#but thats kinda how it goes when youre from the countryside

[yeahiwasintheshit]

watched that movie, Men, that came out this year, by alex garland and man, it was a wild crazy movie. its definitely a movie that will keep you captivated, esp the last third when it really goes off the rails.

tho the early parts of the move has those lulls in it where not much is going on and you can find your mind sort of wandering off, but then you really find yourself engrossed in whats happening. i was def literally on the edge of my seat for many scenes, cause alex garland really expertly crafted this icky sense of foreboding and dread. you are experiencing all these weird little creepy moments with the main character, harper, played by jessie buckley, who is really great.

i dont really want to say much about the plot in case it ruins it for anyone, eventho the plot is fairly simple, but essentially its about a woman whos gone thru a tragic experience, which still haunts her, and either as a result of that tragedy or not, she decides to rent an old old house in the english countryside, where... really creepy things start happening to her. i think id categorize this as a horror movie, but theres so much more to it than just one kind of genre. it is without a doubt a hair raiser. the hair literally stood on end for me in quite a few scenes in the early part of the movie where the threat was just starting to build.

its shot so so beautifully. garland gives the idyllic english landscapes this really creepy vibe. i noticed, more so at the beginning, (i didnt notice towards the end) that he shot a lot of scenes with a vignette on the lens, so many of those scenes at the beginning, esp along the abandoned train track and tunnel have this unnerving sense that you are watching the main character, harper, thru the eyes of whatever the threat is. kind of, pov of the serial killer a little. at least thats how it felt to me.

technically, this is so so good. from lighting to editing to even the depth of field it all helps build this claustrophobic feel to many scenes. garland even uses a couple shots that were very kubrick like. like, idk man, when you are like following a character and they are dead center in the frame and the camera is moving along behind them, it always feels creepy because of kubrick. of course the music and sound track help to build it too. its really unnerving when they use jessie buckleys voice and echo. it helps really ratchet up the tension.

man, i really want to talk about the last third because thats where it really took a wild left turn into weird body horror and its just crazy. one scene where harper finally uses the knife through the mail slot, i literally was making guttural gasps, it was gross and fantastic and weird. and thats not even the wildest part of it all lol its just so weird and crazy and gross. it was literally wtf (one minor criticism might be that all that weird shit doesnt quite seem to have a whole lot to do with all the other plot elements that preceded it... or maybe it did and i just am not smart enough to put it together. idk, either way, it wasnt enough to ruin the movie, and tbh all that crazy shit enhanced it somewhat, eventho i didnt know what the fuck was going on)

needless to say, def watch it if youre in the mood for some creepy weird gross folk-y horror. i think i have my own ideas of what garland was going for, cause like i said i def was a little unsure what was happening at the end. like i kinda thought this may all be in her head, but they make sure to show that it may not have been. that it may have all been real. idk. its all sort of left to the viewer to decide what happened, which i generally like. i dont particularly like movies that spell things out so clearly. and there is not a lot of clarity to what is and what isnt happening at the end. which im ok with.

#men #alex garland #yiwits reviews

[raksh-writes]

Finally logged into Instagram after, like, around a year of not even looking at it and of course I end up on SaveAFox's insta looking at foxes as if don't do this enough on a daily basis xD

#personal #Raksh posts #I generally don't use social media #I can't be bothered lmao #but some of my irl frienda are active there #and I know I've been missing out on what's going on in their lives #it is kinda sad that I feel like we've been drifitng away from eachother more and more #I guess it's kinda natural #they have partners and live mostly far away #and tbh aside of irl stuff we don't really share interests ;/ #but thats kinda how it goes when youre from the countryside #those friendships form and can last a long time even if you dont share interests #and I know I can rant about some of it to one of my irl friends #but yknow its kinda not the same as someone truly engaging in it #I miss having someone to squel and rant and rave about fanfiction and fandom and all that stuff ;_; #but having some of y'all reach out to me here or just engage with my posts is also lovely so thank you 💗💗 #and damn did this turn into an emotional confession or smth xd #welp #sorry for that! xD #on with my life #I'm having some RestTM this weekend oh yeah #cause sometimes thats what you need #self-care I say ;p

[kashimos-hajime]

homestretch of the hard times | g.t.

summary: the eve days of your potential death kinda spurns things to move forward: for takemura, it means confessions. for you, it means making exceptions. and drinks. ‘cause takemura’s the pickiest fucking eater you’ve ever met.

WARNINGS: small spoilers for act 1 of cyberpunk 2077 and references to non-spoiler texts between takemura and v, just fluff, small angst, swearing, idk what else is going on so if there are actual spoilers thats completely coincedental ndlnskfsldnf pairing: goro takemura x fem!street-kid!v word count: 2.6k

a/n: so cdpr did us dirty for not allowing us to romance him (to my knowledge) but he has my mind, heart and everything else so :) listened to the bones by maren morris w/ hozier

part of the tales of a two-bit thief series

It starts with something straight out of a romance movie: A car crash, saving each other’s lives (well, him more than you) and “Wait, V, I need you.”

You don’t know how you got here, to be precise. There were a chain of events, some absolutely stand up fucking moments on your part, and just… fuckery. So much fuckery and life went to shit.

All you know is the ticking time bomb’s only ticking louder and at this point, the only thing that can silence it at all is the man beside you. Not even the meds Misty gave you can help you now. 

You’re sitting in his car because you called him and he had answered and now… now they’re on one of the off ramps looking over Night City like they own the fucking place.

Maybe you did, once. Ha, maybe back when everything seemed more job to job and not life to life. For a moment, maybe you were in the big leagues.

Takemura doesn’t say anything, even though you can tell he wants to. His hair still pulled into that man bun, collared shirt with not a single wrinkle in sight. Weird how he never looks out of place, not really. Not even with the car crash. Shit, he always looked good.

You think you’re actually gonna miss that. That one semblance of someone being put together that gave you the hope that maybe you could stick it too.

You think you’re gonna miss a lot of things about him—from his stupid complaints about the food here, to his stupid random philosophy texts in the day, to the fact that he eats the ramen you buy anyway without complaint, even though it’ll never compare to what he has in Japan.

The thought that counts.

They don’t even have the radio on, just the dim lights of the car, a window rolled down. You don’t smoke but you feel like you should be tapping a cig either way. You haven’t had the time to just fucking breathe—not with Silverhand breathing down your neck, corpo rats swarming you on all sides. 

Everyone wants a piece of you, it feels like. 

You look at Takemura.

Almost everyone.

“Thank you,” you tell him quietly, with difficulty. It’s hard to get through your words without thinking Silverhand’s behind your back, mocking you. You’re so fucking tired. “It hasn’t been easy.”

He doesn’t respond. He’s too busy looking at one of the cars nearly collide with a pedestrian. You could’ve laughed. You used to make fun of the shitty drivers in Night City, knowing full well you’re one of them.

You get chased by a couple of cops, rules start to bend.

You used to wonder why you never left.

Then, you actually left, and you realized that hell, you can take the person out of Night City—can’t take the Night City out of a person.

Atlanta fucking sucked, but maybe you should’ve stayed there.

But then, a tiny voice whispers as you look out the window to the fresh night wind. You never would’ve met him.

It’s funny, you think. To come back and get a brain tumour in the shape of a rocker who can’t fucking touch anyone who loves him, who he loved, only for you to fall in love with a corpo you can’t fucking touch at all because… because there is no time left. It just isn’t fair.

“I used to be a corpo kid,” you confess, looking at him with a wry smile again. That catches his attention. He looks at you with those eyes that scrutinize you, interrogate you, peel you apart to your bare essentials and you have to look away before you can’t control your face anymore. God fucking damn it. “Not when it mattered, obviously, but… I remember what it was like. Grew up hating every single on of them.”

“Your parents were Arasaka?”

“Mhm. Security division.” It’s like your eyes are magnetic to his because when you blink, you find yourself regarding him again. Your fingers play at your lips. “Counterintelligence. I was supposed to go into that, too. Big dreams.” 

“I see.”

“Yeah, then my parents were tried for treason and murdered, so I got thrown out. That’s it.” Your hand falls away. You pick at the chipped nail polish on your thumb. “Never told anyone that. ‘Cept…” Jackie. Well, he’s fucking dead, now. “‘Cept you, now, I guess. Guess some corpos aren’t so bad.”

The corner of his mouth pinches up like he’s flattered and you can’t help the pleased warmth spreading through your chest. 

“Should I be honoured I am one of the few exceptions you have made?”

“Well, I don’t make exceptions often, so…” You grin slyly. He looks away just as you catch a flash of his smile growing. It’s a nice smile. You wish you saw it more often before the end of the road. Maybe it’s one of the regrets you have, too. “Yeah, maybe you should feel special.”

“Hm.”

