i can’t listen to midnights properly bc calls keep interrupting me and from what i’m hearing i’m hating it but at the same time i know when i’ll have the chance to listen to it properly i’ll have to stare at the ceiling or something
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the inevitable finally happened, baseball boy actually said the words 'date' 'the kind where we get dressed up and go out somewhere', and after months of dodging (heh) his hiking/hangout requests i finally got the chance to tell him a 'no' that would make him walk away for good. I hate that this is a pattern that i am now actively fearful of - that guys act friendly only to reveal that the friendlyness was all supposed to lead to something romantic or else they consider the friendship finished.
I also had a moment of realization that i /dont/ need to be friends with everybody - i can say no too. And not just to romance.
There was also an awkward lightbulb moment when i was telling brian what happened and he said something about baseball boy being sexually attracted to me and i almost spit out my noodles in shock like /what/? And i think brian was shocked at my reaction, he was like 'well yeah duh he asked you out'.
But ive never considered myself attractive in that way? Like with hiker boy its 100% our college connection and nostaliga? And with jon it was the goofy artyness and the fact that i knew even more weird music than he did? And the poor Ex it was the fact that i could come up with progressively more and more challenging programming problems in all his time as a TA. The only time a date's ever expressed sexual attraction to me was nick, and even then that was /one/ time and he walked back on it with the whole 'your personality is attractive but you're not attractive like one of those hot girls' speech he gave me that was really entertaining. Anyway this is probably why baseball boy's relentless attempts to get my attention and stay in contact surprised me so much...i didnt think there was anything he could possibly find interesting about me. But apparently he might've just thought i was hot. (???1!!1??!??!????why). He didnt throw insults or say anything mean after i said 'no', so he gets points there at least. But he still made it clear that this was goodbye, simply because i didnt want to date him.
Tldr i think i might just be fully asexual or fucking clueless :/
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was watching alien for the first time but the crew breaking quarantine despite direct orders from ripley made me so furious i had to stop lol
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hey mr gaiman. i saw that this post got revisited and wanted to address it.
i submitted this ask over a year ago on my old account and it was one of the stupidest things i ever did. it was my first tumblr account. id only been really online for a few weeks. i was 13. i was just coming back to school after a global pandemic.
ive been a fan of good omens for years and a fan of yours for longer. i was brought up reading odd and the frost giants and fortunately the milk, and as i got older i fell in love with your norse mythology book, good omens, snow glass apples, the sleeper and the spindle, and more.
i was excited to see one of my favorite authors on tumblr and tried to come up with the most bold and interesting ask i could think of.
i was rude and misinformed and it was a stupid choice of me to send it in with no thought.
but i got feedback. some in the form of kind suggestions. quite a few in the form of death threats and people telling me to kill myself.
while those specific messages were rude and hateful, the point got across. i educated myself to the best of my abilities, and eventually came back online.
not only did i misuse the term queerbaiting but i also implied that you were not an amazing supporter of the queer community. that’s absolutely incorrect. you’ve done so much for us with activism, representation, and overall kindness.
i wanted to address this ask that got so much attention because despite moving accounts i still feel guilt and shame every time i see it, or even when i interact with any of your posts at all. i need to actually address it.
also, i wanted a proper apology to be made. by no means am i now a saint. but im trying to be more thoughtful about thinking before i speak.
whether or not you decide to make a public response to this, i think ill find some peace knowing you’ve received this. ive needed closure on this for a long time.
im overjoyed and thrilled that season two is so close. thank you for tolerating the dumb questions of pretentious kids and thank you for helping to create a world where we can grow to be better than we were.
First of all, and most importantly, I'm really sorry that people were mean to you. That's awful. And nobody should ever have to deal with death threats or online threats and attacks, let alone a thirteen year old.
And secondly, you do not owe me an apology. I figure I have a Tumblr account, people ask things. Mostly they'll get nice replies, occasionally (normally when I'm being asked the same thing over and over) the replies will be terser. There has to be a certain amount of rough and tumble though, and occasionally I'll grab an ask that represents all of the asks I've had on that subject, and try and reply to all of them. That's what happened to you. I was getting tired of being accused of Queerbaiting for the occasional answer about a Season that was not yet released and about which nobody knew anything. And I needed to tell everyone who was doing this that they had to stop now. You had the misfortune to be the representative of all of the other people.
If you are not making mistakes you are not human and you are not learning anything.
(I wish there was tone of voice on the internet.)
And I think you are growing and learning and will make a fantastic adult.
I really hope you enjoy Season 2 when it drops.
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