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carminasiderum · 7 years

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Sao/Echidna plot stuff from discord

Before this, Sao was getting teased about crushing on Echidna, Balance blabbed something about her crush on Amelia, and then this happened.

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[10:21 AM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: sits on the tip of the arrowhead of her Voyager brooding. [10:22 AM] Star: Echidna: comes in ten minutes later and just watches her from the entrance [10:30 AM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: can feel eyes on her but doesn't move [10:31 AM] Star: Echidna: thinks it over for a moment before climbing up and sitting next to her, staying quiet, figuring Sao'll talk about it if she wants to [10:36 AM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: Why do you stay? If not becuase of me, then why? Surely you have other things to do back home.(edited) [10:37 AM] Star: Echidna: is quiet for a moment Just waiting until I get my orders to go after Chantal, I guess [10:41 AM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: You guess? I thought your people didn't make guesses [10:43 AM] Star: Echidna: just stays quiet [10:45 AM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: I just...i wish people would stay out of my business. I keep my feelings quiet for a reason. [10:46 AM] Star: Echidna: Have you tried telling them that? [10:46 AM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: They're a nosy bunch. Balance knows, but you heard what he said. [10:47 AM] Star: Echidna: just nods [10:50 AM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: So, yeah. I just... I have rotten luck when it comes to who I have feelings for... she looked at Echidna with wide eyes and spoke quickly Not that i have feelings outside of friendship for you I just...Balance bringing up how I felt about Amelia just brought up all these shitty memories. [10:51 AM] Star: Echidna: nods [10:58 AM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: You're lucky. You'll never get to feel what heartbreak is. [10:58 AM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: I've felt it too many times. [11:00 AM] Star: Echidna: looks at her for a moment .....I'll listen if you want to talk about it... Granted she won't know what the hell to say but the offer's out there [11:09 AM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: sighs heavily and lays back, arms behind her head. First man I fell in love with only wanted me for my body. My first girlfriend cheated on me, with her cousin. that was a hellova scandal. sighs and then...Amelia...I thought that'd be it...that I could have something great with someone wonderful. But she was still reeling from her asshole ex and i didn't want to feel like I was pressuring her into anything by admitting my feelings, and I wasn't sure if I could handle the rejection. And then...when I finally thought I could confess...she tells me she's dating Tsurugi... [11:13 AM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: so caught up in her memories she forgets she's talking to Echidna And now...my current crush doesn't even have emotions...there's no way things would work out... [11:14 AM] Star: Echidna: slowly reaches out to rest her hand over Sao's I see.... [11:14 AM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: feels the contact, hears the voice, remembers what she said and who she's talking to. Goes red. But doesn't move her hand [11:16 AM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: speaks quietly So...yeah...I've got worse luck than Garu it seems. [11:19 AM] Star: Echidna: stays quiet, she has absolutely no idea what to say [11:20 AM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: sighs and pulls her hand away just forget I said anything... [11:22 AM] Star: Echidna: Are you sure? [11:22 AM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: ... [11:27 AM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: Doesn't matter if you forget it or not. You have no emotions, and unlike Naga, you don't want them. [11:29 AM] Star: Echidna: .... moves to hop down, looking back up at Sao We'll just have to see won't we? [11:31 AM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: sits up and looks at Echidna with some confusion [11:32 AM] Star: Echidna: just leaves it at that and goes to check on things on her ship [11:33 AM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: when Echidna is gone Sao groans and flops onto her back again [12:14 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: A few minutes later, she climbs down from her Voyager and goes to seek out Amelia [12:15 PM] Star: Amelia: is sprawled out on the couch on the bridge reading [12:22 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: Hey...can we talk somewhere private? I've got a lot on my mind. [12:24 PM] Star: Amelia: blinks Yeah sure sets her book aside and stands up [12:25 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: leads her to a currently unused room and makes sure it's shut before telling Amelia about her conversation with Echidna [12:27 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: So...now I'm just confused... [12:27 PM] Star: Amelia: I could try to talk to her to get her to explain? [12:29 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: Do you honestly think it will help? I mean...It's not like I have the greatest luck in the universe when it comes to relationships [12:31 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: And I don't want to make it seem like in forcing her into anything... if she doesn't want me she doesn't want me... I have to live with that [12:32 PM] Star: Amelia: I dunno I just thought I'd offer.... [12:37 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: I know...but