“C’mon, Takemura. Humour the walking dead, yeah?” You stretch against the leather of his car seat with a pleased sound. “I’m spending what time I have left with who I want to. Can’t ask for much better than that.” A quiet hangs in the air as you melt against the black leather and you look at Takemura who’s staring at the wheel with an intensity you don’t often see. It makes your gut squirm. 

“And I? I am one of those people?”

You lean on one hip and look at him, bending a knee and resting an ankle on your thigh. He looks at you with an uncertainty—an uncertainty you’re sure echoes in your eyes.

It was business, then it wasn’t. Maybe it never was.

“Yeah. You’re one of the few on the short list.”

“Exceptions again.”

You laugh. “Yeah. You’re an exception to most things, I think. Weird, that.”

“How so?”

“Ah, I don’t know. I’ve had family—still do, ones that matter, you know. Just… no one ever like you, Takemura. Drives me crazy.”

“The feeling is mutual. Your mocking brings you onto thin ice, V.” His fingers tap against the steering wheel. The engine’s off so it seems more fidgety than anything. Weird. You never noticed he fidgeted before. Maybe he’s nervous?

About what?

“I must ask you something.”

“Shoot.”

“If you have a future, what do you see for yourself?”

Your eyebrows shoot up. You frown and pick at your flecking nail polish even more, looking at your hand and focusing more on that so you don’t have to answer your question. His eyes burn into you and you swallow, trying not to act like you haven’t thought, in regret, at night, about a hundred million fucking times the possibilities they could’ve had together.

You’re not about to say all that.

Instead: “Settling down with the family. Mama Welles, people at the Coyote.” You blatantly don’t look at him when you add, “Others. This has been enough action for a lifetime.” You rest your hands on your lap and chance a glimpse at him. He’s looking away from you, out the window on his side, and you shift in your seat. “How about you? You must’ve… had dreams. Before all this shit went down. You make it out of here and then what?”

When he looks at you, your heart nearly cracks at the sadness in his eyes. He smiles, but there is no strength, and his eyes are darker than the night surrounding them.

“I would go to the countryside, just as I’ve always wanted. Leave this, all of this, behind. Rural Japan is beautiful, so a small town would suffice where everyone knows everyone. We do favours for one another. It is community. Nothing like here.” His lips pull into a tiny frown. “When I was a younger man, I wanted a daughter,” is all he says. “I believe I could have been a great father, so perhaps… perhaps one day.”

“A daughter? Not a son?” you ask curiously, and he almost chuckles. You can’t help the faint smile on your face. 

“If my daughter grew up anything like her mother,” he explains with a slight glance towards you, “I would have more hope than a son who was like me.”

You frown.  “You’re not a bad man, Takemura. Any son like you—with your code of honour, your shitty selfie skills—no one’s gotta a chance.”

He merely scoffs in response. Again, with the you mocking him. It’s a wonder he lets you.

“But really, that sounds… nice. A daughter, a wife.” You drum your fingers against your knee and his eyes dart to yours, click like they were always destined to meet, and your lips part. Words stall on your tongue and you want to speak but in the dim lights, you are lost in the darkness of his eyes. Something comes, something goes, and you barely croak out, “Whoever marries you will have to deal with so much of your shit that the kids have to turn out alright. The complaining, for one. Picky eater for another.”

This time, he does chuckle and you swallow a breath at the sound. “Dealing with it comes with practice, V.”

“Is that so?”

“Shouldn’t you know?”

“I—“ For once, no funny retort, no witty quip shoots out of your mouth, and you realize that there is an implication—an intricate dance where they’re struggling not to step on each other’s toes and nearly failing at every turn, yet somehow, it works because they’re dancing, and it’s quiet, and it’s… it’s peaceful.

Shit, you’re getting a load of this. When’d you become a poet?

“I guess I should know,” you finally say. “Never understood why I got so giddy whenever I saw your texts, you know, seein’ your name flash on my phone.” You laugh bitterly. “Guess I know why, now.” He’s silent and you don’t look at him. You look at the dashboard where you’ve kicked your feet up a dozen times, the glove compartment that still has your sunglasses inside.

Shit.

“Thank you for everything. Shit’s a little… more bearable, I guess. When you’re around, that is.” The words come out stilted, awkward, but your heart is so heavy in your throat you feel like you’re going to choke. You look into your lap, your whole body incinerating under what you’re sure is the most judgemental glare of your life and you just hope to fucking God this man says something, does something.

Holy shit. You’re going to die of embarrassment. Didn’t even think that was possible.

Then, a loud sigh. A sigh you’ve heard often enough beside you right before a gunfight or when he has to eat the food you ordered for him or even the nights when they’re exhausted, bruised, and just plain tired right before going to sleep where they lay on the floor.

It’s exasperated, a how on earth did we get here, a very annoyed again, you’re so fucking stupid, and you’re still running through your list on what this particular sigh can mean before a hand gently takes hold of yours. Your eyes dart to his, blinking and he stares at you like you’ve just stabbed him. Your heart is fucking racing in your chest, pounding like thunder. His fingers fold over and you realize, as you interlace fingers, that his skin is burning at your touch. 

Or maybe, it’s the other way around.

They sit there in silence, not looking at one another, looking out windows, parts of the car, everything but each other, and when he squeezes your hand, you close your eyes and swallow your heart.

It’s over.

“V,” he murmurs, voice so deathly quiet and raspy in your ears that your gut clenches. You turn to watch him. “Tell me that you will not stop fighting.” You swallow your breath as his eyes flicker from your own to your parted lips. He inhales quietly and you swear you can feel his heartbeat pulsing in his fingers in your grip. “That this is not all for nothing.”

“It isn’t.“

“Then I was right.” His eyes flutter back to your gaze and he tilts his head. Wisps of fine hair escaping his manbun brush over his nose and you reach up on your own accord, swiping it behind your ear. You lean over the console, your elbow digging into the leather and, tentatively, you trail your fingers down his jaw, hold his face in your hand. “I am… what is that phrase you use so often?”

“SNAFU?”

“No.”

“Assblasted.”

“No.”

“Royally fucked?”

“We need to expand your vocabulary.” You smile nefariously as his other hand reaches for your chin. He pinches it lightly, thumb stretching up to brush over your lips and your face freezes at his touch. “But yes. Royally fucked. I wasn’t wrong when I said I needed you.”

“I think that meant a whole something else back then,” you whisper rawly and he smiles sombrely. His thumb leaves your mouth to brush your cheek, his eyes fixing on you as if he’s trying to memorize aspects of your face: the arch of your nose, the bow of your smile, the way your brow wrinkles. “Meant more business-like.”

“I did. And now, I believe the terms have changed.” He arches an eyebrow. “Are we at a mutual understanding, V?”

“Yes.” And I hate that we are. Your hand along his jaw lifts to wrap around his wrist. “Consider that feeling mutual, yeah? It goes both ways.”

“I will.” Another small smile graces his lips. It makes him look younger every time and you rub your thumb over the back of his hand. 

“Do you wanna grab something to eat before you drive me back home for some shuteye?”

“The choices here are atrocious, V.”

“Then, drinks,” you propose, letting go of his wrist. He lets go of your chin, and turning to face the front, you kick up your feet on his dash. He stares at you for a moment then sighs because there really isn’t anything he can do about it. Nor, do you think, he wants to. You squeeze his hand and send him a silly smile. “How about drinks? I wasn’t hungry anyway.”

“Are you paying?”

You eye him incredulously. “Who do you take me for? You?”

He snorts and the engine roars to life with a flick of his wrist. He grabs the wheel dominantly and you swallow at the way his fingers wrap around the handle. “The Afterlife, then?”

“Or, we could make it rustic.” You pull his hand into your lap playfully and run a thumb over his knuckles. His eyes flit over and you send him a smirk. “I know Mama Welles doesn’t like you, but the Coyote’s serving cheap. Happen to like me there.” He begins to pull out of their little overhang and he nudges their joined hands into your abdomen, silently telling you to buckle in. Rolling your eyes, you mumble out a ‘boomer’ underneath your breath before letting go of him and following orders.

He settles a hand on your thigh and squeezes. You hang an arm out the window. 

The wind’s running through the car, he has the radio on low, and they’re easing through onto the highway.

Your chest is lighter than a feather, mind’s quieter than a ghost.

You’ve seen scarier deaths, dealt a lot more. You know that silence is a bigger killer than most bullets.

But here you are now…

“I’m changing this,” Takemura says. “This music is terrible.”

…Shit, maybe life isn’t so bad, ending the way it is.

