#but this is proceeding the breakdown. im no longer midbreakdown. its like a retrospective

[lesbianswordearrings]

went to bed too late & woke up too early and had too much time to my thoughts. but i had some tea and oatmeal and wrote a frantic and lengthy and unpunctuated journal entry full of self loathing and now it’s out and it feels like ive cleansed the Bad Vibes somewhat

#my post #yeah yeah i know sit with your experiences and feel them in the moment etc etc #but this is proceeding the breakdown. im no longer midbreakdown. its like a retrospective #also i have to remind myself i can write journal entries without them being beautifully and thoughtfully worded #like they can just be me getting the shit OUT and that’s ok. #idk i feel like even in the midst of feeling bad im still so conscious of the ways i can be performing for others. #im constantly doing it even on my own.