really look at my track record. In the end what I want and what I feel doesn't matter. and at this point she's holding back tears [12:39 PM] Star: Amelia: hugs Sao [12:40 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: as soon as Amelia hugs her Sao is openly crying I just...i can't win. I know we have bigger things to worry about than my love life but I can't help but see everyone around me and wonder if there's something wrong with me... [12:43 PM] Star: Amelia: I wish I could help but I don't know what to do.... [12:44 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: ....sometimes you can't fix what's broken... [12:47 PM] Star: Amelia: pulls back to give her a flat stare Hey you're not broken, okay? I may not know how to help but I know that much boops her nose [12:48 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: smiles a little, but it doesn't quite reach her eyes [1:20 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: I just...even Garu, who has the shittiest luck out of all of us, has Lucky... [1:21 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: I don't want to seem like I'm pressuring Echidna...but I want to talk to her again. [1:22 PM] Star: Amelia: Then do that, explain you're not trying to pressure her. [1:23 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: I.... sighs okay. [10:37 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: A few hours and a nap later, Sao makes her way to Echidna's ship [10:38 PM] Star: Echidna: is sitting on the boarding ramp fiddling with her communicator [10:40 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: stops a couple feet away Hey... [10:40 PM] Star: Echidna: looks up, setting the device down How long have you been there? [10:42 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: I just got here. her usual confident demeanor is gone, replaced with uncharacteristic nervousness [10:44 PM] Star: Echidna: stands up and makes her way over What's wrong? [10:45 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: looks up at Echidna I... sighs I can't do this she turns away [10:46 PM] Star: Echidna: Do what? [10:47 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: spins back around This! Coming here. Talking to you again after what happened earlier! I just I don't even know what I want to say! [10:49 PM] Star: Echidna: looks at her for a long moment Take as long as you need to figure it out.... [10:54 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: sighs heavily I do want to say this. Whatever I feel, I won't force it on you. I respect who you are, hell, sometimes I'm jealous of you, but in the end, you're my friend before you're my crush and what you want matters more in the end. [10:54 PM] Star: Echidna: Jealous? How come? [10:56 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: When I feel, I feel it strongly, and some days I wish I didn't feel a damn thing. It would be better than having to deal with the constant heartache of loving people who don't love you back the way you'd like them to [11:00 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: sighs But, I'm not like you, and I can't shut off my emotions at the drop of a hat. So, I stay silent, and I suffer, and I love and I hate and I experience emotions while trying not to let them show [11:01 PM] Star: Echidna: tilts her head as she listens [11:04 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: And I promised myself, after Amelia, I wouldn't let myself fall for anyone else. But damnit, you had to show up. You had to needle your way into my life and my heart with your infuriatingly cold personality and your bluntness and how ridiculously attractive you are and I hate you for it. I hate it because there's no chance you'll ever feel the same and once again I've fucked myself over when it comes to love. [11:05 PM] Star: Echidna: glances away, she's not sure how to respond to that [11:07 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: lets out a frustrated sigh [11:09 PM] Star: Echidna: takes a step forward, looking slightly conflicted about something [11:10 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: just stares at her, a pained and slightly confused expression on her face [11:15 PM] Star: Echidna: very hesitantly raises a hand to brush some of Sao's hair out of her face before slowly leaning in to very lightly brush her lips against the archer's; she knows she'll be in for it if this gets back to the people she works for back home, though [11:17 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: her eyes go wide with shock. She never expected this. And especially not this soon. She had no idea what to do, what to think. Her first thought is to grab Echidna's face and deepen the kiss, but she stays still, she doesn't want to make the assassin feel pressured. [11:19 PM] Star: Echidna: pulls back as soon as she realizes what the heck just happened and looks anywhere but at Sao I... [11:20 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: is red faced. She can't seem to find any words [11:22 PM] Star: Echidna: she can't think of anything to say either, so she just....turns to head back aboard her ship, grabbing her communicator as she goes by [11:23 PM] Ash (theheartsofheroes): Sao: she watches her leave. When the assassin is out of sight and the event had time to process, the archer lets out a tiny giggle before heading back to the base

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poklina · 7 years

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allo it is i, your friendly neighborhood trashy fanfic writer. my favorite things are run in sentences and commas so if those ain’t ur jam u shld prolly click away ANYWAYS this is me falling headfirst into the jimon hole and rewriting the evolution of their relationship through jace’s eyes. its not great but i really like it hope u do too.