#takemura #takemura x reader #takemura x you #takemura x v #takemura imagine #takemura imagines #goro takemura #goro takemura x reader #goro takemura x you #goro takemura x v #goro takemura imagine #goro takemura imagines #cyberpunk 2077 #cyberpunk 2077 fic #cyberpunk 2077 fanfiction #cyberpunk 2077 imagine #cyberpunk 2077 x reader #cyberpunk 2077 x v #my writing #fic: tales of a two bit thief

[anfuaruuu]

5, 14, 23 >:)

uhm this is. just the teensy bit of a length so ill put it under a cut

5. what's the most compelling arc to you and why? whether a story arc and/or character development.

a) hmm well in terms of story arc thats kinda hard to answer…. you could probably have millions of words of essays worth of analysis on every single arc and theyre all soo compelling but i guess i will have to say yi city arc? the narrative parallels between xiao xingchen and wei wuxian makes me so sad… they were viewed completely differently by the cultivation world yet we notice that they had the same naive goals, to do good and to save people as they can. what was done to both of them was an injustice and so tragic, in wei wuxian’s downfall because of society, in xiao xingchen’s suicide because he couldnt take the shame of what he realized xue yang forced him to do. and then you have song lan and lan wangji will both continue to live on with their own regrets after their beloved’s deaths… ultimately in similar ways… lan wangji, when he moved on past his grief, had continued to “go where the chaos is” and helped the common people, raising and teaching disciples and became kind and loving. song lan had also died and became a fierce corpse but he eventually deceided to roam the countryside exorcising evil with xiao xingchen and a’qing by his side.

b) now my favorite CHARACTER arc is by far and only gotta be Lan Wangji’s… the boy grew SO much and is probably arguably one of the only characters that grew that much in general. yes you could say other characters have also developed in certain ways, especially the story’s own main character !!! but in my opinion our lan wangji hanguang-jun lan-er-gege has THE most compelling character arc in all of the story!!!!! the novel especially, first and foremost, as it is my fanvorite version of the story and my favorite version of lan wangji!!!! it simply cannot be topped! and in the donghua you can really see that mellowed out version of hanguang-jun in the present timeline, ITS SO LOVELY!!!! overall he goes from a cold aloof and distant teenager to a quiet but kind, patient, and loving 35-yr old man… and the events in between that make him become that sexy sexy man is so wonderful and amazing, its so hard not to gush uncontrollably!!!

his first appearance in the novel showcases this particular kind and understanding part of him in contrast with jiang cheng—one demands results no matter what, the other advises not to push too hard:

His tone was sneering, but it was unclear who he was sneering at. Lan Wangji never opened his mouth in response to such provocations—he merely acted as though he hadn’t heard it. Jiang Cheng’s next words were wrapped in thorns. “Why are you still standing there? Are you waiting for prey to rush toward you and stick themselves on your sword? If you can’t capture whatever’s living in Dafan Mountain, don’t ever come see me again!”

[…]

Wei Wuxian pulled on the corners of his lips. But Lan Wangji opened his mouth and issued a command. It was clear and concise, free of any ornamentation. “Complete your task.”

Only then did the flock of juniors remember why they had come to Dafan Mountain. Placing any other thoughts at the back of their minds, they reverently awaited further instructions. A few moments later, Lan Wangji spoke again, “Try your hardest. No recklessness.”

—Pride 3, Mo Dao Zu Shi, FanYiyi translation

When we meet Lan wangji as a teenager, he is a model disciple, a stickler for the rules and basically like a mini Lan Qiren. Wei Wuxian is just,, hopelessly endeared and fascinated by this—how can one person be so stuffy?? He is dead SET on breaking this boy, pushing his boundaries and getting him to break the rules… but its almost impossible!!! He is undeterred by the bribery of wine in their first meeting. He is (supposedly) undettered by cheeky smiles and shameless flirting. After their second fight on the wall of the CR, when wwx pushes them out of the boundary, he is suprised when lan wangji takes them BOTH to punishment (lets not forgot that this is probably the first time someone else has decided to take punishment either WITH him… jc, nhs, and the other boys were the ones who suggested he bring the wine yet they dont dare to seek punishment)

After the CR arc, we witness many fleeting moments in their lives where their paths are crossed, and its in these key moments, where Lan Wangji grows just a little bit more (thats not to say its ONLY wwx that helps him grow, but more so where Lan Wangji learns a little more about his sexuality, and learns to come to terms with it)

Lan Wangji, like many characters in the story, has been shaped and molded by grief and war. However the most unique part about him is that that tragedy has shaped him to be a kinder person—kinder with his loved ones, kinder with the younger generation, and perhaps kinder on himself, eventually. There are SO many other things I want to talk about when it comes to er-gege, especially the pheonix mountain hunt and his struggle with not becoming like his father, his struggle with grief and overcoming that grief through becoming kinder and more open-minded… and having his patience and love be rewarded in the end. I really really really want to make a 24637738274377483 page gdoc lan wangji character essay bc…. i literally ferl like i can talk abt him nonstop!!!!! so ill stop here bc if i go any further its gna turn into that essay LOL

14. what's an au/non-canon scenario that makes you feel all warm and fuzzy inside?

the concept of wangxian huge declaration of love then passionate sexy moments THEN immediately marrying and running away together is so sososooo romantic to me AUUGHHHG like in. any scenario. tbh. canon or non-canon. canon adjacent or modern aus. ALL GOOD. i wish wangxian a very happy married and joined at the hips at all times. the way mxtx had them confessing profusely in a hostage situation then immediately leaving and doing it in the woods bc they simply Could Not Wait is UNPARALLELED. You could not write wangxian any other way. You could not have any other ship Do It Like That. it simply Just Works for them. i literally cant read any other au or canon div that has them getting together in a non-ridiculous cookie-cutter way anymore bc thats not wangxian LOL

23. underrated character/ship that you don't see enough content of?

underrated character has gotta be a-qing. OR QIN SU… i never see qin su in fics wtf. but tbf i only read wangxian fics LOL

underrated ship hands down probs songxiao… as much as there is a TON of canon backed narritives btwn the two i feel like theyre kind of underrated for the proportion of canon vs fanworks there is… however its not totally dead so thats fine LOL i dont have many other ships in mdzs anyways hehe

#ask game #uhm there are probs a lot of mistakes i will go back and edit this later perhaps. #mdzs

[frightgothcar]

Danny and Tucker grew up together, theyre absolutely both StarWars nerds and have seen the movies like a bajillion times, most of which were watched together under a blanket fort. 

Sam, who moved to town in like sixth/seventh grade, sat with the boys at lunch and quickly became their friend, though she tended to stay out of a lot of the pop culture-y stuff, opting for small horror series. 

When they’re in highschool, they’re at lunch and they start talking about fucking. Revenge of the Sith because it came out in 05, and Sam, with her weird thing against anything popular expresses her disdain for the series. Idk how many of yall are StarWars fans but everyone (especially fans) is always so shocked and like. weirdly offended when you say you’ve never seen them. 

Anyway, for some reason this is completely unacceptable, and since Tucker’s parents won’t let a girl sleep over at his place, he brings his dvd set to Danny’s. Danny’s parents are out testing weapons in the countryside for the weekend, so Tucker can set up a impromptu sound system in the living room and all that. Plus it’s the end of summer so one last big sleepover party before highschool starts is kinda necessary. 

Of course, because it’s Fenton tech, as Tucker tries to attach a. whatever i have no clue how those work to the dvd player, it straight up explodes, or gets messed up because ectoplasm. It’s already past dark, which means Tucker’s parents are sleeping so they can’t borrow his. Sam is like ‘it was gonna be boring anyway. i mean, cmon, we have /real/ science right here, we don’t need science fiction.’ And Danny’s like ‘I guess we could dig around in the garage and see if we can blow something up?’ because hes 14 and blowing things up is rad. And Tucker goes ‘well hey, ectoplasm dude, that was actually pretty cool, yknow, if it hadn’t fried the dvd player. maybe we can put some in Dash’s mailbox and watch it explode haha’ and ofc Dannys like ‘Tuuucker thats illegal ;)) ;)))) we cant do that ;) ;) ;)’ and Tuckers like ‘riiiiiiight ;) what was i thinking ;)) ;)))’ And then they spend like twenty minutes convincing Sam its about justice and whatever so she agrees and they all head down to the lab. 

So obviously this lab is freakin sick, Tucker’s seen it all before, and he’s much more interested in coding v constructing things themselves, plus, ghosts aren’t even real why would he waste his time. it is a nice shtick and all though. but Sam hasn’t been down in the lab since the portal got completed, and even then she hasnt been in the lab a ton because Danny hates all the ghost stuff. so shes like ‘dude this is so sick wtf lets hang out here’ and danny is like ‘naw fuck this i hate this place my parents have a mental health amusment park spinner thing it sucks.’ and sam is like ‘ok but we at least have to take some pictures because this place has major cybergoth aesthetics’ and tucker’s like ‘ooh yeah (something something) myspace’ becasue early 2000s.

And dannys like ‘ok fine’ so they do a bunch of pics of them just fucking around, sam poses on a lab table and tucker pretends to drink from the beakers behind her its all horribly against lab safety like these guys would get kicked right the fuck out of any normal lab. and sams like omg you have a jumpsuit like your parents and dannys like ‘please i am not putting that on’ and sams like 

and then like a choose your own adventure game the option: WHO WEARS THE JUMPSUIT? pops up and you get to choose which teenager to kill. 

