horribly paranoid and on edge for 7 hours straight will do that to you i guess

we went to the village for cloth and then fucking megan was there and i was like HM theres a PROBLEM leave now so we ran and listen

I WAS UNDER THE IMPRESSION that if you SLEPT they just despawned. my impression was incorrect ofc, when you sleep they just move a bit farther away

so.... we went back assuming she was gone and man! she was not gone! i pretty much made direct eye contact with her and my friend is so. SHE. the way like.. WHAT IF I DIDNT KNOWWWW

anytime i see somethin im like PROBLEM theres a problem theres an armsy, cowman, WHATEVER but no she has a sort of. freeze and then flee rresponse, so she saw megan and then saw it start to chase me and ran, said nothing which. GOOD THING I WAS PAYING ATTENTION.

i made some really interesting noises cuz i thought she was RIGHT on my tail like i kept hearing a weird whipping noise and i just thought it was over for me man. literally my friend was shocked cuz like.. IVE MADE SOME WEIRD NOISES WHEN IM SCARED ALRIGHT

being chased in horror games is one of my favorite like... TO ME thats the scariest thing i hate chases they mentally overwhelm me to the point where when im watching someone play a game and their getting chased, i have to pause the video every 3 seconds because i physically cant handle how stressed it makes me SKFJS

so... imagine that but its me and there is no pausing!!!!! horrible awful

we antagonized her a bit and lured her around cuz. for SCIENCE i needed to get close to this creature and hear how she sounded, so i know what to listen for

she despawned eventually which sucks cuz it was right when i was gonna call upon my monster hunter skills and kick her ass but no she vanished (scared obviously)

THAT WASNT THE END THO, no of course not.. so we built our house in the same exact spot markiplier and his friends built theres. it looks pretty similar too (rock walls, 3 doors, you get it) and last time we played, we branched upwards to the area above us. so we built proper walls and weve got 3 cabins up there for each of us and its cute its our little base with our other watch towers

i hate it up there!!! actually despise it, cuz of how the trees are and the hill its hard to see incoming threats, and we tend to log up there for convenience so. ITS EVEN WORSE when im trying to track several things with my ears at once. gotta listen for deer so i dont get scared, gotta tune out my friends chainsaw (i never log with the chainsaw for this reason, i need my ears so bad when im playing horror/survival games KSJFS), gotta listen for THREATS and look too im reallllll paranoid. IT SUCKS

last time we played, we got wormed, i didnt even see it because i was just hanging out up top finishing our walls and this bitch said "WORM." and she had ALREADY ziplined down to our main house since the cabins werent done yet. i was HORRIFIED because i didnt hear a damn thing!!!! i know worm is quieter but.. when SHE notices something before i do, something has gone wrong KSFJSF so.. it spawned behind, i forgot we had a zipline and threw myself (successfully) down the mountain by habit and i saw little worm bits fall down behind me before i quit the game

THIS TIME, it spawned behind her, and right in front of me while we were going to place the tower for the gliders

literally just glooped up from the ground i didnt even realize what i was looking at at first?? and i was like ah! WORM and we left the game so fast (we dont want that smoke hush)

but we got paranoid because. last time it spawned, she saved and THEN left, so it despawned and that was our worm spawn of the month right

but this time we both just LEFT so i was worried maybe it didnt save the spawn and it would spawn again, yknow? so bottom image is us both hiding up in the towers cuz i was. GENUINELY AFRAID TO TOUCH THE FLOOR

i thought it would just. POP UP BEHIND ME. i think we got really unlucky. cuz i dont think its meant to spawn AT US yknow? like i dont think its programmed to spawn where we are on purpose, its jsut really unlucky that BOTH TIMES it was RIGHT UP HERE SKFJSFS

thats why i hate it up here, its worm hell!!!!! fuck all that

its fine tho we did it, we made our gliders and flew around a bit it was fun

it sucked cuz like... we needed cloth and her cloth things were kinda bugged? cuz they werent respawning for her so.. IT WAS ALL ON ME and i HATE going anywhere in the forest. limited visibility, too far from the water, its all bad man

and the last few times!!! once was a cowman, 2nd was megan twice!!!!!!! so i was so fucking reluctant to go grab them but the last time we went, we put on our paint, we were careful (also i told this mfer i said bestie i need you to be my eyes while im trying to look for cloth and she said okay o7 and i turned around and shes like all the way down the hill not looking for me 💀💀)

we went in and got everything and no one even showed up!!! man i was nervous tho kSKFJS so we go it, finished our gliders and flew

overall, horrible day! everytime i got scared like when i was being chased my heart wouldnt even just drop, it would SEIZE UP it legitimately HURT

only good part is i realized i wanted to recreate my cabin in sons of the forest cuz i could put on overhang over my patio like i wanted to (mine is the house with the red icon)

anyways im fucking exhausted and i need to destress so im gonna keep writing my story lmao