Jace had officially had it with all of them.

4 months ago, he was just a regular Shadowhunter with a killjoy brother and annoying sister that really liked killing demons together. It was comfortable, accountable, dependable. Jace knew that every day, he'd wake up, he'd train with Alec, he'd make fun of whatever skintight leather outfit Izzy was wearing that day, they'd go out on a mission, come back, fall asleep, rise and repeat. The inanity of it all was starting to get a little monotonous, but a little Downworld revolt would've spiced it up just enough.

But of course, Clary fucking Fray had to come in and take his perfect little bubble and pop it as violently as she could.

Now the Circle is back in action, the Mortal Cup is lost but for real this time, Alec is dating a warlock, Izzy is acting really weird, and the whole Institute has basically gone to shit.

And don't even get him started on the calamity that is Simon Lewis.

Not even 2 days after Jace met him, he had to go and get himself kidnapped by the vamps. And then he'd started calling Clary every 5 fucking minutes like she didn't have anything better to do than to talk to him.

And then of course, he shows up on the doorstep in Raphael's arms, dead.

When Raphael told Clary the 2 options, there was ever any doubt in Jace's mind. For some reason, even though he could barely stand the idea of Simon Lewis living forever, the first thought in his mind was "I need more time." That shocked him. More time for what? More time to yell at Simon, to groan and growl every time he got his ass kidnapped? More time to watch how he talked with his hands when he started rambling on about something or another, or how he looked at Clary and how Jace wanted Simon to look at him like that...

Yea, Jace beat that train of thought into the ground with amazing speed.

Anyways, Simon turned into a vamp and somehow had become 10x more annoying than when he was just a regular Mundane.

Shadowhunting-wise, life had calmed down. Valentine was still fucking shit up with astounding speed, but now they knew how to deal with it, and with Aldertree essentially kicking him out of the institute, Jace didn't have much to do with his days anymore except for go to Hunters Moon and flirt with Seelies until they came back to Magnus' with him.

Jace is very good at ignoring that all of the one he brought back had brown hair and brown eyes.

Life was easy for a while there. Of course, a while in Shadowhunter time is like, 3 days, so Jace honestly should've seen the oncoming shitstorm that was about to hit.

First Clary hooks up with Simon, and while he's trying to tell himself that is Simon he's jealous of, his mom throws a fucking axe at his head. Great. Just another Tuesday. The rest of the party goes pretty well, with the exception of the cheating bastard that is-was-his father, so Jace checks it off as a night that wasn't wholly terrible.

Clary goes into "hiding" with her boyfriend, and Jace is amazed at just how incompetent this guy is, and also at how nice his abs are-

Once again, whack-a-mole-with-thoughts comes out in its full raging glory, and it isn't until Clary's hand starts turning black that he can actually fully focus.

So now they have to go find this Madzie kid, and Jace really didn't want Simon to come because he's already having enough trouble and driving around New York with a guy you definitely are not interested in but also like to admire from afar does not sound like how he wants to spend his evening. But of course he comes, and of course he trades Jace's leather jacket for some ribbon that might not even be hers, and of course he's right.

He's always infuriatingly right.

So, the rest of the evening goes off without a hitch. He see his piece of shit dad again, gets the kid back to Clary, and boom, they're done.

That is until Clary gets pulled to God knows where by that little kid.

Jace probably could've stopped her. He should've stopped her. But his mind was preoccupied with "Thanks...for everything." What is everything? Because the only thing the vamp should be thanking him for is saving his girlfriend, and he already did that, so what is everything?

It runs like a broken record in his mind all the way up until Valentine's got an arm around Simon's neck because he's so infuriatingly stupid and selfless and why the fuck did he have to go and fall for a guy that puts his neck on the line every 5 fucking minutes-

And then he's gone.

Jace runs on autopilot all the way until Dot tells him that if he touches the Sword, it'll destroy it and take him with it, and he'll be damn if that isn't best news he's gotten all week.

Luke takes him to the Institute after promising 101 different ways that he won't touch the Sword but doesn't intend to keep them, and for some reason Clary is there when they get there. And Raphael’s got her by the neck. And this is going to get very bad very fast if they don't do something right now.