#this is exactly what happens in danny phanotm #you dont even have to watch the show this is what happens beat for beat

[bugsweirdworld]

Request from @leandersluckylady

Hello^^

May I request two matchups a romantic and a platonic?? I’m female, straight, average height, and in my early twenties. I had long curly brown hair, but I cropped it short on a whim and I’m loving it! I’ve got green eyes that tend to change color depending on what I wear. I’m a rather soft spoken individual and I’ve been told my voice is soothing to hear.

Personality wise I’m your typical introvert^^ shy when I first meet you but as we become friends I’ll come out of my shell. I’m also incredibly easy to fluster...I blush soo easily T-T...While I’m most comfortable with my family and close friends I don’t mind meeting new people but I kinda have to be force into it^^’I love reading and I’ve been known to mildly obsess over my preferred fandoms. I enjoy cooking and love spending time with the kiddos I nanny!

I also love the outdoors! Walking around the countryside, watching fireflies and the night sky, or splashing around in a creek equal hours of fun in my opinion! I also have horrible balance and have been known to run into walls, doorframes, counters, corners, and people on multiple occasions welp I think that’s about it^_^<3 I hope you’re having a lovely morning/day/night!

Thank you! I’m SO sorry it’s taken so long to get to your matchup, I’m really bad at buckling down and actually getting things done 😂.

Soooo... I found this one really hard for some reason and in the time I had I only got one done I’m afraid! I couldn’t decide whether I thought this one was romantic or platonic. In the end I went with romatic but most of the things apply in both situations. However, if you want me to re-write it for platonic, or request again later that I do the second match up as well, I can!

Romantic: I match you with...

💀🐣Horortale!Papyrus 🐣💀

Crooks loves your hair, whether long or short, he really enjoys running his fingers through it, especially since it comforts and helps to ground him. It’s the same with your soft personality and voice, he may seem ok on the outside but a lot of the time there’s a storm in his soul and he just needs someone to help calm it.

Crooks is also a bit shy and weary, especially because of how he looks, but he knows you’ll always accept him. He loves it when you come out of your shell, your confidence helps him feel more confident. He knows he can be himself when he’s around you, he doesn’t have to be scared. As far as being easily flustered goes, Crooks is the same. However, once you get to know each other more and become closer, it’s a lot easier for him to comment on how yummy you look 👀🥰

Even though his eyesight isn’t the best, Crooks loves reading! Or the idea of it at least. It’ll take some time for him to become comfortable with the idea of spending money on things he doesn’t “need” and having free time for “fun” things rather than “useful” things. In the Underground it was very much, get what you get and don’t pitch a fit, since there wasn’t much of another option. However, he did have some old messed up comics from before things went south for them. Maybe you should buy him some new stuff?

Being given things may make him a bit uncomfortable at first because he isn’t used to it but it really does make him feel incredibly loved. I’d recommend books of poetry! He might enjoy some cook books too but I’d hold off on those until you’re further along in the relationship, as it can be a sensitive topic for him. Maybe start off by casually cooking things and asking him to grab things for you, then as time goes on, have the requests be more involved until he actually begins to help you cook. Once he’s comfortable with that and enjoys himself, you should get him some cook books so he can cook some himself too!

Being exposed out in the open was never the wisest idea in the underground, you never knew whether someone would snap and try to hurt you. The idea of being off his guard and having fun just because is a bit foreign to him. Crooks didn’t realise how much he missed and treasured nature until it was reintroduced to him. A lot of the poetry he writes is actually about nature. Thats just one of the reasons he’d love to come on your adventures, so he can become inspired! ALSO he LOVES fireflies!

Bless his soul, Crooks is always terrified you’ll hurt yourself. He’s scared that if you bleed or become injured he might do something to make it worse or scare you. What if he can’t control his instincts?! He’s not the best with healing since his magic is all messed up, and pain is something he doesn’t like being around. However, if he can steel himself long enough to assess the situation he can actually be quite a good nurse for you 🥰.

Once again, I’m SOOOO sorry this took so long! I’m trying to get back into the swing of writing things but it’s harder than I thought 😂😅.

NOTE: It’s not letting me tag you and says yoir blog doesn’t exist so I think you’ve changed your blogs name or you’ve deleted it. I’m SO sorry I missed you 💀💀💀

#undertale matchups #matchups #abbysmatchups #ht!papyrus #crooks #undertale #horrortale #submission

[morniingstarr-archive]

☆ for mary w. 🌿

Send ‘✩’ for the following:

Disagreements:

Who is more likely to raise their voice? Lucifer

Who threatens to leave but never actually does? Lucifer

Who actually keeps their word and leaves? Okay, but, we are all here for Mary being strong and walking out. 

Who trashes the house? Neither, Lucifer still very much feels that the cottage is Mary’s home, and he respects her too much to trash anything. 

Do either of them get physical? No

How often do they argue/disagree?  Not very often. 

Who is the first to apologise? Mary

Family:

Do your muses plan on having children/or have children? (Mun wants them to! I need to speak to @unofficialhistcrian about it though but I’m going to answer this as if they do have kids because it’s too cute not to answer)

If so, how many children do your muses want/have? 2, a boy and a girl

Who is the favorite parent? Mary

Who is the authoritative parent? I think they would be the same, maybe Mary would be more authoritaitve with her being the school teacher and Lucifer would let more slip

Who is more likely to allow the children to have a day off school? Lucifer

 Who lets the children indulge in sweets and junk food when the other isn’t around? Lucifer

 Who turns up to extra curricular activities to support their children? Both Mary and Lucifer would be there together. 

Who goes to parent teacher interviews? Both of them 

 Who changes the diapers? They take it in turns

Who gets up in the middle of the night to feed the baby? Lucifer, Mary trys to but he makes her go back to sleep as she needs rest

Who spends the most time with the children? Lucifer but only as Mary works and he doesn’t

 Who packs their lunch boxes? Lucifer, Mary has enough to do on a morning. 

Who gives their children ‘the talk’?  Mary - Lucifer would be too graphic

Who cleans up after the kids?  Mary

Who worries the most? Mary

Who are the children more likely to learn their first swear word from? Lucifer, obvs

Affection:

Who likes to cuddle? Mary, Lucifer indulges her, because how can you say no to Mary?

Who is the little spoon? Mary

Who gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places? Lucifer obviously

Who struggles to keep their hands to themself?   Lucifer

How long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable? No such thing as uncomfortable 

Who gives the most kisses? Lucifer 

What is their favourite non-sexual activity? Cuddling, walking in the forest. Going to Pops’ or Dr C’s

Where is their favourite place to cuddle? Sofa or bed

Who is more likely to playfully grope the other? Lucifer

How often do they get time to themselves? A lot of the time.

Sleeping:

Who snores? If both do, who snores the loudest? They both do, Lucifer snores loudest. 

Do they share a bed or sleep separately?  Defo share....thats whole thing

If they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart?  Cozy up to one another

Who talks in their sleep?  Both

What do they wear to bed? Lucifer wears either boxers or nothing, Mary wears a night shirt. 

Are either of your muses insomniacs? They both have trouble sleeping

Can sleeping pills be found by the bedside? Yes, since coming to Greendale, Lucifer has found out about these sleeping pills and takes them often.

Do they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side? Wrap around each other

Who wakes up with bed hair? Both but Marys is worse 

Who wakes up first? Mary is usually awake first

Who prepares breakfast in bed for the other?  Lucifer

What is their favourite sleeping position? Cuddles up

 Who hogs the sheets? Mary

Do they set an alarm each night? Mary does for work

 Can a television be found in their bedroom? Not in the bedroom, no

 Who has nightmares? Both do

Who has ridiculous dreams? Mary

Who sprawls out and takes up most of the bed? Lucifer 

Who makes the bed? Mary

What time is bed time? Anytime is bed time!

Any routines/rituals before bed? not really, they always have to have a kiss before they sleep though

Who’s the grumpiest when they wake up? Lucifer

Work:

Who is the busiest? Mary

Who rakes in the highest income? Mary

 Are any of your muses unemployed? Technically Lucifer is, now he’s not king of hell and is a volunteer

Who takes the most sick days? Mary....if Lucifer can convince her to call off sick

 Who is more likely to turn up late to work? Mary...under the influence of Lucifer 

Who sucks up to their boss? neither

What are their jobs? Teacher and shelter volunteer

 Who stresses the most? Mary

 Do your muses enjoy or despise their careers/occupations? Enjoy

Are your muses financially stable? Yes

Home:

Who does the washing? Mary

Who takes out the trash? Lucifer

Who does the ironing? Mary 

Who does the cooking? Lucifer through the week, Mary on a weekend

 Who is more likely to burn the house down just trying? Lucifer

 Who is messier? Lucifer

Who leaves the toilet roll empty? neither

Who leaves their dirty clothes on the floor? Lucifer

Who forgets to flush the toilet? Is that...a thing? Ew.