#the forest #sons of the forest

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uwuvalkyriefox · 1 year

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‼️⚠️🚨 SAD POST DONT READ ID YOU DINY WANNA BE SAD WEEWOOWEEOO🚨⚠️‼️

One of my dogs lola is a silly old shih tzu we love her weve had her for so so so long right I remember the day my dad brought her home we were still living in the trailer parks and doing whatever we could for cash at the time but my dad took this dog in he was helping some people fix there car and went inside there house and saw lola tied up under the dining table beat and bruised apparently she was a show dog at the time and fucked up a show so they started to beat and starve her but my father saw this and cut the rope and walked out of the house coming back home and over the years lola has been growing and becoming a very awesome little dog who still can even do some tricks my sister takes care of her mostly they love each others every where my sister hors lola was walkin right behind her but unfortunately lola has started having medical problems past few nights i dont think shes gonna make it which was expected but its still never a fun thing at all but yeahi wanted to just talk about lola for a bit before she passes and i did t wanna bother anyone so i was like “teehee tumbler” so yeah sorry for the sad post

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magnoliamyrrh · 1 year

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this is a stupid question but i've been wanting to get one of those traditional croatian tattoos on one of my arms for years even if i'm not croatian nor a christian. on my other arm i want a traditional romanian embroidery pattern (bc i'm actually romanian). what's holding me back is that i don't wanna offend anyone since i'm not from one of the east euro countries that practiced that tradition (afaik we've never had that here). anyways do you think it'd be a bad idea or not lmao

good question bc ive been contemplating the same thing for years fjdjdj. so

tattooing is something we had in the region; the dacians used to tattoo, including their faces, and so did the thracians, who the dacians may or may not come from. so its not a foreign practice to us by any means - i think you can definitely get tatoos of romanian motifs without it being any sort of problem, its something ive wanted to do too for a long time. as far as those croatian tattoos go, from what ive been able to find online, they werent practiced exclusively among catholic and croatian women, rather they were more widespread around the people of croatia/bosnia/yugoslavia etc. its unclear from what i can find if the origin is celtic or slavic, but either way, both of those cultures have certainly had an impact on ours as well historically.

among christian balkan, in this case particularly croatian, women these tattoos, and their survival in practice, was directly related to trying to keep the ottomans from kidnapping women and girls and forcibly converting them to islam - something which was a struggle in romania as well; this is why some of the tattoos have christian symbols, to remind the girls and women of their faith. and i do think its important to read up on this history and part of it, even though this wasnt their only and sole use and presence, and to take it into consideration. from what i gather, for many croatian women there tattoos are a point of pride, but also come from a painful history.

now. ive said before lol that i dont think cultural appropriation exists in the balkans and i think its kind of stupid for it to. in this particular context too, there is no power dynamic, as far as i know from history romania and croatia havent had a history of conflicts, in fact we have a history of pacts.;;; in the balkans we have all throughout history migrated, mixed, intermarriage, adopted each others cultures, traditions, religions, practices, etc. weve been doing this for thousands of years. personally, i think this is one of the beautiful things about the balkans; and im a pan-balkanist so im all about trying to get everyone in the balkans together and getting rid of the idea that were all separate neat little distinct ppl; we have a lot more in common than we have in difference. the idea of pure cultures or clear cut cultures around here is just unrealistic, its not based in history, and also, talking abt cultural appropriation in the balkans just sounds like woke nationalism

im not croatian neither catholic so, u know, my opinion only goes so far but. i reckon if it comes from a place of respect and understanding its not that big of an issue - hell you can probably go to croatia and get them done. if you live in romania i severly doubt anyone will give a shit, if you live in the west i severly doubt anyone will give a shit bc the westerners tend to know next to nothing about our cultures and they rarely can tell us apart anyway. i dont think its a particularly bad idea 🤷‍♀️

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