Luke convinces them to let Clary and Magnus (why is he here too?) go, and since everybody is so keen on hearing what the fuck Clary has planned, Jace isn't really listening when she says what happened until the words "Simon" and "hurt" come out of her mouth. Honestly, he's not surprised, but they way she said it made his stomach fall out from under him.

And then she tells him what Valentine did, and Jace sees red.

Everybody seems to be "concerned" that Jace won't convincingly pull off Clary with the shape shifting rune, but he doesn't hear any of it. Right now, the only thing he pretty much wants to do it tear the Institute doors from their hinges and slaughter every single fucking Circle member in there.

He makes it in, and there’s a guard on either side of him and then Valentine is stepping out from the shadows and Jace? Jace has never felt more pure, unaltered rage than he did in that moment. He just wants to see Simon, he needs to see Simon because Jace cannot live with himself if Simon dies without ever knowing how much he's screwed Jace over and how much he loves him for that.

Valentine says something about being too late, but the only thing Jace can hear is the roaring of blood in his ears and heavy breathing of someone who is very, very angry.

They take him to Aldertree's office and when they open the door, the floor falls out from under Jace's feet.

Simon is covered in blood. And he's been covered with blood before but not like this. Never like this. It's pulsing out from his throat and staining his lips and hands and arms and everything and for 15 seconds, all Jace can do is stare.

Then the coppery tang hits him dead in the face and he runs over to the desk where there's a knife and slits his arm, hoping, pleading, praying that he's not too late.

And of course, Jace had to go and fall for the most kindhearted guy on the planet because even as a vampire who's bleeding out, he still refuses to drink. And goddammit Jace will not let his kindness get in the way of his life so he shoves his arm up against his mouth, barely feeling the tiny huffs of air that are escaping, and Simon finally, finally drinks.

Of all the Seelies in all the world, Jace thinks, I would give them all up for another moment of this.

Because Simon drinks, and as Jace arches into what feels like the best make out session/sex ever, he feels a tear roll down his (Clary's?) face because holy shit. He knew that being bitten was like injecting an aphrodisiac straight into your veins, but this...this is almost a religious experience. Jace can feel the blood leaving his arm and travel down Simon's throat, his Adam's apple bobbing up and down and he is gone. His eyes roll back in his head because he thinks that if he looked at Simon right now, covered in blood and sucking the life from his arm, he'd probably rip it away and kiss him until it was just them and the couch and the dim lamplight, Valentine be damned. Dimly, he can feel Simon grabbing his arm as he goes deeper and deeper into his vein, and Jace's vision is completely shot at this point because the only thing he can see in his minds eye is Simon on his arm, Simon taking everything from him, Simon being the opposite of who he normally is and he is loving every single millisecond he spends on his arm. There is not enough time in the world nor words in English to describe exactly how Jace was feeling, but the 2 closest ones would have to be fucking orgasmic.

And then its over. Jace feels Simon being pulled away from him and he slips back to the couch, breathless and tired and absolutely ready for more. He feels the rune slipping him back to his actual body, and when he looks up at Simon with lidded eyes and sagging hands, the thing he sees is horror.

They get out of the office with minimal difficulty, and as they travel down the hall Simon just keeps talking. And he won't stop. He's babbling on about how he's felt blood thirst before but "never that bad" and how he's "really sorry" and if that isn't just the end of his patience.

"I would've killed you."

"I would've let you."

Because he would've. Jace didn't, doesn't and still does not know exactly what this vampire did to him but what he does know is that if Simon were running out of blood Jace would be the first one in line because the thought of Simon dying is something that sent ice crawling through his veins, and he almost lost him tonight and when Simon pulled away Jace swore to himself that he would never, ever let it happen again.

But this thick-headed, pretty-eyes vampire will still not stop talking about rescuing him from "actual death" as if Jace wouldn't have done it a thousand times over and Jace just wants him to stop. So he tells him to shut up and amazingly he does. For once in his life, Simon listened to him, and in that moment he could die a happy man no matter what came next.

#jimon #abloodneed #dearestalec #claryfightwood #pleas dont hate me im just trying to feed my families so #yea theres this flaming trashheap #imma write a touch starved jace oone next soz #my fic

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