 Who is the prankster around the house? Lucifer

 Who loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere? Mary

Who mows the lawn? Lucifer

Who answers the telephone? Mary

Who does the vacuuming? Lucifer

 Who does the groceries? Mary 

 Who takes the longest to shower? Mary

Who spends the most time in the bathroom? Mary

Miscellaneous:

Is money a problem? No - you don’tlive for as long as Lucifer has without being more than financially stable.

How many cars do they own? 1 for now

Do they own their home or do they rent? Mary owns her home.

 Do they live near the coast or deep in the countryside? Uhm...I mean...countryside if the choice is just those two

Do they live in the city or in the country? country

 Do they enjoy their surroundings? Yes

What’s their song? Uhm....undisclosed desires by Muse

 What do they do when they’re away from each other? Lucifer tries to fill his time by practicing backing, cooking, anything really to take his mind off of how strange it feels to not be in Hell, not have to worry about Hell..

Where did they first meet? In Mary’s living room

 How did they first meet? Uhm..Lucifer kinda made her a deal to bring back her fiance...dead fiance.....

Who spends the most money when out shopping? Lucifer has  a weak spot for a good suit...and we all know those aint cheap!

Who finds it amusing when the other trips over? Lucifer for sure...he’s an actual child

 Any mental issues? A lot of trauma, both with Lucifer and Mary. Lucifer hides it better though

Who’s terrified of bugs? Not terrified, but...not his fave - Lucifer 

Who kills the spiders around the house? Lucifer if he’s allowed

Their favourite place? BED! and the woods.

Who pays the bills? Lucifer - it’s his contribution to living under Mary’s roof.

Do they have any fears for their future? Lucifer is terrified that he will mess up, that he’ll basically end up treating her like he did Lilith and fuck it all up..he’s also terrified for the day she passes, to see her grow old.

 Who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner?  Lucifer

Who uses up all of the hot water? Mary

 Who’s the tallest?  Lucifer

Who’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other? Lucifer

 Who wanders around in their underwear? Lucifer

Who sings the loudest when singing along to the radio? Mary

What do they tease each other about? I don’t actually know, probably about Mary and how much she loves hugging and his kisses.

Who is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times? Lucifer at Mary

 Do they have mutual friends? That;s a ...sore....subject

Who crushed first? Lucifer on Mary

 Any alcohol or substance related problems? No

 Who is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am? I mean, he can’t get drunk, but Lucifer is more likley to come home at 3am from a night or trying to get drunk

Who swears the most? Lucifer

@unofficialhistcrian

#meme #unofficialhistcrian #ship things #lucifer x mary #morningward like morningwood #LOL

[karelysse]

"HOTLG Rework" asdfghjkl I think I love you. Tell me more about the FIC FUTURE ANGST

YEH that meme djkfgjkfjgk im so sorry i forgot about it ;;; i DID end up reworking a bit hotlg!!! took out a few things that bothered me and uh. tried to fix some language issues cuz it was a mess (still is but. less bad ig). i still have a few scenes i couldnt get outta my head that i wrote aside n wanted to add but… didnt do it much bc i feel it was more self-indulgent than anything. so i still have that lil edit folder, for maybe in the future idk

oh lord……. that was a big thing i had all plotted up in my head when i finished chap2…. and stucked me a lil bc i wanted to write it so bad but told myself i needed to finish chap3 first……. and ended up doing neither oh what a mess. so i kinda resent that idea now lmao sdjskjd

basically (i ranted so much to @hanyuwus bout this on twt lmao) its like an angst au that gets set like, 5-6 years from now. Yuzu won oly beijing or didnt go fjfjk cant remember and it doesnt rly matter. He’s SOARING in jpn, hes adored (like right now, but then he isnt such an hermit anymore, goes to talk shows and stuff, does a lot of work for charities, building rinks and whatev) by the public eye. Javi is in spain coaching, doing his thing, he has one good student he’s tryna rile up for gpf, yeh, not much talking actively to yuzu bc you know how it is with yuzu and they never texted much when they were training together anyway. Last time they saw eachother was like, two years ago at cricket by accident, and they’re still very fond, just not that close anymore. Javi had sent him a message of congratulations for his engagement last year that yuzu didnt answer to. javi doesn’t know the girl, but brian told him she was like an actress/singer or something, super super famous back in japan, and yeah javi guesses thats cool even if it came out of nowhere or whatever, he knows its sometimes like that in japan and they look very perfect and happy on pictures. 

BUT THEN

fic starts. javi gets a call from brian. its been three weeks since the vid, the scandal, since yuzu disappeared from the surface of the earth. javi heard of it ofc, everybody did. was worried a lil but it came right at the end of season, when all his skaters were doing 4CC and worlds. and nobody texted him about it, he saw it on the internet like everybody else. basically yuzu fucked up and got caught on tape making out w some guy, when technically he was engaged with JPN’s sweetheart, that girl that everybody loved, for like a whole year. Apart from the fact that hes gay, the scandal is mostly about how they lied to everyone and looked like they had this perfect wedding planned up when rly it was all bullshit. and nobody likes liars, ya know. so yuzu just disappeared, the girl was papped with red eyes and sunglasses next to her parents a couple times, and brian calls javi.

he’s like u heard bout yuzu. javi’s like well yeah omg how is that doing. brian’s like, well its pretty bad. he’s here in toronto with us, he flew right away, but its like the middle of the winter, and people recognize him here he cant go out and its cold and full of paparazzis and im worried about him. i remember you have a shack or something you bought for your parents somewhere lost in the middle of spanish countryside? can we like. ship yuzu there. so he can get so rest. and javi’s like : uh well. yeah yeah ofc send him there if he needs my parents are in the city for the summer the cottage is free. 

so yuzu gets there, arrives in helicopter this dramatic ass bitch, while javi gets to the cottage b4 him to greet him and show him around a bit before he leaves back to madrid. but like. yuzu is not okay, the old lady that takes care of the cottage keeps whining to javi about how there’s so much renovations to do that she cant do bc she’s old, and javi is kinda…. in need of a break too bc of of reasons…. so he stays w yuzu a lil longer. and….. unresolved stuff gets brought up, and gets resolved. and happy ending. two lonely boys find eachother back.

jeez lmao i tried to summarize that but i suck so bad im sorry dfjdkfjdkj BASICALLY its heavily based on the song wake up by eden, and idk if i’ll ever finish it cuz…..ya know idk

#this was so much plotted up lmao #and theres bed sharing and a lot of ansgt and bad communication and all my jam u know my tropes kfjkjkf #jeez thank u for this! i could talk about my wip forever tbh #yuzuvier #ask #asks

[positiveparker]

him and his friend part 1

hello everyone! I’m gonna try writing Peter Parker fan fiction because I’m bored and its summer so here goes. Obviously if you enjoy this one you can give me suggestions of what to write next :) - L

- warnings ; fluff!

- pairing ; peter parker x reader

- masterlist 

It was the first day I was attending Midtown school of science and technology. I had wanted to go there for ages and was super nervous for being the new girl. I rolled over in my bed and looked out my window. We had just moved to Queens, New York from North Carolina and I was just getting used to the hustle and bustle of the city. I could smell Moms breakfast wafting up the stairs so I placed my feet on the ground and pulled on a sweater. I trudged downstairs to see balloons and a card balanced on the kitchen counter saying ‘good luck’ with a horse shoe printed on it. I smiled and took it in my hands. I opened it up to see messages from all my family members. I slipped the card in my jumper pocket and went to the dining room.

“Hey sweetie” Mom said smiling at me “There’s your chocolate chip pancakes and I’ve got bacon on the way”

“Thanks Mom” I replied

“So (y/n) are you excited for your first day” Dad asked

“I guess, but I’m nervous obviously” I replied waffling down my pancakes.

“Nerd” My brother Jared whispered at me. I grabbed a toasted bagel and jokingly threw it at him.

“Hey (y/n), Jared thats enough!” Mom shouted at us. I plugged my orange juice down quickly and stood up.

“Hey (y/n) you haven’t finished” Dad bellowed at me

“I dont wanna be late!” I shouted, running up the stairs.

I pulled open my dresser and picked out my clothes. I decided on a wool Burgundy jumper and some black jeans. I tied my messy (y/h/c) into a ponytail and put on some concealer over my under eye bags. I quickly swiped on some mascara and then analysed my face in the mirror. I really wanted to make a good first impression. My phone notifications were going off but I didn’t have time to read them so I just slipped my phone into my jean pocket. My school bag was already full of new folders, pens and a notebook so I just grabbed it and ran down the stairs. I opened the front door and stepped outside into the cool September air.

“Hey don’t forget lunch money!” Mom said handing me a couple of dollars and kissing me on the cheek.

“You’ll do fine, don’t worry” Dad bellowed from the kitchen. I smiled and hugged Mom goodbye. I ran down the steps of our house and down the street. I normally took a school bus to school but seeing as I wasn’t in the countryside anymore I had to take the subway. It seemed very daunting and I had no idea what I was doing. I trudged down the steps and heard some voices behind me.

“So I got the new death star lego set!” a male voice shouted

“Hey Ned, do you not wanna say that so loud” another voice replied

“Oh yeah there’s ladies around” I wasn’t sure if he was referring to me but I decided to look over my shoulder anyways. My eyes were met with two boys one was quite short and round with a thick black curtain haircut. He was wearing a Midtown jumper so I decided to smile at him. The other was not much taller than him with wavy brown hair and pale skin. His eyes were dark brown and piercing, he looked shy when I stared at him. I turned back around and carried on walking into the subway.

“Talk to her” I heard one whisper. I smiled to myself as I walked up to the barriers. I had no idea how to get in to the subway.

“You need a ticket Ma’am” a subway worker said sternly

“Ugh I dont ha-” I replied, I was panicking since all the money my mom had given me was for lunch.

“Hey Ned wait up!” one of the familiar voices shouted. The shorter one put his ticket through and walked through the barriers. I looked over and saw the taller boy running after him. Ned pointed at me and whispered to the other boy. I started to panic as another subway worker came over to me with a stern face.

“You need a ticket ma’am otherwise I am gonna have to escort you out!” The worker shouted. She had thick blonde hair and a serious RBF (resting bitch face). In my peripheral vision I noticed the shyer boy coming towards us.

“I dont hav-” I said to the woman

“I am going to have to escort you out ma’am” the other worker said grabbing my arm

“No please I need to get to school” My face became flushed and I had tears in my eyes.

“Mrs Park there will be no need for that” I heard the shy boy said as he approached us.

“Oh Peter, how was your summer?”

“Oh great yeah, I’ve got this internship with Mr Stark”

“Mr Stark hey?” she replied curiously

“Yeah, its great” he said, he then focused his gaze onto me staring into my eyes

“You know this girl? Mrs Park asked pointing at me

“Yeah” he said. Then the woman opened the barrier with her key and let me through. I quickly stepped through and went towards Peter.

“Thanks” I said to him smiling

“Y-you’re welcome” He replied shyly after a long gust of silence he stuck his hand out to me “I’m Peter by the way”

“(y/n)” I replied shaking his hand.

“And that is Ned” he said pointing towards his friend. Ned had his arms out pretending to be a plane, he was making childish zooming noises with his mouth. “Ned, cut it out” Peter shouted. Ned saw me and immediately stopped. “This is (y/n)” Peter told Ned

“Do you guys go to Midtown?” I wondered

“Yeah, do you go there?” Ned replied

“Well I’m just starting, my family and I just moved here”

“really where from?” Peter asked

“North Carolina”

“Really! COOL!” Ned said with an infatuated facial expression. We walked to the platform altogether and hopped on the train.

“So you like science huh?” Peter asked awkwardly

“Of course she likes science she’s going to Midtown duh!” Ned replied

“Well actually they do technology genius”

“Yeah I like science” I interrupted

“cool” they said both staring at me

after some awkwardly silence Ned nudged Peter to say something. “Ugh I like your eyes” he said shakily

“Thanks people don’t usually like (y/e/c) eyes”

“I love them, eyes are so cool, especially the retina and how it works-” he stopped himself as soon as he realised he was being a nerd

“Yeah same, the way that everyones eyes are different and the average blink lasts 1/10th of a second” I replied eagerly. Peter and Ned’s faces lit up as soon as they realised I was nerdy as well.

“Do you like Star Wars?” Ned asked

“Love it” I smiled at him

Peter looked at me like I was the most interesting girl he had ever met. He kinda made my heart flutter, I was surprised at how quickly it seemed I had made friends. I was totally happy though…

#peter parker x reader #peter parker fanfiction #tom holland fan fiction #marvel fan fiction #fan fiction #tom holland gifs #peter parker #marvel imagine #peter parker imagine #peter parker gifs #positiveparkerfics

[willgayers]

Omg you're from Finland?? So cool!! As an American that is very seriously considering moving out of country somewhere and is considering moving to a Scandinavian country, I'd really appreciate it if you'd share a little bit about what life is like there? Do you enjoy living in Finland?? Sorry if this is weird...America is just a pretty scary place to be lately.

first of all; i spent half an hour writing the answer and then accidentally closed the tab. i am sCREAMING INSIDE !!!!!

but, lets do this again, so:

hey!! yeah i am from finland! born and raised! and its not weird to ask ,, tbh i kinda get your point. i actually answered to an ask yesterday telling what are my 5 favorite things about living in finland, but i can tell you some more under the cut, especially differences etc ! this was actually fun to write 

ok first things first, food is very expensive. ofc not in fast food chains like mc donalds etc, but restaurant-restaurants are expensive and also grocery stores, unless you’re buying the store’s own product so at least we’ve got a cheaper option. but yeah restaurants are very expensive (salads starting from 12euros, pizzas from 13euros, chinese/nepalese starting from 12euros, sushi is so damn expensive dont even get me started on that, i only ever eat it in a lunch buffet… and if you wanna order a steak or something like that lmao prepare to pay nearly 20euros OR MORE),, anyway during lunch hours there are usually special offers. coffee prices aren’t that bad. we also have starbucks! but not all the drinks that you guys have

just like food, alcohol is very expensive, so if you like your liquor be ready waste a lot of money on it. thats why finnish people actually go to estonia by ship to full the cabinets bc their alcohol is so much cheaper! its a finnish tradition lol. same goes with cigarettes. its 8 euros for a pack in here so 9 dollars.

traveling abroad is pretty expensive, but mostly just to the states and some very exotic places like the maldives idk. its like 1000euros to travel to california (i would know because i’ve always wanted to visit but im poor af 3). traveling inside finland is not that expensive , gas is p expensive but depends on the gas station 

clothes are not that expensive, at least it depends on what you’re buying. mostly anyway its the same price range that in usa i think but we don’t have the same stores, at least not forever 21 and primark for example but we do have h&m and zara and then some european stores like bik bok (which is my personal fav!) also victoria’s secret is super expensive cause it’s not normal for finns. there are only 2 of them in here anyway, one in the capital city aka helsinki and a small one at the airport

now to holidays! in actual calendar order ;-) valentine’s day; not big on celebrating, stores have stuff and some people do spend it but… not like… many easter; we have a thing similar to trick or treating, kids only dress as bunnies and witches tho may day; basically students (from like college) get “crowned “with student caps. everyone goes out to a park for a picnic and to drink. a lot. im telling you finnish people are huge drunks,, also its part of the tradition to dress funnily, stores sell weird may day clothing (like glittery hats and neon colored sunglasses), also there are sugar donuts and a either alcoholic or non-alcoholic (you decide) drink called sima. aaand decorations like balloons and paper streamers are literally everywhere midsummer; other finns go to their cottages and barbecue and go to sauna and swim in the lake. others go to a festival to get wasted. either way its a beautiful finnish tradition lmao, also this is the night when the sun shines for the whooole night!! not like literally shines but its not dark at all. there are bonfires and honestly, i’d say midsummer is the one holiday where finnish people really drink. like its -the- heavy drinking holidayhalloween; NO trick or treating which was very sad to kid-me bc no one gave me candy when i went t-o-t as a kid. also still pissed off cause it’s my fav holiday. stores sell halloween stuff and people dress up for parties, but no one really decorates. which sucks. finland sucks for halloween tbh. one plus is that we have the perfect halloween weather because its super dark and chilly and rainy and orange leaves everywhere during halloween-time!!thanks-giving; very very very little people celebrate this. definitely not a common thing. i only do it with friends and we call it friends-givingindependence day; obviously finland’s independence day. 100 years this year!!! christmas; 1000000% celebrate. so much snow. so cold. every store has christmas things and plays christmas music. everyone decorates. i mean it’s only fair bc santa claus lives in finland duhnew year; well i don’t think theres a country that doesn’t celebrate this tbh. stores sell stuff again. we have fireworks. also a lot of drinking. againalso obvs moher’s day and father’s day

concerts happen, not as often (especially with big stars) as they do in the states, but they happen! so do festivals. i actually summer-work at the largest one in finland ayyyyyy 

also, finnish people swear. like. a lot

MINUSES;- it can get freezing in the winter. last winter the lowest we hit was like -32 degrees- most of the time during summer it rains. this is also a finnish people joke because there was a meme saying “in the bible it rained for 40 days and 40 nights. they called it the apocalypse. in finland it rained for 40 days and 40 nights. they called it summer”- some finns are very narrow-minded, so expect not everyone to definitely not agree with you. i actually have a hard time dealing with this and usually always stood out from the mass mainly bc i am way too social and open-minded and everything to hang out with kids my age because their opinions and standards never really match to mine. finns are tbh kinda raised to be cold and they have to be well educated. oh boy if you only would’ve heard all the things they have told me after i have told them that i wanna make a living out of singing and acting and writing! - well the expensive things that i mentioned and the lack of halloween :-( - also if you wanna make it big, like international-big, in the music industry for example, it is very hard to try and do that from here because literally no one either knows that we exist or thinks that we live in igloos and have polar bears in our backyard. also everyone loves sweden more lmao and we hate that. there’s actually a finnish joke ,, we won them in hockey one year with 6-1 and every time we argue with a swedish person… thats always a great comeback, no matter how long its been :-)

PLUS- THINGS;+ we are mostly a very safe country with an amazing president+ free health insurance+ free studying + same sex marriage is approved+ summer is very beautiful if its not raining. especially in the countryside. amazing!!! + finns aren’t over-all bad, for example there is an incredible bond between finns when it comes to extreme finnish stuff, like midsummer drinking, seeing dramatic movies that revolve around finnish history (like war for example, a re-make of an old movie called the unknown soldier just came out and it was intense in the cinema!), hockey victory and this especially!!!! like it doesn’t matter if you hated that guy from your math class, if you two run into each other on a victory night, you fucking hug for three hours because WE FUCKING WON and tbh that is what i find most beautiful in our culture. its cute + ok honestly, just christmas again. finland is the winter wonderland i am telling you!

overall, i enjoy living in finland very much. it is a home and even though i wish to live abroad one day, finland will always be my home!! so if you really wanna move out, i suggest you at least consider finland. we are actually an amazing country. i hope this helped you! XO

#answered

[crownuponherhead]

fdajjlfhadjh ✩ for jimmy and lainey

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DISAGREEMENTS:

Who is more likely to raise their voice? lainey does its just her way of balancing how he towers over her. Who threatens to leave but never actually does? I don’t think either of them would after all this. Who actually keeps their word and leaves? neither. Who trashes the house? ainsley lbr when she would throw a fit and like lainey gets super ugh and fixes everything. Do either of them get physical? never How often do they argue/disagree? I think disagreeing is more often than arguing but they rarely fight. Who is the first to apologise? lainey she feels too terrible still. 

SEX:

Who is on top? Who is on the bottom? they probs switch back and fourth a lot they’re young and in love. Who has the strangest desires? i could see lainey being all about him after a game if it ends too late and she’s just like... you can shower later...with me.Any kinks? tbh idk i mean probs but like idk rn. Who’s dominant in bed?  jimmy. Is head ever in the equation? occasionallyIf so, who is better at performing it? I think they both know each other well enough that there isn’t really a whose better kinda thing.Ever had sex in public? they probs fucked in on of their cars in high schoolWho moans the most? lainey Who leaves the most marks? lainey. Who screams the loudest? L A I N E Y. he probs has to cover her mouth sometimes so they don’t wake up ainsley bc they’re having sex what good parents. Who is the more experienced of the two? they’re equal little angels who've only had each other. Do they ‘fuck’ or ‘make love’? make love but sometimes they fuck. Rough or soft? typically soft. How long do they usually last? I think they make it last bc like its about making up for lost time to them. Is protection used? they learned their lesson in high schoolDoes it ever get boring? no bc they’re in love. Where is the strangest place they’d have sex? hc they have sex in the dugout or something when they come to watch the stars from the  ball field. 

FAMILY:

Do your muses plan on having children/or have children? they have their angel ainsley and more in the future If so, how many children do your muses want/have? I could see lainey being reasonable bc she's been a single parent for so long and is like maybe 1 or 2 more but thats it and jimmy is more like lainey lets have a soccer team. Who is the favorite parent? jimmy bc like ainsley is just so starstruck her daddy is around. Who is the authoritative parent? lainey she got used to it and its hard for her to relax and realize its not just her parenting now. Who is more likely to allow the children to have a day off school? I think lainey would when it comes to going to games and going to visit him when he’s training and jimmy would more to surprise her or lainey. Who lets the children indulge in sweets and junk food when the other isn’t around? jimmy omg can u just imagine lainey coming home to them eating a dozen donuts and she’s like  ????Who turns up to extra curricular activities to support their children? they’re both at every single event they're so proud and her number one fans. Who goes to parent teacher interviews? they both try to but it’s usually lainey because he’s at a game or getting ready for one during a lot of themWho changes the diapers? Who gets up in the middle of the night to feed the baby? jimmy probably does a lot when they have another baby because he didn’t get that with ainsley. Who spends the most time with the children? I think they try to balance it out they love them so much. Who packs their lunch boxes? lainey. Who gives their children ‘the talk’? its a joint conversation where they use themselves as a life lesson of teen pregnancy. Who cleans up after the kids? lainey she hates the house being messy. Who worries the most? lainey she gets anxiety when any of the kids are sick.Who are the children more likely to learn their first swear word from? jimmy he’s around all those baseball players all the time. or tbh one of the players when they’re on the field after a game. 

AFFECTION:

Who likes to cuddle? they both do it’s a really natural thing for them both. Who is the little spoon? lainey. Who gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places? I think it depends on the situation tbh bc they both do a lot. Who struggles to keep their hands to themself? I could see it being jimmy. like just wanting to have her in his arms or like hold her hand just like she's there still. How long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable? probably awhile because they’re constantly moving and being cute just like trying to be with each other. Who gives the most kisses? jimmy. What is their favourite non-sexual activity? tbh just like simple things. lainey loves when he helps her do things like the laundry or when he helps her cook dinner. and he loves it when she gets involved with what he loves like I feel like ever since they’ve been in high school she’d play baseball with him for fun and he’d get some practice it. tbh just making the other happy Where is their favourite place to cuddle? the couch or bed.Who is more likely to playfully grope the other? maybe both of them?? I wanna say him but I could see her doing it too. How often do they get time to themselves? not often a lot of times it after Ainsley's gone to bed or someone is watching her. 

SLEEPING:

Who snores? probs jimmy. Do they share a bed or sleep separately? they share a bed and they’re precious. If they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart? together they spent too long apart. Who talks in their sleep? I could see lainey talking in her sleep. What do they wear to bed? lainey probs wears his t shirts and a pair of socks and he probs is a shirtless sleeper but maybe I just like kJ’s abs. Are either of your muses insomniacs? lainey is when ainsely’s sick for sure. Can sleeping pills be found by the bedside? I don’t think so. Do they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side? they curl together they’re so in love. Who wakes up with bed hair? jimmy. Who wakes up first? lainey so she can make breakfast. Who prepares breakfast in bed for the other? I can see jimmy doing it for lainey on random days like to treat her. What is their favourite sleeping position? spooning with room in their bed for ainsley if she has a nightmare. Who hogs the sheets? lainey. Do they set an alarm each night? lainey does for sure. Can a television be found in their bedroom? I think so like so they can watch movies and cuddle in bed. Who has nightmares? lainey has nightmares about ainsley being sick they’re repetitive and she’s had them since ainsley was a baby and jimmy just calms her down when she has them and walks with her to Ainsley’s bedroom to prove she's okay and lainey falls back to sleep. Who has ridiculous dreams? jimmy. Who sprawls out and takes up most of the bed? jimmy. Who makes the bed? lainey. What time is bed time? it varies. Any routines/rituals before bed? lainey moves all the decorative pillows to a chair on the side. Who’s the grumpiest when they wake up? jimmy when he wake sup to Lainey’s alarms. 

WORK:

Who is the busiest? lainey. she’s got school, work, and still has old habits of being a single mom. Who rakes in the highest income? jimmyAre any of your muses unemployed? I think lainey probably is for awhile when they move. Who takes the most sick days? lainey. she takes a sick day anytime ainsley’s sick.  Who is more likely to turn up late to work? jimmy. lainey is too precise. Who sucks up to their boss? tbh jimmy. What are their jobs? jimmy is a mlb player and lainey is trying to be a nurse. Who stresses the most? L A I N E YDo your muses enjoy or despise their careers/occupations? jimmy loves his, lainey knows she had to do this to provide for ainsley so jimmy could follow his dreams. Are your muses financially stable? together yes. 

HOME:

Who does the washing? lainey. Who takes out the trash? jimmy. Who does the ironing? lainey. Who does the cooking? lainey with his help sometimes. Who is more likely to burn the house down just trying? I don’t think either of them are. Who is messier? jimmyWho leaves the toilet roll empty? jimmyWho leaves their dirty clothes on the floor? ainsley and jimmyWho forgets to flush the toilet? Ainsley. Who is the prankster around the house? oohhhh Idk. Who loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere? lainey Who mows the lawn? jimmy. Who answers the telephone? omg does anyone have landlines???Who does the vacuuming? I think they take turns. Who does the groceries? laineyWho takes the longest to shower? laineyWho spends the most time in the bathroom? lainey

MISCELLANEOUS:

Is money a problem? for lainey when they aren’t together yes. when they’re together no. How many cars do they own? two probs, Lainey’s old Jeep Liberty and whatever jimmy drives. Do they own their home or do they rent? Lainey’s house is rent free and an old family home that her great aunt and great uncle built and wanted to keep in the family. you know one that is completely payed off besides utilities. Do they live near the coast or deep in the countryside? I mean like they’re a good 3 hours from the ocean. Do they live in the city or in the country? suburbs/city. Do they enjoy their surroundings? I think its a nice balance of being what they grew up in but away from their small town. What’s their song? god they’re so cheesy it’s probs some Taylor Swift song from when she still did country. What do they do when they’re away from each other? they try not to be away from each other after they get back together. when they are theres a lot of FaceTime. Where did they first meet? I mean small town probs like elementary schoolHow did they first meet? romantically their best friends were dating and made them double date. Who spends the most money when out shopping? lainey probably does but its mostly on Ainsley. Jimmy probably has to talk her to getting something for herself a lot. Who’s more likely to flash their assets? jimmy. Who finds it amusing when the other trips over? Jimmy. Any mental issues? lainey gets anxiety from ainsley’s chronic asthmaWho’s terrified of bugs? ainsleyWho kills the spiders around the house? lainey does she got used to it. Their favourite place? the ball field at their old high school . Who pays the bills? lainey wants to be independent bc she left him not the other way but jimmy sneaks around her a lot. Do they have any fears for their future? lainey is scared he’ll get tired of her. jimmy is scared she’ll leave again. Who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner? jimmy. Who uses up all of the hot water? lainey. Who’s the tallest? jimmyWho’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other? jimmy. Who wanders around in their underwear? lainey does in their room. Who sings the loudest when singing along to the radio? lainey. What do they tease each other about? old things they did in high school that they cringe about now. Who is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times? laineyDo they have mutual friends? yeah old high school friends. Who crushed first? they both did. Any alcohol or substance related problems? no. Who is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am? they would together on date nights. Who swears the most? jimmy. 

#jimmy&lainey #I hope agree with these !!! #theres so many #livwrites

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Collection of notes

17.02.2021 at 10:02

so what i wanted to say before initially

is that i read the letter

and was wondering if its still relevant

ok so my response letter its so in heat of the moment and gross but whatever. i wanna share before ur travels and not think about it

i think i have feelings for you too big time but im hella damaged and have big problems w trust so its hard to accept any thoughts of them. i literally cant stop thinking about u and it burns in my chest when i do

its recent, like 2 weeks. always thought im totally tripping out and were totally chill but like bro when i went to take that covid test the other day thats when i realised that it might be a fucking problem cuz i literally felt empty inside w out u and im soso scared sooooo scared of being ok with "feelings" and its really goddamn hard to talk about them as well for me but lets see what happens in the next month

slight overview of damage: the more i open up the more distant i get usually. i've always felt im not worthy of anything good in life and im rotten throughout and its my "destiny" to lean how to give myself away to """"god"""" and reach enlightenment through my own methods

i think all comes from my relationship with my mom which i need to fix before being capable of love cuz ive felt my whole life like i have no idea what it is as i think my mother does not know either. so its been my plan all along to try and learn to love my mother on this trip and forgive her (my whole life i ive been dealing with trauma from my dad so new level now spiritually)

it completely quiet in estonia so my mind is racing but whatever

our souls are connected forever and i feel a very strong connection to u and ur very good to me or just are good

18.02.2021 at 08:15

i love you so fucking much. everytime i look at you or think of you i feel blessed. writing these letters im not sure you even exist anymore. (having flashbacks of i love dick :D)

and i relate with everything you've said

i'm honestly very very very confused as well with these things so don't be scared to move at your own pace and trust yourself first..? there's nothing to prove and we both are free and i dont need you to give me anything you dont want to. everything

at the right place right time. i feel lucky?

on the topic of trust... you are the first person in my life i've connected with only based on my gut feeling. i overthink a lot, but with you i havent had the need to. in the past i would change a lot for a person, but with you i've only gone deeper within and it's gotten me to a point where i have you and for the first time i feel ready and i dont want to distance myself to avoid getting hurt and im totally okay with being completely honest with you. the feeling of trust came very naturally but it's still scary. usually i search for understanding and i always feel i never get it but with you its so different, i dont think about it. i've never actually realised before now that it's trust i've struggled with and it makes sense with every part of my life. trusting myself with my art, trusting others with myself. again, coming back to my upbringing-it defo makes sense cuz i've never trusted my mother

it's defo a strange point in our timeline but im glad we've talked about these things and opened up more

please have a safe flight, i cant wait u to be in nyc already and defo call me i miss u so

15.03.2021 at 01:00

i just remembered that i almost gave away my room away in july and cuz i was so depressed wanted to stay in estonia. found a new person but she literally cancelled like a week before i came back to uk and my init

2:42 am

literally i cant sleep and am spiralling so hard. yesterday i found this voice memo from my dads bday in the summer where my mom got super depressive/manic and is crying and im talking with her and i cant get the fucking sounds out of my head and honestly im shocked i even recorded it. my whole childhood was literally spent by her facing the window in our kitchen, not showing her face and crying and later locking herself up in the bathroom and i literally got the whole thing recorded and its so painful to listen

ugh i cant fall back asleep, spiralling so hard. yesterday i found this crazy voice memo from summer, dads bday where my mom got super manic and i had recorded it and found it yesterday. listened to the whole thing a couple times and now its stuck in my head like some random song. i'll play it to u one day, it's literally my 9-18yrs explained in that recording. my thoughts are rapidly shifting between that voice memo and you, i literally spent the whole day thinking about you.

i once dreamt that i needed to speak to my mother, grabbed her by her shoulder to turn around to see her face but she kept turning around and had no face, only hair. i never saw her face and this one time when i was stoned, i was trying to remember her face and couldnt. now realising that maybe it was because of these moments

19.03.2021 at 10:42

i love you so fucking much i love you i love you i love you so mich i love you i love you i love u love u i love you i love you i love you so much i love you so much im in love woth you i miss you im in love with you im in love with you l love you i love you im in love with you im in love with you i love you i love you im in love im in love love i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you so i love you so i love you so much i love you so much i love you i love you i think i really love you i love you so much its hard to breathe and i think i really love you and it feels great to really say it to you

20.03.2021 at 17:12

love u so fucking much coumba honestly i hope youll have an amazing day. im gonna go offline for a bit 

had a really strange dream, really mundane. took the metro home from some festival and was living in my grandmas apartment again and elevator was broken so had to take the stairs. but it was super slow and dramatic. on my way up (the apt is on 6th floor) i over heard my neighbour family fight and i left the door open to overhear what the topic was and they were yelling at their child? 

i crave physical touch

hey hope ur being productive!! goddamn, ive just been writing and reading the whole day and figuring out this creative block situation/ why am i so triggered by work. found the right stuff to read and feeling full of life again. hope u are too

hope you're not second guessing me for getting sad yesterday. im feeling fucking crazy and it might be cause im starting my period. i keep rereading your letter. 

26.03.2021 at 19:21

bless you

ur so nice to me

had a walk and it was really refreshing. feeling better but have so many anxieties that sometimes i just explode

i fucking love u too. sometimes its like ur my lifes worth of care i never 

sometimes i feel like my lifes worth of good is coming to my life through you

......ur so nice to me....honestly i love u too so much..... i think it might be bc of full moon but im just like a total wreck today :D thanks for hearing me out before. and yes i'm excited to see whats waiting for me in london!! 

in other news -.... called me rude and an egomaniac bc i told her i was depressed and feeling xtremely anxious blabla basically overview of what i told u today so will postpone thinking about countryside stuff. feeling like shit again lolzzzzzz bc of it.... we were supposed to go together with misha but misha cancelled right so im not really in a hurry which she knew and wished me a happy trip back to london. like whenever she doesnt get what she wants she goes off but i mean i do understand that im being an asshole as well so its like the perfect way to end this day

baah mh im just gonna rant here u dont even have to respond :D but i used to be really really selfless growing up and my parents always bring it up that i let my friends use me lol and ive been hella defensive abt it always bc i never knew how intense it was?. friends literally always came first and i kinda repressed my true self bc of embarrassment etc etc and two years ago it slowly started morphing into hurt and disappointment idk why i expected sth back (now i dont thats prolly why im super self centred and delusional as well i guess) so like after all this shit when im like yo having a hard time i get called a fucking egomaniac... i think im tired and honestly the fact that im getting along w evert so well makes me so happy but yeah since eliann is horrible at expressing emotions its harder 

31.03.2021 at 20:20

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02.04.2021 at 14:24

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11.04.2021 at 12:54

i really reaally love you

13.04.2021 at 21:53

have said this before but im drunk AGAIN and will say this AGAIN that i think ur amazing 

14.02.2021 at 01:46

im in love w u